I Want To Stab You To Death, And Then Play Around With Your Blood.

"There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing."

- American Psycho

Ditto.

It's my favorite-est movie in the whole wide world.

I'll Give You The Mean.

No classes today.  I stayed at home and downloaded the complete season 2 of Downton Abbey.  Omg.  It's such a gorgeous series.  I'm currently in love with Rob James-Collier.  He plays Thomas in the series.  He's..  quite foxy and..  Really stunning.  And his British accent..  *fans self*  Hubbah hubbah.

He's so handsome, he's going to send me to a coma.

Anyway, I'm also currently loving their Theme tune.  Here, listen to it:

I'm in love with Downton Abbey.  It's a good thing, I think.  It helps me forget all of my problems.  And I mean problems.  Mainly, family-related.  Anyway, whatever.  Gonna go run away from everything again. Hihi.

I'll Keep The Shitty Tattoos.

Wow, That's Lovely. Wonderful.

So, I've been watching Skins since last night.  I'm such a loser because I only started watching now.  ANYWAY, I like Sid and Cassie.  I think they're both charming and endearing and wonderful.  While I was watching, all I could think of was their parents.  They have irresponsible and selfish parents.  It's quite saddening, really.

I'm really hungry.  It started pouring last night so I let Mariam borrow my umbrella.  Now, I can't freakin' buy food because it's raining.  I'm starving.  Staaaaaaaarving.  I can't believe I'm saying this because I'm seriously the rain's number 1 fan but..  Please, please, Mr. Rain, stop a little bit.  Let me buy food.  God, I get really cranky when I'm hungry.  Huhuhuhu.

Oh yeah, I'm going home tomorrow.  I have no classes on Friday so I could sleep at the house for 2 days..?  I dunno.  Basta, I'm going home.  Hihihi.  That's nice.

But Here And Now, I'm On My Own.

Gaaaah.  Worst day ever yesterday.  I almost got kicked out of the dorm because of illegally possessing something that isn't mine.  After that, when we were going home, a thief snatched Yam's bag.  God.  It was so traumatizing.  Yam was like 2 steps away from me.  Omg.  The only good thing is that the thief didn't hurt Yam or anyone of us.  God, I would stop bringing my iPod and wallet from this time one.  Plus, I would also use my old bag.  Still so freaked out.

Hay nako.  I'm sort of pissed.  Why do people have to steal?  Seriously.  Jesus.  What annoying little fucks.

This One Belongs To You.

Pre-school songs.  Awesome tracks. 

So You Write Our Sins In Our Blood.

I watched A Cinderella Story for the first time today.  I was bored out of my wits and I don't know what to watch anymore, so, yeah, I watched Hilary Duff turn into Sam Montgomery.  Anyway, the movie was shown and released 7 years ago, so, everything was so different.  Especially the cell phones.  Everyone has a flip phone.  

I WANT A FLIP PHONE SO BAD.  So bad.  When I go to GH, I swear I'm going to buy one.  Kahit dual-band papatulan ko talaga.  I just want to own one.  Even if it's not high-tech, it's okaaaay!  I swear.  I want one so much.  I want one.  I want one.  I want one.  I don't even care about the features or brand.  I just want one so I could play with it and pretend that I'm in a movie or something (Please don't make me elaborate about my fantasy business calls.  HAHAHAHA.)

I even googled for some pictures!  Look at how cute they are:

Jesus Christ, I want one so muuuuch.  :(  Huhuhu.

Remember, Remember The 5th Of November.

So, I'm thinking of changing my lotion -- again.  I've been using Victoria's Secret since I was 10 but when I turned 17, I tried using different products like Jergens, Johnsons & Johnsons baby lotion thing, and the butter thing from The Body Shop.  Now, I'm thinking of trying Philosophy.  So, my goal is to visit Beauty Bar and ask for the goddamn, bloody lotion from Philosophy -- preferably their Aloha Girl one (It's vanilla coconut scented!  Hihihi.) I would even settle for Cinnamon. Mehehe.  Dear God, I hope it's available here in the Philippines, the scent/flavor, I mean.  My skin needs some sweet-oh-lovin'.  KBYE.

I can't believe the semestral break's ending.  I am so not ready to go back to school.  I haven't bought a new notebook yet.  I need a new one. 

Anyway, I've been listening to The Paper Kite's Woodland all day.  It's such a pretty, pretty, pretty song.  Speaking of music, I need a new pair of earphones.  Mine's gone wacko.  Oh Christ.  I couldn't make my earphones last for more than a month.  Jesus.

I'm babbling again, huh?  Anyway, it's the 5th of November!  You guys should seriously read V For Vendetta (graphic novel.) Alan Moore's so fucking fantastic.  I'm not exaggerating.  *teardrops* HAHAHAHAHA!  Seriously speaking, do you guys remember the movie Watchmen?  It's based on Alan Moore's graphic novel of the same name.  I watched the movie, it was crap.  CRAP.  It's different from the novel.  The movie missed the point of, uh, everything.  I'm sorry.  This is just my opinion.  Hmph.  ANYWAY, after 3 years of searching and looking for From Hell (another graphic novel by Alan Moore), Yo finally found one in Eastwood last August (?)  He bought it for 2000 pesos.  I said that he should've waited for the Book Fair (which we fuckingly missed. This is the first time we missed it.  After  8 years of diligently..  Ugh.) because it would be a hell-lot cheaper.  He said that we've been looking for it for a long time (we tried looking for it in every bookstore in NCR, to be fair) so he's not going to let it out of his grip.  I haven't read it yet but omg!!!!  I am so excited.  Hihihi.  See, it's about Jack the Ripper.  So, I'm sure it's going to be mind-blowing.  Alan Moore + Pyschopath + Historical Content = PERFECT.  Omg!  

You're A Disgrace To The Concept Of Family.

The one thing I realized today is that you can't depend on your family.  You can't and you shouldn't.  Sure, they might be there when you were having troubles when you were a kid but that's that.  Of course they're there during your "superstar" moments but that's all there is to that relationship.  Afterwards, you grow older and you face real problems that could make The Hulk go to a nervous breakdown, then you'll realize that you're alone.  Where's your family now?  Where are the stupid promises to protect you and support you and listen to you?  Just because someone new came along doesn't mean that they should have more responsibilities to that person.  They don't even listen to you anymore or talk to you unless they're going to ask you to do something for them or for that person.  You're not even asking for any material shit or what, you just want someone to listen and talk to you.

You can't really depend on your friends either because it's selfish (seriously) to pass the weight on your shoulders to them.

So, there you go fellas, you can't depend on anybody because they're just going to disappoint you and crush your soul.  At the end of the day, it's just going to be you.  Believe me, human, I know.

Love And Love And Happy Afternoons.

P. S. 53 more days 'till Christmas (Got that here.)  I don't think I'm excited.