do you want to be my one and only love?

To those who are wondering if i'm actually being melodramatic, the answer is "No.", my title's a line from Teitur's "One And Only" song. :) I told you I love that song :)

This was one short week. After the events last Tuesday during SEG that I wouldn't want to elaborate, nothing really happened. Well, except for the fact that Sir Lastimosa went home early yesterday and that we didn't get to finish our innovative experiment. And, yeah, did I mention that the Oral Defense would happen this coming Wednesday? Ugh. I hate stress. I hate stress. I really, really, really hate stress. It makes me want to curl up into a ball and sleep.

I'm not really in my proper mind right now (as if I'm ever proper..)

The College Orientation things made me feel more confused (but, it did help a lot. It helped us to be aware :)) ) I mean, now, I don't really know what to take because every course I see, I tend to think "Yan na lang kaya course ko.." then another course would appear "Yan na lang kaya?" Course-choosing is very CONFUSING.

Oh well. I'll post a proper item when I'm not in a trance :))

SONG: obviously, it's still "One And Only" by Teitur.. And, oh yeah, Fountains Of Wayne's "Stacy's Mom" Been singing that for two weeks!

it was a loooooong day -- week

let's skip the other bullshits.

Anyway, last friday, some ii1 kids went to Tapa King. I loved it, even though at the beginning I had second thoughts (Rona knows EVERYTHING.) because of some things Rona and I talked about. Anyway, I guess I really want to thank Rona in this post. I mean, yeah, I know I was a big drama queen and a cry baby but she really listened to me when I burst into unexplainable tears. Hmmm.. Maybe it was just post-menstrual symptoms.. Who knows?

As I've mentioned a while ago, we went to Tapa King :) It was oh-sooo fun. I sat beside Bianca B. and Lourdes, who, I might as well say, are very good cheer-uppers (I mean, even though they didn't really know why and that I cried, I instantly forgot that I cried because the two of them are really fun to talk to.. :) ) There was this great irony I really want to share, the place was called "Tapa" King -- and many of us (I think 4 or 5..) ordered spaghetti, and only Lourdes bought the Tapa stuff :)) I think it was funny.

Hmmm.. Too bad only few came :s it would be really awesome if ii1 really is complete.

So, yesterday, we had our course-college-something awareness, I mean, we were oriented with our parents about college and all that stuff. I got so bored at the middle part so I went at the back part where Dorilie was seated. Then, because Dorilie doesn't want to leave her mom and because we were already making too much noise, I went outside the covered court with Aika. I don't know how it happened but I found myself sitting with (drum roll please) ii1 people again :) HAHAHA -- it was like an extension of the Tapa King experience :)

The pictures are in my multiply :) But, you have to be one of my contacts to see it :) (Lourdes mentioned something about multiplys and.. if you know what I mean..)

SONGS: The Future Freaks Me Out by Motion City Soundtrack and No Doubt's Don't Speak

these fucking disappointments

Ugh. I am so disappointed! There were so many things that I'm looking forward to and expecting and -- and.. Many things happened to make those things un-happen. I'm not even making sense here!

# 1: The Merchant Of Venice Play
So far this is my biggest disappointment :( I mean, ever since I got my script at about late November to early December, I've already started memorizing those Shylock lines of mine! I was really excited to be a villain, to be honest. I mean it's not everyday that I get to be really, really mean and vicious. I was really looking forward to the play :(

And then what happened? Because the time was not enough, Acts 4 and 5 will present their parts on Monday. I was shocked, annoyed, disappointed, and even a little furious because we really panicked and we tried our best to prepare for our act and just because there was not enough time, our presentation was postponed. I mean, look at that, Laraine has about three to four bruises now because of my pinching and pushing and tormenting her adhd-filled soul and body! HAHAHAHA. I was kidding, I couldn't be that mean to anyone.. Laraine didn't get any bruise from me -- just verbal abuse :)) hahaha!

Anyway, looking at the glass from it's half-filled point of view, I think it's okay too that it was postponed because we get to internalize our roles more :)


#2: The Floating Bookstore
My God! This is an ENORMOUS disappointment! I've been looking forward in going to this bookstore since last, last year! I was really thrilled when mommy said last week that we're going to the floating bookstore this Saturday because the ship was about to retire already so this would be their last visit to the Philippines. You can't just imagine my GROAN when mommy said, annoyed, that the ship's already in Subic (What do those guys see in Subic, anyway? Even Neil Gaiman went to Subic and I didn't even get to pinch his nose! UGH!!) I was so SAD and ANGRY I cried myself to sleep! Oh yes, I know what you're thinking, "What a drama-queen." But, dig this, think about it if you're in my situation, I've been looking forward in going to this bookstore since last, last year and buying loads and loads of new books! Try counting the days and months or hours or whatever.. I've been waiting for a VERY long time and all I get is "They're in Subic already.. I'm sorry. I guess we can't see them after all." UGH!


#3 Johnny Depp's Sweeney Todd
I swear I might burst out sobbing any minute now. So, what's wrong with Johnny Depp's new movie? It's just the fact that MTRCB rated the movie as rated-18!! So, what's with that? It means, dork, that I CAN NOT WATCH IT IN GATEWAY AND SIT ON THE LAZY BOYS! (or La-z-boys.. I don't really know the correct spelling.. I'm not sharing this for the spelling anyway.. So..) No, NO, NO!!! I already told my parents that I NEED to watch JOHNNY DEPP on the 16th and they already agreed! I mean, Johnny and I adore each other -- we need to support one another to make our love bloom some more! I was already making plans on what to wear and what to eat. HOW CAN THINGS GET SO WRONG?!


I am so frustrated right now I don't know what I'm going to do. Hmm, maybe I'm not really in a normal mood today because of dysmenorrhea -- but still.. These fucking disappointments are enough to make anyone in their prim and proper minds (I'm excluded in that area) to go out of their minds. Sigh. I'm a Catholic, I'm a Catholic, I AM A CATHOLIC -- I should remember that God's got a perfect reason to give me these depressing revelations and, um, stuff.

Help me forget how disappointed I am :(

more than a pretty face :)

okay, i'm making this post even if i'm not really in the mood because i really promised maxine :)

anyway, i am serious about the title, and i'm talking about (drum roll, please) maxine dela costa. Oh yeah. Hmmmm, she told me to dedicate a whole post for her :) and because i do love her and i'm too nice to say "NO.", I am writing something for her :)

Hmmmm.. What can I say?

I love Max because she has this sense of humor that makes me crack up with a single snap.. Sometimes even when she's very serious, her comments can make the oddest kid normal, can make the stiffest body relax. Don't ask me what's with Max, that's how she is. :)

Oh yeah, take a look at that PRETTY FACE! I don't really know what's wrong with her, she's always pouting whenever anyone tells her that she's pretty, I mean, hey, it's the truth. She should be very happy and thankful because she was gifted with a very charming, pretty, lovely, and beautiful face. The thing is, she honestly doesn't think that she's pretty. Sigh. I hope the time comes when she actually gets to realize that she is indeed gorgeous.

It's a great combination, actually, a pretty face and a good sense of humor. She can charm the cruelest, she can make the depressed smile. I mean, hey, she's a very good listener -- she sits there and you can easily pour your heart out without any fear that Max might laugh at you or mock you. Yeah, she even asks for updates about the things you told her. :)) Very Max.

Hmmm, Max is a GREAT friend, actually. I don't really need to elaborate because for the people who knows Max, they do know what I mean. And for those who don't, it's such a pity -- because someone like Max doesn't come very often :)

SONG: Teitur's One And Only :)

outbounders go "HEY!"

oh yeah.. we had our outbound today. it was okay and it was really tiring. we went to san pablo, laguna and visited the 5 LAKES!! yes, 5 lakes -- they said that the other two lakes were damaged or something. anyway, on our way to the first lake, when we were climbing those steep paths, i was cursing a lot because it was slippery and very, very, wet. I mean, it was literally wet because it started to rain. So, the rain was pouring down while we went to go look at the lake for like 5 minutes? oh yeah -- 5 minutes.

Our way to the last lake was the coolest! We got to sit/stand on a raft and dive when we're in the middle of a lake (i'm not sure if it's part of the seven lakes -- still, i think it's a lake.. Or a river.. whatever..) anyway, because i am blessed to have my period right now (note the sarcasm.) i didn't get to fully enjoy the jumping-slash-diving thing. I just held on at the side of the raft and laughed, laughed, laughed. I watched the others jumped and enjoy.

When we reached the other side, we got to "swim". The water's ok. Anyway, when we got out, there were sand in my socks and in my shoes. My nails were badly damaged and they're still recovering :)) Apart from that, sweaty faces and tired feet but happy smiles. :)

It was a good thing the WHOLE BATCH went together. I don't really like having the outbound in different dates. :)

SONG: Teddy Geiger's "These Walls"

i'm reeves -- Rina "Reeves", asshole

i know it's kind of late but i just watched Constantine today. yes, yes, it seems a little outdated but i just gripped the guts to watch it today. and, boy, oh boy, Keanu Reeves is so freaking hot.. he's such a sexpot. heavens, bless me, it's the first time i muttered that word in my blog -- but, heck, i would be lying if i said that i don't find Keanu Reeves "Hot" with the capital "H". He sets me on FIRE! =)), i was kidding..

yes, yes, i know what you are all thinking, "Another crush, another father-figure-like".. Well, it makes a difference somehow because he's in his early forties whereas Johnny Depp and Neil Gaiman are in their mid and late forties! I sound so indignant it may seem like i've actually met them -- NOT!

Don't ask me what's wrong with this beady-black eyes of mine -- but, i can't find anything attractive to guys who're the same age as mine. Yeah, kill me now, huh? :) Anyway, some girls are whoring over goddamn Zac Efron -- i don't find him cute, I don't even find him attractive! I'm sorry if some of you are one of the girls, um, 'obsessed' with the toothy-'killer'-smile Zac Efron but I'm just being honest about my opinions of him -- heck, they're just opinions.

I don't really know why I like guys who are way older than me. My parents know about my crushes (well, except Sir.. Oh, you know! sheesh.. Besides, i just find him FUNNY and CORNY.), well, they know about my lust for Johnny Depp (ha! take that! I'm talking about lust here, baby!) and my plan to 'separate' Neil Gaiman from his wife and three kids. They asked me why I'm not like the usual teen-agers crushing over 'young heartthrobs' like Shia LaBeouf or anybody else out there, I gaped at them and I said that Shia's not my type. I mean, yeah, he's okay but I don't get any 'zap', get it? HAHAHA :))

Anyway, right this moment, I'm bitching over Keanu Reeves. I told my parents that they should be proud of me because he's way younger than my father (try five years.. well, for me it's young.) They looked at me, sighed, and shrugged. I think they're used to it already -- about my sudden declarations of my new crushes and about my elaborations that they're 3o years older than me.

I don't care about what others say about Keanu Reeves, about him being gay. Well, if he's gay, I can be a GUY for him. If he's not a fag, well, there's no problem then, right? :)) Oh yeeeeaah.. There IS a problem -- he's OUT of reach. :)) Still..

SONG: Teddy Geiger's "These Walls"

andi lanuza is so artistic -- greatness at hand!

i went to andi's multiply and all i could do was stare and gape because of the beauty of her layout.. it was so simple but very -- BEAUTIFUL. oh yeah, i'm not joshing around or anything, i am serious! her layout is made up of the rainbow colors, but her background was, what, dark-green or something.. men, oh, men.. if you don't want to believe me, go to her multiply site, you'll find magic in the form of andi's wonderful, self-made layout..

not only is andi artistically-talented she's also a math genius! she can easily add large numbers, she can easily identify if something is wrong in the formula -- she's a walking calculator! boy, if i'm as gifted as andi -- i am going to feel comfortable about the exams and everything because i am a math genius!

you might get the wrong idea from what i'm saying, nope, andi is not a strutting jerk because of her talents and potentials -- she just smiles or mutters "gagi.." (oha! alam ko!) when you tell her that she's really AWESOME. oh yeah.. :)

hmmm.. wow.. a post dedicated to andi's talents! :) i am her number 1 fan.. :)

SONG: yun pading "the future freaks me out" by motion city soundtrack.. :)

so, you think you're ready for school?

ugh. school starts in about 48 more hours? oh yeah.. that is NOT good. don't, don't, don't get me wrong -- i LOVE school, i just don't like sports. i mean, i like watching other people play but i don't want to get too engaged at the, er, sport. (that sentence sounds bloody stupid..)

i don't think i can get out of the house again this weekend :( yes. i CAN'T get out of the house again.. everyone in the house is sick -- literally. my mom's suffering from fever (ha! take that workaholic!), my father's suffering from his severe sinusitis, i have this bloody sore throat (that's why i can't sing my lungs out while taking a bath.. :( grrr..) and my brother's suffering from his mental and psychiatric ailment.. HAHAHA. that was a joke, about my brother, i mean. shoot, if he ever reads this, i'm dead. oh well.. a joke is still a joke (even if it's half-meant.. :)) HAHAHA) yeah, yeah.. but i am indeed bitter about this sore throat because it's aching like HELL.

i can't even think straight right now. all i know is that i'm typing and my brain is not functioning well.. wait.. okay, i just sneezed and my throat is itching again.. too bad i can't put my whole fist inside my mouth to scratch my fucking-itching throat..

god, i've been very sickly this year, i mean, last 2007 (i forgot that it's already 2008). yes, i had fevers in three or four months? what happened to my white blood cells, i mean the cells that're supposed to protect my body from deadly-foreign-bodies, viruses, bacteria..? where is that cell? is he/she going to appear or do i have to fire him/her? ugh.. wait.. i'm going to sneeze again.. okay.. i just sneezed and there's a small bogey that landed on the floor.. eeew..

i think i have to go.. before i give a detailed description of the snot that landed on the floor.. and, hell, yeah, i think i need to wipe it off with a rug or something..

SONG: motion city soundtrack's "the future freaks me out".. i want to sing it.. but -- i CAN'T because of this infuriating sore throat..