We All Fall Down Sometimes.

I changed my layout -- AGAIN. I KNOOOOW. Super ADHD. But, I have to forget about some stuff. Besides, I feel like changing it from black to white :D What can you say? I told you I'm going back to the old-super-childish-Rina. I'm returning, right? :) I'm excited! I'm going to be FUN again! :)) YEY! YEY! YEY!

I haven't done my Physics and Rel HW. I can't understand the Rel HW so I might as well pass it on.. Tuesday? Or Wednesday? Any other day but Monday. I swear. At least I'm done with the Elective and the Theresian Mag stuff! YEY! YEY!

It feels weird, but I actually think it's ok to go to school tomorrow. :D SEE?! I'm really returning! HOMAAAAYGAAAD. YEY-UH! YEY-UH! I would dance the congo right now if I know how! I'm, um, elated. I don't know why :D Or maybe it's because I'm going to see my friends again tomorrow! YEY-UH! YEY-UH!!

The only glitch is that we have Eco tomorrow -- and, I'm actually scared to see Sir Zaraspe again :| I think he's still mad at me. :| Shoot. What am I going to doooo? It's all Pia's fault. :| HAHA. K. But, since it's her birthday today -- I might as well just forget about it. *sighs*

See you guys tomorrow :)

Ciao.

But If I Had To Say Goodbye To Leave This Hell, I'd Say My Time Has Served Me Well.

I'm going to go back to the veeeery old Rina -- super numb and naive. :) I swear. Things are a lot better to take when I'm that way. :D

Hmmm. What's there to talk about? OH YEAH. Tomorrow is Dorilie's 16th! YEY-UH! And on Nov. 13, it's Jodie's 16th! YEY! Double celebration! Wow, I've just realized that Jodie's the baby. HAHAHA. Oh well. She's a hell-lot more mature than me. Cheers!

I bought the book "The Host" since Gego said it was a nice book. I'm reading it and I'm telling you that it's complex. I thought it was just a toilet book. You could imagine my shock when I began to read it and wince at the complication of the story. Oh well.. Serves me right for judging a book by it's cover. HAHA.

See you tomorrow. I don't want to go to school -- but, I don't have a choice. I couldn't ruin my neat record of "No Absents" since First Year. SEE? I'm good. HAHA.

All's good. All's effing good. I think. :D

SONG: Still, STILL Sum 41's Over My Head.

Shut Up And Drive!

For once I'm not going to rave about anything -- I'm actually LAUGHING =)) Mons gave me her blog's URL. SUPER BENTA ng mga posts nya! =)) I SWEAR. There was this article where she described the setting of her, um, suicidal place =)) I was literally shaking and guffawing! =)) She made my day :) Honestly! SUPER PANALO! =)) I was LAUGHING like a possessed-demon, Yo had to stare at me. Si Gazeebs talaga, oo! =)) "Ohh ayan pa labas na kami, ibalik mo na sa MS WORD."

On the other hand, all I did today is to finish the compilation of the iii1-iv1 pictures. I miss my third year life :( It was a hell-lot better than this fucked-up 4th yr. experience. *sighs*

Oh well. I'm going to rest for a while then I'm off to finish some Theresian Mag responsibilities *sighs* I'm going to reread Mons' blog. It makes me forget everything :) I SWEAR BASAHIN NYO! You'll get me!

SONG: Sum 41's Over My Head :)

This Hypocrisy Is Beginning To Get To Me.

.. Or maybe it's just plain karma?

UGH. I ought to be a good girl :( Sadness is becoming my middle name and I honestly, honestly, honestly hate it. So much for the 100 or so comments like "Rina, buti ka pa! Parang ang saya saya mo palagi!", "Rina! Nakakainggit ka! Para kang walang problema." Delusional retards :)) That made me laugh :)) Akala nyo lang yon. Kasi, WEEELL, magaling ako mag-tago :)

But, seriously, these past few months -- it seems like I've morphed or something. SUPER EEEW. My emotional stability is, I dunno, super UNSTABLE. I've been experiencing dysphoric feelings just because. UGH. Screw you, screw you -- fucking screw you. Me. Whatever.

Oh well. It's really just karma :) I can feel it. So, to solve this problem -- I'm going to be a good girl. I'm going to try not to be mean to Yo and, er, E. :)) If I have to kiss CB's ass -- so be it. NOT. That's going to far. That Freakshit-Bitch deserves NONE of my, um, kindness and.. Mercy? =)) FUNNY. =)) HAHAHA. No. But, I promise -- I'm not going to, um, be mean. Anymore.

I'm not giving up. I'm just going to try less. K =)) It's almost the same thing.. Oh well. Whatever.

"Who said it was easy to put back all of these pieces?"
-Sum 41.

.. Who said it was easy to try SO hard? I don't need pity -- that's for sissy's (Is an apostrohe necessary..? Jesus) All I need is some patience.

Figure that out :)

Life's bound to get better. HOPEFULLY.

Ciao.

SONG: Sum 41's Over My Head :)

It's Not About The Drama.

I was taking a bath, what, 30 minutes ago and I've realized that I'm starting not to care. REALLY. Wow. That's NEW. Anyway, I am SERIOUS. I was washing my hair when, I dunno, something snapped -- then I thought that it's not really worth it.. You know.. All the worrying and all those nervousness you're giving me. HAHAHA :))

Actually, I'm sort of still, um, worrying. I mean, you're still my friend. Whatever happens -- you will always always be my friend. K? It's just that it seems like for a very very very very long time, I'm the one making all the effort. I'm the one trying hard to reach you or just, I dunno, talk to you. And, honestly, I don't really think it's fair. :D

It's too early to talk or say I'm 100% fine, that I'm A-OK.. But, as of this moment -- I'm not even giving the 84% a shot -- it's more of a 57%.. Or a 53..?

After all that we've been through, make me feel like I'm still your friend. That somehow, you still think I'm important. K? Make some effort. Make me feel loved. :| 'Cause I've been super honest how important you are to me. K?

Figure that out.

Ciao :)

School Tomorrow. Are You Up To It?

YEY! For the first time in my Senior Life -- I'm going to pass a project.. ON TIME! YEY ME! YEY ME!

It's the stupid Pinoy Project. Seriously, I had a VERY hard time completing it because you have to speak in straight and complete Tagalog. My paragraphs made me wince because I know it's barok. :( I have to harness my skills. I swear.

HAHA! I'm going to share my project! Copyright Rina :D Some of it anyway. :> God. Talk about PROUD. :D

Here, this is what I wrote in the Pokus Area:

Matingkad na naipakita sa palabas na ito ang pagkagusto ni Ibarra na magkaroon ng

kaginhawahan sa buhay ng mga kapwa Pilipino nya sa isang maganda at mahusay

na paraan na kung saan ay wala siyang tinatapakan at inaalipusta. Ipinapakita dito

ang pagka-ayaw nya sa korapsyon at ang pagiging ideyalista nya.

Ipinakita din dito ang pagkahumaling naman ng mga iba nyang kababayan sa

korapsyon. Walang kaso sa kanila kung may matapakan sila at maapi basta

matiwasay ang buhay nila. Isa na dito si Salvi. Wala sa kanya na magaganda ang

hangarin ni Ibarra. Basta nakaharang sya sa daan nya kaya unti-unti nyang sinira si

Ibarra.

Isa pang matingkad na pokus na naipakita ay ang pagbabago ng mga pananaw sa

buhay ni Ibarra nang siya parang natalo. Bale wala na sakanya kung may masaktan

sya o maapi. Basta kinakailangan na makuha nya si Clarissa. May mga namatay

dahil sa kanya pero hindi man lang sya halos nakonsensya. Nawala na ang dignidad

nya. Nabalot na sya ng poot at paghihimagsik nalang ang nasa isip nya.

It's understandable.. I think? PLEASE TELL ME YOU COULD UNDERSTAND IT! I spent THREE HOURS staring at my monitor and another TWO HOURS to make this paper!

K. Ok. I printed it already so there's NO way I'm going to retype or redo anything. I'll submit it even if it's barok. Hell, I tried my best!

SONG: Zac's Bet On It. This is for the play in Music. I PROMISE.

This And That.

I've waited my whole life for this. Then, what, you're going to appear and stomple everything. I may be a freakshit who talks about stupid things or raves about stuff -- but I also have dreams. No matter how idiotic or juvenile those dreams are -- they are still there.

So, what are you going to do?

I was cheerful and contented before -- you're making me dysphoric now.

I was carefree before -- you're making me mature now.

Maybe I expected a little too much. Maybe I expected a lot. What can you say, I have dreams. (HAH! The sarcasm still flows in my veins.) I don't know what you're doing but I'm never going to tell you what or what not to do. I may care a lot (Heck. Those are 101%!), but it's your life. Live it the way you want it. I may constantly remind you of stuff or other things -- but, I promise I'm not going to nag.

I dedicated a bunch of stuff to you. What, you didn't even regard it with interest. It's always just me, huh?

I hoped you cared. I effing wished you tried. It wouldn't hurt you if you actually vied for it. Would it kill you if you actually made an effort..?

Maybe I was -- am just a delusional shit.

P.S. Since you're always a tad greater than me, I might as well just evaporate. K?

K, Bye.

How Bored Can One Person Get?

.. SUPER BORED.

That's it. I haven't done any HW's yet. I'm not in the mood and I don't think that I would be in the mood.

I'm feeling DOWN. Honestly. I have no idea why. Maybe it's because of the resumption of classes on Monday. :| After what happened today, I am so not in the mood to go to school. I'd rather see my grandmother dance naked in front of me. Seriously.

I know I should listen to my friends and all -- but, what's with my super hard-head that I couldn't just, you know, stop and, yeah, listen? Maybe Eryel's 84% is right after all. Maybe 101% is a bit too much. Right? HAH. I knew it. I knew I should've listened to Eryel. Fine. I'm going to do the 84% from now on :D If things are not as bad as it is right now -- maybe I could do a 90. Why not?

My last posts are.. I dunno. Mature? I reread my super old posts and, I dunno, they're full of jolly and i-don't-give-a-damn-on-what's-going-on-around-me stuff. Then, I reread SOME of my new posts and I cringed. They're, well, SERIOUS. I swear! I don't even know if I inserted some "fun" in those stuff.

BAH!

I told you I'm becoming BORING. :| Help me get back. I SWEAR. Help me GET BACK.

MUST REMEMBER THE 84%! MUST!

.. Or else I'm DOOMED. REALLY DOOMED.

I must keep it in MIND. I really SHOULD.

SONG: Guess what? It's written all over my blog! =))

In Front Of Your Eyes It Falls From The Skies.

I multiply-hopped. I flooded Eryel's albums :)) Well. MOST of it. :)) I decided to flood since most of the albums are full of my pictures anyway :)) HAHAHAHA.

Pacute. HARDCORE :))




Guess who's calling :))




Yes. I'm so not vain. I'm telling yooou.

I am so noooot vain. It was their idea anyway. HAHAHA. Jesus Chriiiist. I miss school. BADLY. Two reasons. Two reasons only. And, since it's November 1, I'm going to give you one of the reasons:


Yep. I miss you guys. (And Dorilie and the rest.) When I need some brightening up and kalabuan, I could easily turn to Jodie and emote. When I need some one-of-a-kind-sarcastic-straight-to-the-point opinion, I could glance at Eryel. and have it. It was too bad we didn't go out last Thursday :| I'm super sorry. I was looking forward to hanging out with you people. :| Tayong tatlo na naman. SANA. *SIGHS*

See you on the 3rd :)

SONG: Sum 41's With Me nga :))

I Don't Want This Moment To Ever End -- Where Everything's Nothing Without You.

YEY! First post for November! Clap, clap, clap!

I swear I'm going to make this November memorable and worth it. Whatever it takes.

UGH. Talk about bad luck. I couldn't download GG's S2E8! UGH. They (PEOPLE. Pipi. Eryel. Mons.) were telling me to watch it already because it's ok and it made Season 2 worth watching. Heck.. I couldn't download it NOW. I have no fucking idea why.

*SIGHS*

I am so bored. I am still sleepy. I don't even know why I got up at around 6.40 this morning :|

BTW, What can you say about my neeeew layout? It's pretty simple, right? But, I think it's ok. What can you say?

SONG: Sum 41's With Me :) Super looooove. Listen to it. You'll get me.