just want you to love me back -- why can't you just love me back?

yes! an update :P

i bonded with jodie last thursday :) we went to shell to eat and we gossiped about all those gossipy things :)) gawd. i miss her :|

review. it's fun and okay because of sosa and odessa, yep. but, really, we need to make new friends because like what sosa said, "parang ang introvert naten at may sarili tayong mundo." haha. kasi kaming tatlo lang yung nag-uusap! kasi naman.. although, i really want to befriend someone. she looks really, really, really, really, really nice. i like her! the problem is, i don't know how to approach her..

enrichment classes. bearable because of cera and chezca :))

i'll write again if i'm bored :)) haha. i miss being bored! :)

song: the spill canvas' all over you :)

:)

i've been busy for some time so i wasn't able to update my blog :)

enrichment classes started last thursday. :) it was ok, i guess. fairly boring but helpful. god. to be totally honest, i can't even remember what the hell we're discussing.. i mean, last friday all i did after attending the enrichment classes was to go to greenhills, shop a little and fatten myself up with haagen dazs, baby! :)) jesus. i really need to get serious.

oh well. last sunday, i had a movie date with my brother at festival mall (yes. it's just the two of us) :) we watched superhero movie. god. it was hilarious! really! you should try to watch it! although, drake bell's not as hot as before.. he looks old now :|

anyway, my review classes started yesterday. it was enjoyable and bearable because of odessa and sosa :)) riot girls :)) although it would be a lot better if i was in the first batch :| hahaha. hmmm. oh yeah. i like someone in my review classes! like, really like!


talk to you when i'm bored again. jesus christ.. i miss being bored! :|

song: anberlin's inevitable.

stupid, sappy love stories.

i watched four love stories in a row. now, do you believe me when i say i'm pathetically bored? anyway, i watched 3 drew barrymore movies :)) "never been kissed", "50 first dates" (for the umpteenth time), and "music and lyrics" :)) the fourth movie i watched was "enchanted", something i downloaded overnight :)

god. in those 4 movies -- they are all similar in one stupid way. they all have happy endings. god. do you know how much i hate happy endings? >:| i don't know why. but, happy endings make me sad. i mean, hello, happy endings don't exist. they're just a word some fancy director or writer made up to make the people smile and to make them believe that there's such a sweet thing as a happy ending. i know i sound bitter but really. do you honestly think that some prince or some proper guy is out there to sweep you off your feet? no way. guys are bastards. really. i know enough friends who've been used by their "loving" boyfriends. i'm not telling you to believe me or anything but i'm just saying it as i see it and, well, think about it. ok fine. not all guys are bastards but, c'mon, most of them are.

anyway, i watched those movies because i was so boooooored. don't get me wrong, i like them. fine.. i just got abusive with the happy-ending word. lame. anyway, i liked what i watched. i just hate those happy endings because it makes me sad :)) weird. (i really think my period's coming.) mood swings, baby.

oh yeah, enrichment classes with chezca starts tomorrow :p

song: cheap trick's i want you to want me :) sweet.

talks and conversations :)

talk, talk, talk -- one of the best hobbies in the world :P. i wasn't able to update my blog.. since, i don't know what to say, i will just share some of the highlights of my week :)) some funny conversations, anyway.

yesterday, we were eating lunch and there was this really funny word my five-year-old cousin yelled, it had me rolling on the floor and laughing.

r - rina
y - yo
jn - jon
jy - jepoy
ik - ina ko

jy: (mimicking his mom) tama na yan!
r: (turns toward jepoy, an evil grin on my lips) aaaahh. i thought you're not supposed to speak tagalog inside the house? [well, because i had a sermon from jepoy when he heard me converse with our maid in tagalog, he said that it's bad to talk in tagalog and i'm not supposed to use that language when i'm inside the house.. it was really funny. you should've seen it :)) then again.. that's a different story.]
jy: (snorts) i want to speak in tagalog now!
r: (raises an eyebrow) but you told me not to speak in tagalog when i'm inside the house!
ik: no tagalog in the house. [in their house, anyway]
jy: i'm speaking in tagalog now! (grins maliciously) kakain na tayo! kain na!
jn: (causes a commotion.. i think he broke a plate or something..)
jy: hala! galot ka, jon, galot! galot si jon!
y: (turns to me, an eyebrow raised) what did he say? ano daw?
r: (already laughing like crazy) hahahahaha! galot daw! galot!
ik: i think that means 'lagot'
r: (still laughing) hahahahaah! lagot nga! (turns to jepoy) hahaha! you can't even say the words right!
jy: (with an innocent look) galot si jon!
y & r: (laughing our asses off)


it was so hilarious! you should've seen the innocent look on my cousin's face when all of us were laughing! =))

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i had another talk with my father. i don't know, but, it made me laugh too :))

see, in my grandmother's house, there's this stupid, big dog, diego. he was untied when we got there so i had to run for my life. when we're supposed to go home already, i saw diego and his pup playing in the garage. someone got diego so i could go inside the car but they completely forgot the stupid puppy.

r - rina
ak - ama ko


r: (yelling) yung tuta! shit. [yes. because i was so scared i forgot that i'm in front of my parents and my grandmother and i cursed..]
somebody holds the puppy
ak: nako, rina, puppy lang yan! scratch lang ang magagawa nyan yung isa lalapain ka talaga non!

i didn't know if he's trying to comfort me or trying to tell me that the pup's still vicious by giving me a scratch -- but, whatever his purpose was, i laughed! shit. scratch? =)) ugh. i know you can't understand anything.. but, hell, it was funny -- for me, anyway.. =))

a couple of more days and chezca and i will be together. hahaha. :))

song: the beach boys' wouldn't it be nice. :x sweet :))

he doesn't look a thing like jesus.

basically,(well, you know what i mean.. basically basic? ugh.. do you get me, ranger? anyway) today is one of the "i-want-to-kill-myself-already-oh-yeah-before-that-i-want-to-eat-ice-cream-first" days for me. i was so bored, so unstable! yes. that's the precise term i'm looking for -- unstable. i'm, with lord's grace, not only mentally unstable but i'm also emotionally and physically unstable. god. really. sometimes, i think that i'm bipolar :| one minute i'm very happy, try very happy like jumping on the sofa or laughing because i saw my brother get into trouble, you know -- that kind, the next minute, i'm crying and sobbing because of simple-retarded reasons like spilled milk. how's that? totally unnerving..

my summer is so unproductive so far. :| i'm supposed to start my review classes with jodie-luvz today but because of some unwanted miracle (i am so sarcastic. shit) they granted me enrichment classes! they're going to make me enter hell and suffer because of the stupid marks on my report card! i don't know why i suck in my academics. don't get me wrong, i'm trying so hard (.. or so i think.. well.. i do think that i'm trying!) you know what.. this is the final straw! fine! they want change?! i'm going to give them change! when i enter the iv1 classroom this coming june -- i am going to be serious in my studies. i am going to study 24/7! i am going to be the teacher's pet (not really, asshole!) i am going to study so hard nobody could tell the difference between einstein and me! from this moment on, mark my words, love, i am going to, um, ok, try to be a responsible and diligent and studious student!!

hmmmm. if i can't be a serious student, then i would never get serious in my life.. i need to set my goals and prioritize my future.. i mean, if my parents, you know, suddenly.. ok, let me rephrase that.. if god suddenly realized that he needs my parents up there in heaven.. what's going to happen to me down here on earth? did you get that..? okaaay. my explanation's kind of lame.. anyway.. just try to understand it.. i know you could. anyway, i need to think about my future. i mean, not only being johnny depp's wife (because, honestly.. for more than a year now.. that's my number 1 priority. haha. i know.. it's really.. stupid and.. ambitious! hell..) and you know, take care of his two children. but, i also want a successful career. you know.. just for once, i want to see my parents smile because i've actually done something right. i want them to say "oh rina.." in a nice way (not the usual, "oh rina!" with the deadly and furious eyes) because they'll realize that they didn't really waste a lot of money for me.. fine. seriously.. that's my dream -- just to see my parent shiny-smile-showing-their-teeth. jesus. if you know what kind of kid i am, you'll realize how hard it is to make my parents grin for the right reasons.. *sigh*


i need some boost, love. really. :|

song: sum 41's walking disaster. and oh yeah, the killers' when you were young :P

i've missed the grip!

my sacrifice is over! yes! i can pester everyone with my group messages again! god. i've missed texting and bothering people :)) i've missed the way my phone vibrates whenever there is a new message on my phone.. :)) i've missed the, um, feeling whenever there is a funny message i've received and my need to really laugh at it. shoot. my last sentence sounds stupid. well, what do you expect it's already 14 past 12 and i'm starting to evolve from some normal (well, ok, not really normal but quite ok.. if you know what i mean..) teenager to an exotic-looking monster. weird.

so, i got my card last friday and i was, well, disappointed. yeah, yeah, i have no right to be disappointed because i deserve the kind of grades i received. :| hell, no.. ok.. fine. i don't think i deserve the decreasing of grades in all subjects! can you believe it? the only which gave me a 90 is PE. that sucks big-time. i don't know if that's an insult to my ego or if ms. de lemos' just being really nice. anyway, there's no way u.p. or even ateneo's going to accept me! :(( i have four line of 7's! when all of you are studying in prestigious colleges, i'll stay somewhere loser-ish and rot :(( god. the idea is freaking me out. :(( i'm not really sure where my future is headed anymore. i suck big-time.

anyway.. on other subjects, although this is really, really, really depressing, iv1 wouldn't be that perfect anymore :(( not without her. in a year that i've known that kid, i've grown to really love her! her loud and boisterous laughter that would make you smile whenever you hear it.. that tinkling and funny voice.. those serious situations wherein she bears out her soul to you.. god. i just know that iv1 will never be the same again without that fantastic singer.. without that person who can play different instruments really well (stuff on piano.. stuff on guitars..) without that classmate who brings out the best in you during tough times. who's not going to miss her? :( iv1's going to struggle with imperfections -- for a while :)) we still love our bread.. and we still love our butter.. but no matter what happens, we will always love each other!

cheer up, love. :|

song: sum 41's walking disaster.

kid kidders

i had this funny talk with my parents while i was eating breakfast.. :))

*TK: Tatay Ko
*NK: Nanay Ko
*A: Ako

TK: (to my mom.. heck, because my earphones are plugged in my ears :]) She's still lucky (pointing to me) I had a friend in highschool, nag-repeat sa lahat kasi girlfriend ng girlfriend!
NK: Sa high school? Lahat ng subjects?
TK: Oo! Kasi walang ginawa kundi mag girlfriend ng mag girlfriend.
PAUSE
A: Hmpf. Buti nga ako hindi naggi-girlfriend ehh!
TK: (looks at me, brows stitched together) Hoy! Sasakalin kita pag nagka-girlfriend ka!
A: (laughs hysterically)

It was really funny! you should've seen the look on my father's face when i delivered my punchline! =)) he has this very incredulous and scandaled expression on his face! it was hilarious!

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anyway, i'm going to copy what rona did.. i'm going to answer all your tags in this post.. :))

nicole torres: thank you sa pag-tag :)) kahit sobrang late na netong reply ko :))

pauiie: hmmmppf. epal lang talaga magulang ko sometimes, ok? bati naman kami ngayon kaya it's ok pa :))

pipi: ia-adopt mo ko?? touch naman ako don! malakas ako kumain.. :))

bianca: mars bars!! kiss! :*

andi: ano ba. sinabi na kasing maganda na yung layout mo! kulet!

angel-luvz: fuck fuck fuck.. alam mo ba na hindi ko na alam ang sched ko sa brains..? anyway, na-tats me sa msg you kagabi. hindi ko ie-erase yon forever!

chezca: sorry kung ma-drama ha! epal mo! hmppf. oo. binabasa ko yung old posts mo! tas pagsasabihan mo lang ako ng madrama?! tsssss.

bianca v: yepyep! ang ganda nya no! sobra.. kahit nanganak na si michelle branch, may soft spot pa din sya para saken. :)) hahahaha. drama.

lourdes: hahahaha. after 1 year, yes, nakapagpalit na ako ng layout! salamat kay chezca :)) hindi kasi talaga ako marunong gumawa ehh..

ilena: ano ka ba.. si michelle branch lang ang babae ko na crush na medyo bata.. sya lang ang exception :)) kasi yung iba.. pwede ko na nga maging lolo. okaaaay? :P haha. binabasa mo talaga mga post ko? tats naman ako.. :)) ayan.. nakurot mo na ako sa pisngi. :)) hahahahaha.

chezca: oo. maganda si michelle, alam ko. tae.. michelle lang talaga ang tawag mo ehh no? close kayo? talo mo pa ako. :))

bianca: yes. michelle branch is the reason they invented the word hot.

pauiie: paaaauuuuuiiiiiiiieeeeee! :))

mons: thanks much mons :)) pero akala ko ba sa mga august mo pa ako iggreet? :))

stalker: tats naman talaga ako sayo.. nagcomment ka na saken.. nag-IM ka pa saken.. kahit sa blog ko nag-tag ka.. love na talaga kita.. :)) hahahahha.

chezca: hahahahahaha! sige pakilala mo ako kay muta!

ilena: oo.. easter kasi noon kaya.. yung risen form ni hesukristo kelangan i-celebrate!

chezca: :)) :)) alam mo ba na tawang tawa ako ng napamura ka bigla? wala. natawa lang ako kasi hindi ka naman nagmumura tas biglang nagmura ka.. yung pang tangina.. nanibago lang ako :))

bariz: um.. hi :)) thanks sa pag-blog hop :)

shaina: :)) nagcomment ako sa blog mo :)) kuha ka din netong tagboard para pwede na magcomment automatically sayo :))

jia: yown. napalitan ko na yung link mo :))

nicole: oo! nagagawa ko yun pag sobrang bored ako :)) pero kahapon 36 lang nadownload ko :( okaaay. nalungkot pa ehh no? :))

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thanks for tagging, love :)

i'll post a more, er, readable post when my brain cells start working :))

song: anberlin's inevitable. i wanna break every clock.. the hands of time could never move again.. :))

when i come around :)

this is my 90th post so i bet this calls for a celebration. :)) whatever. i am possessed at the moment so don't mind those stupid whirls of the tongue. god. really. lithologica is grasping my every statement. i'm about to say something and little ms. litholgica would stop me. tssss. i don't know what's wrong with the two of us. we can't be together. the world will experience chaos if the two of us talked or slurred.. whatever.

yesterday was rest day. :)) i slept at about 1 am and then i woke up at 11 am. i stared for a moment and battled with my body if i want to get up already or not. the brain won, i yawned and stretched before going out of the room to eat my very late breakfast. after eating breakfast, i headed to the bedroom and luxuriously sprawled on my bed while i waited for my laptop to start. i checked my phone and i laughed at chezca's messages. jesus. didn't she read my message? that i'm not going to use my phone for a week? really. anyway, i surfed the net for a while then i got bored so i downloaded some songs :))

i'm currently addicted in downloading songs -- again. i mean, my really last ipod-update was last january. so, it's about time i start doing something nice for it. besides, i'm trying to reach my goal of at least 10,000 songs :) so far, i've only reached 889.. don't worry, while i'm updating this blog, i'm currently downloading six songs :)) so.. 889 plus six makes what..? tss.. oh yeah, i checked.. three songs are done already.. i need to reach 1000 before i celebrate! more patience.. more patience!

ciao. i need to download at least 30 songs today! i mean, if i really concentrate i could download at least 80 songs a day.. :) i need to focus!

song: greenday's when i come around.