My Heart Is All Black.

After three internet-less days..  yay, it's back! 

Last day of the month.

I'm twenty-two, can you believe it?

Been listening to Second Chances for the last..  five days or so.

Heh.

I'm Shot Through The Head, I'm A Black Sink Hole.

This song just kills me.

The Veronica Mars movie with the LoVe scenes killed me too.  Huhuhu.

So..  Tomorrow is the big day.  God, please no. :-(

(Oh yeah, YAY, this is my 800th post!  Can you believe I've kept this blog for seven years?)

Ocean City Girl.

Can't stop listening to this song.

I forgot how emotionally draining Veronica Mars is.

Anyway, on something different, this made me cry a lot:

When I was younger, I was fascinated with people who have down syndrome, so, I read a lot of articles about them.  You know what, based from the stories from their parents and families, they're a lot sweeter and nicer than "normal" people.  Thought you guys should know.

Omg. One more day before doom's day.  So freakin' dreading it.

A Long Time Ago, We Used To Be Friends.

When I was in high school, I watched, like, seven episodes of Veronica Mars.  I found it awesome AND I couldn't quite grasp why I didn't buy a DVD copy or something.  Now that the movie's finally out, I decided to watch the whole show..  which is bad timing, if you ask me.  But, I'm looking at it this way, the faster I finish the series, the faster I'll get to my studies and stuff.

I am so Team LoVe.  Huhuhu Logan Echolls - you are currently my.. everything.

Three more days until the big 2-2.  To say that I am freaking out is an understatement.  I couldn't sleep (I wish I could say that I couldn't eat but..  heh, no can do)  I don't want to grow up.  I don't want to grow up.  I don't want to grow up.  I don't want to grow upppppppp!

So.. yeah.  Bye.

Have You Got Colour In Your Cheeks?

Last night I received one of the best pre-birthday gifts in my entire life (the other one, if you're curious, is the Death Cab For Cutie concert I watched two years ago, five days before my 20th birthday.)  It was sort of embarrassing because we were at the mall and I almost peed my pants crying and squealing.  Woooohooo thank you God!

Anyway, you guys might think I'm OA or whatever but I really freak out when I think about my upcoming seventh 15th birthday.  You guys have no fucking idea.  Last Friday, I was talking to my mom.  It was pretty chill but then we got to the topic of my birthday and shit and Jesus fucking Christ, my heart started to beat really fast.  I don't want to grow old.  But, more importantly, I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP.  You guys have no idea how it freaks me out and how it scares the living Jesus out of me.  Just last week, I was staring at the ceiling and then I realized how near my stupid birthday is and I cried.  I told you it would look OA to you but..  ehhhh, whatever, this is me.  Growing up is pretty much one of the things I fear the most in life.  (It even drives me to tears when I think about it.)  Growing up means there are responsibilities and obligations and stuff that you have to take seriously.  And..  I think I'm still a kid and I don't want to do any of that.  I am still a kid.  You know, I even freak out when I see my batchmates or whatever have kids.  You know why?  It's because I'm already at the phase of my life where it's normal for me or my peers or people my age to consider having children and..  Jesus..  that's so grown-up.

Heh.  Just writing all of these's making me panic.

One thing's for sure - I'm NEVER going to act my age.  NEVER.

Ehhhh, Fuck.

It's been six days since my parents talked.  It's driving me CRAZY.  They need to grow up (wow, big words coming from me.  Although, in my defense, I'm a six year old stuck in a twenty-one year old's body.)  Seriously.

I just finished watching Blackfish.  Jonah and I were talking yesterday and she told me about this documentary she watched about Orcas at SeaWorld.  Anyway, long story short, I cried buckets over this documentary!  Why can't they just release Tilikum and all the other killer whales?  It was so heartbreaking because what they're doing to those killer whales were - are inhumane.  There was this neuro-scientist who said that orcas feel more than humans.  I mean, the moms were crying and stuff when they (people who hunted killer whales/people from SeaWorld) took their babies away from them.  Ehhh, you guys should watch it.  You would want to murder someone after watching it.

I feel lazy.  I'll rant some other time.

P. S. Me birthday's coming up in nine days!  Have you bought me any present yet?  Here's a LINK of the stuff I want, you know, just to give you an idea on what to get me.  Hihi.

P. P. S. I think my period's coming.  At this moment, I just want to cry and cry and cry and cry..  without any valid reason.  I just feel sad..  without any valid reason.

Here In My Heart, There's A Picture Of Us.

So, I spent the last three (or four?) days YouTube-ing music videos of the boybands I grew up with.  Omg, it was such a long time ago.  I feel so old.  Anyway, Backstreet Boys was the most popular boyband in my day but I was more of an A1 and Blue fan.  I loved Ben Adams and Lee Ryan.  At the tender age of 10, I was willing to change my name to Rina Adams or Rina Ryan.  Seriously.

Here are some of my favorite A1 and Blue songs!  If you're not familiar with them and we're almost the same age..  Dude, what's wrong with you?

I can't understand why my parents let me scream the lyrics to this song at the top of my lungs when I was.. 9.

This is my favorite Blue song.

LEE RYAN OKAY

Recently, I've been watching a lot of Last Flight Out and Here In My Heart videos by Plus One.  I couldn't help it..  I fell in love with the 1996/1997 version of Jeremy Mhire.

He's the second singing dude in the video.  He's also the "Although it's hard and scares me so, a life without you scares me more" guy.  Gaaaaaaaah *fans self*

This is how he looked like before:

He's cute, righttttt??

And this is how he looks like right now:

I'm not really into muscular and macho guys so..  I think I'll stick with the 1997 version of Jeremy Mhire.

And, oh yeah, haven't you heard?  We have a NEW POST!  Go CLICK THIS!

Birthday Wishlist.

So, my birthday's coming up in seventeen days.  If you love me and want to shower me with gifts that I wouldn't be disappointed at, here's my wishlist:

The funny thing is, I forgot to include the name of the author in the picture. Anyway, you're a smart person, go figure it out!

I love reading stuff about kings and queens and shit because they're crazy people. Plus, I'm really interested with history.  If you don't know that, we're not close.. Give me two extra books for compensation.

I already have a copy (duh. It's a Neil Gaiman book) but I want this cover so much so.. PLEASE!

I really want to own this one because it seems like a hilarious graphic novel. Please buy one for the nerd in me.

I already have an ebook of this, but I want this hardbound copy of the book.  I think it's about 1169 bucks?

I want this cover!! Plus, it already contains three novels so it's worth it.

I love the cover. Plus, it's a hardbound copy so.. You know. This costs 1148 bucks!

Same as my usual reasons. This is 720 bucks.

I'm a BIG Greek Mythology geek! I was nine the first time I got obsessed. I started collecting books and clippings and I started watching movies and documentaries.  My parents supported this obsession..  So, actually, I'm hoping that they would buy this for me.  It's not as expensive as the other books (but it's pretty expensive for me because I'm unemployed!)  I think this is the book that would really make me happy for my birthday!!

This great book for 599 feyzowz!

I have all of Jane Austen's books but I like this one because it's a cutie! It's a pretty small book but it's hardbound and stuff.  Please buy me one.

Oh, this one I really, really, really, really want to own.  It's 518 pesos, still pretty expensive for a bum like me.

I want this one so much!!!  So, you guys better talk about who's giving me what.  I don't want three copies of these!

So, friends, now that I've posted my wishlist, it's time to work a little harder, earn some more, and make me happy by buying me these books!  Hahahahahaha!  I'm kidding.  I would also be happy if you give me cash.  Hehe.

You'll Never Reach It.

For the second time in my life, I feel like a loser.

I'm going to retake the NMAT this April...  And it's starting to drive me insane!  I have to have at least an 80 because they got stricter this year and.. Jesus fucking lord.  Can you believe my luck?  The previous year a 75 was okay.  This time I need to get at least an 80 or 85 just to be safe.

I know I'm not stupid but.. an 80?  Are you kidding me?  Times like this I wish I took up a pre-med course.  You know what the makes me sad?  I know that I'm going to be a good doctor.  When I see how my mom handles some of her ignorant patients, all I could think of is how she's handling it all wrong.  If I was in her shoes, I would joke with my patients first until they feel comfortable.  I would patiently explain stuff in layman's terms.  I would charm the bejesus out of the patients!  And this fantasy of mine might not come to life because a.) I didn't take up a pre-med course (so, I'm pretty much slow on the terms and stuff) and b.) I have a low NMAT grade.

I don't know.  I just..  It's just that..  I haven't won anything for a long time.  And this time, I know exactly what I want to win at and I might actually lose it.

This sucks.

I've Been Looking For You, Lone Star.

My darling Jared won the Best Supporting Actor at the Oscar's today! Omg I am so proud and happy!

On something different, I would be laptop-less for.. god knows how long because my brother broke his less-than-a-year-old laptop. Ugh. Anyway, heh, whatever.. JARED LETO WON!!!!!

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Fog Of War.

I downloaded a new app yesterday and I got, for the lack of a better word, hooked.  I started editing random stuff like these:

Trying to be artsy fartsy merp

I tagged this as #TheWildSide #PunksNotDead #Inked (Obviously I'm kidding)

Just to give you a glimpse on how messy my study table is

I was actually looking for photos of only the four of us but I couldn't find one so.. this would do

I was bored, okaaaaay.  (Although, truth be told, I don't have any right to be bored.)  Plus, I was also excited to use the app so...

Anyway, if you are bored, why don't you CLICK THIS?  It's our new post!  Hihi.  Annnnnd, if you want something to accompany that breathtakingly good read, why don't you LISTEN TO THIS?

Have a great Sunday, errrone!