Your faded smile strikes me down but I'm not ready at all

The reading slump is TERRIBLE. I'm still on my 3rd novel for the month and it's already October 18, for crying out loud! At this point, I would be happy to finish 5 novels this month. BUT OMG OMG, the book I'm reading (3rd switch for my 3rd novel this month. I am a mood reader and this one feels perfect!) is Agnes Lives! by Hallie Elizabeth Newton and I AM LOVING IT! I feel like she's in the middle of a nervous breakdown and I'm happy enough to join the ride!

Last Tuesday, I had the sudden urge to organize my life (basically, my room) so I went to IKEA the next day and got some of these! I bought like 11 containers for only PHP 1788! It's a steal. It's not enough, though. I still need to buy more

 Then I got the popsocket for my PopSockets case! It's cute!

I'm in need of a new manicure. I got 4 different Sally Hansen nail polishes during our Australia trip (they're only around PHP 300++ each! WHAT A STEAL!) and I'm thinking if I should just apply it on my own. Hmmm

Anyway, so, that's that! I can't believe we're halfway October!!!!!!!

Can a gay girl get an Amen?

It still sucks that I missed 1 week of clinic/OPD when I got sick last month. And I'M STILL SICK TODAY! I have minimal cough (honestly, I think it's from post-nasal drip) but I still have coryza. But, at least I could sleep soundly now. Actually, a lot of my patients these days have a CC of cough, colds, and fever. The flu is WILD. I tell them to always wear their masks because the cough etiquette of MOST people are NONEXISTENT.

Anyway, I'm in a bit of a reading slump ughhhh. It's already Oct. 13 but I'm only on my 3rd novel for the month ughhhhh. Hunger and Thirst was okay but it was draaaaaaagging. It was supposed to be horror but I was able to read it at 1 in the morning, in the dark. It didn't give me anything. 

Right now, I'm trying to finish the Fall Challenge from Goodreads. So, I'm currently reading See You At the Sunset by Susan Lee. It's okay, so far.

Hmmm, what else. Still lost in life. Idk what step to do next for my career. Uggggghhh God please give me a sign!

My God, it's like the weight has been lifted

It was a couple of weeks (days??) ago when Sam's Town by The Killers celebrated their 20 years!!!!!! So, naturally, I'm on The Killers run recently. They're one of my favorite bands and one of the biggest regrets of my life was missing their concert here in the PH back in 2013. In my defense, I was a broke college graduate, lost in life, in my gap year, and I was too shy to ask my parents for money since - hello, I was not working and they did not pressure me to find any work because I was "finding" myself.

ANNNNYWAYYYYY, look at my all time Top Artists, The Killers is my 4th. But look at the difference between my BTS and DCFC plays.  BTS is life for real HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA

Hmmm, so last Sunday, I met up with my college friends (minus Eks and Pao) for Cody's baptism! I can't believe Mariam is now a MOTHER! Parang kelan lang palagi kaming runner na dalawa kasi tamad kami mag-isip pareho HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

Went to Masa Madre first with Nikki for (my 2nd) breakfast before going to church! In Ipponyari, we stayed until the maximum alloted time HAHHAHAHAH and waited for Jason!!! But Nicole and Nikki and Kuya Mar left first because of commitments. It was so fun! We reminisced about college and all our collective and individual experiences! Grabe, can't believe college was 13 years ago! 

Anyway, what a good way to start October!

It's not just you who felt the pain, now tell me where they keep the rain

This is one of the songs that always, ALWAYS makes me cry. It's just so raw and so honest especially knowing Michael Angelakos's thought and emotional process when he wrote and made Gossamer. Mental health is such an emotional subject for me because it's fickle. I mean, it's chemicals and emotions and it's not like an uncomplicated fever where, okay, you take Paracetamol and you're okay. Idk. Emotional and psychological struggles are something I would never downplay. 

On something lighterrrrr, I finished 10 books last month! And, I finished 1 book like around 12 am today.

So, favorite books for September:

1. The Guest by Emma Cline

2. I'm a Fan by Sheena Patel

Disappointing books include:

1. The Safekeep (lesbian soft-core porn basically)

2. Tropesick (the "plot twist" ruined it for me, god damn it. FUCKING GHOST??)

3. Into The Blue (Okay, it's 512 pages of pining. And, JESUS, the push and pull??? As an impatient 34-year-old, it pissed the bejesus out of me. If you're not going to commit, move the fuck on you fucktards??)

ANYWAY, look at what I got today! I bought one for only PHP 650! Support local! It smells good but it doesn't fit my candle warmer. I think I need to buy a bigger candle warmer.

Also, last Wednesday, I bought 2 large brown sugar milk tea at Chatime because there's JJK x Chatime promo. There are only 5 character choices but look at what I got:

Son of a bitch, right? I want Choso or Yuta!!!!

AND OMG OMG AMAZON RELEASED NEW KINDLES TODAY! I'm kind of having buyer's remorse regarding KLC because I really don't like the screen huhuhuhu. I want to buy a new Kindle Colorsoft. I hate myself because it's consumerism at best but I'm really not satisfied with my KLC. ANDDDD it crashes a lot! I mean, is it me? 

This one! I want a colorsoft so bad. If I get a new one, I'll probably sell my KLC. I'm actually trying to sell my KLC for only PHP 10k haha

This one's really cute because it's ube and the best color (and dessert) in the whole world!!!!!! Also, it's oo-be not fucking "oob" you white-washers.

ANYWAY, that's all! HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

If someone's gonna wreck me, believe me, baby that someone's gotta be you

That song is such a BANGER by Jamie Miller featuring MY BABY DOLL LOML ANTONIO CIPRIANO!!!!! God, I love him so much and I can't wait for Off Campus season 2 AND HIS SEASON!!!!!!

Anyway, I had a terrible bout of fever last week and I MISSED 1 WEEK OF CLINIC. I am devastated because I want money HUHUHUHU ANYWAYYYYY, my mom was admitted to the hospital because she had it worse and was really dehydrated. So, I was alone in the house nursing a 39.1ºC fever. I was so late in replying to my friends and when I finally replied to Z I told her I was nursing a low-grade fever and showed her the thermometer with 39.1ºC. She said, "Huh? Low-grade fever? Ang taas kaya nyan!" well tbffffff I was dying but some patients have it worse? Although tbf I may not be a reliable source because when I had COVID back in 2022, my O2 sat dropped to 94 and I told my parents to leave me alone and I don't want to be admitted to the hospital even though I was tachycardic and had SOB HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA. When I got admitted, I was categorized as Moderately-Severe COVID so... I guess I'm an unreliable source?

AND BECAUSE OF THAT 1 WEEK FUNK - I'm only on my 10th novel for the month! UGHHHHH! I am so pissed!

The last book I read and finished (at 1:30 am today) was 200 Monas by Jan Saenz and it was a trippy read! I HAVE A CRUSH ON THE GUY THERE GOSH HAHAHAHAHAHA I can't believe I have a crush on a fictional character in a book. I could honestly say this is the first time it happened in my life. Because, okay, John Logan, LOVE HIM, WOULD DIE FOR HIM, but his character fits Grace Ivers? Like.. Idk, I can't imagine myself pursuing him? Like.. I would have a crush on him from afar and not the obsessive kind of crushes I have HAAHHAHAAHAH But Wolf. God, Wolf. The name is merp but the way he was described as his attitude and characterization, I could imagine a fun and supportive relationship with him, you know? I had to stop reading every now and then because fuuuuck I was biting my lip so hard because OMG I WANT WHAT ARVY'S HAVING PLEASE!!!!!!!!! Anyway, it's not a romance book but it made me feel things HHAHAHAHHAHA

So, currently, I'm reading Into The Blue by Emma Brodie. I read such good reviews about this book and I didn't read the blurb so I'm going in blind. So far so good. I'm just in the part where they're becoming theatre kids? Idk. Hope I finish this by tomorrow!

Love Maze

I'm rewatching my favorite Run BTS episodes! They really make me happy! I honestly wouldn't survive the pandemic if I haven't discovered them.

THEY ARE SO RIDICULOUSLY FUNNY WITHOUT TRYING, DEAR GOD! Actuaaaaaaally, Run BTS is where I fell in love with Yoongi. AHHHH? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! Before Run BTS, syempre Dynamite was my exposure and I found JK reaaaaaaaally, really handsome! Then during Run BTS.. I slowly fell in love with Yoongi.. then all at once. AHH? HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH pero I like his personality there talaga! It was the comic book shop when they were doing ASMR and Jimin was laughing so hard then Yoongi said, "WHY? IS RAMEN FUNNY?" that was the moment! That was my moment na, "Ahhhhhhh teka.. parang eto mahal ko" AHH? HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA but anyway, yes, no regrets. 6 YEARS LATER AND PATAY NA PATAY PA DIN KAY MIN YOONGI NA DI NAMAN ALAM NA NAG EEXIST AKO HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. It's a long time, right? With Zayn, Jared Leto, Brandon Flowers, my other crushes, the obsession usually fade after a few months (years if they're lucky. AWOW??) pero with Yoongi.. hala standing tall padin sya HAHAHAHHAHA

ANYWAY, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEIR CONCERT NEXT YEAR!!!!

Whalien 52

I finished my 78th novel today which is The Guest by Emma Cline. SOLID 4 STARS. I LOVED IT! Especially the very ambiguous ending!

I am currently reading my 79th novel for 2026! It's The Safekeeping by Yael van der Wouden! So far, so good! I feel like I'm going to hate Eva. It's hate at first read but I'm still only on chapter 3 so it's too early to tell.

ANYWAYYYYYYY, it's slut city in Boraland today HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHA

MY GOD JUNGKOOK!!!!! Bitch, when I say I screamed... I SCREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just look at this menace driving us mortals CRAZY!!!!!!!

Plus, gosh, Yoongi the other day:

I mean... I'm all for it and I support them especially if it makes them happy but daaaaaaaamn they are driving me insaaaaane. One Yoongi-Rina-JK sandwich please 🙋🏻‍♀️🤭

Grabe my messages to Jodie were so childish and fangirly like, "Omg I'm dying, TAO LANG AKO MIN YOONGI TAO LANG AKO" HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA I can't wait to see them next year!!!!!

Love For You

I started Love For You around 12 mn today! Song Weilong and Zhang Jingyi are the stars and so far so good. Although, I'm only on episode 2. So far it's... drama. HUHUHUHUHU without giving anything away, I feel so sad for their characters. That is one unhealthy childhood huhuhu

I saw this and I'm just so proud of them especially if it's true????

ANYWAY, I was able to finish my 75th book for the year TODAY! It's a solid 3 stars!

This is my current read. My 76th!

ANYWAYYYYYY, my best reads for August are Jawbone and Fruit Fly! I loved those 2 so much! My only 1-star read was Lift Me Up. It was so.. meh. 

Here's to hoping I get to finish 90 books next month. 90!!!!!!!

I feel like every time it takes less and less to move on with my mind, there's nothing left

Well what a week! I met up with friends last Wednesday and Thursday! Met up with my medstiez on Wednesday and Jonah yesterday! Both times, we ate at Teppanya HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NAWILI

WEDNESDAY DUMP!!!

Went to GH early and had lunch at Genki Sushi all by myself. I missed dating myself!

Theeeeen went to Muji Cafe and waited for my friends to arrive! I was able to finish A Touch of Jen, it's 3 stars for me!

Teppanya with the medstiezzzz

THURSDAY DUMP:

Went to Hoshino Coffee first to chika and so Jones could eat lunch!

The Naoya frustration.. HAHAHHAHA

My God back to back to back Naoya

Photobooth at Timezone!

Teppanya again!

I missed my friends! Should definitely meet up with more haha but ughhh my job's in the way. AWOW??

I'm aimless, heading toward nowhere at the speed of light

I'm on my 73rd book of the year! I'm currently 23% in with A Touch of Jen by Beth Morgan! This is such an interesting read so far and I am HOOKED! I am confident to say that I could finish this in one day IF I don't have ADHD and am not easily distracted. I just want to order seafood boil earlier so I got my phone and then I ended up looking at Le Pliage bags because I want a new one. My mom got me one during med school and it was so USED since it's waterproof and transes easily fit in there. But, honestly.. Idk where I put it. It's lost. My mom wasn't surprised but she harumphed and hmphed. Anywayyy, so I want a new one. Okay, so yeah, I was looking for restaurants that could deliver seafood boil but I ended up in the Rustan's page to look at Le Pliage bags. BUT ANYWAY.. that was 5 hours ago and.. my reading progress got delayed. 

Well, I hope I have the fortitude and discipline to finish it by tomorrow lol