i don't want to go to school..

i don't want to go to school. i want to rest and relax.. i want a time-out.. i want to rest, rest, rest, rest, rest, rest..
anyway, what can i do? tomorrow is monday again and i have to face the horrible fact that i do not know what to do in that bloody biology homework [report sheet.. wahtever you want to call it.]

a double sheeesh.. we have a quiz in soc. scie tomorrow, right? bloody hell -- i've no idea what it's all about! then on tuesday we have another quiz in soc. scie and on wednesday a quiz on my favorite subject -- math.
howdy-har-har i'm really going to enjoy this week [NOTE: i'm sarcastic]

i had this weird dream.. actually, it's about school and it's full of tomfoolery! the itsy-bitsy problem is that i forgot the story.. i just know that it's about school and one of the characters is MACKEE! [hi mackee... :) ]

let's see.. there's this song that's whirling in my head.. it's from orson.. take this..
....... casue your a psycho bitch from hell.. it's already over.. if i stay here i'd only make you cry.. it's already over...
i do not know the full lyrics but i'm going to download it. it's cute and i like it.
currently, i'm downloading this neat song of new found glory [try this.. i like this!!!!] 'The Goodbye Song.' it's ultra-neat! believe me! anyway, if you know it already.. share my fondness of this song.. :)

guys.. can you give me more songs to download? from new found glory.. paramore.. story of the year.. static x.. anyone.. i'm really bored and i think downloading is -- fun.

hmm.. let's see.. ok.. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! my brother can't use the computer and his PS2 and his PSP because he's -- GROUNDED!!!! until MARCH!!!!!

so, i could use my dad's computer all day long [i'm using my dad's or my mom's computer because i do not have any internet connection in my laptop.. :c] anyway.. BRAVO!!!! i could stay here forever and nobody's going to bother me! hahahahahaha!
the only problem is -- when i get too bored using the computer.. i can't use the PSP or PS2 because it's his.. and i have to beg so that i could borrow it.. [what sweet siblings we are..]
lalalalala.. so that gives me another reason of wanting to stay here at home! i feel like flying.. i am sooo happy.. :)) lalalalalala lalalalalala..
how can i be so weird??

did i mention that today is my parents 16th wedding anniversary..? i don't know where they're goint to treat us.. as long as it has food -- fine. i'm ok with it.
oh my god!! 16yrs???? 16 yrs????? which means i'm turning 15!!!!! i'm toooo OLD!!!! i don't want to be old! i want to be 12!! i can't believe i'm turning 15 -- i can't believe i'm still immature and naive and juvenile and puerile and -- innocent? [ok.. i'm not that innocent.. i play pranks and i think it's not so.. innocent] waaaaaaah!!!! i''m getting old!!! im getting old! ok -- now i really have to be on a diet! i can't stay as a fatso forever! i'm going to be on a diet. now.

hmm.. help me god.

P.S. can you 'tag-along' [get it? 'tag'-along?? hahahaha! ok it's corny..] anyway, write anything in that cute tagboard over there.. smile..

long live the queen..

what is wrong with me?!

whoooo.. its been a very long week.. honestly. since monday started, i was really praying that God would make the day go by faster.. and.. today's the day i've been waiting for! I LOVE YOU GOD!
anyway, to prove my extreme stupidity i'm going to share my 'glorious' grades.. for math.. i had a 'wonderful' and 'smashing' 76%!! hows that? i still think i did my best during the exam.. so.. there..
.. i dont want to share my other grades.. they're too freakin' annoying.
anyway, what happened today?
don't wanna talk about GG.. it was a total fiasco.
ok.. since im talking about it already, might as well explain everything..
we are talking about re-shuffling.. it was a total disasster. so, we talked about it.. yidih-yach-yach-blah-blah-blah.. then we talked about teachers day
i forgot what ms suico said but i replied, 'eh di dagdagan na lng ung sweldo.'
NO HARM MEANT!! my intention was good.. well, i think ms suico got offended.. i told her my basic reasons.. my first reason is -- ung time.. hello, 10 minutes lng un noh! panoh mpapakita ung mga gus2 ntin mpakita kung 10 minutes lang? diba? tas my second reason -- ung repapips mkakatulong ky miss kahit papano.. i mean, may anak xa, dba? so, khit maliliit na halaga lng ung ibigay nten, mlaki ng tulong un! un lng nman un eh.. no offense meant..

so, i explained my two main points to ms suico and she said it was ok.. pra lng daw dun sa pag-sasalita ko or something.. but, i listened to her side.. eh di na-realize ko na may pagkakamali din ako kahit gooooood ung intention ko.. anyway, it was SOLVED. wag ng CHIPOS.. ok? hahahaha!

let me see..
what are the juicy good good things to talk about? mackee? mackee?? hahahaha.. she might explode from anger so i'd rather shut up..

hmmmmm.. let me just go back about the re-shuffling thing.
i don't like to be res-shuffled.
no way.
if a teacher is reading this, take a look at my math grade.. its 76 already!!! do you guys want that to be.. uhm.. 54???
it would be if we're re-shuffled! if i'm re-shuffled!!!
i mean how can you call your school a 'second' home if you're not at peace with your 'family' inside that classroom.. are you guys getting my point? I AM AT HOME WITH THE II-1 CLASS SO I DON'T LIKE TO BE RE-SHUFFLED.
i'm speaking for my class.
i'm speaking for my friends.
i'm speaking for all the sophomores.
i'm speaking for the youth.. [xet.. kakandidato ba ako????? teka.. serious na ulet..]
anyway, my voice is one of the voices who are speaking and telling everyone that 'NO TO RE-SHUFFLING!'

that's all.. bow..

P.S. LAHAT NG NAG-BASA NETO.. SULAT KAYO TAGBOARD KO..
P.P.S chezca.. tnx sa tagboard.. lab u..

long live the queen..

i didn't get to write yesterday..

firstly.. to all those who found my super-naive brother -- thank you. really, saying 'thank you' is not enough.. but, that's all i can do now..
to those who didn't go to interconnect yesterday, let me tell you the traumatic event that i've experienced..
it started out innocently.. we were walking towards the stage and i was so happy and excited.. then, i went to starbucks and bought mocha frap for myself and a frap for my brother [i just forgot what flavor i bought for him..] so, i returned and gave him his frap.. i asked him if he wanted to go with me becasue i'm going to socialize with my classmates.. he said 'no.' i asked him if he wanted to talk to some of his former classmates, he said 'no.'
so, very much contented -- i went to socialize with the other ii-1 people.. to rona, mika.. etc. etc.. we started talking pictures and it was damn fun.. then niccolo went to me, i admit i was f**kin' rude to him.. anyway, i regret that now .. honestly!
where was i?
oh yeah -- he went to me and asked for my phone [he's battery was dead.. R.I.P.], i gave it to him and i lost more than a hundred pesos [huh? is this right? no idea.] worth of load.. and then, i asked him what happened.. he walked out.. so i shrugged and returned to the pictorials.
a little while later, i got the sudden urge to pee and go around.. i told him to stay near the stage.. NEAR THE F**KIN' STAGE!
when i got back -- he was gone.
i was freakin' nervous and fuming mad.
out of frustration.. i cried.. i mean, i was so desperate! dorilie went with me to go look for my brother.. [i was flattered.. she wanted to watch the concert so badly -- yet, she chose to go around me.. i did tell her that if she wants to stay.. it's a-ok for me..]
anyway, rona and her team found niccolo. [thanks a lot!]
i was so nervous that i shouted at niccolo in front of the 'rescuers'.. i didn't intend to humiliate him.. it was just my first instinct becasue i was really really really really really really really really nervous.. i repeat: i didn't intend to humiliate my brother.. i mean, would i panic that much if i didn't care for him?!!

anyway.. thanks to all those who helped me find niccolo.. if you guys didn't find him -- i'm dead meat.

thank you thank you thank you.. babawi din ako sa inyo guys..

dorx.. lab u.. tnx tnx tnx.. babawi tlaga ako sau.. anyway, alam mo ba na sobrang flattered talaga ako sa ginawa mo kagabi? tnx dorx..


long live the queen..

where's the first post i made?!

i clicked 'save to drafts' and the i clicked something and then i clicked 'publish' and then it's gone? where is it? i have no idea where it went..
so, i have to start all over again.. sheesh..

as i was saying.. my brother.. [why am i talking about my family?? first my mom.. now, my brother.. ugh!]
anyway, i'm going to talk about him because he's so good in math.. and all his subjects.. he RARELY studies.. [go, ask my grandma].. he'll just look at his book as if it's a magazine and.. what does he get? HIGH GRADES..
what about me?? ME?
i'll study.. study.. study.. and i still fail.. fail.. fail.. my best in math was an 80.. my usual grades are 75.. 76.. 77..
i mean.. with a 75, my parents get teary-eyed already!! that's how stupid i am!
and -- do you wonder where i get those good grades in my assignments in math? *i hope ms. magcamit is not reading this... i get my good grades from niccolo. i'll often tell him, 'hey.. i've a mind-spinning homework.. gawin mo nga'.. after 15 minutes.. tadaaaah.. instant homework! *ms. magcamit.. i do try to understand the lesson.. i mean, i can understand the lesson if my homework's finished and i scrutinize it. so, i still deserve those grades.. the high ones.. :)
anyway, what's really embarrasing/embarrassing/embarrasing [*shit.. how do you spell that??].. ok.. so, what's really.. annoying.. is that he's younger than me!!! he is younger than me! i mean, he makes my assignment? my younger brother? are you finally getting the picture?

how can my life be so miserable?

where's the bliss? where's the bliss i'm talking about?

ok.. relax.. breathe in.. breathe out.. relax..
relax..
relax..
imagine..
imagine all the people..
living life in peace.

-why am i singing suddenly? so.. ok.. i am going to imagine.. imagine, imagine, imagine.. i'll imagine i'm good in math..
since i'm going to imagine.. i'll say 'ta-ta'.. ciao.. ciao.. ciao.. ciao.. ciao

long live the queen..

.. look at this bliss!!!

hahahahaha..
ok.. so i'm getting weirder and weirder by the minute.. :) what can i do? after all my problems.. here it comes -- complete BLISS!!!! anyway.. i thought i wasn't going to the interconnect whatchamacallit.. there was this argument.. anyway.. I AM GOING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) how happy could i be? *P.S. i might be taking my uber-ok 11 year-old cousin.. is that alright?

haaaaaaaaaay.. what's a tagboard?
i'm sorry for the extreme stupidity i'm showing.. i totally have NO idea what a tagboard is. what's it purpose? what's it for? is it the thing where people will comment on your article? is it? i am so sorry.. i am really sorry.. [xet.. parang kay garci!! gets nyo ba?]

hmpf. here it goes again.. did you know that having a brother who's a total math-psycho makes me feel dumb? YES!! actually, we all know that i am not good in math. i only have passable grades.. a 75, a 76.. that's it.. my best was an 80..
c'mon.. c'mon.. c'mon..
how about my brother?? he doesn't even study and he's in the director's list!!!! what bulls**t!! i am serious. ask my grandma. niccolo doesn't study.. he'll just look at his book like a comic mag and then -- he's done.. that's studying for him.
how about ME? ME?!! i pour on my books like it's the best ones i've seen in this land.. and, i'll just get a 75? how unfair is that?
and do you know where i get my good grades in my bloody math homework? from niccolo.. MISMO.. he's a freshman, mind you.. so, i'll tell him, 'Niccolo, i have this mind-breaking math homework.. gawin mo nga.'.. he'll look at it, and 15 minutes later -- tadaaaah.. instant homework..
let's just hope ms. magcamit doens't read this.. *honestly, ms, i try to understand my homework too..

see what a complete dunce i am?
wait.. wait.. wait.. where's the complete bliss i'm talking about..?

backtrack.. backtrack.. backtrack..
i'm going to be happy..
try.
imagine.
imagine all the people.
living life in peace.
you may say i'm a dreamer..
but, i'm not the only one
i hope someday you'll join,
and the world will lead as one..

how weird can i get?
anyway.. i am serious now.. i'll imagine i'm good in math.. imagine.. imagine.. imagine..

since, i'm going to imagine, i'll say 'ta-ta' for now.. ciao.. ciao.. ciao..
love you guys.. i love the world.. i love god.. i love nora.. i love michelle branch.. even if she abandoned me..

long live the queen..
xoxo..

a tribute to my mom

ok.. ever since this fight, i can't help but think about the good ol' times..

my mom..

before i stepped outside the world, i was connected to my mom.. in her uterus or whatever you call it, anyway.. She suffered for nine months [mind you, i was a large baby].. She endured the cramps and the swelling of well, her.. body..
and.. then.. at March 25.. a porky baby came out of her womb.. they named her 'Rina'..
Well.. My life started.
i was a spoiled bratty kid when i was really young.. [am i still spoiled?].. anyway.. so, i was spoiled and i used to throw tantrums all the time, and it often makes my mom MAD.. when i think about it.. it's my fault.. entirely my fault without an iota of doubt..
what made me happy was the fact that my mom never abandoned me.. she was there when i was down and sad and depressed and lonely and weird. she accepted my 'klutzy' attitude.. she accepted my weirdnes.. she was never humiliated to have an idiotic and eccentric daughter.. she made me feel good even though i feel like the world's [is an apostrophe really necessary here?] most stupid loser.
and what made me feel.. guilty.. and.. ugh.. awkward is that i've been an ungrateful little shit.
my mom will give me something.. i can't even mutter a 'thanks'..
yeah.. i know how ungrateful that sounds..

so..
if my mom ever learns how to open this spot.. good for you.. you're finally accepting the technology of the 21st century..
well.. if you still don't know how.. i am sorry.. but, i can't tell you this face to face.. i still feel gauche and uncertain.. i just want to thank you. even if you are the most ill-tempered person i know.. thanks.


it sounded cheesy.. but.. well.. this is MY tribute and i say whatever i want to say.. right? shit. i am just plain weird. :)

long live the queen...
xoxo..

tnx lourdes :)

here goes my first entry.. first of all, i want to thank LOURDES SABELLINA for giving me the opportunity to have this 'spot'.. tnx.. [hahahahaha. para akong aalis. farewell speech??] anyway, before i get too sentimental in here i want to say that i am damn serious about the 'adopt me' thing.

anyway, with too many problems now, i tend to get annoying.. pardon that extreme bit of attitude i'm showing.. this effing life i have is just plain irritating.. i do not ask for pitying smiles or anything.. i am just showing a little bit more side of my 'private' life.

i am not a very 'private' type of person.. a secret is a secret for me if half of the class knows the.. ugh.. 'secret'.. Don't get the wrong idea, i don't blab secrets. I don't say secrets.. because i believe in trust and confidentiality.
anyway, why is this entitled 'electromagnetosis'? I don't know.. the weirdness came out and.. ugh.. let's just say that i like it..

ok.. GTG.. more tomorrow..
if you could read this.. you have eyes.. xet.. hahahaha...
long live the queen..