Oh Jesus!

*Johnny Depp
- I love this GUY! He's my #1 Male Crush :))

*Neil Gaiman
-He's such an awesome writer.. Besides, I LOVE the leather jacket :))

*Pau Gasol
-Even if he's 7 ft. tall.. And, yeah, he transferred to the L.A. Lakers, I still have the hots for him. Actually, he was my very first male obssession (When I was 12.. Or 13.. HAHAHAHA) :)) Go ask my brother! =)) He'll tell you!

*Eric Bana
- HOMAYGAAAAD. He's SO HOTT. I could stare at him ALL DAY!

I know. I know. They all look the same.. OLD (Well, Pau Gasol is not really old. He's only 28.. Or 27.. Whatever. All I know is that he's in his late 20's.. That's young, right? I mean, for my standard..) DARK-HAIRED, FACIAL HAIR (LOADS!) Still, these are my crushes. Actually, it was Odessa who pointed out that my crushes look the same (the MALE ones, mind. HAHA) She said that they look madumi. I was.. INFURIATED. Fine, maybe they all have those bouncy facial hair/s.. But, it doesn't mean that they're madumi. Then, Odessa explained that they're sort of ragged and that's what she meant when she said "madumi." Suuuure.. Yeah, right.. *snorts*

My brother has a different theory, though. He said that my crushes look like Jesus Christ (With the hair and all..) And maybe I'm whoring over Jesus Christ. Oh. God. It's ridiculous, I know.. And all I could say is: May God forgive his impeccable soul.

*sighs*

Who cares anyway? As long as they have those beard and stuff -- I'll love them and I'll remain faithful to them. HAHAHA :))

I don't really know if something's wrong with me. I mean, I don't find younger guys interesting. It's the DADS you should watch out for. HAHAHA =))

SONG: Forever The Sickest Kid's She's A Lady :)

*BTW, I finished watching Sweeney Todd today. SO GORY! I LOVED IT! :) I just loved Johnny Depp.. And, the Blood :))

Dings. Dangs. Darns.

UGH. Weekend's almost OVER :| I don't want to go to school TOMORROW!

I hate Tuesdays. Seriously. Ever since I was a small and snotty pancake -- I never really liked Tuesdays. Don't ask me why. I think I'm simply weird that way :| *sighs* and.. TOMORROW is a TUESDAY. God. Where's my good luck when I need it?

Hmmm. What did I do today? Honestly, this is one of the most unproductive days of my life. I slept all day. Seriously. :| UGH. No wonder I always have a hard time sleeping at night -- I always have siestas.. :|

Fine.

Whatever.

Kill me tomorrow. :))

Bye :) See you tomorrow, popcorn!

SONG: Panic's That Green Gentleman.

You give me peace in a lifetime of war.

I am watching Troy right now. God, I need to concentrate.. Later, mooch. :)

Anyway, I've finished Troy. Yeah, I hate the ending :| I know that I've mentioned before how much I hate those stupid, sappy happy endings. This time, it was an unhappy ending -- still, I was disappointed :| I want Briseis and Achillees (God. How do you spell that stupid thing?) to be together -- FOREVER. I mean Briseis gives him peace in a lifetime of war, right? :))

HOMAAAYGOOOOD. What's happening to ME? I can't just tell everybody that I'm disappointed because there was NO happy ending.. OHMYGOOOD. What's wrong with my brain? UGH.

Oh well. At least I saw Brad Pitt's killer abs.. And.. ERIC BANA. HOMAAAAYGAAAAD. He's so HOTT. :))

YUCK. I'm acting like a whore right now. Forgive me.. Too many boys.. So little space.. HAHA. K, labo. :)) Just give me 5 minutes and everything would be OVER. I promise :)

OHWELL. :)
See you soon :)

SONG: DCFC's The Ice Is Getting Thinner :)

Move over, numbskull.

So, I had my Diagnostic Test in MSA today. And, boy, was it H-A-R-D. It's a hell lot worse than UPCAT. GAAAAHD. My brain's in malfunction mode right now. Seriously. Heck, they made me answer 420 QUESTIONS! After the exam, I was monosyllabic and I had this glassy look in my eyes. I mean, I'm 100% sure that I'm going to flunk the Math part.. Since when did I pass any Math exam?

Anyway, enough of my rants. I know you're getting sick of it. So, we watched the Noli-Fili thing in PETA yesterday. It was F-U-N. The whole batch's there:)) (That's the only thing that made it.. um, fun? :)) Kidding..) The story's G-O-O-D! They made it modern so, we didn't have a hard time identifying who's who.. The TUPER DUPER bad thing was.. MAKARAIG WAS NOT IN THE STORY. GOD. I didn't even yawn the whole, what, 3 hours because I was waiting for MAKARAIG to magically appear in front of me. UGH.

HAHAHA :)) K, I'm making a big deal out of it. :)) I mean, hey, even if Makaraig's only an extra (Well, NOT REALLY. I mean, he did play an important part.. Right?).. It's not everyday you'll see your surname in an infamous novel, right?

Fine. Even if the most essential character in El Fili (Makaraig. Well, for ME, though. HAHA) was chopped off from the story -- I did enjoy the play. They were convincing and.. brilliant.. And as Jodie puts it, "Beeyoootipoool." CLAP CLAP CLAP! Bravo! :))

Yep. Fairly happy now. I LOVE YOU! :)

SONG: The Early November's All We Ever Needed. Been singing it at the back of my mind for a week now :))

Classes are suspended, beeyotch! >:)

Yesiree.. Classes WERE SUSPENDED TODAY! CHEERS! NO PHYSICS TODAAAAY! God, am I relieved. I didn't study for the fucking quiz. Honestly, I hate Physics. I'm beginning to love Trigo more than Physics because of Sir Narvaez :) Man, he's so gooood.

Anyway, when Mrs. Bayle announced the spiffing news, iv1 kids were in MPR-A watching that freaking crude oil whatever for Eco. So, since we couldn't hear what Mrs. Bayle's saying outside because we're inside, Sir Zaraspe was the one who announced that classes were suspended already. HOOOORAY. I was one of the 44 students (well, we're only 44 because Misha's absent..) who screamed "YESSS!!"

NO ECO QUIZ.
NO PHYSICS QUIZ.

Dare to ask for anything else? I feel that God blessed me today. CHEERS, Lord! :)) Great Hormones, kiddo! :))

I still can't find my Eco notebook. Don't worry, I'm not making a big fuss out of it because it's my Eco notebook -- I'm making a big deal out of it because Gego made a list of all her , um, borrow-able books there and I was supposed to check the books that I want to borrow from her. UGH. Then again, I would just have to face the fact that I need to pester her with another list.

Life's getting better.
It's high time too! I was getting bored with my surly attitude. I need my old sun-sunny self back.

SONG: Bowling For Soup's Life After Lisa.
*Speaking of which, a while ago, I was inside the car and my brother was trying to radio-surf.. In 88.3, they were playing a DCFC SOOOONG. HOMAAAAYGAAAAD. They're selling out DCFC -- MY DCFC! This can't be happening! This is a hell lot worse than finding out that Skandar's an atheist! HOMAAAAYGAAAAD *tears, tears, tears* I LOVE BEN! :((
**Be proud of me >:) In less than 30 minutes (I'm sure... Since, I was doing it during Trigo period..) I cooked up a very, well, lengthy and, um, convincing Sulating Impormal.. And, I'm not late in my Eco HW.. And, I'm done with the Synthesis Reflection.. Little Irresponsible Rina sure is growing up! Aren't you proud? I'm so proud of that achievement I can't help but brag. HAHA :))

THIRD POST :))

So, it's my THIRD POST FOR TODAY. HAHA. K, naadik naman ako :)) Anyway, I'm doing the Eco thing right now. It's all thanks to CLAUDETTE DABU. She gave me the guide questions because I lost my Eco notebook. Honestly, I can't remember where I put it. God. I'm too young to have Alzheimers (Is that the proper spelling? Don't wince. I know I suck in spelling.. Then again, you know what I'm talking about, right?) So, anyway, I think I need to eat a lot of peanuts to, um, regain my fresh memory? My short term memory? Whatever.

I still haven't done the Sulating Impormal. But, I swear I would do it today. It's only 4.17 pm. I still have 4 hours to plan everything. :> Haha. Then there's the stupid Synthesis Reflection.. I think I don't want to pass it tomorrow. I would just tell Ampy to pass her Synthesis. She doesn't really have to sabotage her grades by waiting for me. For all we know, I might pass the Synthesis next month.. :))

Sigh. And honestly, why should I even try when everybody thinks that I buried my brain in the backyard? It's so not fun when people stereotype you :| Then again, that's the thrill, right? To prove that they're wrong. Or NOT. :)) Cheers.

Ohwell. I know that you can sense by now that I'm really bored because, hell, I had 3 BLOG POSTS for TODAY. How pitiful is that?

Then again.. I might post a fourth article later on. :)) HAHA.

Bye :)

It's ALL GOOD :)

SECOND POST >:)

After, what, an hour? God. I'm so bored. And I can't even bring myself to get up.. I know.. I'm lazy.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT SYNTHESIS REFLECTION.. But then, I promised Ampy that I would do it. Shit. Too lazy. Don't wanna move :|

SIGH.

Do I really have to do all those stuff just to graduate? UGH. Why can't they let us relax for a while? I mean, have they ever heard the word "RELAX"? They're acting like there's no tomorrow and that the best fucking thing in the world is to freak your students out by giving dunghole-full of requirements, homeworks.. blah blah..

Or maybe there's nothing wrong with them -- maybe there's something wrong.. with me. Oh well. I'm going to do the Sulating Impormal.. Now? Later. Yeah. Maybe after an hour? Or not? Ok, I'm battling with the evil side of my head who's pleading that I shouldn't get up from my very comfortable position...

What should I choose?

Comfort?
Grades?
WHAAAT?

UGH.

Fine. I'm really going to do that bleeding Sulating Impormal. Hmpf.

** Do you know why I'm very eager in blogging? It's because of the new layout! Makes me think that blogging is a whole new different adventure! :)) chuckles. toodles.. whatever. :))

Tic-Toc-Tic-Toc

So much to do -- so little TIME. I'm really starting to appreciate Mr. Time. HONESTLY. Since I've procrastinated for too long.. I'm CRAMMING right now. Well, at least I finished ONE homework already (and, I'm NOT late :D) Fuck. Come to think of it.. I also need to do the fucking Sulating Impormal.. Fuck Fuck Fuck.. I'm, what, a month late? UGH. What's happening to me? I've been preoccupied with something super unimportant and look what's going on in my, um, Academics Life.

And then there's this shitty Synthesis Reflection. Fucker. Who wants to do that? God. I don't even know what to do with that load of... UGH. Ok, ok. I know that I need to prioritize stuff.. I mean when I heard that we're havin a FOUR-DAY-WEEKEND I got too excited. I forgot all about those other school obligations.

I NEED to get serious with my studies now. Like, REALLY. The thing is, I don't know HOW to start. And, really, I think that it wouldn't change anything at all -- so, what's the point? God. I hate those bleeding homeworks.. It makes me want to pull the hair out of somebody's armpits and shove it inside my mouth. UGH. YUCK. I know :)) I was just kidding. I WOULDN'T DO THAT.

Yep. Rants. Rants. Rants. I couldn't live without it. It's a part of me.. I think it completes me. I mean, hello, imagine Rina without any ranting.. There's no point in living, right? :)) HAHA. :))

Fine. Now, I'm wating for some classmates to turn up in YM so that I could ask them about the bloody Eco HW. I might just type it since I CAN'T FIND my bleeding Eco notebook. :| UGH. And, you wonder why Seniors get too grouchy..

Oh Well. Talk to you TOMORROW. Like, LIVE. :)

P.S. I'm so excited on the 22nd! We're going to watch a play and -- CLASSES are SHORTENED :)) COOOOOOL.

SONG: Breaking Benjamin's Forget It. Gaaaaawd, I love this song :)) *teary-eyed* brings back ALL the GOOD memories.. *sniffs* :))

Why so serious?

I know that I'm, what, a month late.. but, honestly, who cares? I WATCHED BATMAN TODAY! Boy, Heath Ledger's a MAGIC. He's definitely the Joker-type of guy. I mean, with all that makeup, and yeah, his very convincing attitude, no wonder The Dark Knight's a humongous success. He's very convincing.. All that time he's on screen and doing those "Why so serious?" lines, I was freaking out and I was really trying to hide the paranoia sweeping over me (like some psycho's going to strangle me and bite my head off.. like, LITERALLY..) Tsk. Too bad he's dead -- it's such a waste of pure talent.

On the other hand, I've a problem about Christian Bale being Batman.. Honestly, I think he's , well, not very attractive, although I must say that he has a very hot body *drools* Anyway, I mean, hello, George Clooney became Batman.. Take a look at George Clooney's gorgeous everything.. Now, take a look at Christian Bale.. Um, notice any difference? I'm not being mean or anything.. All I'm saying is that... FINE.. Christian Bale's body's so hot but.. UGH. NEVER MIND. Forget I said anything.

ANYWAY, on something very different.. Have you noticed anything new in this blog site? Have you noticed the very different colors? It's no longer GREEN :) and guess WHO edited everything.. Got that one right, honey -- MOI. It's really my first time to edit something.. REALLY. I bothered Chezca and she said that it's easy.. And I asked her how to do it.. Guess what her reply is: Self-study lang yan. So, I pulled myself up and patiently studied how to put my name and tagboard and everything in the bloody blog-code.. And, lo and behold, my hardwork resulted to this :) Not too shabby, right? First time's GOOD :)

BTW, my ECO notebook's missing. Please tell me if you know where it is.. PLEASE. :| I can't do my stupid homework because I don't have my notebook.

SONG: Greenday's Holiday :)

stop talking in riddles

everything has a reason it exists.

like this blog for example, maybe it's still here to tell jodie that yeah, i miss her too already and that i'm bored big time right now..

i know that there's somebody out there who has more fucked up problems than i. and i'm betting odessa's butt that they're a hell lot braver than me. ugh. i just want to run away most of the times. i mean, hello, have you seen my eyebags? they're so dark! have you glanced at my forehead? zits! stress is eating me out. i couldn't think properly anymore. and yeah, i know, i've been bitchy the past few months (ask pipi..) well, anyway, since i'm typing with extreme feelings right now, i might as well apologize for acting, well, unforgivably. give me a mo and i'm sure (well, i hope) that i'm going to be ok again. and i mean, really ok.

honestly, i'm scared. i don't know what's going on with me right now. this is something really new. this is the first time i felt something like this (i mean, extreme paranoia. extreme greed..) :| it's freaking me out, to be brutally frank. well, i know there's an antidote somewhere. give me a couple of months to figure that out and cure myself. ok? :)

ok. i'm good. i'm fine.

song: the ballad of peter pumpkinhead by the crash test dummies :) really fun song.

UGH.

it's a good thing exam's over.. i had a movie date with my brother today and we watched you don't mess with the zohan :)) it was funny. honestly, it's so full of green jokes.. then again..

anyway. school tomorrow.
not in the mood.
found out something.
freaking out bigtime.
can't get it out of my head.
getting depressed all over again. :|
might cry soon.
emotional outbursts must be from period.
really sad at the moment.
want to see friends.
need to talk to them.


song: still humming nolita fairytale.

i found some kind of fairytale

it's over. it's done.. no farewells, no anything.. just a word. over.

i guess i can breathe again. after two weeks of uncertainties, incertitudes, doubts, and even false hopes, i guess i'm f-r-e-e again.

i've said before that there are other worlds to sing in.. my only problem is that whenever i start to hum, i mess it up by humming something irritatingly off-key. i can't find the proper tune. i don't know when to start and when to end. i don't know if i should begin with something upbeat or something more serious.

ever since i was a kid, i had a problem with tempo and beat. i can't say the difference between a 4/4 and a 2/4 time signature. they're all the same to me. just like now, i don't know if i'm in the middle of a long piano piece, or if i'm half-way a tear-jerking funeral march (humming, most probably), or if i'm just singing things by myself.

Ugh. College. School. Pure torture. I just want to run away and not look back. I want to throw away this heavy load I'm carrying and forget that I ever started this journey.

I know I'm longing for things I wouldn't and I couldn't have. But, these stuff are the only reasons why I still act sane around you guys.. It couldn't be helped. It's either insanity or these hopeless fantasies.. Then again, what's the difference?

Life's bound to get better. Soon.

Song: Vanessa Carlton's Nolita Fairytale :)

yes, life is good.

in my clock, it's already 2.05 in the morning.. so, happy august 2, love! :)) god, i am in a very, very, very good mood >:) seriously! i didn't even get annoyed this day (well, yesterday, actually. because it's already aug. 2 and i'm talking about aug. 1.. labo.) anyway, let's make an arrangement.. when i say "today" it means august 1, k? :)

anyway, i am in a very good mood. i didn't even get annoyed today (well, minus research time.. i was so hungry then, i yelled at eryel and odessa. sorry. my bad.) well, besides that, it has been a wonderful and lovely aug. 1 :) life is so gooooood :) let's embrace it and welcome all the blessings showered upon us.. okaaaay. i sound like a goofy priest. then again, who could blame a infatuation-struck kid? >:) figure that out :)

i hate iv1's friday schedule :( you are free to figure that out. whhhy? :)) i know i'm talking non-sense here, but, i'm really, really, really happy and i don't have plans to burst my euphoric bubble. :)

ugh. i know. you don't get what i'm saying. still. i'm allowed to show and type my emotions, right? i'm just expressing my, um, happiness. k? :)) talk to you soon, horndog :)

aaaah. i've noticed that jodie hasn't updated my blog -- yet. and, i'm getting impatient. hahaha. demanding. :))

song: forever the sickest kid's she's a lady.. been singing that for a week now.. :)