It's All In Your Mind.

But is it really? Is it? Have you ever tried, like, really listening to Spaceman by The Killers? I don't know what it means to you but for me - it's about a depressed person who botched up her/his suicide attempt. I mean, the lyrics say it all. You got to read between the lines but it's there.

"It started with a low light. Next thing I knew they ripped me from my bed and then they took my blood type. It left a strange impression in my head."
- The person tried to kill her/himself and she/he was saved in the nick of time.

"You know that I was hoping that I could leave this star-crossed world behind." 

- Not very subtle, right?

"And you know I might have just flown too far from the floor this time 'cause they're calling me by my name."
- This suicide attempt is pretty serious, like, if she/he wasn't found immediately, the people around her/him could've lost her/him.

"And you know, I'm fine, but I hear those voices sometimes they justify my claim." 

- No regrets in trying to commit suicide.

"You think you might cross over. You're caught between the devil and the deep blue sea. You better look it over before you make that leap."
- The person is still thinking about committing suicide. But she/he is really thinking things through.

"And the public don't dwell on my transmission 'cause it wasn't televised but it was the turning point, oh what a lonely night." 

- The people can't see how she/he really feels because she/he doesn't broadcast it to the world. She/he keeps it inside and she/he feels that she/he's alone, that she/he doesn't have anyone. And that's the crazy thing about depression, it eats you from the inside, you know?

"The starmaker says, 'It ain't so bad.' The dream makers gonna make you mad. The spaceman says, 'Everybody look down. It's all in your mind.'" 

- This is what kills me, you know. When people say that it's okay blah, blah, blah. "It's all in your mind, some has it worse, your situation is not that bad." Depression is not a fucking competition. If you don't know what the other person is going through, just shut up, you know? It may be a big fucking deal for her/him. Mental illness is just as serious as physical illness. Just because you can't see it, it doesn't mean that it isn't slowly hurting and killing a person.

I'm not saying that you got to believe me or even listen to me. This is just how the song spoke to me - how I view it, you know? It's an upbeat-y song but it makes me sad. Hay.