Sitting On The Curb And It's Hot Tonight.

It's been an.. interesting year. I received my plot twist like the second week of August. It's kind of complicated but, Idk, we're working things out 'cause I think this is worth it naman. I hope I'm not wrong.

Still in med school but in a different school. No regrets because we're fewer and professors get to focus on their students. SOOOOOO I'm doing okay.

Christmas is near! I have a one month break! Downside is I'll see pa the person I miss the most after a month. Although HAHA super kilig last Monday and Tuesday. He drove me to the condo on Monday and then he surprised visited me on Tuesday. Pakshet my pusong bato melted. So ayun lang naman. Chika soon.

Day 13: One Of Your Favorite 70's Songs.

Cheating again. I put 4 songs instead of 1 lol.

Day 12: A Song You Love From 2011.

Back in 2011, I was really into Deas Vail. So, here are two of my favorite DV songs:

This is live and OMG it sounds just like the one from their records!

We celebrated my lola's 90th today! Will post photos maybe tomorrow. Lol!

Day 11: A Song That You Never Get Tired Of.

Omg I got so obsessed with this song back in 2012! And up to this day, I still get excited whenever I hear it. I can keep it on loop for daaaaays without getting tired of it!

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I've been very open my stand against abortion. I'm not pro-abortion. But I've been thinking recently - how about the people who got raped? If they didn't abort the kid, it would just be a painful reminder of the traumatizing shit that happened to them.

Anyway, I'm still against abortion and I think it's because of my faith. See, I believe that when the sperm cell meets the egg cell - it's already a kid. That small squishy ball is already a kid. I believe in that. But, in some cultures, they believe in other things; like reincarnation, and that a child is only considered a child if it's born - if it pops out of the mother's womb. So, I can't judge them for that, right? I mean, I can't shove my beliefs down their throats. 

And that's how I see abortion now - it depends on your beliefs, I guess. I'm still a little shaky regarding the baby made out of rape. A person can't be blamed 100% if she aborted the kid, right? I mean, what about her emotional welfare? Can someone enlighten me on this one, please?

Tough Times Don't Last, Tough People Do.

I love, looooooove watching old Hollywood films (1940's-1960's era.) I love how they used to talk. I love how everyone's experimenting with film so everything's kind of fresh. And I think the actresses and actors were really gorgeous! My favorites are Audrey Hepburn (obvs), Rita Hayworth, Humphrey Bogart, and my ultimate bae - Gregory Peck.

I mean.. DUUUUUUDE.

Roughly 2 weeks before school starts and I renewed my love for Gregory Peck. I finished watching Spellbound the other day and The Million Pound Note (omg this is really entertaining! I loved it!) yesterday. I'm currently watching Only The Valiant.

Omg he's so dreamy. And can I just say that I wouldn't mind drowning in his voice? It's so sexy!! He's an excellent actor and it's just a bonus that he's very easy on the eyes.

I'm planning on watching The Snows of Kilimanjaro and The Gunfighter after Only The Valiant. Will tell you how it goes.

I Hope That We Will Never Regret Seeing Sinners Of The Night.

I will continue my 30 days of music shit some other time. God, I'm so lazy.

Anyway, the last few weeks were okay. I'm learning how to drive. I don't get why it's such a hassle for my dad because I'm enjoying it. Hmmm - maybe it's because I'm kaladkarin.

I miss my med school and high school friends so much. Things are going to change this coming school year. But, I don't think about it too much. I don't allow myself to be sad. If I start thinking about it, I know I'm going to dwell on the depressing parts so I just shrug things off and hope for the best.

It's so weird. I actually miss studying. Lol. I miss connecting shit together and finally figuring out why this certain disease is deadly or what makes it contagious. It's taking me a really long time but I swear I'm going to be a doctor. I'm going to be one and there's no one in this world who could tell me I won't be one. They could all just suck my imaginary dick. (I can't emphasize enough how I love my parents because they are so supportive. I owe my life to them. They really are my parent-chute.)

I'm currently reading The Gates by John Connolly. So far, so good. It's about a boy who witnessed the gates of hell opening up (and no one believing him when he tells the adults about it.) I'm loving it so far but I'm at a snail's pace reading it. I'm halfway through, though.

It's 11 in the evening. I'm going to get some shut-eye soon. Will update more often.

Day 10: A Song That Makes You Sad.

Oh my god, this is a challenging one. There are a lot of songs that make me sad!

So, today I'm going to post some songs (hehe cheating again. I can't just post one song!) that I've been listening to and, you know, giving me the feels. Lol.

I'm not really into the lyrics kind of girl, so I usually base the sad songs on the melody and how it sounds. Hehe.

Omg this was used in TVD. I think it was the scene where Klaus went to New Orleans. Huhuhu. I love him and Caroline so much!

These are some favorites. I hope you enjoy it!

Day 9: A Song That Makes You Happy.

I can't sing this without any head banging and dance moves!

Day 8: A Song About Drugs Or Alcohol.

Doses and Mimosas by CHERUB. I actually got obsessed with this song when I was a senior in college lol. It's very upbeat! You won't be able to stop singing it!

Day 7: A Song To Drive To.

Do I really have to explain why this is the perfect song to drive to?

Day 6: A Song That Makes You Want To Dance.

Day 5: A Song That Needs To Be Played Loud.

Four years after first hearing this - I'm still in love with this song!

(It feels like I'm cheating but I can't possibly choose just one song for this category. So, I'm posting another Needs To Be Played Loud song!!)

I hope you enjoy these babes!

Day 4: A Song That Reminds You Of Someone You Would Rather Forget About.

My song for broken relationships (friendships, family relationships, etc.)

Day 3: A Song That Reminds You Of Summer Time.

Well, this one's fairly easy. 

This is my favorite summer song:

Every summer break, I get excited to blast it because YAY it sort of signals the start of summer for me! It also reminds me of Aquamarine. I first heard it there. Lol.

So, I hope you're having an aces summer!

It's my dad's 56th today! He bought palabok first then told us that he'll celebrate when the weather's finally nice and dandy. It was raining really hard earlier today and he didn't want to get stranded and shit. Anyway, cheers!

Day 2: A Song You Like With A Number In The Title.

Rainy nights with starry skies vibes. 

I miss my med school barkada :-(

Day 1. You'll Make Dust From Gold.

To make me update everyday, I've decided to use this 30 Day Music Challenge! It's pretty self-explanatory so I won't go into any more details hihi.

So for Day 1, the song I chose is:

It's kind of melancholic but omg I love this song so much. It makes me think about rainy days. I hope you enjoy it as well! 

Shadows Fill My Mind Up.

Since 2012, I've been joining the Goodreads Reading Challenge. You have to assign a certain number of books that you're supposed to read for the whole year. I've been successful since 2012. I used to, like, promise to read 20 books in a year (then it would be a feat when I surpass that 20 books) but ever since I started in Med School, I usually just promise to read, 5-10 novels a year.

The summer break is treating me quite nicely. I've been drowning myself in books (and I'm glad to say I'm DONE with my Goodreads Reading Challenge 2017! I promised to read 5 and as of this moment, I was able to read 22, not including some novels that I decided to reread.) It's cathartic for me to read because I tend to forget how I'm failing in life. 

I'm just so humiliated for my parents. They are the best and they don't deserve this kind of humiliation. Forget about me, I could take care of myself. I could take all the punches and the hits. It's just that I know most of my parent's friends and colleagues and they could be judgmental as fuck. (Serves me right, huh? I'm quite a judgmental person myself.)

I'm 25 and I haven't achieved anything. When I was a kid, I thought by the time I'm 25 - I'm already ruling the world. Tough luck. Hay nako.

Maybe it's not my time right now but I know (I hope) I could make my parents proud of me someday.

It Hurts Alone But Don't You Worry, I'm Coming Home.

This song is the shizznit. I kid you not.

LIFE IN BULLETS:

• I might change schools. God I was so unlucky with the circumstances handed out to me.
• With that in mind, all frustrations aside, I'm okay. Comparing my reaction from last year's bad news (I didn't attend Church for 2 months because I was so fucking mad), I'm handling things fairly well. I realized that there are some things that I just can't control which leads me to number 3.
• I think my anti-depressants helped my chill as fuck calm nature (and my non-suicidal thoughts), I've been taking anti-depressants the last 7 months and I've been seeing a Psychiatrist. All stigmas aside, it's been of great help! I'm calmer and happier. Seriously. I usually get melancholic feelings from the simplest things but these days.. I'm happier. I even get to kid around when I have bad news at the back of my mind.
• The only sad part (if I do transfer schools) I'll miss my friends so much. But then again, thank god they're clerks already. So, at least, when I'm feeling really nostalgic and down, I could just think that they're really busy (and not dwell on the fact that I'm in a different school.)
• All's good!
• I didn't update last May. It was fun. We went to Bicol! Patrick Torres- BEST HOST EVER.

Will talk more soon when I actually have something to say. Lol.

Bi-COOL 2017

Bicol with my lovelies! Thanks for the Torres family for hosting!

CALAGUAS IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL! I'm not a beach person but daaaaamn! 🌊 

I forgot to bring extra shorts so I wore my boxers while riding an ATV HAHAHAHA. Buwis buhay si Z dun.

Random photos all from Z!

Let Your Words Ring Out.

I turned 25 yesterday. It was meh but I wasn't really getting my hopes up since I found out my parents wouldn't come to the condo. Can't stop thinking about the feedback tomorrow. 

I Feel Like I'm Falling Deeper Everyday.

This song is aces.

Hey, can you do me a favor? Even if you don't believe that there's a God or an Allah or a higher being. can you please pray for me to pass all my classes this second semester? I've been trying so hard and I don't what I'm doing wrong but.. ughhh. Anyway, please, please, please? I'll owe you big time. I promise.

Happy Palentines!

Happy "Palentines" Day with (some of) my favorite friends from my favorite batch! ;-)

I hope you had a great one too. ;-)

Say It In My Head.

When They Fight, They Fight.

Chill/Good Vibes song because I'm so fucking pissed.

And Laziness Cuts Like A Knife.

Here are some of the songs I've been listening to repeatedly!

Forest Whitaker by Bad Books

Sisters by Radical Face

Stay Alive by Jose Gonzalez

I Do, I Do by Charlie Mars

I'll See You Tomorrow by The Jungle Giants

She's A Riot by The Jungle Giants

Home by islandis

This Will Be Our Year by OK Go

These songs keep me sane! Enjoy! 

We'll Feel So Alive!

Happy New Year, everyone! This blog turns 10 this year!!!!!! Which is good but also saddening because I started this blog when I was 14 (going 15 in two months) so, fuck, right? I'm turning 25 this year. I think I grew up from the colorful and jejemon HS posts to alcohol-induced college student to sleep-deprived med student. There are times when I just want to abandon this shit but I can't because this is an outlet for me and.. HELLO, 10 YEARS WORTH OF MEMORIES!

Anyway, I'm listening to old HS songs like The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls, August is Over by We The Kings, and The Fourth Drink Instinct by Cute Is What We Aim For. I'm feeling so nostalgic. And it didn't help that I was with some of my college friends yesterday. Hay. Kakamiss na chill lang and walang direction buhay because no pressure, you know? Hay.

Anyway, I can't complain, though. I'm still very thankful for every experience and every failure. Let go and Let God nga, diba? :-)

Happy New Year, y'all! I hope we all have a great one!