Why Would We Change A Thing?

When all of my friends in 4th grade/5th grade were watching A Walk To Remember, A Cinderella Story, Meteor Garden, and The Princess Diaries, my parents made me watch Mary Poppins, The King & I, and The Sound of Music.  See, my parents (especially my dad) didn't want me to watch those sappy love stories because (in their own words) puro kalandian lang naman ang makukuha ko dun.  They thought that at the age of 9, 10, and even 11, I was not prepared for love stories or boyfriend-girlfriend issues.  Those were grown-up topics.

Do you ever wonder how I survived when my friends were talking about Shane West or Chad Michael Murray?  Honestly, I don't remember the exact excruciating details of my survival but what I do remember was asking them the plot of the movie.  Then, they would get all giggly and tell me how A Walk To Remember started and what the ending was.  In the end of their litany, I was just there nodding, blinking, and thinking that "Huh.  That's it?  Hey, I didn't miss out a lot after all."  Well, except for the fact that I was not a part of the A Walk To Remember fad and craze.  Other than that, I was perfectly fine and well-informed.

Thinking about all of these things now, maybe that's the reason why I'm not interested in relationships.  Movies show us happy endings and butterfly feelings for all of eternity.  But, do you know what the glitch is?  It's not reality.  It's not life.  Movies do not show us how break-ups could ruin a person's life or, well, honestly, how uncomfortable and awkward (in the sense wherein you have no bloody idea what to say to that person to make him/her feel better) it is to listen to someone pine over their love interest who broke their fragile hearts.  Movies do not show people that sometimes, well, most of the time, actually, there is no happy ending.  In the end, it's just you and a rocking chair and a cat or a dog, maybe.

Relationships are messy.  They tend to end in divorce, annulment, or, hmm, to give a more detailed picture, a kid with a broken heart and a confused life who feels neglected and blames himself/herself for the separation of his/her parents.  In these kind of situations, I always, always pity the kid.  You think it's easy when it's not happening to you but, honey, you would prefer to get your toenails pulled out by a wrench than to be in these kind of scenarios.  What I don't understand is the parents.  They could make things work.  I know they could.  They just have to dig deeper until they realize what it was that made them marry each other in the first place.

I should never be the first person you turn to when you have love problems.  I wouldn't know what to say or how to make you feel better.  I would just probably sit there and listen to you and curse the bastard who's breaking your heart.  I mean, c'mon, I don't even believe in relationships.  What I do know is that if ever I'm going to get married, I would make sure that I would grow old with the person I'm going to marry (please God, give me Bill Beckett or Jared Leto!) See, I have loyalty issues.  And, that's that.  It's either I'm going to grow wrinkly with a person or I'm going to buy the most expensive rocking chair and take care of a cat or something.

The thing is, relationships are for people that could accept each other's weaknesses and, well, abnormalities or weird habits.  Relationships are for people that could battle the odds and prove that, hey, they could and they would make things work.

But, who the hell am I kidding?  I'm just a talking blob here.  I don't even know if I make sense.  Anyway, tough luck, I'm talkative and I just really want to say what's on my mind.  I could be wrong and you could all rub it on my face.  Then again, I could be right.  And I would happily rub it on your gooey lovestruck faces.

And, oh yeah, I finally had the chance to watch A Walk To Remember when I was 15 years old.  And to tell you quite frankly, I stand by my thought when I was in 4th grade, I didn't miss anything at all.

Oh, What A Beautiful View If You Were Never Aware Of What Was Around You.

For the past few days..  My blog, my Tumblr, my Facebook, and my Twitter account (and even my Looklet account) were flooded by Bill Beckett/TAI interviews, music videos, clips, or TAI TV episodes.  For the people who aren't close to me or who never knew me in HS..  When I get obsessed.. God, you would just want me to shut up because 99.9% of the time, I would be talking about the person I'm obsessing over.  And that's what's happening to me and my William Beckett fantasies right now.  My mom and my brother would just sigh whenever I mention Bil Beckett or the awesomeness of The Academy Is...

So, now that I've explained and elaborated how obsessed I am with Bill Beckett..  Allow me to post some more videos and interviews of him and The Academy Is..

Now this is perfect because this is a collection of the best William Beckett clips!

This is one of the most amazing things EVER!  My awesome and extremely cute crush is singing a song by my favorite band in the whole wide world!  PERFECT!  PERFECT!

And this one is freakin' cute and funny!  Bill Beckett's like a child.  He's so charming! :)) And The Butcher is one crazy motherfucker. =))

Awwww.  My poor baby!  "When asked to comment on his ankle, William said only, 'It hurts.' " GOD, he's so adorable and cute and charming and.. GAAAAAAAH!  I could just eat him up!

K.  Fangirl. =))  I'm so sorry for talking about Bill Beckett non-stop.  Well, look at the bright side, at least I'm not talking about Jared Leto, right? :))

I've Got A Lefty Curse.

Let's end the day with a bang!

He's so attractive.  I could spend my whole life staring at him.  Yum!

If you guys haven't listened to the videos I'm going to post..  My respect for you would go down the drain or the pipes..  Whatever.  ANYWAY:

William Beckett is a perfect creature.  I know he's sort of skinny and lanky..  But, bygod, that makes him more attractive and drool-worthy.  =P~  I love this song so much!

One of the best songs in their album, SANTI.  HIHIHI.  Been singing this for days.

REALLY cute music video.  :>

Is my William Beckett obsession starting to annoy you..?  Sorry.  =))

Is This Coincidence Or A Sign?

I've been babbling about Bill Beckett for the past few days and I know it's amusing and annoying in some ways. Anyway, let me annoy you some more.  Check out this video and this song.  This is my favorite The Academy Is..  song.  The title is The Last Midnight Show.  I got this from YouTube and it's from a live concert, so, that makes Bill a tad more charming and attractive!  HIHIHI.  Anyway, he could wear frog's feet, for all I care, and I would still obsess over him.  HEHE.

Isn't Bill the cutest?  Man, I could just eat him up and gobble him down.  He's so talented and witty and gorgeous.  Goodness.

Check out 0.13-0.20.  He's so cute, OMG.  The way he smiled and the way he walked..  Oh my God.  This guy would really make me sin!

Anyway, that's all.  I would just like to share my favorite The Academy Is.. song. :>

Booyah!

So, I've been YouTube-ing a lot of Cobra Starship & The Academy Is.. lately.  Well, 80% of the time, it's The Academy Is..  William Beckett is so cute!  I'm going to post some pictures and videos!

He's really cute there!

This interview is funny. :))

And this one is really sweet.  They're really close, huh?

HEHEHE.  Gabe's a loud snorer and William's reaaaally quiet. :))

Anyway, isn't he the cutest?  If you transform William Beckett into a girl, she would be a really pretty and cute girl.  Goooood.  He's so charming and funny and..  OMG.  William Beckettttt!  Now, I'm going to post some pictures of William Beckett!

I like him a lot when he sports longer locks.  He has shorter hair now.  Look:

He's still attractive but I really love his longer hair.  Maybe it's just me, but I like guys with long hair.  HEHE.

Anyway, it's my mom's birthday tomorrow.  I bought her a bag.  I know it's a cheapie compared to the things she owns/buys.  Still, it's the thought that counts, right? :>

This Is Not Your Song.

So, these past few days I've been obsessing over, yes, Jared Leto..  And then there're Gabe Saporta and William Beckett.  It's like what I've said in my twitter account, if I lived in the 60's/70's..  I would've been a fucking groupie.  Ever since I was young, I was always having crushes on band members.  My obsession for older men is more recent.  Before RDJ and Neil Gaiman (Hmm, you can't consider Johnny Depp, really.  I already had a crush on him when  I was crushing on these guys I'm going to state..) there were Billy Martin, Billie Joe Armstrong, Trent Reznor, Sid Vicious, and Adam Lazzara.  Guys in bands are my weakness.

ANYWAY, I'm going to post some videos of The Academy Is... and Cobra Starship.  William Beckett is so darn cute.  I've been talking about him for days.  Every time my mom's around, "Ma, tingnan mo yung crush ko!" and she would say, "Oo, si Jared Leto.  Alam ko na." and I would say, "No, isa pa si.." and before I could finish she would say, "Si William Beckett.  Oo, nakita ko na."  I love my parents for supporting me and my irrational obsession over these guys.  HIHIHI.

God.  I love this song so much!  Swear!  It has been my summer song for a couple of years now.  You and me forever, forever yoooooung!

William Beckett is so cute here!  I envy the girl who got to kiss him.  HUHUHU.

This song is sort of suicidal, but hey, you get to catch a glimpse of Bill's (K.  Close?  HAHAHA.) longer locks.

This is the perfect video for my William Beckett and Gabe Saporta whoring!  Check out their faces in 0.23, especially William's face!  HIHIHI.

This is one of my personal favorites!  I love this song so much.

Keep doin' what you're doin' and I'll make you miiiiine!

And this is my favorite-est Cobra song ever!  Kiss My Sass!  I love this song so freakin' muuuuuch!

God, I'm such a loser because I missed the Cobra concert last March 25, 2009.  Sucks.  :-(  ANYWAY, don't worry Jared, I still love you with all my heart, but..  I declare open marriage in our relationship!  HAHAHAHA.  KBYE.  :))

Oh, and by the way, you could check out Jared Leto's blog here and William Beckett's blog here.  K.  I'm such a stalker.  Anyway, William writes well and Jared's, well, funny.  :))

I'm Everywhere That You Go.

One thing you should know about me is that I like models.  Not in a perverted way but in a way where I could stare at their pictures all day and marvel at their beauty and charm and body.  Hmm.  The latter part sounds a bit perverted but, what the hell, are you getting my point?  I like models because they're the people that I could never be.  They're beautiful, charming, gorgeous, sexy, glamorous, and sophisticated.  So, to honor my model-fetish..  I'm going to post some of my most viewed and stalked models.  =))

Ok, this is Agyness Deyn. I like her so much! She could wear a bathrobe and she would still look gorgeous!  How is that even possible?

Now this one is Natalia Vodianova.  What I like about her is her very young and fresh looking face.  Who would ever think that she's the mother of three?  SEE?  She's so gorgeous!

This is Miranda Kerr.  She has a very, very pretty face! Huuuuu.

Now this one is Adriana Lima.  Of all the models I'm stalking and whoring over.. I think she's the HOTTEST.  I mean, seriously.  She's one of my super favorites.

This is Emily DiDonato. I think she's very pretty.  I dunno.  I just like to stare at her face all day.  She's very beautiful.  Not to mention, young.  I really, really, really think she's pretty!

This is Gemma Ward.  She's been on hiatus for some time.  I'm just glad she's back.  

This is Lily Cole.  I THINK SHE'S SUPER DUPER CUTE!  She looks like a baby!  She also starred in The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus.  HUHUHU.  SHE'S SO CUTE!

She is one of my favorites!  This is Rosie Huntington-Whiteley.  You guys should check out some of her interviews and videos in YouTube.  She's charming and funny!

This is Coco Rocha.  God, I think she's very sophisticated and glamorous.  Not to mention  hooooot.

And this one is Barbara Palvin.  She looks a bit like Natalia Vodianova and Miranda Kerr and Emily DiDonato, 'no?  But I really adore her.  Check out some of her shots.  She's really gorgeous!  And she's also very young.  Why was I not this pretty when I was 17?  Hmph.

Lastly, this is Lily Donaldson.  God she's hott!  Words are not enough to describe her gorgeousness!

Gosh.  Aren't they all perfect?  Life is so unfair.  Anyway, wow.  When I have nothing to do, I usually compile  their pictures here in my laptop (but since my laptop's darn broken, I'm currently using my mom's spare.  K.  I'm babbling again.  ANYWAY, my point is, I've been saving their pictures in my mom's external hard drive.  HIHIHI!)  HEHEHE.  Yuck, just so you know, I am not a lesbian and a pervert!  I just appreciate their beauty and sophistication.  :>

Vanilla Thunder.

So, yeah.  I've been craving for burgers and chocolates and fries and cupcakes and pizza.  So, I posted some cute food pictures.  Nom nom!  These pictures are making me hungry!

God.  I love food.  It's my first and only love!  No wonder I'm fat.  Bleugh.  Anyway, I hope my parents would allow me to go to Maeka's house on Saturday.  I want to hang out with my high school friends.  HUUUUU.

Oh, and by the way, I don't own any of the pictures above.  I got it from Tumblr.

Robot.

You know what's scary?  I don't know what's going to happen to me after I graduate.  What the hell.  I don't have any talent, I'm not good at anything, I'm dumb and stupid.  And no, this is not a self-pitying monologue or something. I'm stating facts.  Anyway, what's going to happen to me?  I can't possibly depend on my parents for the rest of my life.  Somehow, one way or another, I need to, and I mean, I REALLY NEED TO think about my future.  I mean, what the hell am I going to do with my life?

When I say I'm ok with the idea of me being a bum..  I don't mean it.  Well, hmm, sometimes I do but deep down I know I don't want to be a bum.  But, seriously.  I don't know what to do after graduating.  Let's hope hat I graduate.  God, my parents are gonna murder me if I don't graduate.  ANYWAY, the thing is..  I don't really know what's going to happen to me.  I'm not good at anything.  And it scares me.  Ugh, God.

K.  Whatever.  Just fuck it.

Monopoly.

So, yesterday, I hanged out with some of the Perfect Kids.  Jodie was there, so were Eryel, Mons, Gego, Maeka, Hazielle, and Jesileen.  It was a spur of the moment thing and I was really glad that some of them came. Hihihi.  We talked about random things.  God, I missed them so much!  I mean, we just talked and talked and laughed and talked and laughed some more.  We played Pusoy Dos but after a few games, a security guard told us that we couldn't play cards inside the mall.  Later on, Maeka bought the Monopoly cards thing.  OMG.  It was so fun to play!  (Shout out to Jodie and Eryel: WE MUST BUY ONE TOO!)  We were having so much fun when the very same guard came and told us we couldn't play.  Come on!  It was Monopoly.  MONOPOLY!  Ugh.  Oh well.

Gosh.  I've missed them super duper much.  I wish high school didn't have to end.  Nakooooo.  Anyway, since Beyiia wasn't around, there weren't any pictures to post.  :))

On something different, gosh, I want to watch Supernatural season 2 already!  Swear, you guys should also watch it.  It's kind of freaky (although Jonah said that the scariest season was season 1..  After that, it's not so frightening anymore) but I like the story and the action and, well, everything!  I can't wait to start with season 2.  I told my mom to buy me the DVD's.  She told me that she's going to buy me these DVD's tomorrow!  Oh joy!  This is the highlight of my summer..  Watching a lot of TV series' (what's the plural form of SERIES?  Anyway, you get my drift, right?)  ANYWAY, that up there, my friends, is a Supernatural season 2 trailer.  OMG.  Isn't it cool?  I'm so excited to watch it.

Hmmm.  Speaking of things that I want to watch, Jodie said that there's an awesome Sherlock series.  I have to download it too!  After I finish downloading GG, HIMYM, and That 70's Show season 6, I'm going to download that series.  HIHIHI.

Tell Me What I Want To Hear.

So, it's my last day at Instituto Cervantes tomorrow. Too bad I can't enroll for the 2nd level because it would clash with my, um, UST duties (enrollment, blah blah blah). Anyway, I had fun. I could understand some of the conversations my parents are having. =)) My parents said that I would continue this.. Maybe next summer. Hopefully it wouln't clash with my OJT thing.

God, I learned how to commute! After 5 years of begging.. My dad finally allowed me to commute. Last, last Friday, I commuted from Makati to TriNoma! I'm so awesome. And last Friday, I commuted from Makati to Odessa's house! So badass! Awesomesauce. This is such a big deal for me because I have been coccooned my entire life. So.. Spare me the rolling eyes and "Ang babaw" thoughts.

I have a very sad news. I went to the foodcourt in TriNoma a while back. And, guess what, Gonuts Donuts is GONE! GONE! I love that doughnut shop more than Krispy Kreme! :-( I feel aweful. So, I asked my mom to buy me a cupcake from Frosting's. I felt a little better but, bygod, I'm still sad! The cupcakes in Gonuts are yummy and cheap! Swear to God! They taste good. :-( Huhuhu.

On something different, I'm going to ask my mom to buy me the next 5 seasons od Supernatural! I finished the first season last Sunday. Fine Jonah, fiiine. I agree. The story and the plot was amazing. But, it scared the freakin' bejesus out of me. Still. Ohmygod I can't wait to watch Season 2!!!

The Kill.

This is going to be another Jared Leto post.  Brace yourself! Man, I love the guy so much!  I can't wait for July 29!  I hope my parents would allow me to go.  HUHUHU

 

Mygod.  Isn't he the cutest?  I could stare at him forever.  He's so gorgeous. His gorgeousness blows me away.  And he's funny too.  HUHUHU JARED LETOOOOOOO!

You So Fly.

To show my devotion and preparation for the Mars concert (must really confirm with my dad.  His answer's a bit vague.)  I'm going to post some of the greatest 30 Seconds To Mars music videos.  HIHIHI

Sucks that I can't find the uncensored version of Hurricane.  Anyway, super awesome vids.  Most of the time, it was Jared who's directing their music videos.  HIHI.  Yuck.  Super obsessed ko ba? :))

I'm Innocent!

So, yesterday, we went to Odessa's house.  (Actually, I stayed there until about 3pm today.  Hehe.)  After a very long time..  The five of us chilled again!  Yay!  I missed everybody.  Ampy was super funny!  When Jodie was texting her, Ampy said that she's near already and she brought games!  When she came, Odessa asked her what games she brought..  She said, "Pick up sticks"  HAHAHHAHA BWISET.  Super namiss ko sya like SUPER DUPER MISS!  We also forced her to make a twitter account..  She made one.  Her username is "preciousampy" HAHAHAHA BWISET TALAGA! =))

Eryel and Ampy didn't sleep there.  It sucked because today..  We karaoke-d.  Jodie and I did a Phantom of the Opera duet.  Super funny.  :))

Anyway, I almost forgot to mention.. It was Eryel's 19th yesterday!  Yay!  K.  :))  Last year, during her birthday, we were at Jodie's house.  This year, we were at Odessa's house.  Where would we go next year? :))

I love them super duper much.  It's high school all over again! :-)  Let's do this again soon!  Overnight na din si Eryel at Ampy!

Thank you Jodie for all the pictures. :))