What A Terrible Position.

Every morning you wake up with a goofy & hilarious grin.. When you get up, a bucket of ice cold water filled with regret & remorse's thrown at you.. Making you feel unloved & downright miserable. Then, you go back to bed, shove your head under your pillow & weep. Ohlala, what a fun day you're having. No wonder you're feeling fine & sunshine-y. You're alone.

The worst part of my summer is that I feel so alone. I pity myself because everybody's having fun while I mope around the house & pig out. I don't know what to do anymore. I couldn't face anybody because I couldn't bring myself to give fake smiles & stupid grins. My parents want to smack me already because I'm too sarcastic. They couldn't figure out if I'm being sincere or if I'm just being my bright-sarcastic-self.

I'm having BIG issues here. It's another f*cked up Identity Crisis Issue. The bad part? I don't know who would pick me up this time. I don't know how to stand up anymore. I am so dead.

Seriously, my dad's begging me to go for a check-up. That's the reason why he wants me to take my Day-Of-Service Stuff in advance. "Magpacheck-up ka na talaga. Hindi ba pwedeng mag-advance ka na lang sa DOS na 'yan? May ibibigay naman ako na reasonable excuse ehh." Hmmm, quite frankly, he's pestering me to go for a check-up since last, last month.. But, since my attendance record's clean -- I told him that it could wait. Hmm. Do you want to know the real reason why I keep on postponing this check-up thing? I'm afraid. What if the doctor suddenly say that I have brain cancer or something? UGH. :| It's freaking the life out of me.

Whatever.

I'm going to stay the same whatever happens. Act normal. I'm a happy pancake, remeber?

SONG: Something Corporate's Fall.

It's Not A Blessing Even If It's Disguised.

Early in the morning, I was whistling a happy tune & I was very excited to start my day. Don't ask me, I don't have any idea why. Anyway, later in the afternoon, I was so pissed off -- I was shouting at everybody. *sighs* And, at this very moment, I feel so fucking SAD. I want to cry & weep & sob my heart out! The weird part is.. I don't even know why I want to cry. I just feel like doing it. What's wrong with me? My mood swings are KILLING me.

I need to talk to somebody. Maybe isolating myself is not a good idea after all. Look what's happening to me? Some devil's sabotaging my brain & playing with my oh-so fragile emotions. UGH. I need JODIE. :(( But, somehow, I don't want to bother her anymore. I think she's getting sick of my stories. UGH. ERYEL. ODESSA. AMPY.. WHERE ARE YOU GUYS? Stop hiding & lemme feel yer presence. Gawd. I'm getting possessed all over again. :)) But, seriously, I miss you four. :| I've just realized that ye're my bright little ray of sunshines after all. >:D<>:)) I'm going to call it, "The Spermy Chronicles." It's about a girl named Ampy who's so gay & who's always moving like a sperm cell; hence, she was nicknamed, "Spermy." HAHAHA. I'm kidding. :)) Ampy said she wants me to write something for her. I'm re-thinking the plot. I want it to be Ampy-ish. Like, SUPER Ampy-ish. :)) HAHAHAHA. IMY SPERMY! :"> :x

I miss a lot of people. I miss IV1. I miss my normal self too. :|

SONG: I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan. Jeez. I miss these guys. :>

I Wish It Was Something More Than That.

I'm becoming an introvert. For real. Although, hmm, yeaaah, I subscribed to unli today at around 10.30 in the evening because I NEED it tomorrow. So, it's not really just a WANT.. It's NECESSARY.

I have a guilty pleasure. HIHIHIHI. And only Jodie knows what it is. Mygaaahd. It's so embarrassing. Even my brother scrunched up his face & yelled, "GROSS!" Sheesh. He could've at least pretend that he's a very supportive brother.

I miss IV1. BADLY. I hope they allow me to go to Pink's Crib on April the 4th. It's the 4th, right? Or the 3rd? Shit. I got the dates mixed up. I'll check my Multips again later. :>

She doesn't miss me. :| That's so sad. Like, really. :|

SONG: Jack Mannequin's Dark Blue.

I'm Not Bitter But I've Seen Better Days.

.. When all else fails. What can you do? One word. STALK.

I watched The Rocker last night with Yo. It was hilarious. :) Although, I wouldn't really watch it at first glance if the protagonist wasn't really Jack Black. Yes. Yes. I'm stupid. I thought the main actor was Jack Black (Since he has wavy hair & he has his tongue out like a possessed lion..) Really, it wasn't my fault that I've shouted, "OHMYGOSH MOMMY! Buy this DVD! I haven't watched this yet! A new movie from Jack Black? I want this!" It wasn't really my fault that I've mistakenly, um, thought that the lead actor guy was Jack Black, right? So anyway, as I was mumbling about, when I found out that the guy wasn't Jack Black -- my arms drooped & I got kind of pissed off.

BUT.. God doesn't really want me to be sad, right God? ;;) Lo & behold, TEDDY GEIGER is in the show! He's one of the main guys. Gawd. He's so fucking hott! I could stare at his sea-blue eyes all my life! I could listen to his angelic & seductive voice FOREVER! I mean, god, he's not even that old! He's only, um, 20.. I think. :D AND.. AND.. HE'S NOT MARRIED!!!! I'm improving, RIGHT? I am really giggling at this moment. :">

If you're in my situation.. Wouldn't you just fall in love with him? :"> ;;)



He's so gorgeous! I want to marry him right now!

I really want to marry him right now. He could be my new bright little ray of sunshine! Who knows? You should be proud because I'm whoring over him. Why? Four reasons:

• He's HANDSOME.
• He's YOUNG. Definitely not a father figure. :>
• He's NOT yet married. Still single, baby!

AND

• He's a GUY. A MALE.

That's definitely an improvement right? :"> Wish me luck. Good luck with me & Teddy. *clinks glass wine* TO THE COUPLE! :))

SONG: Teddy's Bitter. Mygosh. You should listen to it & you'll definitely trip!

Untitled.

It was II1's class party yesterday. Too bad I couldn't come. :| I was fixing the college stuff. Gawd. I thought it was ok already yesterday -- I STILL HAVE TO GO BACK TO STC ON MONDAY! UGH! Screw college! It's more stressful than.. P.E.! UGH!

Since I thought I was already ok yesterday afternoon.. I agreed & hanged out with my mom & my brother. We watched a movie since my mom's a movie buff. Like, seriously. She's averaging 2 movies in a week. Gawd. So, we watched Monsters V.S. Aliens. It didn't really tickle my funny bone but the graphics were awesome. Welcome to the 21st century, honey! HAHAHA. :))

Wow. You should be proooud! My unli was done yesterday morning & I didn't surbscribe agaiiiin! I'm getting tired of texting. Plus, I freaked out about the radiations Carmela said. HAHAHA. :) Hmm, honestly, I miss talking to Lovi Poe. HAHAHA. Carmela kasiii! :)) Anyway, I didn't surbscribe since it's not a good way to connect with people anymore. The object of my affection doesn't care if I'm alive or something. So, what's the point? I wouldn't bug the people in my list for a looooooong time. I swear.

Cumps said that I should start being straight. Wow. That would be HARD. Although, yeah, I'm trying. I know there's no forever or any of those crap. It's just a bunch of sh*t that would make you hope. Well, since I don't believe in those stuff -- I'm trying HARD here. Ok? I hope COLLEGE would cure me. :))

*sighs*

I miss my friends. I miss IV1. I miss school. :| I feel like it's just a long weekend but we're still supposed to report to school after, what, 3 days? Yeah. That's the feeling. Somehow, I'm still fidgety because I have this deep-inner paranoia that I'm still missing some requirements. STC WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME? HAHAHA. Gawd. My father said that I should train myself to sleep earlier since my sleeping habits are unhealthy. He's keeping an eye on me. Sheeesh. :|

I want to hang out with IV1 for the rest of the summer. SWEAR.

SONG: Taylor Swift's Love Story. WEIRD.

I Love You, Thanks, & Goodbye..

I want to thank these guys for making me happy on my 17th birthday (Ew. DATAAAAN. HAHA.)

1. Jodie
2. Ampy. Nabawasan pa ako ng load dahil Sun ang ginamit mo'ng bruha ka.
   
3. Eryel
4. Odessa. Makulet ka. MAKULET. :))
   
5. Chezca
6. IZZA CUMPS! :) K. Pauso ko lang. Bagay naman ahh! DIBA? K. :))
   
7. Mareng Metch
8. Mareng Maeka Na Ubod Ng Ganda
9. Sosa Beybeh
10. Pipi
11. Chin Chan
12. Beyiia My Love
13. Pauiie
14. Biko
15. Cup C
16. Mons
17. ADHD
18. Dannah
19. Lia
20. Mars Bars
21. Promil
22. Fixi
23. Pink
24. Sienna
25. Kim
26. Ason My Twin (HAHAHA)
27. Gego My Honey!
28. Hazielle My Labidoo!!
29. Chiquitita
    
30. Claudette
31. Marian
32. Mia
33. Eli
34. Cathrain
35. Belle
36. Aika
37. Max DC
    
38. Carla Devs.
39. Steph
40. Cy
41. Gian
42. Macy K.
    
43. Lourdes
44. Pamie
45. Joan
46. Pia Santos Ganda
47. Janina SG
48. Rona Janela Dalandan Po
49. Tin Santos
50. Nicole T.
    
51. Reg
52. Gabs Tan
53. Raia -- Gusto ko 'tong regalo. Sabe ko eto lang ang gusto ko ehh. 'Di ko naman alam kung san nagpunta. HMPH.
54. MACKEE! ILY MACKEE!
55. Sandra Celis. Libre ako! Ilibre ako!!
56. Sandra Salazar
57. Keeshia
58. Marmi
59. Monica
60. Janine
61. Keiko
62. Paige
63. Sugar
64. Alaia
65. Mirinisa
66. Chelsea
67. Krizia
68. Jana Banana Ding Dong
69. Yapi
70. Nicole CC
71. Nicole Yu
72. Dhia
73. Carmela
    
74. Clare
75. Szachi
76. Angeli
77. Jia
78. Jillian.
    
79. PIA LACANIENTA.. MISS NA KITA!
80. Ms. Ters Aquino
81. Ms. Roldan
82. Teta
83. Bea B.
84. Tanya
85. Marianne
86. Queng
87. Luner
88. Lovelle
89. MAULLY -- SALAMAT. Alam mo na kung para saan. :)
90. Eto.. Malupet 'to! Ginreet ako ng taong iniyakan ko dahil I'm so proud of her. K. Talo ko pa ang nanay nya. :)) Thank you Tin Del Rosario. :))
91. Sa mga tao na nag-greet kahit anonymous sila bigla. K. :))
92. FOURWAN PERFECT KIDS.
93. Ms. Gino Cruz. :))
94. Ms. Calero.
95. Ms. Gineta. :))
    

Kung may nakalimutan ako, paki-sabe saken tas sakalin nyo ako. :))

THAAAAANK YOU. Iloveyou! Salamat dahil naalala nyo ako kahit pwedeng pwede naman nyo akong kalimutan. :))

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Graduation!

I can't believe I'm officially a H.S. Graduate! I'm going to miss STC! My 4 years there were the BEST. I swear.

Now that we're off to different paths & roads.. May we always remember the good memories to make us happy whenever we're down. May we always keep in mind the bad experiences we had -- it helped toughen us up.

I'm going to miss all the people who made me smile & made me feel special. Thanks for, well, everything. :)

SONG: Never Forget. Our Grad. Song. :))

The One Thing That I'm Scared Of Is Losing Hold Of You.

Today is a so-so day. Went to YellowCab after the practices with Jodie, Ampy, Eryel, Odessa, Mackee & Raiaaaa! Oo, lumandi ako ng malupet. HAHA. :)) C'mon. Pagbigyan nyo na naman ako. Birthday ko naman bukas.

After that, we went back to school because Jodie, Raia, & Mackee are going to fulfill their DOS duties. HAHAHA. Natatawa ako. Parang nanglandi talaga ako. :)) Tama na nga, maiiyak na kayo mamaya.

Graduation tomorrow. I couldn't even feel it. One thing's for sure, though. I'm going to miss IV1 BIGTIME! SWEAR.

I'm losing my writing bananas. I'm going to update during the summer break. I'm still stressed out.

SONG: Taylor Swift's Love Story. Ngayon ko lang na-appreciate. Although hindi ako adik na adik.

Sheeesh.

Sheeesh.

What a BORIIIING day.

I'm going to sleep early today. :) School tomorrow. Mygahd. It's already the 23rd tomorrow. EW.

I watched Race To Witch Mountain today with my brother. It was.. Ok. I guess? Although, it's not something I would watch over & over again for the next two months. HAHA.

I'm going to miss school when everything's over. *sighs*

SONG: The Yahweh Song. I've been singing that for a WEEK now. Super weird.

Ang Landi Ko Ulet.

Ok, since I'm super bulgaran na naman.. And, besides, alam na naman talaga 'to ng buong mundo ehh.. Lalo na ang IV1.. Eto na talaga, malandi na kung malandi.. KINIKILIG ulet akoooo!!

"Awwww. Ambait bait talaga ni Rina ko."

I don't care if she's sarcastic or what.. (Pero, I don't think she's sarcastic naman ehh.. We're talking, like, seriously about a very heavy topic..) Pero, who cares, I'm her Rina! It's like what I've said -- I've never felt this good.

I'm not expecting anything. I'm just enjoying these stuff as they go. :) Cheers. :D

******

March 25 is soooo near. I'm psyched because it's Graduation Day! I'll miss IV1. They're one of the three reasons I enjoyed my H.S. life. :)

******

Jodie knows my secret. I couldn't really hide anything from her. The thing that overwhelmed me was that she said that she expects it to happen anyway & that she's not the least bit shocked. Goodness. Thank You Jodie. Thanks for, well, not freaking out. HAHAHA.


SONG: Skyway Avenue by We The Kings.

It's The Only Secret I Would Keep.

Senior's Night last night. It was supposed to be supeeer fun but Eryel-Taray wasn't there.. So, it was, well, sort of lopsided. K.

I was supposed to be a stupid gypsy but I look like a MOM. HAHAHA. I should've tried my outfit together pala. Yesterday was the first time I wore the two together.. So, ganun ang outcome. HAHAHA.

******

I have a secret. And, it would kill me if I tell anybody. Although, for some weird reason -- Odessa knows. HECK. I didn't even tell her anything. :| Gosh. This thing is so disgusting. It makes me want to puke every time I remember it.

SONG: We The Kings' Skyway Avenue. LSS. ;;)

Ang Landi Landi Ni Rina!

KINIKILIG AKOOOOOO

Peste. Malandi na kung malandi.. Basta! Super, OKAAAY, ansaya saya ko ngayong araw na 'to. And yesterday.. And the day before that.. K. Ngayong week na lang na 'to. MYGAHD. I've never felt this good. Ang huling feeling ko pa ata na ganito, last October. Oha. Alam na alam ko. Ewan ko. Ansaya lang talaga. Tas nakakakilig pa. K. ANG LANDI KO NA TALAGA. BASTA. Nevermind nalang, ok? :) Hmm, well, at least for the last, um, what, 2 days of school -- I'm HAPPY. Hmm, the only hindrance in my super fantastic raindrops of joy is my lack of sleep. I'm so bangag na naman. UGH. Di na kasi ako sanay ng matulog ng maaga. Nagffreakout ako kapag walang gagawin. =))

Nagtatagalog ako kasi sabe saken dati ni Sienna, ang boring daw kapag English. Ok. Sige, ehh di mag-tagalog. Although, I'm not sanay to blog in Tagalog. HAHAHA. Ok lang 'yan. I could do it. Ie-enhance ko ang skills ko. YAY! :))

Hmm. I think I need to hit the hay. Kasi, for sure, mga 3AM, gising na naman ako at nambubulabog na. Seryosong may problema na ako sa pagtulog. Hindi na talaga ako marunong matulog kapag gabi. :| Tas t'wing morning naman.. Either nababagot ako or nahahyper. MYGOD.

GUSTO KO NA MAGBAKASYOOOON!

SONG: Yung Magnificat Song para sa Graduation. HAHAHA. PESTE.

No One Gets Left Behind.

I. Am. Going. To. Graduate.





'Nuff said. Congratulations to IV1. ILY Perfect Kids. We're all in this together. All FourOne, One For All!

Time Turned Fragile.

Magtatagalog ako. Walalang. (:

It's the Batch Reco today. The first part, we were off to our 2nd year sections. It was ok, I guess, but very awkward. Well, at least andon padin si Odessa & Dorilie.. Plus sila Raia & Mackee. :> Okaaay. Namiss ko ang II1 pero, get, hindi na super close. Ahhh, basta. Anyway, nang recess.. PESTE.. Ansaya saya kooooo. :"> Kasama ko sila Odessa & Raia & Mackeeeeee.. Di kelangang nagtititili ngayon. Walalang. Namiss ko sila. (: Sila Dorilie kasi at Chezca at Rachel, nagulat kame dahil wala na sila. So, ayon. Kaming apat nila Odessa ang magkakasama. Napa-smile nga ako ehh. :) .. At napatili. HAHAHAHAHA. ANG LANDI KO PESTE! Kasi naman, get, ewan, BASTA. Buti na nga lang at may control ako -- kasi, kung hindi, feeling ko super mawei-weirdohan saken ang mga tao dahil magtititili lang talaga ako. K. :)) HAAAY. :)) :">

Tas after recess, HAAAAAY, medyo nakakalungkot dahil balik na sa IV1. JOKE LANG IV1 MY LOOOVE!! So, ayun, nakatabi ko na ulet si Jodie! MYGOD. Super hindi na ako sanay na hindi ko sya kasama. Medyo nalungkot pa nga ako ng recess dahil hinahanap ko sya tas kahit anino hindi ko nakita. Buti nalang andyan sila Raia. K. :)) Tas nagpakita na ng mga class vids, grabe, I'm so proud of BEYIIA SANTOS! Natuwa naman ako. Ang ganda ng viiiiid! Hindi mo sasabihin na "minadali" lang niya. Kaya mahal na mahal ko yang si Beyiia ehh.. Kahit sinasabe nya na sya daw ang star na hindi pa ganoon ka-shiny -- para saken, SUPER STAR sya! :D

After that, nagpunta sa classroom tas nag-faith sharing. MYGOD. Sobrang naging hysterical na ata ako. Peste. Sabe ko pa naman sa kanila, hindi ako iiyak.. Tas, ayun, unang sentence palang ata ng sinasabe ko.. "HUHUHU" na ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. Nakaka-frustrate kasi. HAAAAAY. Kahit pagkalabas, jusme, nahihiya ako sa mga tao dahil humahagulgol moi. Ayoko pa naman ng may nakakakita saken kapag namumugto ang mga mata ko. Natatakot kasi ako.

Lunch. Boring. Parang nakapag-lunch na ata lahat ng tao tas IV1 nalang ang hindi. Tas parang lahat ng sections masaya -- IV1 lang ang nag-iyakan. HAHAHA. FUNNY. :))

Mass. Ok, naka-two rounds kame ng Communion. Pauso talaga 'tong si Sir DM kahit kelan! =))

Dismissal. Kumain muna ng fuh-ree burger at juice tas direcho sa Gate 7 para sa isaw. =)) Ok. Tuwang tuwa naman ako kasi ngayon lang ako nakakakain nyan. Hepa na talaga ang hinahanap ko. :))

All in all, ansaya ko sa 14th month ko. :"> HAHAHAHA. PESTE. Walalang. Parang ito ang pinaka-masaya na 17. KLabo. :))

Bukas, patay na tayo. Feeling ko kaya ako pinasaya ngayon ni God dahil paiiyakin nya ako ng malupet bukas. HELP PLEASE.

SONG: Yung nasa vid ng IV3. Ang ganda ng song nila tas tumatakbo takbo sa utak ko -- kaso hindi ko talaga alam yung title!

Crap.

I loved yaa way too much.

You couldn't even return that super mesmerizing Rina-affection. :|

It SUCKS to be me.

Konting time nalang & we could forget about each other. Well.. YOU could forget about ME. That's what you want, right?

Sometimes, All You Can Do Is Hope.

I don't know where I stand with you.

I wont expect anything anymore.

So Tell Me, Darling, Do You Wish We'd Fall In Love?

I'm in the mood to upload my tambak pics. Been uploading almost everyday. HAHAHA.

I am so drained. :| I'm so bloody depressed. Odessa made me laugh hard today, though. :">

We're going to Festival Mall tomorrow. Long time, no mall. K. Stress.

SONG: Why am I still mooning over Owl City's Saltwater Room? Simple. I LOVE the song. :">

Friday The 13th.

I was excused from the Grad. Song practices because of the Batch Reco something presentation on Tuesday. Somehow, I think I must thank Pamie.. Because of her -- my vocal chords are still intact. HAHA.

Slushie party with the girls. :> :> And, it started with Rona's slushie. I got envious. :)

I am so confused & frustrated. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. :| It's like One Republic's Apologize -- I'm holding on a rope, got me 10 ft. off the ground.. I don't know where to hold on to anymore. HAAAAAY BUHAAAAAY.

Talk to you some other time. I'm slushed-filled. :) Whatever.

SONG: Guess. :>

Take The Glitz Back, I Want The Soul Instead.

We had our Graduation Orientation today. And, boy, am I scared. I really, really, really want to graduate on time. PUHLEASE. I know everybody's getting sick of this same old story where I blab about my stupid fantasy of graduating -- but, C'MON, I didn't get Ateneo, right? So, can I please, please have this Graduation? :| PLEASE? I won't stop pestering everybody about this Graduation Mania of mine -- not unless they guarantee that I'm going to macrh on the 25th. Huhuhu. PLEASE.

After the Grad. Orientation, we had our Afternoon Tea with the STAA. It was fun. :D I swear. Ewan ko, na-enjoy ko kumain ng pizza ehh. K. :))

After that, I had my share of vanity with some of the people I love.. Minus Ampy.. Since she went home early. HAAAAAAY. :|

I love her. I swear I do. :)

SONG: Mygoood. It's still Vanessa Carlton's Nolita Fairytale. I remember this song very well since I got addicted to it last July. Those Sir Z moments. HAHAHAHA. K.

Take Away My Record Deal -- Go On, I Don't Need It.

I rewatched GossipGirl Season1. And I'm falling all over again for Chuck Bass. :"> Especially with his Blair Issue something. I think the two of them should really be together. Too bad I'm not done yet with Season 2. :| UGH. I MUST HAVE A DVD. There's a lot of catching up to do!

Honestly.. I'm DEAD SCARED. My Trigo grade is, there's no other word for it, a FIASCO. My parents are gonna kill me if I don't march. :| I SWEAR. Dear Lord, please let me graduate on time. I won't ask for a driver's license.. JUST PLEASE LET ME GRADUATE ON TIME. C'mon, this stupid graduation wouldn't be for me -- I want it to for them. Please?

There are classes tomorrow because of some stupid Afternoon Tea or something. Gawd. I thought I could just lie all day in bed & do nothing.. Then, I realized that I have to wake up early tomorrow because we have to be at school by 7.10.. :| Jesus Chriiist.

I'm currently reading The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. God knows how much I've missed reading his works. There are just too many stuff to do this school year -- it's as if I turned my back on Neil Gaiman. GOD. Whatever happens -- I still think he's the BEST author EVER. Nothing beats a good cup of ice cream & a Neil Gaiman book.. I swear. It cured me a lot of times!

******

It's not the same as before.. And, I wonder whose fault it is. :|

C'mon. Give me a break. I can't work on this ALONE. C'mon.

SONG: Still Vanessa Carlton's Nolita Fairytale & Owl City's Saltwater Room.

I Found Some Kind Of Fairytale.

Odessa & I are having this weird conversation about changing her layout.

R: Palitan mo na kasiiii. Ayokong may ka-******-an dyan sa layout moooo!
O: Sige na. Sige na. Maghahanap na ako.
R: Basta dapat wala ng ka-******-an dyan ha.
O: Aba, pwede na palang adjective o verb ang pangalan ngayon.
R: Oo naman! Tingnan mo.. Kapag pretty o beeeeyooootipoool -- RINA ang term don.
O: Ganon? Maygad. Parang biglang nagwala ang elesi ng electricfan namen.
R: ANSAMA MOOOOO! Palibhasa wala pang verb o adjective na named after you. NOUN ka lang!

HAHAHA. K. Whatever. :))

Anyway, we went to GK Sto. Domingo. We toiled. We suffered. HAHA. Joke. I think it's ok. We get to experience how hard it is to make a house. :))

KFC afterwards. IV1 is incomplete again. UGH. Those Pusong Batos. CURSE YOOOOU. JOKE. :))

I'm feeling kind of annoyed & self-pitying-ish today. Really. I feel lousy. Like HARDCORE lousy.. Hmpf. And the only person who could or might comfort me doesn't give a fucking damn. Sheesh. :/

Whatever.

My father said that our wi-fi's going to get fixed tomorrow. YAHOOO! Pwede na naman ako mag-net all day long na nakahiga sa kamaaa! Namimiss ko na 'yun. *sniffs* K. :)) The internet is my life. Almost. :))

I promise to update more readable posts tomorrow. Or when I'm lying down on my bed again. HIHIHI. >:)

Ok. You win. You're MISSED. MUCH.

SONG: Vanessa Carlton's Nolita Fairytale. :">

Hi. I Can Blog Again.

Peste. I'm at Odessa's house right now. PALIHAN later.

Anyway, PESTE, nababago ko na ang font ko. Salamat kay Jodie. Pinagana ko lang 'yung katangahan ko ehh. HAHAHA. Hindi ko alam kung baket ako nagta-Tagalog.. Siguro ay dahil nanunuod sila ng.. SECRET. LABO. =))

I might update again later. Sana maayos na ang peste naming internet.

Nae-emo ako kagabi. :( Haaay. Ok, let's forget about it.

SONG: Owl City's Saltwater Room.

Lies. Lies. Lies.

It's funny how you sit straight at night & wait patiently for something to happen.. Then what? Nothing. You realize that you should've just slept & cursed all your worries away. You cling to that hope because, yeah, it's kind of lonely to be alone with no one to talk to & nobody to laugh with. Then there's this weird slap on your face showing you that you're pathetic & you would go nowhere. Somehow, you would manage to stay numb & act like nothing happened -- when, apparently, you're broken deep deep down. You'll pretend that nothing's bothering you when all you want to do is scream because everything's fucked up. I get you. I mean, what's the point, right? They'll just tell you that it's ok.. These stuff happen.. Yidi yada blah blah blah.. But, that's NOT the thing you want to hear.

I've worked hard to make everything work. God knows how much effort I've put in that stupid situation. Somehow, it's not enough. I'm getting sick of all my mood swings & anxieties. Nothing I do will ever be enough. I'm just this loud & stupid pancake who pretends that everything is A-OK. But, how about YOU? Are you ever going to do something? Or will you just stare at the ceiling all day, counting those spider dusts & being annoyingly numb? I don't know where I stand with you, ok?

It's too early in the morning to be feeling this.. Then again, it's too late to be elaborating this.

Don't Fall. Just Be Who You Are.

EXAMS are OVER!! GOD. I'm so flipping. I love you God! My only dilemma now is my clearance.. Plus, if I passed in all of my exams. Jesus Christ. Please make me pass. I studied my heart out there! AAAAAHHH.

KFC yesterday with the people I love. AYIIIIE. Then, we went back to school and played volley. We SUCK. Nakakahiya sa mga Freshies. :))

I'm losing my, um, how do I put it..? My writing bananas. Yeah. I think everything I write about is crappy. Sheez. I miss my former posts -- they're meaty & very Rina-ish. I must be suffering from Senior's Stress. BAH.

I'm going to update again later. Must eat breakfast.


P.S. MY ID's MISSING. If someone did see it, please give it baaack!

Mantakin Mo Yon!

Periodical Exam in Computer. I'm DOOOONE! I still have 5 minutes left so I'm updating. HAHAHA. Shit. This keyboard is fucking annoying. UGH.

Exams are near. I'm so crossing my fingers. UGH.

I hope this day's productive. PLEASE? ;)

I'm So In Love With You.

Happy March 1 again EVERYBODY. I hope my March is ok. I HOPE.

For some weird reason, I really appreciate Daluyong. SWEAR! Ansaya saya basahin. :))

I'm just updating.

I still need to do tons of stuff.

Might update again later. :)

CIAO!

It's The 1st Day Of The Month!

Happy March 1 everybody! It's 12.06. I'm going to post another update later. I just feel like greeting everybody a rabitty Happy 1st Day of the 3rd Month! :>

I returned this layout 'cause I love the pink & brown combination. HAHAHA.

Sir, I think you're in the wrong site!

Later. :>