And If I Blow Your Mind..?

So, I rewatched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and after that I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. My life is kind of lame because I've been watching movies all day long. Anyway, the sisterhood movies made me bawl like a freakin' baby. Excuse me, this is something different from all my other, um, movie tears. This is different because it talks about friendship and CHANGE. The movie tackled college and moving on and the acceptance of change and getting on with life like it's just a piece of cake. You know what it didn't cover? The freakin' depressing path you have to go through to achieve that stupid happy change. Are you getting me?

In some ways, I am just scared to drift apart from the four special people who stood by me when I was the most maddening and difficult person to be with. I don't want to have a wall between the five of us. Is it asking too much if I say that I just want it to be like High School? We were always together back then. We knew everything about each other. We laughed together, we cried together.. We were there for each other. Somehow, it's not the same anymore. I know I have to be a bit more understanding because, hello, we're in college now. I shouldn't expect them to always return my phone calls or my texts because, by God, I know that they're very busy with their hectic schedules. And, no, I am not sarcastic -- I am very sincere in all the things I'm babbling about right now.

Do you get what I'm saying? I don't want any gap between the five of us. I want us to stick around. I want us to be there for each other always.. Especially if one of us really, really, really needs it.

All I'm asking for right now is that if we have some free time, I hope that we could see each other and, you know, catch up. I hope that we could hang out and pretend we weren't really that far away from each other. I wish we could often sit around and talk about random things like bands and movies and new friends. Don't get me wrong, I understand now why we don't get to talk everyday. Everybody's busy. I get it. Seriously, I do. But, if there's some spare time -- I seriously want to hang out with you guys. Like, SUPER WANT.

I don't want to lose them, that's all. I just hope they feel the same.

You're A Psycho Bitch From Hell.

Whenever I listen to that song, it always always always reminds me of the school year 2007-2008. That school year, my friend, is -- was -- my golden year. I can still remember the first time I entered III1. I was nervous like hell because we were reshuffled. New school year, new faces. I wasn't even sure I would like my new section. I dropped my bag on a chair and I promptly went to III6 to chill with Raia and Mackee. It went on like that for months before this little habit got reversed. In the end, it was Raia, Mackee, and Sandra going to III1 to chill. :))

Anyway, it was my golden year because I was truly, without an iota of doubt, happy. I was not this fat. I have a fabulous hair. My bone structure was ok (although, I did broke my thumb when we were practicing for the dance pro. It was never the same again...) I met new friends (Hello IV1. I love you.) and I found the person I am determined to be best friends with for the rest of my life -- Jodie Tanedo.

I was really, really, really happy I could literally shit rainbows. No kidding. I don't know why I was that happy. All I remember is -- I was that joyful. I was always looking forward to Mondays. And, I began to loathe the weekends. It was that kind of happiness. I was ready to settle down and live in STC. No kidding. :))

Don't get me wrong, I am happy right now. I always laugh -- it makes people think I'm retarded. I'm always smiling -- it makes people think I'm just a goofball they couldnt talk to seriously. But, it's not just the same as my golden year. (The truth is, what I miss the most was my golden year body. I could fit into my 11-year-old clothes back then. Seriously!) So, yeah.

2007-2008 was my golden year. I know this is asking too much.. But, I hope it happens again. Please? ;)