We're Perfectly Intertwined.

I was organizing my wallet and I saw these pictures:

I miss these little fuckers.

I can't believe we won't get to hang out in a vacant room around AB anymore.

#SEPANX hahahahaha

Oh, Don't Let Me See You Crying.

Good Morning, Starshine from monkeyculture on 8tracks Radio.

Surely you would listen to this great mixtape compiled by yours truly?  If we have the same taste in music (which is AWESOME), I recommend that you finish this compilation.  I promise that it would be worth your while!

Anyway, here's the tracklist:

·         Blinding Light – Jethro Fox

·         Vestige – Pair of Arrows

·         1997 – Saint Motel

·         Doses and Mimosas – CHERUB

·         The Flower Lane – Ducktails

·         Pilgrim – MØ

·         Ode to Viceroy – Mac DeMarco

·         Fog of War – Young Dreams

·         Rachael  - Luke Reed

·         Arabella – Crystal Bats

·         Untitled – Fibes, Oh Fibes!

·         Take A Piece Of Me – Bridge Underwater

·         You Only Want It ‘Cause You’re Lonely – Parlovr

·         The Fix Is In – Ok Go

·         Rivers and Roads – The Head and the Heart

·         Midnight City – M83

·         Fiction – The xx

·         We Should Go To France – Urban Cone

·         Falling – Haim

·         You Don’t Want to See Me – Moon Pollen

·         Bitten By The Bug – Skelocrats

·         All Your Answers Will Be Question – Wild Wants

·         Let Her Go – Passenger

·         In The Open – Benjamin Francis Leftwich

·         Anastasia – A Silent Film

·         Miracle Mile – Cold War Kids

·         Dropla – Youth Lagoon

·         22 – Night Beds

·         H – Air Review

·         House By The Sea – Moddi

·         Elation – Isbells

·         Song for Zula – Phosphorescent

·         Alleyways – The Neighbourhood

·         Of Space and Time – City and Colour

·         News – The Novel Ideas

Make me happy and listen to this shit I made!  Mind, that's the third one I made.  Gah.  I wish I could make a career out of this.  I mean, it's pretty decent, right?  Plus, I made everything easier for you!  All you have to do is click the play thing up there and it would play!

Now, I'm A Fat House Cat Nursing My Sore Blunt Tongue.

Today is my mommy's birthday!  We would just probably buy ribs or what today.  We would properly celebrate when Yo's home.  The cute thing is, even if it's her birthday, my mom asked my permission if it's okay for me to buy ribs or crispy pata or what and then have the celebration when Yo's around.  Hihihi.  I said, of course.  I mean, it's her birthday - plus, truth be told, I would probably be the one to choose the restaurant we would be eating at when we finally eat out.  Hihihi.

Although, I sort of feel bad because I've been a bitch this day.  In my defense, I was sleepy and groggy and shit.  Haaaay.  My mom doesn't deserve that treatment, though.  I was being a total bitch and she was just sweet and stuff and, you know, it's also her birthday.

I'll make it up to her, I promise!

"If No One Fought Except On His Own Conviction, There Would Be No Wars."

I started reading this baby yesterday afternoon (evening?  Around 7.30?) and..  Omg.  So far, so good.  It's bloody freakin' wonderful!  I swear I would finish this within the week.  There are a hell-lot of talking about Russian culture, it's a good thing I'm sort of aware with most of their social culture (especially the elite and the common people) since I read Natasha's Dance by Orlando Figes (and I really like Russia so I read a lot of articles regarding their history and stuff.  I even told my mom that I really want to live in Russia and learn Russian.  That sort of makes me a geek, huh.  BUT, in my defense, they have a really colorful and interesting history and culture!) three years ago.

Anyway, I'm excited to finish reading this book so I could gush about it and make a really long feedback and review about ittttt!

Bite Me.

In all the years that I've known you and am "friends" with you, you would've think that (by now) I would love you and "trust" you.. but, honestly, honey, I can't - I don't.  I just thank God that I wouldn't get to see your freaking face everyday.  I don't like you.  You treat me like some kind of back-up and you make me feel inferior.  I don't do back-up's so, excuse me you fucking loser.

As my favorite movie puts it, "My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone; in fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others."  

So, screw me for saying that I don't wish the best for you.

Sayonara, motherfucker.

It Takes A While To Settle Down My Ship Of Hopes.

SPOILER ALERT!!

So, I just finished watching the season finale of TVD season 4... And I guess it's final - Klaus wouldn't return to season 5.  He wouldn't.  Caroline would be with Tyler (since Klaus was an angel and he let Tyler go back to Mystic Falls.)  And Klaus would be in New Orleans.  (Just so you know, I'm listening to The National's Terrible Love while typing this so..  God, the ache in my heart is overwhelming) Back to the point, Klaroline is over.  And..  I still can't get that fact wrapped around my head.  I'm at the point of my life where I just want to deny an unfavorable ending and pretend like it didn't/it's not happen/happening.  I know the whole Klaroline Fandom is weeping with me..  Actually, Klaroline is the best thing that happened to TVD.  What, with all the Damon-Elena-Stefan drama..  Klaroline was a breath of fresh air.

I don't want them to be together but I like how they are! They became friends for pete's sake!

The weird thing is - I don't think I can stop watching TVD (even if they murdered my heart with the injustice of breaking the Klaroline set-up I've grown accustomed of) because.. Katherine's already human, Silas threw Stefan in the falls thingy, and Bonnie's dead.  So, see, there are many scenes to look forward to.

I need another week to get over these recent turn of events.  Curse you TVD writers for toying with my frail and delicate heart.

Jesus.

I Won't Follow You Into The Rabbit Hole.

As you all know, there's going to be a spin-off series related to The Vampire Diaries (duh, that's why it's called a spin-off) called The Originals.  It would tackle the original vampires.  Klaus would leave Mystic Falls and move to New Orleans.  Team Klaroline is over.  Actually, it would be okay for me if Caroline moved with him but..  I dunno.  Klaus impregnated Hayley and Hayley's already a main role in the spin-off so..  We'll see.  I don't know.  

Why are these writers toying with my fragile emotions?  I've been listening all day to The Nationa's Terrible Love because everything's breaking my heart.  There's a pang of sadness, see.  Huhuhu.  I never shipped someone this hard!

Watch this video.  It's S04E20.  It already focused on The Originals.. Klaus, mainly.

Omg did you hear that?  That's my heart being crumpled and stabbed  into a bajillion pieces.

Please, just leave me alone and let me drown on my misery.  This would take me a few days (until the season finale, of course.  I hope the season finale wouldn't disappoint.)

P.S. Actually, if you want to join me in my pain READ THIS.

If We Weren't So Alike, You'd Like Me A Whole Lot More.

Like what I've said a bajillion posts ago - this is always gonna be my song for my mom.

I love her and I would move any freakin' mountain for her.

Happy Mother's Day, Mommy.  I haven't made you proud yet but, we have time, wait for it.

Happy Mom's Day to your mothers as well.

(I am talking like this right now because I'm emotionally unstable at the moment because of TVD.  They are going to freakin' end Klaroline.  Klaus won't probably return on Season 5 and it's killing me!  It's freakin' killing me!  I haven't loved a pair this much since Chair circa 2007.  I'm so sad right now.  I don't want Klaroline to end.  I mean, it's the only reason why I'm watching TVD.  If it weren't for them - I would've stopped a long time ago.  Omg I am so sad!  So sad!)

Yeah, They'll Talk, Maybe Even Sing.

I've been in love with Passion Pit's Constant Conversations since Monday.  I cannot stop listening to it.  It's on loop every time I plug my iPod or whenever I'm online or using my laptop.  This song makes me smile and have a goofy grin on my face.

On something different, I've been feeling a little blue since we got home.  I don't know why I started having a sore throat and my nose started dripping.  Before you know it, I'm stuck in the bed the whole day.  Since I've been bedridden and shit, I started catching up on some of the TV series's I watch like Modern Family and The Vampire Diaries.  

Don't start judging me - the plot of TVD is actually pretty good!  Plus, let us not forget the sex god that is Joseph Morgan - Klaus Mikaelson, for that matter.  I don't really have a crush on him, actually, I'm not even remotely attracted to him (even if he is indeed one hot and gorgeous son of a gun.  And please, let us not forget the British accent) but when I see Joseph Morgan act as Klaus..  I start grinning like some 15-year-old kid who first discovered porn...  Or who had his first kiss (if you are prude and you didn't like my previous example.)  Anyway, back to the point, Klaus is so adorable whenever he acts all high and mighty (see: asshole) then suddenly gets all cute and stuff with Caroline.  I mean, are you getting me?  Caroline doesn't even like him (although they're beginning to be close friends, much to my delight!)  There's no use in denying it - I am a Klaroline fan!  To be honest, though, (my fellow Klaroline fans, please don't hate me) I don't want them to be together.  There I said it.  Now, I need to find an umbrella before the stone-hurling starts.  But, meh, whatever.  I don't want Klaus and Caroline to end up together because it would get all cheesy and stuff.  I mean, it's okay now that Klaus is chasing Caroline and Caroline can just see him as an awful bastard and a friend..  But, if they become a couple - I don't think I could take the mush.  I mean, like Elena..  Whenever she's with one of the Salvatore brothers and then they start cuddling or saying I love you and shit..  Seriously, I get cringe-y!  Truth be told, whenever it's one of her cheesy scenes, I always unconsciously end up on tumblr - I would reblog stuff and blog or stalk people.  If I hear that it's no longer the scene, I watch again.  I don't even plan these things!  I just get bored, you know?  Although, I may be a little biased because I seriously hate Elena with a burning passion.  I want to gut her and feed her own intestine to her, you know?

Anyway, please pray for me to have a job or something.  I really need to find a sign because I have no direction in life.  Ugh.

They Love You When They Need You.

(My dad got out of the hospital today!  Then there's a blackout rollout thing.. whatever.  Screw them politicians.  Whatever.  So fucking pressured to find a job soon.)

Right Back Where You Came From You're A Pendulum.

Happy 21st birthday to one of the four most important people in my life who forgot my birthday last March.

May grudge pala.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Kidding aside, happy birthday Eryel.  I know you wouldn't see this 'cause you no longer blog but, what the hell, right?

It was a good 6 years - let's make more memories!

It All Began To Feel Insane, I Wanna Know Where They Keep The Rain.

(SPOILER ALERT - well, sort of)

I just finished reading The Great Gatsby and oh my fucking god - I loved it.  I freakin' loved it.  I'm a sucker for unhappy endings.  Don't look at me like that, I didn't plan this.  I just noticed that I prefer the sporadic sad endings than the usual happy stuff.  I'm not even trying to sound like the anti-Christ here or anything, I'm just stating a fact.  

Anyway, if you haven't read The Great Gatsby yet - Jay Gatsby is going to die.  I told you I'm going to spoil something, not my fault you continued reading.  So, where was I before I rudely interrupted myself?  Oh, yeah, so, Gatsby is going to die.  Well, that's not probably the depressing part - see, when he was alive he often holds parties and shit in his mansion.  Many people would go there and party their asses off (I'm not entirely going to tell the story.  I'm just stating some of the details necessary for this little post of mine)  Producers, actresses, drunkards - they're all there to attend Gatsby's lavish parties.  But, when he died - only four people came.  (That, my dear friends, is the sad part)  The people who went to his elaborate parties and shit - they didn't go to his funeral.  Carraway tried contacting a business partner of his but he said he didn't want to get caught up with murder and shit.  It's really kind of depressing, isn't it?  But, I loved it.  Like, Jesus-I'm-Freakin'-Gonna-Read-This-Book-Again love!  No, I'm not trying to sound cool or shit by saying I like something that most people would consider devastating or saddening or shit.  I just..  Love it.  Jesus Christ, the novella got me all intoxicated and shit.  I've never felt this for a long time.  I think the last time I had this giddy feeling about a book was the moment I finished reading V For Vendetta (it doesn't really have a blissful ending, either), what, four or five years ago.

I know I'm going to end up like Jay Gatsby.  And the (maybe) unhappy part is that this fact doesn't seem to faze or bother me.  I just know I'm going to end up like Gatsby.  No one would come to my funeral and shit.  If I'm lucky, maybe there'll be three people there.  Are you getting me?  No, of course you don't.  Gah.  I'm not really explaining myself properly, huh?  But, what the heck - all you need to know is that I don't care if someone or nobody comes to my funeral.  Well, there was a time (way back in high school) that this situation made me bawl but these days..  I just don't care.  In all honesty, The Great Gatsby made me happy because Jay and I would experience (in his case: experienced) the same thing.  He has a lot of acquaintances and shit (so do I) but, think about it, among those people - did he really know who cared or who just, in some ways, used him to have a good time?  People are selfish creatures - they don't care about anything.  You're lucky if you find someone who would cross the ocean for you.  (Lucky for me I have two)  But, those other people? They don't give a rat's ass about you.  Look, I'm not even murderous or suicidal right now.  If you could see my face while I'm typing this, I'm calm and just stating things as they are.  I'm actually at peace with this idea.

Well, just read The Great Gatsby.  Maybe it would inspire you to live or what.  (Can I just say that I don't like the thought of Jay Gatsby pining over Daisy - for five fucking years.  I mean, are you fucking kidding me right now?  All that for a bitch who didn't even go to your fucking funeral which, I might add, in my opinion, was her own fault anyway?  I thought it was just a tad bit pathetic that Gatsby was clinging on to the idea of Daisy and him living together happily and shit, you know?  Or that's just me.  I hate Daisy.  I want to motherfucking stab her to death until she chokes on her own saliva and die.)

On something different, my dad got confined at UERM last Tuesday.  He had an operation yesterday.  My mom and I will stay at the house this weekend.  Yo would look after Itay this weekend.

He was still making his awful and corny jokes even if he's confined.  Why he's still happy and stuff - I would never understand.  Anyway, apart from the fact that my dad had an operation (I really hope it heals soon, you know?) I love staying at hospitals!  Since we don't have a maid anymore, I'm relaxed at the hospital.  It was actually a mini-vacation for me.  Hehehehe.  Hmmm, we hope to get discharged next Tuesday.  I hope my dad gets well soon.  Seriously.  As much as I love hospital food and the overnight part - he is still our priority, see.  Plus, I know that he's itching to go back to work.

Let me know what you've been up to, yes?  :-)