It's not just you who felt the pain, now tell me where they keep the rain

This is one of the songs that always, ALWAYS makes me cry. It's just so raw and so honest especially knowing Michael Angelakos's thought and emotional process when he wrote and made Gossamer. Mental health is such an emotional subject for me because it's fickle. I mean, it's chemicals and emotions and it's not like an uncomplicated fever where, okay, you take Paracetamol and you're okay. Idk. Emotional and psychological struggles are something I would never downplay. 

On something lighterrrrr, I finished 10 books last month! And, I finished 1 book like around 12 am today.

So, favorite books for September:

1. The Guest by Emma Cline

2. I'm a Fan by Sheena Patel

Disappointing books include:

1. The Safekeep (lesbian soft-core porn basically)

2. Tropesick (the "plot twist" ruined it for me, god damn it. FUCKING GHOST??)

3. Into The Blue (Okay, it's 512 pages of pining. And, JESUS, the push and pull??? As an impatient 34-year-old, it pissed the bejesus out of me. If you're not going to commit, move the fuck on you fucktards??)

ANYWAY, look at what I got today! I bought one for only PHP 650! Support local! It smells good but it doesn't fit my candle warmer. I think I need to buy a bigger candle warmer.

Also, last Wednesday, I bought 2 large brown sugar milk tea at Chatime because there's JJK x Chatime promo. There are only 5 character choices but look at what I got:

Son of a bitch, right? I want Choso or Yuta!!!!

AND OMG OMG AMAZON RELEASED NEW KINDLES TODAY! I'm kind of having buyer's remorse regarding KLC because I really don't like the screen huhuhuhu. I want to buy a new Kindle Colorsoft. I hate myself because it's consumerism at best but I'm really not satisfied with my KLC. ANDDDD it crashes a lot! I mean, is it me? 

This one! I want a colorsoft so bad. If I get a new one, I'll probably sell my KLC. I'm actually trying to sell my KLC for only PHP 10k haha

This one's really cute because it's ube and the best color (and dessert) in the whole world!!!!!! Also, it's oo-be not fucking "oob" you white-washers.

ANYWAY, that's all! HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

If someone's gonna wreck me, believe me, baby that someone's gotta be you

That song is such a BANGER by Jamie Miller featuring MY BABY DOLL LOML ANTONIO CIPRIANO!!!!! God, I love him so much and I can't wait for Off Campus season 2 AND HIS SEASON!!!!!!

Anyway, I had a terrible bout of fever last week and I MISSED 1 WEEK OF CLINIC. I am devastated because I want money HUHUHUHU ANYWAYYYYY, my mom was admitted to the hospital because she had it worse and was really dehydrated. So, I was alone in the house nursing a 39.1ºC fever. I was so late in replying to my friends and when I finally replied to Z I told her I was nursing a low-grade fever and showed her the thermometer with 39.1ºC. She said, "Huh? Low-grade fever? Ang taas kaya nyan!" well tbffffff I was dying but some patients have it worse? Although tbf I may not be a reliable source because when I had COVID back in 2022, my O2 sat dropped to 94 and I told my parents to leave me alone and I don't want to be admitted to the hospital even though I was tachycardic and had SOB HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA. When I got admitted, I was categorized as Moderately-Severe COVID so... I guess I'm an unreliable source?

AND BECAUSE OF THAT 1 WEEK FUNK - I'm only on my 10th novel for the month! UGHHHHH! I am so pissed!

The last book I read and finished (at 1:30 am today) was 200 Monas by Jan Saenz and it was a trippy read! I HAVE A CRUSH ON THE GUY THERE GOSH HAHAHAHAHAHA I can't believe I have a crush on a fictional character in a book. I could honestly say this is the first time it happened in my life. Because, okay, John Logan, LOVE HIM, WOULD DIE FOR HIM, but his character fits Grace Ivers? Like.. Idk, I can't imagine myself pursuing him? Like.. I would have a crush on him from afar and not the obsessive kind of crushes I have HAAHHAHAAHAH But Wolf. God, Wolf. The name is merp but the way he was described as his attitude and characterization, I could imagine a fun and supportive relationship with him, you know? I had to stop reading every now and then because fuuuuck I was biting my lip so hard because OMG I WANT WHAT ARVY'S HAVING PLEASE!!!!!!!!! Anyway, it's not a romance book but it made me feel things HHAHAHAHHAHA

So, currently, I'm reading Into The Blue by Emma Brodie. I read such good reviews about this book and I didn't read the blurb so I'm going in blind. So far so good. I'm just in the part where they're becoming theatre kids? Idk. Hope I finish this by tomorrow!

Love Maze

I'm rewatching my favorite Run BTS episodes! They really make me happy! I honestly wouldn't survive the pandemic if I haven't discovered them.

THEY ARE SO RIDICULOUSLY FUNNY WITHOUT TRYING, DEAR GOD! Actuaaaaaaally, Run BTS is where I fell in love with Yoongi. AHHHH? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! Before Run BTS, syempre Dynamite was my exposure and I found JK reaaaaaaaally, really handsome! Then during Run BTS.. I slowly fell in love with Yoongi.. then all at once. AHH? HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH pero I like his personality there talaga! It was the comic book shop when they were doing ASMR and Jimin was laughing so hard then Yoongi said, "WHY? IS RAMEN FUNNY?" that was the moment! That was my moment na, "Ahhhhhhh teka.. parang eto mahal ko" AHH? HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA but anyway, yes, no regrets. 6 YEARS LATER AND PATAY NA PATAY PA DIN KAY MIN YOONGI NA DI NAMAN ALAM NA NAG EEXIST AKO HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. It's a long time, right? With Zayn, Jared Leto, Brandon Flowers, my other crushes, the obsession usually fade after a few months (years if they're lucky. AWOW??) pero with Yoongi.. hala standing tall padin sya HAHAHAHHAHA

ANYWAY, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEIR CONCERT NEXT YEAR!!!!

Whalien 52

I finished my 78th novel today which is The Guest by Emma Cline. SOLID 4 STARS. I LOVED IT! Especially the very ambiguous ending!

I am currently reading my 79th novel for 2026! It's The Safekeeping by Yael van der Wouden! So far, so good! I feel like I'm going to hate Eva. It's hate at first read but I'm still only on chapter 3 so it's too early to tell.

ANYWAYYYYYYY, it's slut city in Boraland today HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHA

MY GOD JUNGKOOK!!!!! Bitch, when I say I screamed... I SCREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just look at this menace driving us mortals CRAZY!!!!!!!

Plus, gosh, Yoongi the other day:

I mean... I'm all for it and I support them especially if it makes them happy but daaaaaaaamn they are driving me insaaaaane. One Yoongi-Rina-JK sandwich please 🙋🏻‍♀️🤭

Grabe my messages to Jodie were so childish and fangirly like, "Omg I'm dying, TAO LANG AKO MIN YOONGI TAO LANG AKO" HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA I can't wait to see them next year!!!!!

Love For You

I started Love For You around 12 mn today! Song Weilong and Zhang Jingyi are the stars and so far so good. Although, I'm only on episode 2. So far it's... drama. HUHUHUHUHU without giving anything away, I feel so sad for their characters. That is one unhealthy childhood huhuhu

I saw this and I'm just so proud of them especially if it's true????

ANYWAY, I was able to finish my 75th book for the year TODAY! It's a solid 3 stars!

This is my current read. My 76th!

ANYWAYYYYYY, my best reads for August are Jawbone and Fruit Fly! I loved those 2 so much! My only 1-star read was Lift Me Up. It was so.. meh. 

Here's to hoping I get to finish 90 books next month. 90!!!!!!!

I feel like every time it takes less and less to move on with my mind, there's nothing left

Well what a week! I met up with friends last Wednesday and Thursday! Met up with my medstiez on Wednesday and Jonah yesterday! Both times, we ate at Teppanya HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NAWILI

WEDNESDAY DUMP!!!

Went to GH early and had lunch at Genki Sushi all by myself. I missed dating myself!

Theeeeen went to Muji Cafe and waited for my friends to arrive! I was able to finish A Touch of Jen, it's 3 stars for me!

Teppanya with the medstiezzzz

THURSDAY DUMP:

Went to Hoshino Coffee first to chika and so Jones could eat lunch!

The Naoya frustration.. HAHAHHAHA

My God back to back to back Naoya

Photobooth at Timezone!

Teppanya again!

I missed my friends! Should definitely meet up with more haha but ughhh my job's in the way. AWOW??

I'm aimless, heading toward nowhere at the speed of light

I'm on my 73rd book of the year! I'm currently 23% in with A Touch of Jen by Beth Morgan! This is such an interesting read so far and I am HOOKED! I am confident to say that I could finish this in one day IF I don't have ADHD and am not easily distracted. I just want to order seafood boil earlier so I got my phone and then I ended up looking at Le Pliage bags because I want a new one. My mom got me one during med school and it was so USED since it's waterproof and transes easily fit in there. But, honestly.. Idk where I put it. It's lost. My mom wasn't surprised but she harumphed and hmphed. Anywayyy, so I want a new one. Okay, so yeah, I was looking for restaurants that could deliver seafood boil but I ended up in the Rustan's page to look at Le Pliage bags. BUT ANYWAY.. that was 5 hours ago and.. my reading progress got delayed. 

Well, I hope I have the fortitude and discipline to finish it by tomorrow lol

Whoever said it was easy must have had it pretty good

I just finished my 72nd book for the year. I read an Abby Jimenez book. I forgot the title but it's included in the Summer Challenge in Goodreads so I was able to check that box! Anyway, before that, I was able to finish Finding Grace by Loretta Rotschchild. It started out PRETTY GREAT. Omg whatever I'll just post my review from Goodreads because the ending kind of pissed me off:

I MEAN???? Is it me??? AM I JUST JADED???????? But, REALLY, up until the ending - I WAS ENJOYING IT!!!!! I had to pause a few times because it was a trainwreck and it was a lawsuit waiting to happen but I kind of feel pitiful towards Tom? Idk. I mean, personally, I wouldn't be able to keep a lie for that long because it would make the love feel cheap and dishonest but.. Idk. I said, "Dear God" a lot. It was REALLY GOOD but the ending ruined it for me. Ugh.

So, anyway, I tried starting with Murder Bimbo as my 73rd book for the year but I don't know if I would commit because I'm such a mood reader. 

Also, I want new Vivaia loafers and new Salomon XT6 because they're so comfortable. I'm so fixated right now but idk if I should spend my money when I nearly bankrupt myself last month in Australia. Hay. 

Push and shove, do you feel better now?

I am FINALLY on my 68th novel of the year. I just finished Jawbone by Monica Ojeda (3.5-4/5 for me!) and I'm currently on chapter 3 of Fruit Fly by Josh Silver! So far so good!

I started it on my KLC because.. I have to read at least 17 books for KLC ROI but I like the font on my Kindle PPW better (I haven't transferred the font yet on my KLC.)

I am hooked and I just want to read al day but.. I am an adult with a job huhuhuhu.

good 4 u

I had my nails done today. I was planning to get cateye again but opted for chrome instead. I am so happy! I think I'm in one of my happiest whenever I have nice nails!

LOOK HOW SHINY AND SPARKLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also love my nail tech because her hands are so light and she's so meticulous!!!!! I think I'll always just come back to her!