"Will We Meet Again?"

Okay, Jujutsu Kaisen has me in a chokehold. I love it So. Freaking. Much! And I know exactly when it started. Season 1 was okay, it was cute! But after watching the Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc - bitch, I am hooked. It gave me so much feelings. I think what I love about it was the innocence and the hopefulness of youth. I also loved how MDD was portrayed in that arc. It was so real and so raw. 

Those extra scenes at the Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc movie credits (YES I WATCHED IT IN A CINEMA HAHAHAHAHA) really killed me! REALLY. FREAKING. KILLED. ME. 

I think it reminded me a lot of how young they actually were while carrying a heavy burden on their shoulders. They were in high school, for crying out loud. The poses they made, how their friendships were, biiiitch, I am so emotional right now (tbf it's also the first day of my period) I think it's because I'm about the same age as them and those scenes reminded me of my high school life as well (minus being a sorcerer) When you're young, you really feel like everything is possible when you grow up. Like.. idk, the future is something to actually look forward to. Well, that's what I felt when I was in HS (for the most part)

Geto. God, Geto. HS Geto deserves 100% of my love and respect. He was so idealistic, morally-driven, caring, and fair. But how would you react if all those morals and beliefs that you hold dear kill and harm the people you care about? His MDD was so raw. The darkening of his eye bags, losing weight, less cheerful - AND PEOPLE DID NOT REALLY NOTICE (except for that one scene wherein Shoko or Gojo, I forgot who, asked Geto if he's losing weight or if he's okay omg I forgot the exact dialogue.) That's what kills me, tbh. He was a functional depressive, hence, he was "okay." Idk it kind of reminds me how we are, like, sometimes we don't notice how our friends are dying inside because they seem fine on the outside. Sometimes it's too late before we notice anything.

Gojo and Geto are best friends and I truly believe they're soulmates (platonically, PUHLEASE) and I saw a post that said how Gojo must've blamed himself for not noticing how Geto's feeling recently (remember, Geto and Gojo started to go on individual tasks after their task with Riko ended. So.. Geto was swallowing curses and doing missions on his own with nobody to really confide in) and then.. it's too late. Geto massacred a whole village and his parents. Honestly, how can you move on from that?

Geto became evil but can you really blame that transition? And that's one of the aspects that made me love JJK. There's this viral tweet that says, "The reason why it's important to humanize villains is not so you can condone their actions, it's you realize that, given the right circumstances, you could become a villain too. And that is what some people cannot handle." BITCH, GETO IS THE EPITOME OF THAT. Legit Ibarra to Simoun transformation. 

Idk, JJK Hidden Inventory/Premature Death arc always gives me the feels because it's so emotionally relatable. 

Hay. Ruminating on life lang because season 3 ended and Idk WHEN SEASON 4 WOULD DROP. 

Ryoiki Tenkai

Sooooooo Jujutsu Kaisen season 3 concluded last Friday and all I have to say is.. YUTA'S EPISODE IS STRAIGHT. FREAKING. GAS!!!!!!!! Personally, the whole episode was AMAZIIIIIING but I can be a bit biased since he's my 3rd favorite character. I really loved him in JJK: 0!!! But his battle with Ryu ++++++++++ Aizo playing in the background....... GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I watched it 4x already because I loved it so much!!!! I was screaming so hard during the first time I watched it because I love Yuta so muuuuuch SO MUCH!!!!!! So, after finishing it.. I rewatched it immediately!

I just have to highlight how, during the last scene, Yuta was saying that Uro would never accept anything he says because he comes from a place of privilege. We love a self-aware king huhuhuhu

PLUUUUUUS, ICING ON THE CAKE!!!! Joon and JK are massive JJK fans!!!!!!! But JK is more into it (see photo below HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA cctto!) He even said during his Golden listening party (if i'm not mistaken) that JJK is his favorite anime!!!!

Omg I can't freaking wait for season 4! It's The Culling Games part 2! Fiiiine i think i could wait for 2 years (HUHUHUHUHUHUHU) if the cinematography is going to be like season 3s! It's so good. SO. FREAKING. GOOD!

I'll follow you down 'til the sound of my voice will haunt you

Okay, I'm officially 34 years old! I started this blog when I was 13???????? Omg 13 or 14 I can't remember anymore. I think maybe 14?? WAIT NO. 13!!! So, this online diary saw how juvenile I was back in high school, so lost in college, so desperate in med school, then lost again after passing the PLEs lol. What a way to grow up! Haha!

ANYWAYYYYY, so, after reading novels back to back to back, I finished 9 already and I'm currently on my 10th! I'm juggling Just Kids by Patti Smith (STILL) and The Midnight Timetable by Bora Chung. The latter's really my cup of tea BUT IT'S SCARY OKAY. They're talking about ghosts and stuff and I got spooked. I could only read it in the morning... then I turn to Patti Smith at night. God, I hope I finish 10 novels this month.

The world is a scary place right now and I am so fucking scared. Please, Jesus Christ, let these narcissistic fuckhole politicians GET SOME SENSE. I honestly cannot read the complete articles about news and current events because I can literally feel my heart drop and I get so anxious. Tangina talaga. Sobrang kawawa yung mga drivers who take home like PHP 50 AFTER GETTING GAS (basta oil sa car) are you fucking kidding me. How would you live with PHP 50?? Ang mamahal na ng lahat. Grabe, honestly, I have to pause purchasing the stuff in my cart because I got scared. Tangina talaga. 

And I, I can't get off of this ride

Look! I really like this shot! I think I'm getting better at taking photos... HAHAHAHHAAHHA

Omg so I bought the premium thing from Dazz cam because I got obsessed! No regrets!

Merry Go Round

ARIRANG DROPPED TODAY! THE WHOLE ALBUM IS BOOOOOOMB!!!!!! But so far my favorite is Merry Go Round!

YOONGI IS SO HANDSOME I AM DYING!!!!! DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends

Omg okay. So, I was simultaneously reading Just Kids, Lucky Girl, and And Then There Was You by Sophie Cousens but, Jesus F. Christ, I'm dropping the latter because *spoiler alert* she dates a fucking hyperrealistic AI robot thing. There was even a conversation about sex. SEX WITH A FREAKING HUMANOID? Are you kidding me? I think I'm pretty open-minded but I draw the line at fucking human-robot relationships. I mean, I get that the humanoid was her dream guy but omg scratch that I DON'T GET DATING A HUMANOID PERIOD. I can't. I just can't. So, now I'm surfing what to read next. I'm a mood reader and I can't commit to Just Kids and Lucky Girl right now. 

ANYWAY, I'm thinking of getting PDM's Delina Exclusif. I got the decant and it smelled so good on me THE WHOLE DAY (better than Byredo's Gypsy Water.) I took a bath and the scent was still there. I honestly liked Valaya more but it kinda smelled like the perfume someone I used to be close with used to wear. But I'm not getting the short end of the stick here because Delina smelled divine on me! Soooooo, I'm thinking of getting the big bottle as one of my birthday presents for myself this year but idk idk. I REALIZED IT'S HARD TO SPEND MONEY WHEN IT'S YOUR OWN HARD-EARNED MONEY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA tas medj hirap kasi sobrang dami ko pala talaga gastos. Thanks always to my hardworking parents for funding that lifestyle.. sana until now huhuhuhu. I'm thinking of getting more shifts because I only work 4 days a week BUT IN MY DEFEEEENSE MY MOM SAID, "Okay lang yan anak, rest day mo na yung iba" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA so Idk. 

My life is in a limbo right now and I need someone to decide for me what my next step should be. Hay. 

There's things I wanna talk about but better not to give

10 more days until I turn.. 34 🙈 I'm not looking forward to getting a year older but I generally like my birthdays! However, I think my birthday celebration with my family would be on the 26th since my parents are going to a wedding on my actual birthday. Ughhhhh. Idk what I want to do, though. I've said before that I prefer spending my birthdays alone and celebrating with family and friends the next few days. But now I'm living at home so.... there's no alone time (although technically it's always alone time because I spend 99% of my time in my bed room haha)

I've been ruminating recently and I feel like I've gotten colder haha. But tbffff I honestly don't care if people don't like me. I have never been a people-pleaser that's why some of my relatives (especially on my mom's side) labeled me as "difficult" haha. My mindset growing up was I should like myself and who I'm becoming +++ my parents' impression of me. Those are the only two perspectives that mattered to me - my own opinion of myself and my parents' opinion of me. That's it. SO ANYWAYYYYYY, yes I don't really care if people don't like me but I was GENERALLY A CHEERFUL person before. Prior the trauma in you-know-where, I was easygoing and sunny and bubbly. After the chaos, I could still joke around but I've gotten more.. Idk. Like.. more weary and more serious? I was more jokey with people and random strangers before (BUT TBFFFFF I'M STILL LIKE THAT WITH MY FRIENDS) but now I'm polite and I give direct to the point answers even if strangers are joking with me or making small talk. Grabe, sobrang friendly ko talaga before even the driver of the President of UERM, kachikahan ko. Yung ibang restaurant owners around UERM, ka-first name basis ko. AS IN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Nung college, ako yung pinapaka-usap nila palagi sa mga terror profs kasi nabobola-bola ko (para maextend deadline ng thesis... etc etc HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA)

I think that's the part of me I miss the most. Parang.. remember the Dreamer and Realist analogy of Cam from Modern Family? For the past 9 years, I feel like I kind of stopped being the Dreamer. OMG even my MBTI nga eh! Since I was in HS, ENFP ako. Tas I checked like 2 years ago? ENTP na ko haha. Well, tbf, with my close friends sobrang kulit ko padin (like kila Dessa, Kyle, kung pano ako before ganon padin lokohan namin HAHAHAHAHAHA) 

Maybe it's a part of growing up 'no? You shed your skin and you wear a more tight-lipped and severe mask? 

We fell in love but it didn't last

Okay omg so I got back to watching Cdramas this year. So far, I was able to finish Shine on Me (LOOOOOOOOOVE), Our Generation (so-so), and most recently - LOVE BETWEEN LINES GAAAAAAHHHHHHH! I'm not attracted to the male lead but the story was so cute and light - I LOOOOOVED IT. Actually.. the cdramas I loved the most, I'm not attracted to the lead actor (Hidden Love, Lighter and Princess, and now Love Between Lines) I LIKED THE FEMALE LEAD (same with Hidden Love and Lighter and Princess) THOUGH! She's such a cutie patootie and her character wasn't overbearing and trying too hard to be cute. It's the perfect balance of cutie patootie and charming!

GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN TINGNAN AKO NG GANYAN NI MIN YOONGI LORD DI BA PWEDE MANGYARI YUN IN THIS LIFETIME HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

This scene was soooooo cute and heartwarming. My cold, tin heart felt things HAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway, so, currently I'm watching Perfect and Casual. Miles Wei IS SO CRAZY HANDSOME! Besides Dylan Wang (my OG Chinese bae), his face was the face I enjoyed the most in Only for Love (this cdrama sucked so bad, I am still gritting my teeth thinking about it) Legit saving grace lang face nila Dylan Wang and Miles Wei. ANYWAYYYYYY, Perfect and Casual is HILARIOUS! I'm just on episode 15 pero ang funny talaga! Nakuha yung kiliti kooooo! Tas cute pa si Miles Wei and the female lead! 

Anyway, I haven't been neglecting my reading goals, though. Omg maybe I did (A BIT????) I'm only on my 4th book for the month. But omg I will finish 10 novels this month. I will! 

This is what I'm currently reading! So far so good! I hope I could finish it tomorrow.. or by Monday. Depends if I get hooked on Perfect and Casual!

Was able to read 23 novels for the year (so far!!!) Please heavenly father, please, let me reach my goal of 100 novels this year!

ANYWAYYYYYYYY, Just random updates!

It's not like I'd ever change a thing 'cause I'm right here where I'm meant to be

March 4 and March 5 dump incooooomiiiiinggggg. 

Met up with Krizzy and Erick on March 4 because Erick had a MAAAAAD craving for Bugis HAHAHAHAHAHAHA then went to omg I forgot the cookie store where Krizzy and I bought cookies while Erick had froyo at Tah-mee! 

Before meeting up with Erick and Krizzy for dinner, I spent the whole day with my mom at the new GH mall where I impoverished myself at Uniqlo and Footlocker. But whatever, it's my birth month haha. (Also.. my mom bought most of it haha) Had lunch at Chow Dynasty because I had a crazy craving for lemon chickeeeeen!

The next day, I had dinner with one of my med school favorites - Dessa. We met up at Incanta and had a lot of chichi! It's been a long time since we had a one on one date. Few weeks ago, Kyle called me to meet up for dinner and drinks with everyone (Dessa, Camille, James, Christian etc etc) but I wasn't available. Dessa was one of the few people I told my life plans to, so when I met up with her, she clarified if what she knew was correct BECAUSE, APPARENTLY, KYLE'S BEEN TELLING PEOPLE I'M DOING IM RESIDENCY. As in confident pa daw sya, "Hindi, ako pinaka-updated. Nagi-IM sya" SAN GALING YUN HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH TAWANG TAWA AKO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH HINDI PADIN SYA NAGBABAGO HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAH 12 years na kami friends tas until now ganyan padin sya HUHUHUHUHU I told Dessa, "Dessa basta galing kay Kyle, take it with a grain of salt" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway, so we had dinner at Incanta and dessert at Lola. Incanta was a revelation! I thought the place was just picture perfect but the food was also great! It's more on Japanese-Filipino fusion and we enjoyed it immensely!

Food blogger thingzzzzz JOKE HAHAHAHAHAHAH this was the B O M B!

AND RANDOM UPDAAAAATE but I've been seeing Oui Tacos since October and I've always been curious. So, Yo and I tried it last Wednesday. I got the Mediterranean one and it R O C K S! We got the XL one each (Yo got a different flavor) and we ate it for like 3 meals. Super sulit! Will definitely order again!

This is like 1/3 of it. It's HUMONGOUS and filling! SULIT na talaga. XL is like PHP 400+???? Idk

ANYWAYYYYYYY what a great way to start the best month of the year! Here's to more happy moments this month!

Do you got plans for life? 'Cause I don't wanna just romance tonight

Omg. I just finished (this afternoon) my first 5-star read for the year! It's..

Idk why I waited this long to start (and finish) it! The premise was already intriguing. There's this middle-aged woman (Phoebe) whose life is falling apart so she decided to kill herself in a fancy hotel. She didn't know that the hotel was booked for a wedding. That's all I'm going to say. It's helpful that I didn't read the blurb and that I came in blind, I HONESTLY THOUGHT IT WAS A ROMCOM. It was.. enlightening to say the least. I loved the prose, the relationships, the human-ness of the characters and the situations. I loved the portrayal of not having your shit together even when you're 40. 

Anyway, so that's also the first novel I finished for this month. Currently, I started Patti Smith's Just Kids. I got into non-fiction and memoirs recently because of Belle Burden's Strangers.

Gosh, I really hope I could finish at least 100 novels this year huhuhuhuhu! WISH ME LUCK!