Love. Gotta Love.

Tomorrow is a Thursday. And, I'm betting my life that it would be a GOOD day. My lucky days are always on Thursdays. I dunno why. But I have the inclination that God's showering me with his merciful stars on Thursdays. So, that's why ever since.. My favorite day is.. THURSDAY. And, guess what. Tomorrow is a THURSDAY. YEY! :>

I finally uploaded my Senior Night & Grad pictures. HAHAHA. Nakatambak lang kasi sya sa cam ko. Naisipan ko na na iupload. :)) While uploading those pictures -- well, I really missed you guys. Yun lang yun. 'Nuff said.

So, I'll talk about stuff again tomorrow. GOOD STUFF.

SONG: The Disney Channel Song.. The "Love, Gotta love.. You love. You gotta love." You know.. In the commercial?

Homophobia.

What's with those homophobic people, actually? I mean, really, I think they're just being biased or.. OR PREJUDICED. Yeah? C'mon. Ok. Whatever. This is just an opinion.

Lights out. In an hour? Whatever.

College is so near & so FINAL. I'm going to miss HS. *sighs*

When I get this bandage of my brain -- maybe I could start thinking properly again. For the mean time.. Bear with me. UGH. This is so nostalgic. Seriously.

I'm just being random. :)) I don't have any problems, really. At this moment. :)) I dunno. Homophobia just.. Pisses me off, I guess.

Ironic.

It's funny how you wish for something, BADLY. How you close your eyes at night & beg God to grant you that one itsy-bitsy wish. How you stand in your tippy toes to make God see how badly you needed that wish. It's even funnier when you get that wish -- & you happen to realize that you do not want it anymore. That you practically spent & wasted an entire year annoying God to give you that wish & then when He openly gives it to you, what, you don't know what to do with it &, plainly, you really think it's just crap & you're better off without it anyway. I mean, you did get by the last 12 months without it.. Why would you need it now?

There are so many ironies in life that sometimes it shocks me so much -- I want to stare at it all day. But, if I do that -- people would think I'm retarded (Not that they think I'm normal now. HAHA.) But, are you getting me? One moment you're dancing the flamenco because you think it's cool -- then everything snaps back to life when the most popular kid in your school tells you that s/he thinks flamenco is sick. So, you're going to give up those flamenco classes because now you think it's totally uncool. The next moment, you're hanging out with the most popular kid.. You go to this bar, and since you're new, you got so drunk -- & you puke on the most popular kid's dress/tux. How ironic is that? You're climbing up the stairs of High Class Popularity.. And with a snap of a finger, you're a nobody all over again. It's really funny how life gets twisted, huh?

Ok, I've experienced a lot of ironies, (But honestly.. I didn't know where my Flamenco Idea came. HAHAHA. Seriously!) But, hell, I dunno. I think I should just welcome it with open arms. I mean, it's the only way to survive it, right? Don't get me wrong, I'm not being melodramatic or something. This is just another realization from the Enlightened One.. Whoever that is..

So, anyway, I'm crossing my fingers! Thursday is SO near! But, hell, I wouldn't think of it much. (I WOULD TRY.) Because it might get jinxed & it might NOT happen. Again. UGH. I so badly want to see Jodie, Eryel, Ampy, & Odessa! :>

On something different -- I painted my fingernails AVOCADO GREEN. HIHIHI My dad hasn't seen it yet. He would freak out when he sees it. =))

SONG: Taylor Swift's Love Story. K. :)) LSS-ed. BIG TIME.

Tahoma Faze.

My font is juggling between Verdana & Tahoma. As of this moment, I'm using Tahoma. It's my favorite font right now. Don't worry, Verds, I still love you, ok? It's just that, I think Tahoma is more neat & organized to look at. :> When I get over this Tahoma faze, maybe I'll go back & use Verds. :D

I'm so ok with everything right now. Even if nothing's really going on & I'm just DVD marathon-ing & book swarming these days. I think that's ok, right? At least I could enhance my vocabulary or something. At least I could drown out everything when I'm watching different kinds of DVD's. :> So far, the best DVD I bought is Beowulf. K, original 'yan.. MAY KASAMA KASING INTERVIEW NI NEIL GAIMAN ehh! :"> OMG. I so miss Neil Gaiman. I've completed his novels. Hihihi. I love hiiiiim! :> He's so goood. You wouldn't get me if you're not my friend or if you don't belong in my III1-IV1 class. :> =))

So, anyway, moving on, I need to get out of the house. Badly. I really miss the outside world. AYY. Don't get me wrong, I go out a lot these days -- but with my parents. :| Jeez. :))

So far, my writing bananas are still -- CRAP. I need some boost, love. I really do. >:)

SONG: Laugh all you want pero I'm super na-LSS sa Miss You Like Crazy ng The Moffatts.

Today Is Toast Day.

I bought the Boleyn Inheritance today. FINALLY. :) I so love Philippa Gregory.

I'm so happy right now it's as if I'm stoned. :)) K. I'm still not in the mood to talk about stuff. :)) Maybe tomorrow. :>

Ciao.

SONG: Michelle Branch's Sweet Misery.

Thanks For Leaving Me Here.

FINALLY. I have a SCHOOL. Welcome UST. Although I'm not really hot to go to this school.. Because in my opinion.. Everybody's going there already. :| It's not that special anymore. :| Still. It's the only school that accepted me. I would love that school. I SWEAR.

My brother & I watched Crank 2 today. I think it's a LOW BUDGET film. The effects are.. Nevermind. If you don't believe me.. Watch it yourself. Jeez.

I am so tired right now. I only had 3 hours of sleep. Tas hindi ko na talaga kaya. MYGAHD. May mali na talaga saken, 'no? :| I think I need to hit the hay. I really am tired. :| I'll update again tomorrow when I had at least 5 hours of sleep.

P.S. DEAR LORD, PLEASE LET OUR ESCAPADE NEXT THURSDAY HAPPEN. Please pleaaaase! Amen.

Much Much Sooner Than You Think.

Today, I babysat for my ferocious 6-year-old cousin, Raissa. She's quite a handful, seriously. She can't sit still (pretty much like me. HAHAHA.) But, you know what, I always enjoy hanging out with her. She's one of the cheekiest & most charming kids I know. She even ran for the St. Scholastica's student council (whatever they call it) for her batch, Senior Prep or something. Sayang lang she lost. :| Although she said that she would try again. Maybe next S.Y.? :))

She barged in my room while I was sitting on the floor, fixing my study table:
Ra: *to me* I'll keep an eye on you. *pokes my eye*
Ri: Oh shi.. *trails off. I can't possibly say a curse word in front of a 6-year-old. HAHAHA.* I'll keep my fork keep an eye on you. (K. Malabo na talaga ako kausap.)
Ra: *giggles* Diba, in movies, they say that? "I'll keep an eye on you." *doing the Robert De Niro thing in Meet The Parents.. You know that scene, right?*
... Then she talked about lots of stuff. Before I knew it, she was babbling about her favorite actors/actresses.
Ra: Ehh ikaw? Sino ang gusto mo na artista?
Ri: I LIKE JOHN LLOYD CRUZ, OK? *super tili here*
Ra: *stares at me, feeling ko naweirdohan sya saken.* Ahhh. Ok. Ako I like many artistas..
... Then, my grandmother came, asked us if we would like to have a Siesta. Then she mentioned that she would go to Cash & Carry..
Ra: Can I go with you?
Gr: Hindi ka matutulog?
Ra: *shakes head*
Gr: Ok. Pero dapat hindi ka naughty dun.
Ra: *nods*
Ri: *grins at my grandmother. SA WAKAS. PEACE OF MIIIIND. Maaayos ko na ang magulong kwarto na ito ng mas mabiliiiis* Raissa, turn off the T.V. when you go out, ha?

She was saying so MANY BENTA stuff. I forgot some of it na. :| Sobrang memory loss na ako. Swear.

I'm not really fond of kids.. But, try hanging out with Raissa. You'll like her. :>

SONG: American Hi-Fi's Flavor Of The Week.

Bette Davis' Eyes

After bugging & pestering my dad -- he FINALLY agreed that he would REALLY teach me how to commute this summer (HELLO. I think he just said YES to me before to shut me up. He might've thought, the hell -- he WISHED, that I would go on with my boring summer & forget all about our previous Commuting Thing conversation).. After Yo's review. Hmph. It means I have to wait until May. I told him that I want to learn how to ride the bus or the tube or the jeep or any other public transport thing with Jodie. He said that he would think about it. I told him I'm 17 already & next year, I'm legally an adult. He said that he would think about it. What's with dads anyway? :| I mean, hello, there's a 60% chance that some raging lunatic wouldn't actually meet me & HURT me, right? I mean, what are the odds? So, I guess all that I have to do now is cross my fingers & hope that the Enlightened One would bang my dad's head on the wall to make him realize that I am NO LONGER a baby. Gawd.

I can't believe that I graduated already. SERIOUSLY. I really have this feeling that there are still classes & it's just a Sem Break I'm having right now. Sometimes, I get all fidgety because of the feeling that I still have tons of things & requirements to do. My goodness. What did STC do to me? But, you know what, honestly, I MISS SCHOOL. I miss waking up early in the morning & grunting & cursing the time because I have to hurry up so I wouldn't be late for school. I miss the tingling buzz of my alarm clock. I miss eating breakfast early in the morning. I miss waiting for Jodie in the covered pathway. I miss changing seats because I don't want to sit in front. I miss recess & lunch. I miss Manang Vicky. I miss my teachers (C'mon, I'm serious here. I'm having a moment here. HAHAHA.) I miss the way they say, "RINA", "MISS MACARAIG." I miss the way they reprimand me & tell me to keep quiet.. But most of all -- I MISS IV1. You guys have no bloody idea how MUCH I miss you.

I miss the way we laugh at the simplest of things. I miss the inside jokes. I miss.. I don't know, EVERYTHING in this class. The way one cracks up when somebody eats corn during class *coughs, Laraine, coughs*. The way we all shut up when teacher's get mad at us.. Then after 3 minutes -- we're on at it again, talking & laughing like there's no tomorrow. Honestly, the question should be: What's not to miss? Iloveyou guys FOREVER. (:

So, anyway, I found a new site. It's like Roiworld.. But it's more, um, defineeed. I'm going to intensify my, er, Fashion Abilities now. HAHAHAHA. :))

SONG: Still Bette Davis' Eyes.

My Celebrity Collection.

Since I'm really on the roll with Roiworld, take a look at the celebrities who were lucky enough to have a make-over from me. HAHAHA.

Amanda Bynes.



Coco Rocha.



Dakota Fanning.



Adriana Lima.



Ellen Page.



Eva Mendes.



Gisele Bundchen.




Gwyneth Paltrow.



Heather Marks.



Katie Holmes.



Leighton Meester.



Mariah Carey.



Selena Gomez.




Stacie Orrico.




Taylor Swift.



Winona Ryder.

That's what I've been doing from 5PM-3.30AM. I'm really on the roll. :)) Anyway, I love the Eva Mendes, Ellen Page & Heather Marks outfits. REALLY. I love the Heather Marks outfit the best, though. I think it's fab. K. Pinuri ang sarili. :))

Ok. I gotta fly. I'm still making make-overs. HAHAHA.

SONG: Kim Carnes' Bette Davis' Eyes.

It's A Brand New Fashionista World!

OMG. OMG. I'm so gay. And it's all Jodie's fault! K. Parang pinilit nya ako. Check out ROIWORLD! =)) Ok. Masyado ako nahumaling, nwrong send-wrong send na ako sa iba't-ibang tao. :)) Pero, it's so fuuuun kasi. Nawala bigla ang boredom ko. :)) Check out my malandi outfits. Babae na talaga ako ngayon. :))

Kahit kelan talaga.. Jeans & tees are the BEST. :>

This one's malandi na. I mean, this one is something I would definitely NOT wear. Comprende? :)) Pero I like that design. It's so simple kasi ehh.. And glittery. K. :))

Oha. Paper dolls! :">


Odiba? It's so malandiiii? :))







Ok. Parang halos lahat ng roi ko, may shades. :))

CHECK THIS OUT, CHECK THIS OUT! My father & I made this! Ok. He was telling me that my outfits are BORING, so he "helped" me with this one.. (By the word, HELP.. He was pointing out everything to me while I just put it on the, um, mannequin. HAHAHA.) Fashionista dad!

Odiba? May potential ang tatay ko? :))




Be a frustrated fashionista too! Try Roiworld NOW!

K. Endorser much? :))

SONG: Sign by.. Bloc Party? I think it's Bloc Party. :))

They Have This Something Called "Phobia."

It was two summers ago when I freaked out & tried to rip my brains off my head because of the reshuffling thing. It was two School Year's ago when I got to know the people that would literally turn my pipes on. It was last summer when I finally realized that Summer is a hell lot of fun than School days. It was THIS summer that I began to rethink about my, hmm, thoughts about last Summer.

I am so lifeless now. No matter what I do, I can't just laugh like Johnny Depp's in front of me. Then again, I think I'm getting better. Seriously! I have a bazillion boys right now! HIHIHI. Ok, I'm devoting my expensive time in watching DVD's & giggling over actors. Odiba? At least ACTORS na. :>

This summer -- I may not have the time of my life.. But, I could make my life worth thinking & smiling over.

Dig in, fellas.. I'M BACK.

I Just Want To Stay Immature Forever!

OMG. Like, OMG. I reread my old posts. Well, my posts last Summer.. I was a hell lot happier back then! Like, REALLY.

What happened to me? :( Jesus Christ. Seriously, WHAT HAPPENED?

Hmm. I think I have an idea why. It's all somebody's fault! S/he's RUINING my life! I want my life back!

Now, I'm starting to get depressed all over again. :|

The Last Of The Sad Bunch.

I've decided to update since there's nothing to do. HAHA.

Gawd. I feel terrible. Like, REALLY. I don't even know why. Maybe it's because I miss my friends. Seriously. I think this stupid idea of mine to isolate myself isn't really working. I mean, c'mon, I should admit it -- I feel bad. It's as if everybody's having the time of their lives out there while I'm sitting in front of my computer monitor & flipping from one site to another. :|

It's been a loooong time since I've talked properly to the people I love the most. :| Seriously. I'm rotting in here. I need some escapade. I miss my escapades, really. I need someone to save me from this hell-begotten place. :|

I thought Summer would be great. I thought it would be something I would always remember. If only I knew that things would change from BAD to HORRIBLE. Gawd. :|

Talk to me if you're still interested. If not, don't bother to keep in touch.

SONG: Tennis Court Soundtrack by Daphne Loves Derby.

Beeep. Beep.

Hi. I just got back from Cabs, what, at 10 this morning. FUUUUN Holy Week. :))



I'll update whenever. I'm too lazy at the mo.

Honey Honey How You Thrill Me, Aha.

Just like Gego -- I'll be gone for a WEEK. I'm off to Cabanatuan. I'd be spending my Holy Week there. Me & my brother. *sighs* We're going to ride the bus from somewhere (I think it's in Pasay..) to Cabanatuan. Yep, just the two of us. My brother & I. My dad said that it's a part of the Commute-Thing-Training. HAHA. Whatever.

Soooo, goodbye. I'll see ya'll when I return next Monday. Keep the messages coming, though. It'll be appreciated. :)

SONG: I'm back to the Owl City's Saltwater Room.

It's A Neurotic Problem.

Hullo everybody :> Shocking as it seems, I'm feeling strangely fiiiine!

I'm rereading the Harry Potter series. :D I miss Harry, Ron, & Hermione! Seriously. It's really fun to reread it -- it makes my imagination float & go to unimaginable places. :)

"It is a strange thing, but when you are dreading something, and would give anything to slow down time, it has a disobliging habit of speeding up."
- Harry Potter & The Goblet Of Fire.

Hear hear. I think it's self-explanatory. :> Yeah? I am so not in my proper state to rant about anything. HAHAHAHA.

Let's talk some more later, K?

SONG: Enrique Iglesias' Escape. Shiiiit. I'm so whoring over him too. He's so HOTT. I love him & I love Anna Kournikova too! I love the two of them! :">

Swinging Infidelities.

I'm a bit better now, I think.

I just found out that Jai Ho's a song. I asked Odessa what the fuck Jai Ho is because everybody is Jai Ho-ing & Jai Ho-ing. She said that it's a song. I thought it was a movie or something. Hmm. Shoot. I'm really becoming isolated from the world. Then again.. I don't listen to the radio anymore. And, I don't really watch the T.V. Although, I have my own sources where I get a good dose of good bands. And, quite frankly, I think that's enough.

I need to go out. Being alone -- it's killing me.

Damn Regret.

You're still the numbest & most insensitive jerk I've the misfortune to meet. What am I supposed to do to you? You're driving me insane! Seriously.

My eyes are puffy & I haven't slept well for, what, 2 weeks now. And, where the fuck are you? Out there having the time of your life. Honestly, I don't know why I'm the only one affected. It's as if I'm the only one acting to make everything work -- to make the 1% of our friendship survive.

You'll never change, huh? I won't too. Maybe this is why we were that close -- we both have stubborn asses.

So long & goodbye. I think, this time, it really is over.

Good luck to wherever you're heading. I'm sorry but I can't be here for you anymore. Everything is just too much. Don't bother calling or texting me. There's no need for any catching-up's. I'm better off all alone.

SONG: Rufio's She Cries. Bloody fantastic song. :>

Oh No!

The thing that I want to have right now (BADLY) is this:




And for the love of God, you guys have no idea how much I miss & love these:


I love you guys FOREVER & FOREVER.

.. 'Cause you know what? I feel TERRIBLE. And it's not just because my parents didn't allow me to go to the Class Party. I feel BAD because, honestly, I'm all alone. I'm SCARED. It's not just the party -- there are other depressing factors too. :(

Through It All.. Just Stand Up.

"Yeah, you can try, but in the end you're just gonna lose, big time."
-Dewey Finn; School Of Rock

I love Jack Black. I swear I do. I love that movie too. And somehow, I quite agree with Dewey. When you try to much & you pour your guts out there -- you'll end up getting disappointed BIG TIME. Why? Because YOU have NO CHANCE. You're just going to lose anyway. Everybody's just going to laugh at you & tear your heart out. So, what's the point in trying?

You try so hard to make the people around you feel loved then, what, OH NO, when you need someone so much -- you'll find out the hard way that NOBODY is there. Like what I've said before, you're all alone.

*sighs*

Somehow.. I think my teenage angst is too much. *sighs* Where's my rainbow? My bright little ray of Sunshine's missing. K. Whatever.

SONG: Just Stand Up by.. A lot of people, actually. HAHA.

April Fool!

Happy April Fool's Day everbody. :D

I won't be able to blab about anything right now since my mom said that we shouldn't open the internet today because there's a new virus that's going to swarm around the Cyberworld. By actually greeting you a Happy April Fool's Day -- I'm breaking all the rules.

HAHAHA. I'll talk to you tomorrow. :)