Told you who I am and what it is that's not my fault

 Okayyyy so this is a Charmera dump from December 5-6!

December 5, I dated myself for a bit at Public Eatery because I had a massive craving for Fish and Chips. So, I decided to get one for lunch and I also bought coffee from Candid. I was able to finish the novel I was reading (Discontent by Beatriz Serrano and omg - 5 stars motherfucker! The protagonist was a 32-year-old female who's, well, sick of faking everything and being so unsure if she's contented with her job, her life in general. Basically, she's going through the motions but she's not sure if she's happy. I loved it. I highlighted a shit ton of paragraphs from the novel because it was so spot on with what I'm currently feeling) ANYWAYYYYY, so I was able to finish that novel while I was eating my fish and chips and drinking my coffee.

Sof and Jerick also went home to Mandaluyong SO YEHEYYYYYYY we decided to meet up! Grabe missed them so much!

On December 6, met up with Jodie at Mega Mall (Cooper's) to finally watch Jujutsu Kaisen: Execution!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG I WAS IN HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also, saw Sof, Jerick, Nanay, and Andrea for a bit. Mini chichi lang. ANYWAYYYYYY, we bought these JJK cat ears plushie thing from Filbar. My first pull was Nanami. When we were talking, Jodie was saying na fuck sana hindi si Haibara etc etc. HER FIRST PULL WAS HAIBARA HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA so we decided to buy another one because we wanted to get either Gojo or Geto!!!!!! My 2nd pull was Toji (which I decided to give Yo) and Jodie's was Shoko HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA hay. Then she treated me at Sodan for dinner YAYYYYY

Grabe na talaga traffic and shit pag Christmas season. We started trying to book Grab at around 10:57 pm, we were able to get a driver and leave Mega Mall at around 1:30 am. Mother eff?? I was able to go home at around 2:25 am! Grabe talaga. Pero anyway, I don't regret anything! I CAN'T WAIT FOR JJK SEASON 3!!!!!!

SO good catching up with my friends! What a weekend!

When You Feel Like You're Out There On Your Own, Know There Is Someone Watching Over You.

We went to Manaoag today.  I'm so tired.  I'll talk about that some other day.  Anyway, as I was waiting for the Sandman to put me into sleep, I visited my best friend's blog.  I want to link it here but I don't know if she would want me to.  Hahahaha.  Anyway,  I reread some of her posts when we were in high school and omg it's pretty hilarious.  Sobrang nostalgic!  I like reading her past entries more than my past entries because mine wasn't detailed and it's not really hilarious because I was (am) always ranting.

If you knew me in high school, you would know how muuuuuuuch I looooove Jodie! As in, I really, really love her (in a purely platonic sense, ha.)  She was (is) my bright little ray of sunshine.  Well, of course, nothing has changed.  She's still the best best friend in the whole wide world!  Huhuhuhu I really, really, really miss her!  Anyway,  here are some excerpts from her blog:

"As usual, the boring part started when we arrived from Camarin. At least Rina surprised me. As soon as she saw me enter the covered court she came, no ran in slow motion towards me and Ariel screaming "JODIE! JODIE!" She didn't care even if people were staring at her. HAHAHA. Aww Rina, you're so sweet.  =))"

- I remember this day!  It was after PALIHAN and the two of us were assigned to two different communities.  Omg, I still remember how I felt when I saw her coming to the covered court! I was really, really, really excited and happy.  Huhuhuhuhu.

"Oh yes. I love Jodie. Oooops, who doesn't know that, huh? :))"

-  There was a time when we decided to update each other's blogs.  So, we switched email addresses and passwords.  This is what I wrote on her blog.  Huhuhuhu.

Grabe the feels.

We have different interests now but that's what makes our friendship funnier.  You love..  you know.  And I'm addicted to One Direction so...  Hahahaha.  I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really miss you.  Please don't leave me.  Huhuhuhu.  And update your blog, Jesus!!  Hahahaha!

Step Out Into The Light.

Today is a really, really, really good day!  I started doing the thing that I needed to do in order to attain my goal.  Gaaaah.  Please, God, let me have this.  Please, please, please.  I never wanted anything this bad since..  well..  since Ateneo.  (But look how that turned out.) Please, God, let me have this.  I really, really, really, really want this.

Anyway, I downloaded LINE because my best friend said it was cute.  Now, I can't stop using it just to annoy her and stuff.

I think she would kill me if she sees this post because, well, I posted it.  Hahahahaha!  But, only a few people know that this blog exists so her not-so-secret secret's safe!

Love Of Mine, Someday You Will Die.

Guess who watched Death Cab For Cutie today? Guess who watched Death Cab For Cutie today? GUESS WHO FREAKIN' WATCHED DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE TODAY?

After years of waiting.. I finally saw my favorite-est band in the whole wide world... LIVE.  With Jodie.  (After months and months of not seeing each other.. We finally managed to watch a concert again together! Hihi.) Omg.  This has got to be one of the best feelings in the whole wide world!  Jesus Christ.  *tears*

Jesus Christ.  Ben Gibbard was freakin' amazing.  No exaggerations.  One minute, he was singing and playing the guitar, the next minute, he's playing the piano.. And then the next minute, he's playing the drums!  God, I fell in love.  I was..  Omg.  I saw him like that for the first time.  He was so motherfucking awesome. Cue: bucket load of tears.

Is My Imagination The Only Meaning?

Hi Jodie.  I miss you.

I'm Not Good At This.

Expressing myself's not always easy. The hardest part where I have a hard time telling the stuff that I should say & elaborating how I feel is, well, saying goodbye. I was NEVER a good goodbye person. Most of the time, I would just shrug the feeling off & avoid the person. SRSLY. Ask my parents or some of my oldest friends. I don't really know what's wrong with me but I've accepted the fact that I'm simply weird that way.

But, honestly? I'm scared. Every time I see someone go, I have this heavy feeling at the pit of my stomach. I try to be brave, though. Although my bravery is oftentimes synonymous to being aloof. I know. Sorry. It's just, well, I know I wouldn't be able to handle it -- so, I shove everybody away.

Anyway, as much as I would hate to say this -- I think I must, well, give you a proper & un-snubbed farewell. :))

Bye Jodie. :) I hope you enjoy UPLB 'cause I know you're going to shine. Kapag pinagpalit mo ako -- papatayin kita. Seryoso yun. So, ayun. >:D<