Would they let their light shine enough for me to follow?

My aunt and uncle are currently here in the Philippines from the US. My dad decided to treat them at Pamana! We ordered A LOT. I was expecting minuscule servings like from Locavore, Mesa, Manam but, bitch, the food was.. Well, it was A LOT. We didn't even touch a set of seafood kare kare, crispy pata, and pancit ivatan. 

Seafood karekare.. deconstructed HAHAHHAHAHHA

Omg this is my ultimate favorite! It's, ummmm, buttered shrimp with aligue???? I'm not sure basta it's buttered shrimp. In my family, they know I would always devour shrimp/prawn. I COULD EAT IT EVERYDAY. It's my most favorite food EVER huhuhuhu

Ohh this is chili crab with cheesy aligue (if I'm not mistaken) with fried mantou! Yo got this one because he really liked the chili crab with mantou from SG

Caesar salad, az a bazzzic bitch. BUT I REALLY LOVED IT

ANYWAY LOOOOK!!!!!!

I must've tried this 10x BUT I CAN'T GET LOGAN HUHUHUHUHUHU but, hey, I got Dean twice so it's a win, bitchezzzz

ALSO, LOOKIE!!!!

SOOOOOO, I really want to get the purple thingy phone case from PopSocket and there USED to be a PopSocket kiosk at GH mall but when I checked today, IT WAS GONE! GONE!!!!! So, I ended up buying this Casetify case from Digital Walker. It's the same case Raissa has for her phone but in light pink (rose pink?) I really want the PopSocket one huhuhuhu

THIS IS THE ONE I WANT! But I bought the case I'm currently using for, iirc, PHP 3200-something?? So, I might not buy this PopCase yet because, you know, ya bitch is poor

I don't know why I've been crying over you, for the life of me I wish that I knew

I had my follow up today with Dra. Pagaduan! Gosh I need to lose weight huhuhu. Why can't I be addicted to good grades? Why am I addicted to food?!?!

ANYWAY, another opportunity to talk about.. Off Campus 🤭 Honestly, I have no shame and I would convince anyone who talks to me to WATCH IT. Actually, I just messaged Jones today to watch it HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHA

We have established that I am a Logan girl through and through

First time I wished I was a dog...

But apparently.. 

I am a Dean girl. I TOOK THIS TEST TWICE! I got Dean twice!

I love TV Dean but I'm in love with TV Logan/Book Logan! 

BUT ANYWAYYYYY, omg they finally announced it last night/early this morning, Dean and Allie would be the season 2 leads! I AM SO EXCITED! I LOVE THEM!

What else what else. Off Campus took over my life so that's all I could think about these days. OMG YES. Read my 8th novel for the month! It's Dear Monica Lewinsky, EASY 4 STARS! It was so sarcastic and funny and thought provoking. I LOVED IT. Might get into it when I'm in the mood, right now I just want to look at Logan edits. BYEEEEEEEE

So when you gonna tell her that we did that too?

Another day, another opportunity to obsess over Off Campus 🥵🫦 I CANNOT STOP! This show has me on a chokehold and I AM ALL FOR IT 

God sent him to taunt me that I WOULD NEVER have this man HUHUHUHU JOKE HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

I've been bugging my bff to watch it as well. Actually, she will never know peace again unless she watches it because I HONESTLY CANNOT shut up about it

ANYWAY, I've been experiencing my monthly migraine for the past 4 days and I AM DYING. I've been taking coffee to help with the prodrome (actually feel ko postdrome na 'to) and celecox ++ tylenol but ughhhh. WELL, tbf, I feel it helps naman. Like nag-PS of 2-3/10 nalang sya but it's such a hassle talaga because this fuuuucking annoying migraine is related to my monthly menses. It's possible to have it during PMS, during my period, after my period, or if I'm very lucky - ALL OF THE ABOVE. So ang fun, right?? Almost 2 weeks ako may migraine EVERY MONTH for the past 24 years. God, kill me now.

My 2nd black coffee for the day. Good thing coffee doesn't really wake me up. I tried reading about it because I noticed, ESPECIALLY BACK IN MED SCHOOL, I would drink 3 VENTI COLD BREWS in 1 day (my insensible loss would even start smelling like caffeine ughhhh) but I would still feel sleepy!!!!! Until now, when I drink coffee, I would get really sleepy afterwards. WEIRD, RIGHT? So, apparently it works that way because I have ADHD. I naturally have lower dopamine levels and since coffee is a stimulant, it could calm me to the point of sedation. Well, tbf, when I was in UERM, I was running with, like, 4 hours of sleep everyday huhu. I think that could be a huge factor, but HEY, coffee should've helped, NOT LULL ME BACK TO SLEEP.

ANYWAYYYYYYY, I'm reading my 7th book of the month! 

📌 Dear Monica Lewinsky by Julia Langbein

BIIIITCH, this book is hilarious! As in there were some passages and dialogues wherein I would snort out loud because IT'S SO FUNNY! It gets to mix humor with difficult topics like grooming and the power imbalance between a professor and a student. Currently, I'm 9% in. Fuck, I hope I get to finish 10 books this month. I'm CRAMMING like crazy. After this, I'll start reading The Legacy by Elle Kennedy. It's like an epilogue of sorts for the 4 baby boys of Off Campus 💕 

I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare

It's Friday again. After doing errands the whole day (😩), finally back at home at around 6:30 pm? Took a bath then decided to record myself singing...................... as if I'm not tone deaf????

But look, I'm versatile af (AWOW???? HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA)

This is my favorite song in the whole wide world

I mean...

ANYWAY,

I could sing indie, I could sing punk rock, I could rap (albeit, terribly. Grabe my cadence is nonexistend and it's like I'm reading a poem), and I could sing pop! WHAT CAN'T I SING?????

(Edit: I think the videos won't load and Idk how to fix it)

HAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH grabe kapal lang talaga ng face. I remember like 10 years ago (???) basta in Agave, Eastwood. Bigla sila nag open mic, bitch, walang hesitations, kumanta ako in front of people. Iirc, I sang 2 songs pa. Basta isa dun is Game of Love. Then at the residence (SG), Nongni held a get-together with his colleagues from the PH Embassy SG, wala din hiya hiya, I sang It's All Coming Back To Me Now by Celine Dion, We Belong Together by Mariah Carey, and Born To Die by Lana Del Rey. I sang more but those 3 were the most memorable BECAUSE I REALLY SUCK AND I DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA kumanta lang ako sa harap ng strangers and their families. Then during Mamel's celebratory dinner, kumanta ulit ako ng deja vu by Olivia Rodrigo and All Too Well by Taylor Swift. In front of Mamel's family and her parents' colleagues HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA IN MY DEFENSE, the band asked if anybody wanted to sing and my med friends kept pushing me. Sino pa ba ako para magpakipot... HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA kapal nalang talaga ng mukha kahit sintonado HAHAHHAHAHAH

I enjoy singing even if I'm not the best singer and I'm tone deaf. I think I'm going to continue doing this until I'm a hundred years old HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAA

Then, I also played around with Dazz cam because who fucking cares, this is my blog and I'm the only reader so might as well treat it as my diary HAHHAHAHHAHAHA

Grabe, kita yung photos and vids I mass send to my close friends haha

Then fantasized about TV Logan and TV Dean:

He was so hot 🥵 in this scene (Logan version)

He was so hot 🥵 in this scene (Dean version)

Lord I am just a woman with eyes. EYES that appreciate these human blessings.

ANYWAY THAT'S ALL FOR MY RANDOM UPDATES

If I hold you too close, will the good things still grow?

Omg I cannot stop with Off Campus GAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! It's my new The Summer I Turned Pretty and Maxton Hall and Elite and My Fault and all the other new gen of teen romcoms I got hooked on except I LOVE ALL THE MEN 😭 Okay maybe not. I don't really care about Justin and Sean. BUT I am STILL freaking OBSESSED!!!!!!!!

But omg I can't believe I haven't read Tucker's book!!! I really don't know why. Maybe 'cause I didn't like Sabrina James??? Idk idk. I am so pro-Dean (very, very biased about him) and she was such a dick to Dean so Idk. Made me not read Tuck's book. Which sucks 'cause I love TV Tucker!!!! SOOOOOOO, I'm reading it now. It's my 6th book for the month, 44th overall.

Again, I'm cramming. I'm 7 books behind! I should've read 50 books by this time BUT I WAS DOING OTHER SIDE QUESTS. I AM SO BEHIND!!!!!!! Although, I think I would be able to catch up since I'm so obsessed with Off Campus AND I HAVEN'T READ THE BRIAR U SERIES (the next gen of Off Campus) so LET'S HOPE I GET TO CATCH UP.

TBFFFFFF, the last book I read (which I finished today) was That's All I Know by Elisa Levi. I gave it 5 stars but it's kind of, Idk, heavy? It was a short book but the content tackled death, discontentment, running away, caring for a disabled person, etc etc. So, it's not really about rainbows and butterflies and it took me a week to finish it. BUT TBF I WAS ALSO REREADING THE FIRST 3 BOOKS OF OFF CAMPUS IN BETWEEN SO THERE.

It's already May 21. Ugh. I don't think I would be able to finish 10 books this month. I was so smug, motherfucker. BUT IN MY DEFENSE, there were a lot of other fun things I got distracted on huhuhuhuhu.

'Cause everyday since you left me I've thought less and less of you

Errands day today ughhhh. Will talk about it when I hear good news (LORD PLEASE LET THERE BE GOOD NEWS)

My polo looks like jammies but idc because it's summer and it feels so summer-y AND I LOVE IT. I got this from Zara and it's paired with shorts but i don't fucking wear shorts so I just bought the top haha

Thanks Dazz Cam for making my photos look gorj haha

Honestly, it's always going to be Logan first and Dean second. I LOVE THEM SO MUUUUUCH!

What'd you expect? They know how we are

Okay omg. New hyperfixation: Off Campus the TV series!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Prime finally released it like.. last May 13? But I only started watching it last night! You got to hand it to Prime, they've been releasing really cute shows that trigger the nostalgia train for 34-year-old teenagers like me. I mean, we had The Summer I Turned Pretty, Maxton Hall, and now.. OFF CAMPUS!!!!!!!!!! It's only 8 episodes (UGHHHH I honestly miss the good old days where one season would have 20+ episodes! Come on!! Give me slow burn, give me yearning, GIVE ME MORE EPISODES!!!!) so I was able to finish it this morning.

I read the books like.. 10 years ago and, honestly, it's smut HAHAHAHAHA BUT BITCH, when you're drowning in med school, reading something chill is cathartic AND I HAVE NO REGRETS. I LOVED IT!

Anyway, so, after finishing the TV series this morning, I started rereading the books! I was able to finish Books 1 and 2 and as of 9:08 pm, I'm currently 82% done with Book 3. Bitch, if I had this kind of focus back in med school.. I would've graduated on time. Anyway, Garrett was waaaaay more charming in the books, he's kind of rigid in the TV series. 

My favorites are Logan and Dean. Logan - I am so freaking in love with the actor!!!! I mean.. have you seen him?????? Logan is Book 2 but his story was glossed over this current season, it kinda tackled book 3 more (which is Dean. MY OTHER FAVORITE!!!!! TV Dean is SO. Freaking. CHARMING!!!! But I also love Book Dean! BUT TV DEAAAAAN. TV DEAN IS 🫦)

Omg, can you see it? He looks like Jhong Hilario, right? I mean.. the resemblance is uncanny. BUT ANYWAYYYY I really, really, really, really like guys with facial hair. I think they get extra handsome!

I freaking can't wait for season 2. IT'S ABOUT JOHN LOGAN. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!! There are a lot of differences from the book and I'm honestly okay with it? Because the adaptation gelled well. OMFG if I'm going to comment something negative, it's going to be Jules. Wtf is that. She brought nothing to the table and the actress was so bland and boring!!!!!!! I mean, she didn't add anything substantial to the story except that she's the one who hard launched Garrett and Hannah. That's it. I hope she's not in season 2 (which I doubt because she's Logan's sister in the show) ughhh I really fucking hate her

I mean:

This was not scripted at all HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA natawa na din lang ako after watching the vid because OMFG look at my face of disgust when Jules showed up HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAAHHA she's like the Jenny Humphrey of this show