You Know What I Mean.

I am blogging at 3.55 in the morning. *hormones*

Life does not stop for anybody. You may experience a lot of downs and frowns in your life, but it does not mean that you should stop living. You should not dwell so much on the mistakes you've made. On the other hand, you should focus on the things you've accomplished.

You're awesome and you NEED to remember that.

Crazy Flats.

Ok, can I be really gay and girly right now? Please? Ok, thank you!

I've been dying to have these pair of Anthology shoes! OHMYYYYGOD!!!!! I want the navy blue one from the first picture. And I want the pink neon one from the second picture.





I really, really, really want to buy the pink neon one. I asked my mom if I could buy it and she shrugged. So, I'm guessing that it's a Yes. See, we have this thing, when my brother and I want to buy something, we need to ask for permission first if they would please, with cherries on top, permit us to buy the thing we want. I don't know why since we're spending our own money but that's the way it is. ANYWAY, my mom shrugged, so, probably.. It must be a Yes, right? I mean, seriously. I want girl-shoes for crying out loud! I'm so tired of people commenting on my manly outfits. Besides, the cute, neon-pink Anthology shoes are screaming for their release!

I'm going to convince my mom to take me to Crossings. Or Analog Soul. Yes, they also sell Anthology shoes there. Few and limited choices only though. ANYWAY, God, please let them allow me to buy this cutie patootie shoes! It's so cute and simple and neon and girly. SEE, it's not lesbian shoes anymore!

My world revolves around sneakers. Chucks. Chucks. Vans. Chucks. Chucks. I need some variety in life. And, yes, I'm getting sick of being asked if I'm a lesbian because of my guy outfits. Those Anthology shoes are the first step of providing sufficient proof for the girly bone in my body. HIHI. See, I'm even starting to giggle like a prat. Ok. Sorry. A lady musn't talk like that.

UGH. Ok, whatever. I AM GOING TO BUY THOSE NEON PINK FLATS. I would, I would, I would!

Just A Tad Wiser.

In my 18 years of existence, I know that I didn't face a lot of problems. Mostly, my problems revolve around senseless things like what's for dinner, or do I buy this book or that book. See, I worry about the things that are not really that important.

To be brutally frank, I'm a bit ashamed that I've reached this tender age of 18 and I'm still the naive little four-year-old who's looking for her mommy. My friends experienced a lot. They're street wise and confident. Whereas, I'm this little scatterbrained douche who doesn't even know how much the jeepney fare costs.

I'm not saying that I want to have problems. Seriously, I don't. My emotional capacity is minuscule. I might commit suicide if something really bad happens. Anyway, my point is.. I want to know things. I want to mature. I want to be regarded as someone who's actually 18. Are you getting me?

Ok, you don't. Whatever. I'm happy with my life right now. I just want to expand my wisdom. K. :))

BTW, I'm reading Northanger Abbey right now. Bloody brilliant. It got me hooked! :">

And If I Blow Your Mind..?

So, I rewatched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and after that I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. My life is kind of lame because I've been watching movies all day long. Anyway, the sisterhood movies made me bawl like a freakin' baby. Excuse me, this is something different from all my other, um, movie tears. This is different because it talks about friendship and CHANGE. The movie tackled college and moving on and the acceptance of change and getting on with life like it's just a piece of cake. You know what it didn't cover? The freakin' depressing path you have to go through to achieve that stupid happy change. Are you getting me?

In some ways, I am just scared to drift apart from the four special people who stood by me when I was the most maddening and difficult person to be with. I don't want to have a wall between the five of us. Is it asking too much if I say that I just want it to be like High School? We were always together back then. We knew everything about each other. We laughed together, we cried together.. We were there for each other. Somehow, it's not the same anymore. I know I have to be a bit more understanding because, hello, we're in college now. I shouldn't expect them to always return my phone calls or my texts because, by God, I know that they're very busy with their hectic schedules. And, no, I am not sarcastic -- I am very sincere in all the things I'm babbling about right now.

Do you get what I'm saying? I don't want any gap between the five of us. I want us to stick around. I want us to be there for each other always.. Especially if one of us really, really, really needs it.

All I'm asking for right now is that if we have some free time, I hope that we could see each other and, you know, catch up. I hope that we could hang out and pretend we weren't really that far away from each other. I wish we could often sit around and talk about random things like bands and movies and new friends. Don't get me wrong, I understand now why we don't get to talk everyday. Everybody's busy. I get it. Seriously, I do. But, if there's some spare time -- I seriously want to hang out with you guys. Like, SUPER WANT.

I don't want to lose them, that's all. I just hope they feel the same.

Hey November, What's Rollin'?

I love Agyness Deyn so much! She's so beautiful and gorgeous.. Long hair, short hair, dark hair, bald -- she could totally wing it! And she could seriously pull guy-outfits off! Seriously. She's my favorite model. :">

The classic Agyness Deyn look. :">

HOTT STUFFFF!



SEE? She's the only one who could pull that thing off!



Yeah boy. :">



This is my favorite Aggy hairdo. :)

(This one too)HIHIHI.



She's so freakin' beautiful!

So, whatcha think? She's so gorgeous and pretty and beautiful. If I have to change my face.. I am so going to beg God to make my face pretty like that of Agyness Deyn. HIHIHI.

Anyway, Happy Novemer First everybody. God, I hope this month is cool and awesome. *crosses fingers*.