The Year That Was..

2011 was such a big jerk to me.  I've faced a lot of challenges this year.  Some I never thought I would experience.  My grandfather died, some sort of family crisis happened, my grandmother was confined in the hospital for 3 weeks, some idiot in school made me want to break her neck into two, school crisis blah blah blah..  Looking back at all of these (for the lack of a better word) incidents, it made me realize that SOMEHOW, I grew up.

I learned how to stand on my own, especially if my family's not around.  It made me think that I'm getting old and I need to learn how to be responsible.  Life isn't just about play, play, play.  Life has this crazy way of fucking things up and making you want to just hurl yourself on an incoming bus in a highway full of bustling cars and automobiles.  It would stomp on your heart and it would squeeze your soul until you have nothing left.  It would leave you crying and writhing on the floor.  That's the thing, that's how life is.

But you know what?  There's always faith.  I don't mean to preach, it's never really my style but, yeah, sometimes when there's no one left, all you got to do is pray.  I mean, you don't really have anything to lose, right?  It's just that and lots and lots of hope that maybe one day everything's going to be okay.

2011 was a farthole.  It drained me.  But then, it also taught me something -- I could bounce back.

So, here's to a better year!  2012, BE GOOD.

She Holds A Smile Like Someone Would Hold A Crying Child.

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE IS COMING ON THE 5TH OF MARCH. 20 days before my 20TH birthday!  This is a freaking sign from God.  I NEED TO WATCH DEATH CAB.  I love them more than life itself!  I would sell my soul for tickets!  I've been praying for 6 fucking years and..  FINALLY.  FINALLY THEY'RE COMING!  Please God let me watch my favoritest band in the whole wide world.  Please make my dad see the light.  Please.  I love Death Cab super!

Anyway, I found these cute pictures in Tumblr!  I just want to share them to you.  HIHI:

Food and Harry Potter!  Two of my favorite things! Hihi.

We're Not Gonna Float On Your Worn Down Boat.

I want a new pair of flats.  I mean, seriously, I need to dress/act like a girl more.  Plus, I guess I should start acting my age.  I'm turning 20 on my next birthday, for God's sake.  What brought about this change? See..  Last Christmas, we were talking about my 16 and 15 yr. old cousins.  My mom was telling my aunt that my two cousins were very dalaga.  And my aunt said, "Oo nga eh.  Sa Facebook, sa twitter..  Kung anu-ano na ang pinaguusapan.  Tas nako-conscious na."  My mom looked at me (see, I was sprawled on the chair, nakabukaka, and I was tilting the chair), "Ibang iba dito kay Rina." Then my brother butted in, "Mas lalaki pa nga sakin 'yang si Ate eh."

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??

It means that I should be, hmmm, more matured.  I should start dressing up like a girl.  I should stop looking like a skater boy.  Huhu.  In my defense, it's not my fault that I like guys' clothes.  They're so pretty to look at and they're too darn comfortable.  Guys' shirts, shorts, and shoes are amazing.  AMAZING.  Dear God,.  Anyway, whatever.  I'm determined to act like a girl.  Wooooo.  I think that's going to be my New Year's Resolution.  Hihihi.  Jared's going to love me, for sure. :">

MEHEHEHE.

I'm Crossing Fingers And Hoping Life Works Out.

The truth is, I'm tired of being sad and having a voice at the back of my mind mutter things like, "Be miserable. Blah blah blah."  So, I'm doing this the traditional-family way.  Happy or angry.  Happy or angry.  Happy or angry.  I prefer to be happy forever, though.  Hihihi.

As of this moment, I am extremely happy!  Christmas was not as depressing as I imagined.  It wasn't exactly fun but it was okay.  I guess?  :-)

I bought the Game of Thrones set (composed of the first 4 books)  So stoked to read them all!  Hihi.  I am so happy, it's insane!  Some things are going just the way it used to be.  Thank you God.  After months and months and months and months of begging..  Thank you so much!

Life is wonderful, isn't it? :-)

Don't Count The Calories.

Craving for junk these past few days.. weeks.. whatever.  Haven't had my burger/pizza/pasta fix yet (No, actually that's not true.  I had pizza and lasagna yesterday.  Still.  I want to eat it everyday) Let's enjoy some pictures, shall we?

I live to eat.

It’s This Twisted Up Memory That I Can’t Unwind.

I fucking lost 1 thousand pesos last Friday. But, hey, things like that happen. I might've dropped it when I was getting my hanky from my pocket.  I might've put it somewhere.  I might've been really reckless and irresponsible last Friday.  But, what the fuck, things like that happen.  It's okay.

And then today, to-fucking-day, I lost my khaki Esprit bag.  It's a fucking big deal because I loved that bag!  It goes with almost everything.  And it's, like, one of the most practical bags ever.  As in practical! Do you know what happened? Punyeta, may nagnakaw sa sampayan namin.  SAMPAYAN.  Is the world fucking with me?  I mean, seriously, life has been a downer this (or should it be 'these'..?) past few months tas ganito pa.  GANITO PA!!!!!!! Tas, what, 5 days nalang, Christmas na.  Are you fucking kidding me, world?!  I should remember to chill the fuck out pero, God, as in RAGE.  RAGE.  People really do that?  I mean, they really steal?  I wish the thief chokes on his own saliva and bleed to death.  May he have a long and miserable life.  Fuck you, asshole.  Thanks for making my already disappointing Christmas more merry.

I want a new bag.  I need a new bag.  Or the Dorothy Perkins flats I've been eyeing.

Is My Imagination The Only Meaning?

Hi Jodie.  I miss you.

On And On, We Sing The Same Song.

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

Obsessing over Deas Vail and Gran Ronde.  Jesus Christ.  Listen to them.  They're awesome.  :"> And it's so freakin' fine to listen to them with this kind of weather.  Hihi.

Waves.

******

EDIT:  Do you know what freaks me out?  I think I'm turning into some person that the old and normal me would loathe.  I've been having this weird and bipolar feelings recently.  One minute I'm boisterously laughing, the next minute, I want to fling my hands around and murder the first person I see.  Is something wrong with me?  Like, seriously?  I never had these extreme tendencies and feelings before.  Now?  It's just freakishly different.  It scares me sometimes.

I don't know if I'm feeling these.. um.. feelings and experiencing these bipolar tendencies because of all the fucked up things happening in my life right now.  Dear God, I don't want to be melodramatic.  The thing is, I'm just fucking sick of everything.  And I mean everything.  I can't see the sunshine or the rainbow after the rain.  I would never see the glass being half-full.  I can't freakin' see the cloud's silver lining!  It's all fucked-up everything.  Home, school, family, friends.. Everything.  What's there to be happy about?  What's there to be thankful for?  What's there to look forward to?  God, my problems never.. It never stops from flowing and from making me go crazy.

I have no idea when this free-falling, brain-fucking, heart-stopping, whirlwind ride would stop.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I've been begging and pleading with God for, what, 2 months now.  It just never stops. I know He has these Divine plans for all of us but.. Please, oh, please.  Can these plans come sooner?  Please?  Before I lose all of the sanity I'm desperately clinging and holding on to.

People can't (and honestly shouldn't) judge me.  Nobody knows what I've been going through lately.  Nobody.

Chasing All The Things That're Keeping Us Young.

☺ ☺ ☺

This Can't Be Healthy.

Today is my lolo's burial day.  Like what I've said, in this family, we never show our emotions.  So, during the mass and the eulogy thing  my uncle gave, I was trying hard not to cry.  I was biting my cheek, I was pinching my arms.. Anything to stop me from crying.  Sadly, I failed.  I sniffed loudly and gave in to the few tears I "bravely" showed.  The truth is, the tears the people saw, it's not enough.  There's more, actually.  I was holding everything back, my throat hurts and it feels like I'm going to choke (I don't know if you guys ever experienced this feeling when you were trying so hard not to cry) and my nose was, like, producing a lot of snot.

I can't believe my grandfather's gone.  Like, gone.  He's an amazing person.  If you guys ever knew him, you would enjoy talking to him.  He's hilarious and fun to talk to.   You could talk about anything under the sun.  He has this facial expression he makes when he's really amused.  And he has this cough-like laugh, which I think is charming..  I would miss these things.  I would miss talking to him.  I would miss teasing him.  I would miss his anecdotes.  I would miss his rants regarding my grandmother.  I would miss my grandfather a lot.  He's one of the very few people I really, really, really love.  And, dear God, during the mass and the eulogy and the burial, my heart was breaking into a bajillion pieces.  It hurts.  I'm not kidding.  It friggin' hurts.  I'll miss my grandfather so much.  So much.

This Christmas is going to suck balls.

Stuck Inside The Tangles Of My Mind.

You Annoying Piece Of Fuck.

I think I'm PMS-ing again.  I'm in a very bad state right now.  I don't want to see anybody.  And I just want to kill someone.  Anyone.  This misanthropic tendency is frightening sometimes.

The thing is..  I really feel lonely and sad and miserable and alone.  And I can't show it when I'm at school.  That's why I laugh a lot or joke a lot.  See, I have this tendency to run away from my problems.  In our house, the only emotions we show are joy and anger.  No sadness, no grief.  It's either you're really happy or really angry.  So, this thing right now, it would be really weird to show it.  Anyway, it feels good to run away from everything that's bothering you.  You don't have to face it.  I know it's a sign of cowardice but..  Who the fuck ever told you I'm brave, anyway?  I can't face all the things that's going on right now.

I'm dreading Christmas.  I can't stay at the dorm and curl up like a fetus and ignore everyone.  I have to be with everyone.  It's really frustrating.

Nobody really knows what's going on (except Jodie.)  I've kept mum for so long, I think I'm going to burst.  Oh well.  I think it's better this way anyway.

I'm sad, that's all.

I Will Follow You Into The Dark.

The best grandfather in the whole wide world died last December 4.

Where's my fucking Christmas miracle, Santa?

Instincts Are Misleading.

It's the first of December.  Wow.  24 more days and it's Christmas again.  Christmas is going to be.. Disappointing this year.  I bet.

Anyway, can I just say that I've been craving for a bagel since, I dunno, yesterday.  Can't stop googling bagels.  I want to eat one with a lot of cream cheese, bacon, and eggs.  Omg.  I really want one.  Please make my bagel fantasies come true!

Come to think of it, a grilled salmon bagel would do too.

BAGEL.  BAGEL.  BAGEL.  

And Just Like Ships We Float Through Each Other's Lives.

I'm so excited to watch this!  Haven't watched it yet because I'm depending on Nikki's copy.  Mehehehe.  Anyway, Miranda's back!  Rosie and Isabeli didn't participate this year, though.  Sucks.  Oh well.  Can't wait to finally watch them strut around the runway.  I can't wait to see Adriana's gorgeousness!  She's my favorite Angel.  :))

P.S. Listen to Blind Walrus' Ships.  It's..  Beautiful.  Chill, chill song.  Hihihi.

I Ain't Gonna Lie, I Could Be A Nasty Guy.

Last night, I talked to someone I haven't talked to for, what, a year now.  Missed that kid.  Miss how close we used to be.

I'm Letting You Down, You Are Just Hiding It So Well.

I get really annoyed and, well, offended whenever people think I'm dumb, stupid, or even moronic.  I get really defensive whenever the topic's about intelligence or talents.

I talk a lot.  I laugh a lot.  I'm boisterous.  And I don't take things seriously.  Does that make me a cretin?  I make a lot of jokes (most of them awful) Does that make me a half-witted dumb ass?  I rarely listen to Mozart or Beethoven or Debussy.  Does that mean I'm an idiot?  I don't get half of the terms they say in The Big Bang Theory.  Wow, am I dunderhead because of  these things?  Seriously?

I talk in circles.  I stutter when I nervous.  My mind goes blank whenever a professor asks a question to me by surprise.  And, I guess that means I have a pea for a brain, huh?

The thing is, I may not be the brightest student in class, I may not be the messiah or the Albert Einstein-prodigy of this generation.. but, I'm happy.  Well, most of the time, I am.  Come to think of it, why do I even have to prove myself?  Oh yeah, because you stinking lot think that you're the brainiest and smartest people in the planet.  Dude, half the people in that class are smarter than you.  They just don't try.  They're just too lazy to try.  So, in a way, you're lucky they don't attempt to nerd-up or something.  Where will you end up if those people study?  Where?

Truth be told, honey, you're no better than the rest of us.

It's A Ruse, It's A Laugh.

I'm not kidding when I say that this is a mind-blowing and astonishing song.  Seriously!  If you loved Fanfarlo's I'm A Pilot or The Paper Kites' Woodland..  You'll love this.  It's.. less.. Indie?  Anyway, Jesus Christ, listen to it, listen to it, listen to it!  I fell in love with the song the minute I heard it.  Hihihi.  I hope you'll do too.

And All You Wanted Was Somebody Who Cares.

Anyway, I've finished watching Downton Abbey last night.  Omg  I can't freakin' wait for September 2012!!!  What's going to happen to Lady Mary?  Is Sybil really going to stay forever in Dublin?  Are they going to lock up Mr.  Bates again? WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN?  Omg.  The wait is killing me.

And, can I just say that I'm really disappointed with Lord Grantham!! I thought he's going to stay loyal forever to Lady Grantham and then.. He freakin' kissed a maid.  "I want you with every fiber of my being." Well, fuck you very much.

Sorry.  I got carried away.  =))  ANYWAY, SEPTEMBER 2012.. COME SOONER PLEAAASE! 

Once Upon A Midnight Dreary, While I Pondered Weak And Weary.

Hooplas Involving Circus Tricks.

Talked to Jodie last night.  Dunno what to do without her.  Mehehehe.

Anyway, Quimbo's making me watch Being Human, but, I thought it was sort of spooky so I switched to Downton Abbey immediately.  Omgggg.  One of the best series in the whole wide world!  It's so gooood.  I mean, it's that good!

It's almost 10 am, I'm starving and I want to eat breakfast or brunch..  whatever..  but, I'm lazy to go outside and buy food.  The weather makes me cling on to my bed for dear life.  Oh well.  I'll buy food.. whenever.

Going to watch Donnie Darko later.  Mehehe.

Bye.  Whatever.

******

EDIT: I watched Donnie Darko.  Omg, I'm not exaggerating when I say that it's probably one of the awesome-est movies in the whole wide world.  It's like my 2nd American Psycho.  So amazing and wonderful.  Omg.

Am I Just Bad Luck?

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away [x4]

Yesterday night was one of the best nights of my entire life.

Shitty, shitty, shit, shit.  Yidii, yadah, yadah.  Shitty, shit, shit.

Blah, blah, blah, blah.

I Want To Stab You To Death, And Then Play Around With Your Blood.

"There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing."

- American Psycho

Ditto.

It's my favorite-est movie in the whole wide world.

I'll Give You The Mean.

No classes today.  I stayed at home and downloaded the complete season 2 of Downton Abbey.  Omg.  It's such a gorgeous series.  I'm currently in love with Rob James-Collier.  He plays Thomas in the series.  He's..  quite foxy and..  Really stunning.  And his British accent..  *fans self*  Hubbah hubbah.

He's so handsome, he's going to send me to a coma.

Anyway, I'm also currently loving their Theme tune.  Here, listen to it:

I'm in love with Downton Abbey.  It's a good thing, I think.  It helps me forget all of my problems.  And I mean problems.  Mainly, family-related.  Anyway, whatever.  Gonna go run away from everything again. Hihi.

I'll Keep The Shitty Tattoos.

Wow, That's Lovely. Wonderful.

So, I've been watching Skins since last night.  I'm such a loser because I only started watching now.  ANYWAY, I like Sid and Cassie.  I think they're both charming and endearing and wonderful.  While I was watching, all I could think of was their parents.  They have irresponsible and selfish parents.  It's quite saddening, really.

I'm really hungry.  It started pouring last night so I let Mariam borrow my umbrella.  Now, I can't freakin' buy food because it's raining.  I'm starving.  Staaaaaaaarving.  I can't believe I'm saying this because I'm seriously the rain's number 1 fan but..  Please, please, Mr. Rain, stop a little bit.  Let me buy food.  God, I get really cranky when I'm hungry.  Huhuhuhu.

Oh yeah, I'm going home tomorrow.  I have no classes on Friday so I could sleep at the house for 2 days..?  I dunno.  Basta, I'm going home.  Hihihi.  That's nice.

But Here And Now, I'm On My Own.

Gaaaah.  Worst day ever yesterday.  I almost got kicked out of the dorm because of illegally possessing something that isn't mine.  After that, when we were going home, a thief snatched Yam's bag.  God.  It was so traumatizing.  Yam was like 2 steps away from me.  Omg.  The only good thing is that the thief didn't hurt Yam or anyone of us.  God, I would stop bringing my iPod and wallet from this time one.  Plus, I would also use my old bag.  Still so freaked out.

Hay nako.  I'm sort of pissed.  Why do people have to steal?  Seriously.  Jesus.  What annoying little fucks.

This One Belongs To You.

Pre-school songs.  Awesome tracks. 

So You Write Our Sins In Our Blood.

I watched A Cinderella Story for the first time today.  I was bored out of my wits and I don't know what to watch anymore, so, yeah, I watched Hilary Duff turn into Sam Montgomery.  Anyway, the movie was shown and released 7 years ago, so, everything was so different.  Especially the cell phones.  Everyone has a flip phone.  

I WANT A FLIP PHONE SO BAD.  So bad.  When I go to GH, I swear I'm going to buy one.  Kahit dual-band papatulan ko talaga.  I just want to own one.  Even if it's not high-tech, it's okaaaay!  I swear.  I want one so much.  I want one.  I want one.  I want one.  I don't even care about the features or brand.  I just want one so I could play with it and pretend that I'm in a movie or something (Please don't make me elaborate about my fantasy business calls.  HAHAHAHA.)

I even googled for some pictures!  Look at how cute they are:

Jesus Christ, I want one so muuuuch.  :(  Huhuhu.

Remember, Remember The 5th Of November.

So, I'm thinking of changing my lotion -- again.  I've been using Victoria's Secret since I was 10 but when I turned 17, I tried using different products like Jergens, Johnsons & Johnsons baby lotion thing, and the butter thing from The Body Shop.  Now, I'm thinking of trying Philosophy.  So, my goal is to visit Beauty Bar and ask for the goddamn, bloody lotion from Philosophy -- preferably their Aloha Girl one (It's vanilla coconut scented!  Hihihi.) I would even settle for Cinnamon. Mehehe.  Dear God, I hope it's available here in the Philippines, the scent/flavor, I mean.  My skin needs some sweet-oh-lovin'.  KBYE.

I can't believe the semestral break's ending.  I am so not ready to go back to school.  I haven't bought a new notebook yet.  I need a new one. 

Anyway, I've been listening to The Paper Kite's Woodland all day.  It's such a pretty, pretty, pretty song.  Speaking of music, I need a new pair of earphones.  Mine's gone wacko.  Oh Christ.  I couldn't make my earphones last for more than a month.  Jesus.

I'm babbling again, huh?  Anyway, it's the 5th of November!  You guys should seriously read V For Vendetta (graphic novel.) Alan Moore's so fucking fantastic.  I'm not exaggerating.  *teardrops* HAHAHAHAHA!  Seriously speaking, do you guys remember the movie Watchmen?  It's based on Alan Moore's graphic novel of the same name.  I watched the movie, it was crap.  CRAP.  It's different from the novel.  The movie missed the point of, uh, everything.  I'm sorry.  This is just my opinion.  Hmph.  ANYWAY, after 3 years of searching and looking for From Hell (another graphic novel by Alan Moore), Yo finally found one in Eastwood last August (?)  He bought it for 2000 pesos.  I said that he should've waited for the Book Fair (which we fuckingly missed. This is the first time we missed it.  After  8 years of diligently..  Ugh.) because it would be a hell-lot cheaper.  He said that we've been looking for it for a long time (we tried looking for it in every bookstore in NCR, to be fair) so he's not going to let it out of his grip.  I haven't read it yet but omg!!!!  I am so excited.  Hihihi.  See, it's about Jack the Ripper.  So, I'm sure it's going to be mind-blowing.  Alan Moore + Pyschopath + Historical Content = PERFECT.  Omg!  

You're A Disgrace To The Concept Of Family.

The one thing I realized today is that you can't depend on your family.  You can't and you shouldn't.  Sure, they might be there when you were having troubles when you were a kid but that's that.  Of course they're there during your "superstar" moments but that's all there is to that relationship.  Afterwards, you grow older and you face real problems that could make The Hulk go to a nervous breakdown, then you'll realize that you're alone.  Where's your family now?  Where are the stupid promises to protect you and support you and listen to you?  Just because someone new came along doesn't mean that they should have more responsibilities to that person.  They don't even listen to you anymore or talk to you unless they're going to ask you to do something for them or for that person.  You're not even asking for any material shit or what, you just want someone to listen and talk to you.

You can't really depend on your friends either because it's selfish (seriously) to pass the weight on your shoulders to them.

So, there you go fellas, you can't depend on anybody because they're just going to disappoint you and crush your soul.  At the end of the day, it's just going to be you.  Believe me, human, I know.

Love And Love And Happy Afternoons.

P. S. 53 more days 'till Christmas (Got that here.)  I don't think I'm excited.

Oh God I Feel Like I'm In For It Now.

So, what's playin'?

The Latency's - Fork In The Road

Angels & Airwaves - The Gift

The Shins - Australia

Ten Second Epic - Yours To Lose

Sex Pistols - God Save The Queen

The Weepies - They're In Love, Where Am I?

The Weepies - Please Speak Well Of Me

Sail By The Stars - Wingspan And Flight Plans

The Killers - Spaceman

The Paper Kites - Woodland

I would recommend this playlist (especially The Weepies and The Paper Kites) for a rainy and chill day.  It kinda sucks, though, because the rain hasn't come my way yet.  It's so scalding-ly hot these days.

What's The Best We Could Make Of Today?

♥ ♥ ♥

When You Hear This Song, I Hope Your Ears Bleed.

I had a very funny and wonderful dream last night.  I was with my mom and Jodie, then we went to the Rico Rodriguez salon (don't ask me, Rico Rodriguez is Manny from Modern Family.  I think he's super duper cute.  So, I don't know why he has a salon in my dream)  Anyway, when we got there, all my blockmates were there.  They were throwing a surprise birthday party for Rico Rodriguez.  When Rico came, he was a different guy.  He's all grown-up with a beer belly and a weird mustache but he was gay.  (This stuff's getting weirder and weirder, believe me! Hahaha.)  So, everyone's having fun with the booze and Rico's funny antics and then Jodie and I found out that we were accepted in Hogwarts, along with a certain blockmate of mine and another person I can't remember (this bothers me a lot.  Although, some parts, I think it's Floro.  So weird.)

Jodie and I plus my certain blockmate and his side-kick decided to go to Krispy Kreme and celebrate our Hogwarts acceptance letter.  But, before we got to Krispy Kreme, we decided to go my house and practice with our wands (I don't know how we got our wands without going to Diagon Alley.  So weird.)  So, we were trying out spells like Accio, and Aguementi and then I had this crazy idea to try Sectumsempra to a civilian.  Before I could do it and find out its effects or something, I woke up.  *sigggghs*  It was so frustrating.  I didn't get to see what happened.

This dream was really amazing, though.  It was such an adventure!  There were even parts when I was driving and overspeeding and I was good.  Man, I was a good driver.

So, today, I watched the mini-series Lost In Austen.  It was so amazing and I loved it so freakin' much!  It was funny and, yeah, witty.  I want to reread Pride and Prejudice because of this!  The thing in the story that made me wince a little bit was the fact they fall in love easily.  Like, easily.  It was disturbing.  Another fact was the actress who played Jane.  I think that role should be saved for Rosamund Pike.  She's the perfect Jane Bennet!  Morven Christie is a good actress but, god, she's..  I don't picture Jane looking like that. Seriously.  Rosamund Pike is the perfeeeeect Jane! ♥

On the other hand, Gemma Arterton was the perfect Elizabeth Bennet!  Perfect, I tell you!  She doesn't really have a huge role here but, man, she's the Lizzy Bennet I've been picturing in my mind.  Keira Knightley can rot in hell.  (I'm sorry, I don't like her.  And she crapped out the Pride and Prejudice movie.  It was ruined!  It wasn't what I expected.  Hmph.)  Plus, plus, plus, take a look at Gemma Arterton, she's such a babe!  How is it even possible to have such a beautiful person like her walking around this grassy, green Earth?

Beautiful!  Anyway, God, I love Pride and Prejudice so much.  I must've read it 3x already.  I want Mr. Darcy!  He's such a perfect gentleman.  Hihihi.  Plus, he's really handsome too.  Elliot Cowen played Mr. Darcy in Lost In Austen and he's perfect.  Perffffffffffect!  I don't like the Mr. Darcy in the Pride and Prejudice movie.  Suuuuucks.

I'm sorry.  I didn't like the movie.  I think it was a waste of my time.

So, yeah.  Watch Lost In Austen!  Hihihi.