I Just Feel Helpless, How Long Will This Take To Wear Off?

I found out today that my 2nd favorite-est band in the whole wide world is FINALLY coming here in the Philippines.  They were supposed to have a concert here last October 2011 but it got cancelled.. I don't know why.  If you know me, you would know what band I'm talking about.  Well, okay, for those who do not know.  I'm yapping about Sum 41.

Last September, we were told that our block's going to be reshuffled.  When it was announced, I just broke down into embarrassing and loud sobs.  I was genuinely depressed.  I mean, I can't imagine myself hanging out with a different block or something, I want to graduate with 4CA5.  So, anyway, when I found that Sum 41's a part of the line up for Smash Project 2013..  that was the same feeling I felt.  I got.. Sad.  I got all teary-eyed and I had this heavy feeling in my heart.  (OA kung OA pero, fuck, I really love Sum 41!) If you're raising your eyebrows and thinking, "The fuck.  She says it's her 2nd favorite band..  Why did she get sad? She should be happy!" the thing is..  I don't like the line up for Smash Project 2013.  I listen to Miss May I, Chunk! No, Captain Chunk!, Of Mice & Men..  But, fuck it, I am not a fan.  I mean, I wouldn't throw a tantrum if I didn't get to see them play live.  You know what I'm saying?  So, anyway, the point is..  If I buy a ticket for Smash Project 2013.. It wouldn't be worth it because I'm just after Sum 41.  Do you finally get now why I got sad when I found out that they're one of the bands for SP2013?

As of this moment, I'm slowly trying to accept that I wouldn't see them play.. Ever.  Unless I migrated to the United States or something.  I feel bad.  I think I would cry later.  Seriously.  Naiiyak talaga ako.  Omg.  I really, really, really want to see them.  I was able to see Death Cab For Cutie.. I just need to see Sum 41.  I need to see them.  Fuck, bakit ba kasi sumama pa sila sa Smash Project.  Okay na yung last year eh.  Tas sa may Makati din lang.  Fuck.  I'm really close to tears. 

Heart Beats Harder, Time Escapes Me.

I spent the whole day downloading random One Direction videos.  So far, this is my favorite Zayn Malik video:

He's so motherfucking gorgeous.. The way he smiles, the way he bites his lower lip, the way his eyes crinkle when he laughs..  It makes me giggle and it makes my knees go wobbly.  This is embarrassing but.. What the hell, okay.  I like him a lot!  Huhuhu!  If you don't believe me, watch the video -- if that didn't turn you into a Zayn Malik supporter..  I don't know what will.

So, these are some recent photos of him.  Sometimes I just stare at it and then I grin like an idiot because, well, in my head..  You know what?  I won't tell you what's in my head.  Mehehe.

Omg huhuhu. I just can't stop fantasizing about him. o_o

#LittleThingsIsPerfect

One Direction released their new single from their Take Me Home Album -- Little Things!

It was written by Ed Sheeran and it sounds different from their usual upbeat-y songs.  I think it's perfect, though.  It's beautiful, it makes sense, and the lads.. Sang them perfectly!  I can't wait for the official music video! Omg!

I'll Find The Words To Say Before You Leave Me Today.

I am currently obsessed with Moments by One Direction.  It was written by Ed Sheeran so.. It has substance.  I read somewhere that this was about clinging on to someone who died.  When I reread the lyrics, yeah, it made more sense.

Listen to Niall and Louis' parts.. It's amazing.  I am a Zayn and Niall fanatic but, Jesus, I love Louis' voice the most.  It's so relaxing to hear!  It's like cigarettes on a bread!

A couple more days before they release Little Things!  Are you excited?  Well, you should be!  I am!

Anyway, these are some of the pictures in their website. You could download it there too! Look what I've been doing!  I'm so obsessed right now, they're all I'm thinking and talking about.

Zayn and Niall are so gorgeous. I can't even... Omggggg!!!

No You're Not Hardcore Unless You Live Hardcore.

Schadenfreude?

I learned that new word from my best friend.  She asked that after I tweeted, "Isn't it weirdly (and embarrassingly) comforting when someone's life is more fucked up than yours?"  Schadenfreude is exactly like that.  It's a term used when you laugh and you find contentment on the failures and misfortunes of others.  I'm not trying to be the antichrist here or something but..  I really feel good when someone I hate gets hurt or gets really unlucky or something.  Oh don't give me that look, I know you do too!  That's the thing, I'm not being plastic or I'm not trying to look good..  I'm saying it as it is.  I have this raw fulfillment when someone I loathe gets depressed or down.  I prefer emotional pain, if you want to know.  Physical pain.. Well, bruises fade.  But emotional distress?  C'mon!  That's the most satisfying of all the kinds of hurt there is!  Imagine your nemesis crawling somewhere dark, clutching his/her heart, sobbing softly.  Isn't it gratifying?

I know it's wrong and really twisted.. but.. Oh, what the hell. I'm not even going to defend myself.  I know you feel this way too.  You might try hard to ignore the satisfaction you feel when you see someone hurting or what.. But, deep down, oh, I know you're dancing the conga and celebrating.

This is not something I'm entirely proud of because it makes me look like a spawn of Satan.  But, that's the thing.  I just have the guts to say the things we all feel anyway.  So, that doesn't really make me the antichrist.  It just makes me.. Honest.

(So much hatred, I'm sorry.  It's that time of the month again. -_-)

Octogenarian.

This was taken last Sunday for my grandma's surprise 85th birthday!  Unfortunately, Yo wasn't able to come because he had 3 final examinations last Monday.  Sucks.  It would've been funner if he was there!

Is my dad a cutie pie or whaaaat?

God, I've missed them so much!

SEMESTRAL BREAK.. ENOUGH SAID.

Ano Kaya 'To?

Our group didn't win but the two other groups from 4CA5 won!!! I'm so shit-freaky happy!  Plus, it's the end of the first semester.. So, that's something to cheer about, right?

This is us before we went inside San Sebastian's Auditorium.

4CA5 all the way!!

This is us minus Paolo and Mariam (who were both lazy, they were just sitting on the chairs)

B-FAM!!!

And there's a new member of the B-Fam.. Baby Betlog... HAHAHAHAHA. Awful joke.

(ALL PICTURES ARE EITHER FROM NIKKI YAMBAO OR GIAH TAWAG! :-) )

IMC Quest 2012.

4CA5 won in Best Strategy and Best in Collateral.... I forgot.  It was really long!  Anyway, all pictures are from my IMC prof (Sir Ruel Ferrer) and Giah Tawag!  Funny story, on Thursday, I slept at Alexa's house in Taguig.  Friday, I slept at Eboy's.  Tonight, thank God, I would be sleeping on my own bed.. at the dorm.  Missed my comforter!  Hahahaha!

4CA5 before the IMC Quest! Can you see Quimbo?  He was wearing my shirt and my spare Chucks. HAHAHAHA!

4CA5 after the IMC Quest!

Waiting for the event to start!