Let me know if you feel a little lost, a little too real and I'll come back again

My goodies came! And it looks so cuuuuute. Or maybe I'm just biased because it's personalized. Anywayyyy, finaaaaaally, I can breathe. It's no secret that I'm a careless fuck (about things) so I was half-scared I'll dent or scratch my laptop. Oh em gee REVELATION. Namjoon (who's also known as "RM") is kinda like that too. OMG. Are we meant to be besties?????????

I gots the goodies! I GOTS THE GOODIES!!!!

Omg I wish they'd start a case for Kindle too. So, I'll have all the same designs!

For iPads and AirPods - the design like the one up there is not available. Hay. So, I didn't buy any. Well tbf, my AirPods case came from Elago and it's okay! I've been using it for like 2 years now and it's still sturdy and alive. 

Anyway, I AM SO HAPPY!

I like the way you turn me inside and out

Omg YEHEYYY I finished my 2nd novel for the month of May today! So, I'm currently 40 books in for this year. God, let me reach 100. The highest number of books I was able to read in a year was like.. 78 back in 2013! And then the next highest was 70 last year. I think I could've reached 90 last year but I was in a funk for 2 months and read 0 books those 2 months. 

Anyway, I DNF-ed Just Kids by Patti Smith. I think it's time I be honest with myself and admit that I might get into it but definitely not anytime soon. Sooooo, currently, I'm reading Dinner at the Night Library by Hika Harada. I think it's going to be chill, I'm just on chapter 3. It's fantasy and magical realism so.. we'll see. 

I'm honestly leaning towards more chill and lighter novels for the past few months. The world is GOING HAYWIRE and I get crazy stressed reading the news so I try to read something light to distract myself. Whereas, last year, bitch, my library was filled with psychopathic, out of touch, morally deranged, and vitriolic women - AND I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. Some novels included were Eileen, Boy Parts, Sugar (my favorite read for 2025!!!!!!), Confessions, Perfume & Pain, Kill for Love, She's A Lamb, Luster, Victorian Psycho, etc etc etc.! I would recommend those books until the day I die because, fuck it, I DEVOURED those novels and reveled in its pages.

So, see, the switch from my angry women literary fiction to something.. tamed is, well, it's new. Honestly, for me, it means the world is falling apart and these chill novels are a welcome respite from all the crazy.

ANYYYYYYWAAAAAAAAAAY, sooooooo, Idk if I mentioned it before but I'm thinking if I should get a Kobo Libra Colour. I've been begging Jodie and Z to buy me one but.. they won't budge. AWOW HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA My mom's not budging either. She CHANGED. 

Before, I would casually mention stuff I like and I would magically have it in a few days or so. Pero naimpluwensyahan na talaga ng tatay ko yung nanay ko huhuhuhuhu. PERO ANYWAY, I could afford to buy one for myself (5, even) BUT IT'S REALLY HARD TO SPEND YOUR OWN MONEY. HUHUHUHUHUHU the other day, my dad casually said that I have to work hard to maintain my lifestyle. We are in NO WAAAAY rich but I think we grew up pretty comfortable. Like.. Idk, hmmmm, example, I don't have to think twice about using the ac? Like.. sometimes I wouldn't turn it off for like 2 days or so. Idk. I mean, GETS? We don't have centralized ac but we're okay, gets? SOOOO, I think I have certain comforts in life (I think all of us naman? Like.. Idk. All my friend groups since HS, college, med school etc etc) parang they're the same din. SO, point is, I have to work hard huhuhu. Earlier, we were having lunch, and I joked if I could get my allowance back. My mom said, "Hay nako ha, 34 ka na nagwowork ka na" and my dad said I really should learn how to be financially independent. I said, "Well, hello, anak nyo naman kami. Kanino nyo pa isspend hard earned money nyo except us? Kahit parang.. 'O anak ang cute cute mo naman, here's PHP 3k" My mom LAUGHED but did not give me PHP 3k. 

SO THE POINT IS - it's hard to spend my own money for a Kobo Libra Colour even if I've been lusting after it since December huhuhuhuhu. Tbf, my 6-year-old Kindle is still working perfectly but I'm so annoyed with the USB Type A - USB MicroB. Actually, that's it. That's my main issue. OHHHH ALSO, I WANT TO GO BACK TO READING GRAPHIC NOVELS!!!!!!! It's been so long!!!! I was in MOA last week and I checked out their FullyBooked branch and, haaaay, wala naman nung mga gusto kong titles. I know I could probably ask and reserve or something but ughhhh if I have a Kobo Libra Colour - I could get it ASAP, you know?

Omg is this me rationalizing and pushing myself to GET THAT KOBO LIBRA COLOUR?????

Ugghhhhh no. Maybe next month???? Or next, next month? IDK. OR DECEMBER??????

Ryoiki Tenkai

I'm rewatching Jujutsu Kaisen... for the nth time. I HONESTLY cannot commit to watching anything else because I keep on rewatching JJK.

I did grown-up stuff and errands today and it's safe to say I lost my temper. It's SO hard. God, why do we have to grow up. Why can't we stay carefree and stress-free and blissfully unaware of responsibilities? I hate, hate growing up!

Anyway, I'm still reading my 1st book of the month and so far so good! I'm more invested in this compared to Moderation and Just Kids. It's taking me a long time to finish said books. Hopefully, I finish 10 novels this month huhu. 

I know love as a fading thing, just as fickle as a feather in a stream

We ate breakfast at Breakfast at Antonio's Tagaytay branch today! I was wearing my Jujutsu Kaisen shirt and Birks and my micro dumpling BTV. So, sobrang chill and casual ko lang okay. My mom was eyeing me from head to toe HAHAHAHAHAHAHA baka OB-Gyn thingzzzz. ANYWAY, so Yo was asking why there eh we eat naman sa RobMag branch haha. But my mom had a massive craving for their daing na bangus so G. 

LOOKIE!!!!! The main design's at the back! It's JJK season 3. BUT ANYWAY, look at Sukuna's sinister smile haha. 

This was my order! Plus the potato salad for sharing. 

.. But PLOT TWIST, she ended up eating some of my dad's order which was longganisa something HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. She ended up asking the wait staff to put her daing na bangus in a to-go bag. And, honestly, who eats a banana split at like 9 in the morning? Apparently, my mom does. HAHAHAHAHHAHA what a cutie 🥺

I know things aren't quite like what they used to be

I did not reach my goal of 10 books this month. I was only able to finish 8 😩 IN MY DEFENSE, I met up with friends ++++++ I got so hooked on House Flipper and PowerWash simulator!!

I started Moderation last March but, ugh, I can't get into it. I'm like 32% in and I can't continue it. I'll get around it - eventually.

Okay, the worst book I read this month (POSSIBLY MY WHOLE LIFE. It's at par with the abomination that is Mexican Gothic) is Funny You Should Ask. I don't want to increase my blood pressure so I'm just going to paste my review from Goodreads here:

Okay, too late, I'm MAD. It's so HORRIBLE. The chemistry was nonexistent. I honestly have more chemistry with a used tampon than the two protagonists. The female lead was so freaking UNPROFESSIONAL. I mean, choose a struggle you fucking bitch, do you want to be a "good" ("Good" is being generous because her "articles" are.. meh) writer or a horny, pompous bitch because clearly SHE CAN'T BE BOTH. For 10 years.. 10 FREAKING YEARS, she pined over a guy she knew for 3 days. 3 FREAKING DAYS, ARE YOU KIDDING ME.  I have a longer relationship with the carton of milk in my ref that I keep on forgetting to throw out, for crying out loud. There is no good thing about this book. If I could, I would add reading this continuously as the punishment in the 10th Circle of Hell. It's that HORRID. I am so MAD. 

Anyway, happy 1st of May! I hope to read 10 books this month. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE SELF, HAVE SOME DISCIPLINE!

It's clear that things have changed since when we started but we can't just walk away, babe

As promised (AWOW??? HAHAHHAHAHAHHA) my photo dump from April 21 to April 23, 2026!

April 21, met up with Krizzy and Nikka at Hoshino GH! GH meet up nalang since there are a lot of new restaurants there ++++ it's like the midpoint of all our locations (? O feel ko lang HAHAHHAHAHA)

Exploring Dazz cam 😌

Afterwards, we had dessert at Tsokolateria! 

Super bitin chikahan since GH mall closes at 9pm 😩

April 22, met up with Jodie at RobMag (syempre dun nalang ako sa malalapit sakin.. HAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHA) We're supposed to meet up at around 6 pm but I went to UERM around 12-ish to get my Ritalin prescription from Ma'am Thelma. Since I was already out and about, I decided to go directly to RobMag afterwards. Ate at Alya in Public Eatery. I got the Aburi Salmon pasta and it was.. so-so. When Jodie came, we Gashapon-ed first. I GOT CHOSO! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!! Then we went to Toy Kingdom (Toy Kingdom nga ba yun.. basta the one near H&M haha) wherein we bought another JJK blind box. I FREAKING GOT GETO. BEST PULL OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! Jodie got.. Shoko. Again. HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Honestly, at this point, I think she should learn to love Shoko HAHAHAHHAHAHHAH

I forgot what I was reading but I remember cramming because I was only on my 6th novel that time

My Geto pull! But this was taken at the condo na haha

With Unique Salonga. JOKE HAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA

When the mall closed at around 11 (????? Omg I forgot) we decided to transfer to Brew and Barrel Cafe since they close at 12 am. Ayun, chichi chichi. Missed my bff so much! Parang we talk frequently pero hindi padin kami nauubusan ng pinaguusapan pag nagkikita kami!

April 23, met up with some of my college friends! Back at GH HAHAHAHHAHAHA. Nagsa-suggest lang talaga ako ng near sakin EH NEAR DIN NAMAN SAKANILA SO G!! Omggggg SUPER FUN! Sobrang daming chichi and random updates and walk down memory lane!!!! Nikki and I met up first then waited for everyone at Pocofino. At around 6 pm, I was hungry already, I asked Nikki if G na sya mag-dinner, sunod nalang si Jones and Nicole sa Ebi10. ANYWAY, biiitch, Ebi10 was such a revelation! It was good and it was PLENTY. For sharing talaga. I was so freaking full.

Afterwards, we transferred to SB at O Square since, AGAIN, GH mall closes at 9 pm 😩

Grabe yung noo ko pwede na mag-concert yung BTS sa sobrang laki 🥲

Anyway, that's all for my 4th week of April haha. Grabe, I just realized, 99% of my friendships are ≥ 10 years! Krizzy + Nikka = 10 years, Jodes = 19 years, college friends = 17 years. Bitch, my relationships are built to last. So, if wala na yung tao sa buhay ko, I'm kind of sure it's not me haha 🤷🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️

ANYWAYYYYYY, back to work huhuhuhu

At least God doesn't judge me for the thoughts that aren't mine

Okayyyy so I'm typing this post using a different laptop HUHUHUHUHUHU MY OLD LAPTOP DIED LAST SUNDAY!!!!!!!! I was so cranky and PISSED. Hello, I need my laptop for work! I was really moody so... my dad came throuuuuugh huhuhuhuhu he gave me money and told me I could pay him whenever. I'm planning to pay him SANA WITHIN 1 YEAR. Kasi feel nila scammer ako ('cause I don't give back their change, I always ask for stuff, and I rarely pay them back HAHAHAHA pero hello anak naman nila ako 'no, sino pa ba pag gagastusan nila? ANYWAY, GOING BACK, I want to prove that I WOULD pay them back eh, like.. I'm maturing haha) Gosh ang hirap naman ng hindi senior consultant. ANYWAY, SOOOOOO thanks to my dad I was able to buy a new laptop today! I did NOT get a MacBook Pro HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA the laptop that died on me was a MacBook Pro, but I was looking at the specs and the price and.. bitch what would I do with all those high tech stuff? I only ever use my laptop for Word, PPT, Prime, Netflix, Disney+, and Spotify. Actually, I could get the Neo but reviews said that they're best for students? Eh feel ko working girl na ko... HAHAHAHHAAH So I got the M5 MacBook Air 16GB/1TB - PAID IN FULL. THANKS TO MY DAD HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA I'm very thankful but I'm still.. IDK. I STILL WANT MY OLD LAPTOP TBH. I was so smug and I thought I could make it last for 10 years. It died at the tender age of 6 years and 6 months. I MISS THE TOUCHBAR TBH. But, anyway, what can I do. 

ANYWAY, so, I ordered from Casetify (I actually considered Moft but I want a case not just a pouch or something and my cousins use Casetify so G naman) a laptop case and.. wala, ang impulsive ko, I got na din for my phone HAHAHAHAHA

I am so excited! But expected delivery would be between May 5 to May 12 so.. hay. I have to be careful. Ang burara ko pa naman. So, I feel like magkaka-scratch na 'tong laptop before dumating yang case. 

Also, samesies initials with Namjoon - RM YAHUUUUUUUUUU. Sobrang sobrang sobrang hot 🥵 ni Namjoon this Arirang era ha. Tbf, bias line ko naman sya. Sya lang or si Jungkook yung nakikipag-agawan kay Yoongi for my heart. AHHHH???? HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

ANYWAY, omg I have a lot of late uploads/posts! Super dami nangyari last weeeeeeek. I should update this blog before May!

OMG AND RANDOM UPDATE, I don't think I could finish 10 books this month. I FUCKING SUCK!!!!! I'M JUST ON MY 9TH! Parang nagka-reading slump ako na hindi. OMG I think kasi nahook ako sa House Flipper!!!!!!!!! Plus, busy week last week!!!! Met up with a lot of friends! Basta, update nalang ako haha

I'll follow you into the sun

It's Mamel's Thanksgiving and Celebratory dinner yesterday! Met up with Krizzy and Marian at Nikka's condo then from there, Nikka drove to the Batongbacal's building where the celebration was held.

Super dami life updates and chichi and frustrations (mostly from me) regarding plans about the future!  Anyway, it was such a good day. So, so, so, so proud of Mamel and Marian!

I was only able to take a photo of the grazing table but the cheeses and meats were delissssh! It doesn't taste like, you know, generic grocery-store bought meat. I wasn't able to take a photo of the shrimp (which I devoured) and crabs and lechon. BITCH THE LECHON WAS SO GOOD! Even without the sauce, the meat was so moist and flavorful!

"Will We Meet Again?"

Okay, Jujutsu Kaisen has me in a chokehold. I love it So. Freaking. Much! And I know exactly when it started. Season 1 was okay, it was cute! But after watching the Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc - bitch, I am hooked. It gave me so much feelings. I think what I love about it was the innocence and the hopefulness of youth. I also loved how MDD was portrayed in that arc. It was so real and so raw. 

Those extra scenes at the Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc movie credits (YES I WATCHED IT IN A CINEMA HAHAHAHAHA) really killed me! REALLY. FREAKING. KILLED. ME. 

I think it reminded me a lot of how young they actually were while carrying a heavy burden on their shoulders. They were in high school, for crying out loud. The poses they made, how their friendships were, biiiitch, I am so emotional right now (tbf it's also the first day of my period) I think it's because I'm about the same age as them and those scenes reminded me of my high school life as well (minus being a sorcerer) When you're young, you really feel like everything is possible when you grow up. Like.. idk, the future is something to actually look forward to. Well, that's what I felt when I was in HS (for the most part)

Geto. God, Geto. HS Geto deserves 100% of my love and respect. He was so idealistic, morally-driven, caring, and fair. But how would you react if all those morals and beliefs that you hold dear kill and harm the people you care about? His MDD was so raw. The darkening of his eye bags, losing weight, less cheerful - AND PEOPLE DID NOT REALLY NOTICE (except for that one scene wherein Shoko or Gojo, I forgot who, asked Geto if he's losing weight or if he's okay omg I forgot the exact dialogue.) That's what kills me, tbh. He was a functional depressive, hence, he was "okay." Idk it kind of reminds me how we are, like, sometimes we don't notice how our friends are dying inside because they seem fine on the outside. Sometimes it's too late before we notice anything.

Gojo and Geto are best friends and I truly believe they're soulmates (platonically, PUHLEASE) and I saw a post that said how Gojo must've blamed himself for not noticing how Geto's feeling recently (remember, Geto and Gojo started to go on individual tasks after their task with Riko ended. So.. Geto was swallowing curses and doing missions on his own with nobody to really confide in) and then.. it's too late. Geto massacred a whole village and his parents. Honestly, how can you move on from that?

Geto became evil but can you really blame that transition? And that's one of the aspects that made me love JJK. There's this viral tweet that says, "The reason why it's important to humanize villains is not so you can condone their actions, it's you realize that, given the right circumstances, you could become a villain too. And that is what some people cannot handle." BITCH, GETO IS THE EPITOME OF THAT. Legit Ibarra to Simoun transformation. 

Idk, JJK Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc always gives me the feels because it's so emotionally relatable. 

Hay. Ruminating on life lang because season 3 ended and Idk WHEN SEASON 4 WOULD DROP.