I cannot emphasize enough how scared shitless I am of the future. Jobstreet textmed me a while back that there were some interview-requests thing for me. Unfortunately, I'm not at home so I wasn't able to check my email and stuff. But, on the way home.. I was freaking out. I know that my resume isn't really impressive and, honestly, I'm not even a star student. I was pretty average, I'm not exceptional. So, I was kind of freaking out and breathing deeply and shit. I was already thinking, "Fuck, would I wing this thing? Would I fail? What if I muck things up?" You know? Those kind of things. I am a freakin' nervous wreck right now. I just want the interviews over and done with.
The other problem is.. I am not sure what to do with my life. I just applied to every company I could see in JobStreet that requires fresh-grads and CA students. If one of these companies accept me, I swear I won't fuck things up and shit.
Jesus, I am so terribly and insanely scared of the future... Of everything, actually. Just guide me and stuff. Please.
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