Do You Remember..

.. Last year, I used to have icky issues and problems. Now, I have FRIENDS problems. Last year, I know the people to turn to when I'm feeling so suicidal. Now, I don't even know who to talk to anymore. Last year, we were sooooo BONDED. Now, we're slowly falling apart. Last year, I used to rant all day and all night how I wish that everything would just end -- how I'm looking forward to the future. Now, all I want to do is bring back the good old times and hug everyone close.

Somehow, 2008 seems more like a peachy year than 2009. How I wish I knew it back then.

We were supposed to stick with each other FOREVER. Now, EVERYBODY'S busy with their stupid schools and stupid new "friends" and stupid new environment and stupid new crushes. Everything's so stupid. Even this life is stupid. Stupid school. Stupid everything. Well, ok, they keep on saying that they miss HS but they don't show it. It's as if I'm facing a different.. Ugh. Nevermind. It's too stupid to say anyway.

I hope my family decides to migrate to a new country or something. Then, I would have a fresh start and, well, maybe, JUST MAYBE -- they would finally show that they miss me after all. 'Cause, honestly, it's as if I'm the ONLY ONE who's trying to reach out and make papansin. Nakakairita na, alam nyo 'yun? Nakakairita.