National Convention in Cebu from June 14-18, 2018! I just got back from Bangkok then.. the next day, I'm on my way to Cebu lol. I'm the current Luzon Socio-Civic Head so I needed to be there.
Anyway, last time I was in Cebu, I was eight years old! It's been a long time! It was a fun trip with Nikka!
The first few months of 2018 was actually.. crap. It was shit. I spent a lot of time crying and shit. And now I have trust issues. I don't know if everything's going to be better but I'm hoping for the best. I mean, I know that if we want things to work out, I should learn how to trust again. Maybe I would. But, eventually. Not now. I don't if I can trust nga completely eh. I'm trying but it's so hard. I get flashbacks and shit and it.. hurts me. It really does.
Pucha I'm a strong, independent woman. Kaya ko talaga. I just didn't expect that I would get hurt like this. And from the person I least expected to do this to me. Haha. It doesn't feel good. It feels really awful.
So, May palang. I hope the year turns around. Looking for pick me ups and shit. I miss my UERM med friends. I miss big crowds. Hay. Summer please come sooner.
Wow a lot has happened since I last updated this blog. I am now 26 years old and I'm going to be a 2nd year med student soon (OMG CLAIMING IT WAHOO WAHOO!!!!!!!)
Anyway, I'm updating during lunch break because I bought a new keyboard for my tablet. So I'm happily typing shit. I'm running out of things to say. Haha.
So ayun lang naman. Hehe. Haha. Bye.
I'll update some more later (if I have the time. We actually have a lot of shit to do na because it's the 6th longs and exams are almost near. Hay nako. Tas I'm sure pa I'm not exempted sa other subjects so.. meh. Whatevs. That was never a goal for me in the first place. I just want to go to 2nd year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
It's been an.. interesting year. I received my plot twist like the second week of August. It's kind of complicated but, Idk, we're working things out 'cause I think this is worth it naman. I hope I'm not wrong.
Still in med school but in a different school. No regrets because we're fewer and professors get to focus on their students. SOOOOOO I'm doing okay.
Christmas is near! I have a one month break! Downside is I'll see pa the person I miss the most after a month. Although HAHA super kilig last Monday and Tuesday. He drove me to the condo on Monday and then he surprised visited me on Tuesday. Pakshet my pusong bato melted. So ayun lang naman. Chika soon.
Omg I got so obsessed with this song back in 2012! And up to this day, I still get excited whenever I hear it. I can keep it on loop for daaaaays without getting tired of it!
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I've been very open my stand against abortion. I'm not pro-abortion. But I've been thinking recently - how about the people who got raped? If they didn't abort the kid, it would just be a painful reminder of the traumatizing shit that happened to them.
Anyway, I'm still against abortion and I think it's because of my faith. See, I believe that when the sperm cell meets the egg cell - it's already a kid. That small squishy ball is already a kid. I believe in that. But, in some cultures, they believe in other things; like reincarnation, and that a child is only considered a child if it's born - if it pops out of the mother's womb. So, I can't judge them for that, right? I mean, I can't shove my beliefs down their throats.
And that's how I see abortion now - it depends on your beliefs, I guess. I'm still a little shaky regarding the baby made out of rape. A person can't be blamed 100% if she aborted the kid, right? I mean, what about her emotional welfare? Can someone enlighten me on this one, please?
I love, looooooove watching old Hollywood films (1940's-1960's era.) I love how they used to talk. I love how everyone's experimenting with film so everything's kind of fresh. And I think the actresses and actors were really gorgeous! My favorites are Audrey Hepburn (obvs), Rita Hayworth, Humphrey Bogart, and my ultimate bae - Gregory Peck.
I mean.. DUUUUUUDE.
Roughly 2 weeks before school starts and I renewed my love for Gregory Peck. I finished watching Spellbound the other day and The Million Pound Note (omg this is really entertaining! I loved it!) yesterday. I'm currently watching Only The Valiant.
Omg he's so dreamy. And can I just say that I wouldn't mind drowning in his voice? It's so sexy!! He's an excellent actor and it's just a bonus that he's very easy on the eyes.
I'm planning on watching The Snows of Kilimanjaro and The Gunfighter after Only The Valiant. Will tell you how it goes.
I will continue my 30 days of music shit some other time. God, I'm so lazy.
Anyway, the last few weeks were okay. I'm learning how to drive. I don't get why it's such a hassle for my dad because I'm enjoying it. Hmmm - maybe it's because I'm kaladkarin.
I miss my med school and high school friends so much. Things are going to change this coming school year. But, I don't think about it too much. I don't allow myself to be sad. If I start thinking about it, I know I'm going to dwell on the depressing parts so I just shrug things off and hope for the best.
It's so weird. I actually miss studying. Lol. I miss connecting shit together and finally figuring out why this certain disease is deadly or what makes it contagious. It's taking me a really long time but I swear I'm going to be a doctor. I'm going to be one and there's no one in this world who could tell me I won't be one. They could all just suck my imaginary dick. (I can't emphasize enough how I love my parents because they are so supportive. I owe my life to them. They really are my parent-chute.)
I'm currently reading The Gates by John Connolly. So far, so good. It's about a boy who witnessed the gates of hell opening up (and no one believing him when he tells the adults about it.) I'm loving it so far but I'm at a snail's pace reading it. I'm halfway through, though.
It's 11 in the evening. I'm going to get some shut-eye soon. Will update more often.
