As A Matter Of Fact..

.. I wanted to go to UST today to chill with Nikki&Quimbo. BUT, I can`t because I have to make the stupid CA report. We will report on Wednesday. (I`m using ` again because I can`t use the fucking apostrophe again. I have no idea why.)

Anyway, I`m home alone. Again. Yo has classes. My parents are out. It`s going to be a quiet day. I think my parents would return at around.. 8-9pm.

It was Maeka`s birthday yesterday. And, it`s Kim`s birthday today. I miss them both.

I SAW ASON YESTERDAY! SHE WENT TO UST. OMGGGG. SUPER I MISS HER!

I SAW SANDRA TOO YESTERDAY!!! OMGGGG. SHE`S PRETTIER AND.. TALLER? :))))

Maybe I`ll update again later. Whaddya think?

SONG: Imogen Heap`s Goodnight&Go.

I Don't Know..

.. Why I feel so sad whenever I see abandoned blogs. It's weird, I know. But, it's, like, they're neglecting a part of their selves that's attached to that blog.

I think it's the time of the month again.. That's why I'm getting emo.

OR.. Or maybe I just hate college and I can no longer find any reason to stay happy.

I think that's it.

Bamboozled.

This is my first post for December.. And hopefully, this wouldn't be my last.

Yesterday dismissal was epic. We played SiAySaNoong. And I love the part where ***** ate a BUHAY NA ASO. =)))))

Anyway, my earphones have gone wacko again. I'm going to try to ask the guy from the store if the earphones are included in the warranty. I hope it's included.

No classes on Tuesday. Hallelujaaaah.

Yo's USTET is tomorrow. I don't want to go to UST but I must. My father said that I should accompany my brother. God.

Random post. Not in the mood to type. Just updating. I'll try again lataaah.

Idiot Pilot.

I've tried downloading Ninja Assassin but BTjunkie failed me. Hmm. Or is it Mininova? Whatever. The download wasn't successful so I have to trrrry again. I really want to watch the movie. I googled it and the summary was quite nice so it piqued my interest. Hihi.

In the mean time, I'm currently reading Mayday Eve by Nick Joaquin. It's a requirement for Lit and I have to read it because Mela said that we might report this week. It's a good thing it's written in English -- I really have a hard time understanding Tagalog stories or poems or articles. 77 nga lang ako sa Pinoy, okaaaay? :))

.. And, I'm currently listening to Lincoln Hawk's Everytime. OMG. Super HS daaaays. It was the song Rufus Humphrey sang in GGS1 when Serena was looking for Dan because Georgina was brainwashing Dan. Hmm. Good times.

OMG. I've just realized something! Today is the last day of November for this year! OMG. It's December tomorrow. My, my.. Time flies so fast. A couple of more weeks and it's Christmas time naaaa! \m/ (See my previous post for the explanation of my Christmas excitement.)

Ohyeah, I want to thank Mr. Andres Bonifacio because there's no classes today. Or should I thank all of the National Heroes..? I have no idea. Anyway, yeah, thanks. Without you guys, it would be torture and pure Eco-CA-Lit-CWG hell. :>

I seriously, seriously miss HS. :|

SONG: Change For You by The Midway State. Best song at this moment. :>

You Won Me Over In No Time At All.

I have this playlist in my iPod that always makes me remember HS. As far as I'm concerned, it's no biggie. It's not a big deal until I get so emotional and grumpy because I super duper miss HS. As always, I'm not saying that college is bad. But, it's just so.. BORING. I don't even know why. I used to have this stupid belief that college would be, like, a supernova or something. But, honestly, it's just like a tiny speck of dust. Nothing at all.

Since everybody moved to Tumblr, I've decided I would update my blogger site more. Why? 'Cause it would be like a secret blog or something. I mean, nobody uses blogger nowadays.. And, I'm telling you, I'm not new in this kind of site, I've been here since I was in 2nd year HS. How old does that make my blog? :> ANCIENT. :)) As I was saying, I promise that I would update this more. So, my writing mojo wouldn't, um, deteriorate rapidly.

I wish it's Christmas already. I haven't appreciated Christmas for, what, three years now. So, this is, I think, a first (again after that Christmas-Spirit hiatus.) I want to spend some time with my family. I want the cold weather. I want no more problems. I want to see Santa. I want.. I want to get away from College. Really, I think I suck 'cause I'm the only one I know that's always ranting about college. I'm just not that happy, ok? Most of the time,I'm laughing is because of Jonah or Quimbo or Nikki -- without them, I'd be a living corpse.

Well, anyway, I'm syncing 200+ different songs in Ipe right now. Wooohoo. That's the highlight of my Sunday. Haaaay.

Gonna hit the hay soon. I promise to blab more tomorrow.

SONG: The Midway State's Change For You.

It's Been A Long Time Coming.

Wow. Long time no post. I was going to abandon Blogger but then.. I remembered my promise that I would keep this for.. ever? :)))

It's been a year since that episode in school where I cried and begged and bawled my eyes out. It makes me want to laugh right now. :)) I was so serious back then. She's all I could think of. I seriously devoted my whole 4th year in HS to her. Hay hay.

Anyway, today wasn't a bad day. Tungkung Langit and Alunsina for the wiiiin.

I'll try to keep this updated. I promise.

SONG: Mika's Happy Ending.

It's Only A Matter Of Time.

Life's a big party full of party crashers and drunkards and chain smokers and surprises with cakes swirling with marshmallow bits&colorful sprinkled sweets. This party could go on for days with continuous servings of tequilas or daquiri/s. This party is full of sweat, smoke, and noise.

It only ends when the music stops & the liquor bottle drops. It only stops when everybody gets to think that, "Ohnoes. I left the iron turned on -- it's going to burn my house."

But without being sober -- life's one hell of a brain-tweezing party.

I guess it's up to you if you'll enjoy the overflowing drinks, the ear-busting music, and the polluted air drifting and sliding inside your nostrils. It's up to you.

SONG: The Honorary Title's Bridge And Tunnel.

Do You Remember..

.. Last year, I used to have icky issues and problems. Now, I have FRIENDS problems. Last year, I know the people to turn to when I'm feeling so suicidal. Now, I don't even know who to talk to anymore. Last year, we were sooooo BONDED. Now, we're slowly falling apart. Last year, I used to rant all day and all night how I wish that everything would just end -- how I'm looking forward to the future. Now, all I want to do is bring back the good old times and hug everyone close.

Somehow, 2008 seems more like a peachy year than 2009. How I wish I knew it back then.

We were supposed to stick with each other FOREVER. Now, EVERYBODY'S busy with their stupid schools and stupid new "friends" and stupid new environment and stupid new crushes. Everything's so stupid. Even this life is stupid. Stupid school. Stupid everything. Well, ok, they keep on saying that they miss HS but they don't show it. It's as if I'm facing a different.. Ugh. Nevermind. It's too stupid to say anyway.

I hope my family decides to migrate to a new country or something. Then, I would have a fresh start and, well, maybe, JUST MAYBE -- they would finally show that they miss me after all. 'Cause, honestly, it's as if I'm the ONLY ONE who's trying to reach out and make papansin. Nakakairita na, alam nyo 'yun? Nakakairita.

Don't Bogart The Situation.

A single "HELLO" would suffice. We're friends. SUPPOSEDLY. College SHOULD'VE been our glue or tape or whatever.. Why? Dude, lahat tayo Frosh. Hindi dahil nag-college at nagkaron ka na ng bagong friends, kakalimutan mo 'yung dati. Akala ko ok na dati. I thought we resolved our issues na. Sana hindi nalang pala tayo nag-usap dati dahil wala din namang nangyari diba? Masyado ka ng masaya ngayon, nakalimutan mo na ako. 'Yun 'yung pinaka-masakit, alam mo ba? I treated you as a SUPER FRIEND tas wala din. Sinasabe mo na mahal mo ako pero actually -- you're just saying that. It's exactly what it is -- WORDS. Hindi mo naman pinapakita ehh.

Some of my closest HS "friends" are either busy or jerks. No time for Rina. And to think na ngayon ko kayo pinaka-kailangan.

It's A Long Drive.

A piece of advice: Treasure every second that you’re with your HS friends. ‘Cause, honestly, when you’re in College — all you’ll ever do is wish that you could turn back the time and hold your friends close. College kills. Well, yeah, you meet a lot of great people but your HS friends would always be the one you’ll turn to when you’re worn out.

That's all. Oh, BTW, I have a tumblr account: monkeyculture.tumblr.com.

SONG: Vegas Skies by The Cab.

High School Never Ends.

While everybody's posting all those "I LOVE COLLEGE!", "I LOVE MY LIFE!" tralalas -- I would just like to say that THEY never really enjoyed HS that much. HS is the MOST.. I dunno.. It's the HAPPIEST. Although, I don't want to be a hypocrite here -- Maybe it's the happiest for me since I'm only a Frosh and, OHYEAH, I hate my school. I never asked for College in the first place. I'm so sorry if I'm being a bitch -- I'm just having the awful-est year in my life.

I envy the people who got in to their dream schools.

I envy the people who are just so plain happy with College right now.

Why can't I be like that? Why can't I love UST? Whhhhy? I don't know how many times I've ranted about CollegeBooooHooo's but, yeah, I need an outlet -- and I don't know who I should talk to anymore since EVERYBODY'S enjoying their stupid College Lives now.

I don't have anybody right now. They're all about College. They're all about their stupid new friends. They're all about their posh lives. Somehow, it's just me. It'll always just be me.

SONG: Anne Hathaway's Somebody To Love.

I'll Be There When The Storm Is Through.

It's final -- I am so going to try to ace that DLSU test. Hindi na ako matutulog sa exam. Hindi ko na tutulugan. I promise.

Happy Birthday Yo.

You Won Me Over In No Time At All.

I have a new haircut. Side bangs, baby. But, it's not very obvious since I tuck it under my ear. :)) School sucks. Especially after the whole quiet thingy system. It makes me want to skip the entire remaining semester. I think I'm serious about my decision to switch schools next year. Ayoko na sa UST. Then again, in the first place, ayoko talaga sa UST. I know I'm bitching over UST kahit wala naman silang ginagawa saken. It's because of some, um, personal reasons. Basta. I really want to transfer next year.

I think I had a hard time adjusting this year because I was suddenly in a very different place. New school. New dorm. New people. Are you getting me? If I were living with my family -- I think adjusting would be a piece of cake. But, ohno, I was in a very different place all of a sudden. What would you feel if you were in my shoes? And to think that I don't like the dorm and I don't like the school. See? Are you getting my point? One time, it's kinda awkward 'cause my roommate saw me crying. I told her I miss being with my family. I miss eating homecooked meals. I miss seeing my brother. I miss charging my phone and my iPod in the bedroom.

College was beginning to get fun last, last, last week. But then, the events of last, last week happened and I kinda wished that I'm not in UST after all. If you asked me if I want to transfer to a different school last, last, last week -- I would've slapped you and banged your head on the table and yell, "NO!" Now? I would've looked at you, teary-eyed, and say, "Can I please, please transfer next sem?" That's how BAD it is.

On a different topic, Yam would be celebrating her birthday tomorrow. YAY! FREE FOOD! And, 2 days after that -- Yo would be turning a year older! More free food! But, we'll probably celebrate it on the weekends -- when we're together as a family.

So, yeah, goodbye. I'm off to dry my hair.

SONG: The Gift by Angels And Airwaves.

Liquid Dreams.

I'm starting to get gay. Again. Not gay-gay, gay-boybands-stuff. That kind of gay. School's getting pretty oh-some. I'm loving my blockmates. Especially Jonah Ventura. I think she's my favorite. :> :))

Actually, I'm torn. I dunno if I still want to transfer to another school next year or if I should just stay in UST. Personally, I do not love UST; I don't like it. Ever. I just love my blockmates. Are you getting me? I love the people around me but I hate the place. I want AdMU so bad it hurts. :| Anyway, if I'm gonna transfer to another school -- it would probably be in DLSU. 'Cause it's the one nearest the house. Pwede akong mag-bike lang. NO JOKE. That's why I was sort of devastated when I didn't get in. I was really hoping I would nail DLSU -- but I didn't. That's why I'm bitter.

Well, my plan is to go to DLSU. And when I get tuper duper successful -- I would make AdMU regret everything. It's time to play with the enemy. Geez. I'm so bitter. :| Still.

SO ANYWAY. I dunno if I still want to transfer to a different school. God, I need a sign. Kasi you know that I don't like UST. Never. As in kahit kelan hindi ko nagustuhan ang UST. :(( I just love my blockmates. Yun lang talaga. Minsan nga sabe ko sana nag-St. Scho nalang ako. Anywhere but UST. :(( I'm so sorry sa mga loyalists out there.

SONG: Liquid Dreams by O-Town.

Lose That Hate Inside.

It's exactly 3.40 am. *sighs* I'm getting bored with this & everything else. I'm looking for a cheap thrill. Yes, CHEAP. I don't see any point in blogging anymore. *sighs* There's really nothing to talk about.

BINGBONG JOPET TAN YANG KEE I CHOOSE YOU! :>

*I don't think there's a name like that. I mean, who would possible name their kid "Bingbong Jopet" right? So, it's safe.

I didn't actually catch myself in any of these paragraphs. God. I must be extremely bangag.


SONG: Rufio's She Cries.

You Don't Have To Worry.

Things are much much better between us than 4 months ago. Don't you think so? And I'm much, much happier now. Thank you for finally giving me the peace of mind I've been longing for. :)

Prelims would start tomorrow. Shit. I'm crossing my fingers. It's a good thing I'm done with my PGC report and Theo Syntesis. I could finally rest. Wuhoooo!

I'm gonna watch The Orphan with my blockmates on Thursday! I'm excited! :">

SONG: The Maine's Whoever She Is.

BV

Today must be one of the most offensive days ever. Let's skip JM's "Malandi ka, Rina" part. :)) I know he's kidding and he doesn't mean the Malandi-Sa-Boys type Malandi. He was referring to the Magaslaw-Malandi.

Anyway, what I want to say right now is something more disorienting. I treated her with respect and, God knows, how much I liked her. (Plus, we're supposed to be, like, SUPER FRIENDS.) Now that we're not talking, like, everyday anymore -- nagawa nya yun? She knows how much I loathe that slut. She knows! How could she do that?

Do you know what's the BAD part? I don't have any right to feel like this. I don't have any right at all. Damn it.

Self-Pity.

I was browsing and looking at some friend's pictures and I how I wish I didn't. I feel so bad 'cause they're all, like, pretty and glamorous and likeable and PROPER CLOTHES FIT THEM. I feel so terrible. Ok fine. I don't care about skirts or dresses since I'm not girly -- but, dude, silly as it seems -- I AM a girl too. It might not be obvious since I don't act one -- but, it doesn't make me a boy. I want to wear pumps but I'm too scared that the heels might, well, snap when I use it. I want to wear tanktops -- 'cause, DUDE, c'mon, it's not even about flaunting or anything -- the weather is so unbearable here in the Philippines -- it's preferrable to wear sleeveless tops!

I hate being fat. I hate being ugly. I hate my hair. I hate it.

I wish I'm pretty too. People would love me if I'm pretty.

I Stay In Love With You.

Basically, this week came like a BLUR. I didn't even notice that Tuesday passed and it's nearing Friday. I didn't get to do my AWESOME Friday Countdowns. Tsk tsk. Ohwell. At least it's a Saturday right now. Yes. It's 2.20 in the morning and I'm blogging and ranting this early because I have insomnia. Really. I'm having a HARD time getting my ass to snore. It's, like, TORTURE. I have to toss around the bed and try hard not to scream because of frustration. This insomnia thing is NOT funny. It's killing me -- hypothetically speaking.

So, I'm done watching The Parent Trap. I last saw it, what, 4 years ago..? So, I forgot most of the scenes already. I needed to watch it because of the CA report we're about to have next Tuesday. It's giving me the chills since I want our report to be representable and lovely and funny and.. Bloody perfect. Yes. That's it. I really need to put my back on this group project. I swear, after blogging, I'm off to crack my knuckles and do some serious work. I PROMISE.

Yo would be taking the UPCAT this coming Sunday. I really, really, really hope he'll ace the test. That would make my parents really, really, really happy and proud. Yo could and would be the person they always wanted me to be. Brainy. Smart. Intelligent. Yidi yadah blah blah blah. But, actually, it would make me really proud of my brother if he passed the UPCAT too. It means that all my yelling and glaring and nagging did actually pay off. He could have the dreams I wanted and was not able to achieve. He could get it all. This is it. I do hope he passes. I really do.

Wow, this must be my longest post after, what, two months. Do you want to know why? I simply adore my layout -- that's why. ;) But, wont you agree? It's fab, isn't it? ;;)

SONG: Mariah Carey's I Stay In Love. Whenever I hear this song, I remember ODESSA -- our tutor days with Sienna. :"> I miss those times. God knows what I would do to bring back the old happy days. I wish I could turn back the time and just savour every minute, no, scratch that -- every second I had with IV1 and my friends.

I Could've Fallen In Love.

Because I am so happy right now -- I'm going to share the person who gives me my happiness. RYAN EGGOLD.








Isn't he GORGEOUS? I could eat him alive. :"> I know he looks a bit like Jake Gyllenhal.. How do you spell that bloody name? Anyway, I used to have a small thing for Jake. Honestly, I have a thing for scruffy guys.. Like Johnny Depp.. Eric Bana.. James McAvoy.. Hihihihi. Now it's Ryan Eggold. And he's not even that old. He's only 24! \m/ OHYEAAAH. :x

Off to whore over him some more. Plus. The stupid Theo Reflection.

SONG: Falling In Love by McFly. :>

Feels Like Insomnia.

NO CLASSES TOMORROW! THANK YOU GOD! REALLY. I am THANKFUL! \m/

I have nuffink to say. I just want to dance the conga right now -- NO BLOODY CLASSES TOMORROW. NO PE!!

This Tuesday, Odessa & I are going to Rachel & Chezca's condo. Cheers!


SONG: The Maine's Whoever She Is.

Nobody Has It Easy.

Yesterday was UST's Frosh Walk. Raia came to parteeey with Sandra. I saw her while me & some of my blockmates are trying to sneak back inside the campus. Next time she visits, she should pay her utang in full. :))

I'm watching 90210. It's not as great as GG, which captured my heart the moment I watched it, but it would do. Ryan Matthews is so HOTT. I was daydreaming & night-dreaming, even, about him. :"> It's been a long time since I felt my cheeks burn with anticipation whenever I see my crush. :"> Ryan Eggold -- you are so dead, I'm going to stalk yoooou. ;;) :">

I think I'm abandoning my blog. The thing is.. I lost all my inspiration for any ranting whatever I used to have. I need to find myself again before I chat about stuff. Are you getting me? I really need to love my surroundings.. Love my school, even. I need to do those stuff before I finally get back to the old happy-sappy feeling.

My blockmates are cool, most of them are, but it's not the same as STC. It'll never be the same as High School. :|

I Wish You're Here.

Been watching 90210 &.. OHMYGOD. I'm crushing on Ryan Eggold. FOR REAL. I want to eat him alive! He's now the star of my Immoral Fantasies. :">

I am so going to rant about this tomorrow. Plus the Frosh Walk.. ;;)


SONG: Umbrellas' The City Lights. ;)

Barely Sane.

School tomorrow. Super BOO. I HATE school. I swear. This must be the only time that I hated school. When I was in HS, I hated the requirements but I never loathed school. This is different. :|

I bought the GGS2, Chuck Seasons 1&2 plus 90210 today. It's my third copy of Gossip Girl Season 2. The first two have incomplete episodes -- wow ehh. My Chuck too. It has incomplete episodes. So, as a moral lesson? I checked if the CD contains the complete season. I'm gonna try watching 90210! Walalang. So that I would have more shows to watch out for & look forward too. OHA.

Please. Pray for me. I hope there are no classes tomorrow. Please. :(

The Magic Stays With You!

OK. Kasi pang-EK 'yan ehh. :))

Anyway, we watched Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince yesterday at Mega Mall. :)) Super comedy -- even if some people hated it, I actually beg to differ. I enjoyed the movie. Super funny. :))

Before we went to Mega Mall, we stayed in TriNoma (Yes. Again. 'Yan ang mall na HINDING HINDI ako mawawala.) to buy another pair of school shoes. Hindi na sya open dahil mahirap gamitin ang peep-toe para ipang-lusong sa baha. I hate UST's floods. >:( Anyway, I saw Maeka in Tri. SUPER HUUUG! I miss that giiiirl SO MUCH! I also saw Raia but she didn't get to see me. :)) Kelangan nya bayaran ang utang nya. KELANGAAAAN! :))

Mars Bars & Fixi made these IV1 albums in FaceBook & it made me miss IV1 SO MUUUUCH MORE. Nothing beats the Perfect Kids. NOTHING.

I ought to study tomorrow for my Philo&History quiz. :| Ohyeah, let's all pray for the soul of Ms. Yanga's mother who passed away last Thursday morning. May her soul rest in peace.

SONG: 10,000 Nights Of Thunder by Alphabeat.

OhRight. OhReady!

I'm blogging inside the dorm. I badly need to bring my laptop here -- 20pesos per hour kaya ang magcomputer! Mababankrupt ako ehh! =))

I miss Makati. :( Totoo. Gusto ko matulog sa kama ko talaga dun! :(( Tas ang weird, I'm not used to not seeing my brother. As in Sunday nalang kame nagkikita. Medyo nakakasad. Wala na akong alila. HAHAHA. Joke lang Yo! :))

Ang crappy ko na talaga magsulat. I'm losing my Writing Mojo. :(( This is BAD. Pero at least I read more ulet. Nang 4th yr, super walang time. Ngayon, I try hard to find time para hindi naman super tanga ng vocabulary ko. Yun nga lang, wala padin pagbabago sa spelling at punctuations -- super boba ko talaga dun. Sorry naman.

Anyway, kelangan ko sulitin ang lahat -- gagawin ko na ang History Paper ko due TOMORROW. Shit. Lord, HELP ME.

SONG: Modest Mouse's Float On.

Just About It.

I changed my layout. Again. The 3 words. 8 letters doesn't suit me anymore. I have a *tooot* hangover. Next week, I bet it's over.

I need to buy a new novel. Something I could read when I'm in the stupid dorm. I'll check the mall tomorrow. There must be something someone like me could read. HAHAHA. :))

I think I'm blogging less. :| And my posts are crappy. I dunno. I just don't feel like ranting everything out. :| Besides, I don't know if my kwentos are still amusing. I think they're becoming a bore. :|

ANYWAY. I almost forgot, Eryel & I went to STC yesterday. I saw Nicole. I also saw Sir Geom, Sir Rehoy, & Ms. Calero. I super miss them. NO JOKE. Nakakamiss ang High School. You guys have NO idea.

There's this sort-of emptiness that I couldn't get out of my system. It's KILLING ME.

SONG: Jimmy Buffett's If You Like Pina Coladas.

Oh Yeah.

I totally forgot how it feels like to have a solid crush. :"> Hihihi.




Reruns. :)

First Of.

This is my first post for July. I hope it wouldn't be the last. I think I might bring my laptop when I get back in my dorm on Monday -- so that I could still catch up with you guys through the CyberWorld. ;;) Whatchoo think?

I think I ought to update more. Like what I did last October & November 2008. Those were my happy days. And I couldn't stop myself from typing & talking & being chatty. I dunno. Things change after all.

Hmmmm.

I promise I would try to talk like a normal person. SOON.

SONG: PCD's I Hate This Part. *sighs* Tutor days. :)

So What.

Tomorrow is another school day. Boo.

I just want to bond with Candace Bushnell. I think I would collect her books. She's such a fab author. I like how she writes.

I don't wanna go to school. I HATE PE! :|

Let's Talk Cheese.

What's there to talk about..? How about.. CHEESE. HAHAHA. If you can't find the hilarity in that -- it is, I must say, absatively obvious that you haven't watched She's The Man. EVER. Oh. My. God. That must be one of the saddest thing/s I've encountered in my 17 years of existence. For real.

Anyway, there's a buzz going on around the, well, world. No, I'm not going to blog about how tragic it is that Michael Jackson finally decided to sniff his last air & die (God. I'm such a brute. I'm sorry but, well, the thing is.. I'm sarcastic like that, yeah.) -- I'm talking about a certain teacher getting married. Today. For the love of God.. I was so SHOCKED. No, it has nothing to do with my girlish fantasies about him before. I was, just, well, to put it mildly -- I stared at my cell phone for a good minute before finally replying to Erica (She was the one who gave me the news.) Man, oh man. I'm stunned. He finally decided to settle down.

Marriage. God, I hate that word. No, this has nothing to do with him anymore. This is my personal views about Marry-age. What's the point in getting married when you're going to get divorce sooner or later? I just don't get it. It's supposed to be sacred & all. But, everybody's so into the fad nowadays. Marry ASAP -- Divorce ASAP. There are more broken families than there are more united families. How about the children? Do the parents even think about how divorce would affect their kids? How it would be traumatic to their children? No. People are being more selfish each day. No, I'm not being a hypocrite here because, yeah, I know that I could be an insufferable self-loving bitch. But, dude, I always try to think about what others might feel if I do something. It's not entirely selfish-y.

So, as a result? I told my parents that I would never want to get married. I would stay uninvolved & happy. I could make myself happy. I don't need some guy who would torment me & torture me & have me begging him for annulment or divorce. It's better that way.

The only other signinficant person in my life right now is Ipe. :"> We're going strong. I love him so much. :>

SONG: Waking Up In Vegas. I got LSS-ed.

Should We Even Care At All?

OMG. Booooo. I hope there are no classes tomorrow. For real. I mean, there's a storm & the flood in UST is literally drowning in HELL. And to think that I'm a bit hydrophobic. SRSLY. That's why I always, ALWAYS prefer kiddie pools. They're the safest with the water burbling just up to my knees. See? Safe. So, anyway, I still have a vacation hangover so I think it would be best if I skipped school for two more months. HAHAHA. Sana hindi nalang ako nag-aral 'no? Pero, College is fun din naman. And it kind of excites me to write notes using my new notebook & my new pen with my new bag & walking around with my new shoes. K. :))

I wish I could visit STC soon. I miss the smell of STC. I miss my friends. Ohwell. New phase. I have to do the inevitable -- I have to move on.

I want to put on nail polish on my fingers. But my father said that more thieves might take an interest on me & my fab nails. Jesus Christ. So, I must stay invisible -- No Nail Polish. WTH. :)) That's his law. I think I ought to listen to him. :)) His birthday is so neeeear! It's on the 28th. :D Walalang. :)) I wonder where we'll eat. Hmm. HAHAHA. :))

When I do nothing -- I bloghop in Tumblr sites. And it's because of Paula Hontalba that I discovered the hilarity & beauty of fmylife. Now, I always check it whenever I go OL. :)) It makes me smile 'cause I dunno, it makes me feel an itsy bitsy luckier than the.. Victims. HAHAHA. :))

I wonder when H1N1 would hit our building? I'm just wondering, ok? I'm not ill-wishing or something. I mean, we are surrounded by the other buildings who have H1N1 cases already.. Hmmm.

What a very random post. I think I'm going to blog again lataaah.

Too Much.

Take a look at my new layout. It's cute isn't it? May I also mention that it's also a hassle to add the tagboard page? When I first got this, there's no tagboard -- so, I decided to put on my HTML skills & add one. Voila! A tagboard at the upper left part of the page. :> Thank you Sir Talens for that wonderful gift of HTML skills! =D>

I was rereading most of my posts this year (Just like what Paula suggested.) And, I realized that I basically focused my life on her. Srsly. Instead of studying -- I would wait for her to text me or PM & we would talk all day. I can't say that it's a waste of time because for a while, she made me really, really, really, really, really, really, really HAPPY & LOVED. But, as the cliche goes -- people always leave -- it's time for her to go. And, I couldn't really do anything to change it. Even if I cling to her for dear life, nothing would change the fact that we're not as close as before & we would never be that close again. The only thing I regret is that I'm going to miss one of my closest friends. One of the five people I could say anything to. Ohwell. I wish her the best -- whatever her endeavors in life is -- I hope she succeeds. :>

I'm so excited for Friday! Are you guys too? I hope you are! I want to see all of you! If you see me, I'm so dalaga na! I swear. I promised myself that I would stop being boyish na. So, World, meet the girl version of Rina. :))

It's 8.52 in the morning. I bet I would post something else later.

BTW, GREET MACKEE TODAY! IT'S HER BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU MACKEE! :*

SONG: Skeleton Boy by Friendly Fires.

Saving Private Mother Earth.

Check this out.


By changing my home page, I'm actually saving Energy.. That's what Blackle says anyway. So, what are you all waiting for? Change your home pages ASAP!

PAULA & FIXI. ILY GUYS. FOR REAL. Oo, kahit ikaw Paula! At alam kong magsshine ka sa UP, galingan mo! Ikaw din Fixi -- ikaw pa.. Eh ikaw ata si Felichie Valeriano no! :*

"Because sometimes it’s easier to say, “I hate you,” than “I miss you, I wish we didn’t fight; I wish you would call me sometimes.” Because sometimes, it’s easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw everything, than admit that you’re overwhelmed and feel like you’re drowning. Because sometimes, it’s easier to admit the simple things than say the hard things and realize how much you’ve been struggling and how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control."

- Got that from Andi's Tumblr.

That's EXACTLY EXACTLY how I feel. Peste. Emo ko. Laslas na nga mamaya!

I Never Thought That..

.. I'd catch this love bug again. :))

Who would've thought that I would listen to Jo.Bro's? They're not bad, actually. :)

I'm done with my Philosophy HW. Who the man? Me the man? I promised myself that I would do good in this First Sem. so I could transfer to another school in the next sem. I'm just not that comfortable in UST. Don't get me wrong, the people are nice -- but really, nothing's wrong with them. Something's wrong with me. As Chris Brown puts it, "It's not you, it's me."

I miss HighSchool. I miss IV1. I miss my friends. I miss STC. SRSLY. I didn't have a hard time adjusting when I transferred there. I don't know why I'm having troubles NOW. I mean, c'mon. You know what I think? I think it's because I got so attached to my STC friends I forgot how it feels like to be without them -- to be separated from them. And, it sucks to think that I might be the only one suffering from this weird-abysmal-school sickness.

I need you guys. I swear, I do.

I'm sorry if you think na I'm O.A. & pinagsisiksikan ko yung sarili ko. I just, I dunno, miss you guys A LOT. And when I read everybody's posts how happy they are & how they're enjoying college -- I get depressed all over again. How could you guys possibly adjust so easily..? I mean, what's the trick? I need to try it so I could, well, be super kaduper happy again. Hmm.

I Take It That We're Over.

I miss STC. BADLY.

Song: Skeleton Boy by Friendly Fires.

Skip School. Start Fights.

School is so near! New school. New people. I don't know what to feel. I guess I'm sort of excited & nervous at the same time. Then again.

I'll update again later. I am so not in the mood.

I Got You On My Mind.

One of my hobbies is googling people. SRSLY! But, my favorite person to google is -- none other than me. :))



SEE? The first site that would appear when you google: Rina Macaraig is MY BLOOOOG! Followed by my Twitter & Facebook accounts. :D

Google is my only key to stalking. It's very effective. :>

K. I'll shatap na. :))

Define: Bored.

This is one of my hobbies. SRSLY. I started doing this when I was in 2nd year. Yeah, I know. Bata pa lang, malakas na ang tama sa utak. Hmmm. Anyway, I updated again. As promised. :>

Can you say BORED out loud? See, I'm waiting for Jodie -- but, I think her mom borrowed the laptop so, she was forced to move outta the way. :))

And, oh yeah, her classes will start NEXT WEEK. God gave us the chance to have a one last escapade. Hopefully. PLEASE?

SONG: You Told Me You Loved Me by Cinematic Sunrise. :">

Just Dance.

This is my first post for the day -- And, I swear it wouldn't be the last. :> I just got my laptop back so I'm willing to post as many as 21 entries in a day. Sinong masaya? AKO!

My brother fixed my iTunes so, I retrieved most of my songs. But, I still lost 900+ songs.. Which is sayang. But, come to think of it -- at least I could update Ipe now. DIBA?

My brother's also making a Multiply Layout. It's full of The Sandman Characters. He's such a fan. Swear. He has the complete series. :> So, there, he's making his own Dream Layout. Booohoo. Why is he good at almost everything? :| No wonder he's the favorite. Hmph.

College is so near & so FINAL. I'm scared. :|

SONG: Lady GaGa's Just Dance. :>

I'm Not Good At This.

Expressing myself's not always easy. The hardest part where I have a hard time telling the stuff that I should say & elaborating how I feel is, well, saying goodbye. I was NEVER a good goodbye person. Most of the time, I would just shrug the feeling off & avoid the person. SRSLY. Ask my parents or some of my oldest friends. I don't really know what's wrong with me but I've accepted the fact that I'm simply weird that way.

But, honestly? I'm scared. Every time I see someone go, I have this heavy feeling at the pit of my stomach. I try to be brave, though. Although my bravery is oftentimes synonymous to being aloof. I know. Sorry. It's just, well, I know I wouldn't be able to handle it -- so, I shove everybody away.

Anyway, as much as I would hate to say this -- I think I must, well, give you a proper & un-snubbed farewell. :))

Bye Jodie. :) I hope you enjoy UPLB 'cause I know you're going to shine. Kapag pinagpalit mo ako -- papatayin kita. Seryoso yun. So, ayun. >:D<

Let's Stop Chasing Those Boys & Shop Some More.

Jodde's out on Monday. Condolence.

Check out my new Multips Inbox:



Isn't it super cool? I fell in love with Multiply all over again. :">

Everybody's Tumblring. What the hell. *rolls eyes* Walalang. Sorry if I'm being mean. Then again, I'm almost ALWAYS MEAN. I mean, Mons -- I can understand. She was the first person I know who used Tumblr. Then, everybody's Tumblring na this Summer. SUPER WHAT THE HELL. Ok, I'll stop na. Hmph.

SONG: Still Fergie's Labels Or Love.

Love's Like A Runway So Whats All The Fussing For?

Who am I kidding? As much as I vowed that I would be loyal to Sony Ericsson.. I couldn't help it. I want this. BADLY.






It's THE LG Voyager! I want it so much -- it HURTS! I want it. I want it. I want it. I've been having these weird dreams full of flying LG Voyager's. God knows how much I want that phone. I need to beg. Honestly, I think my parents want me to shut up already because I've been bothering them for the past few weeks about this dream phone of mine. (Quite literally when I mentiondream phone.)

*SIGHS*

When I get my hands on this phone -- I wouldn't ask for a MacBook anymore.

NOT.

SONG: Fergie's Labels Or Love. :)

So, I Think You're Getting It.

Hi everybody. You can tell God & anybody else who cares that the bitch is fucking back. I'm back everybody. And, honestly, I've never been this GOOD. Quite ironic, isn't it? But, what the hell. :>

I am done reading the The Da Vinci Code last.. Tuesday. And I'm currently reading Angels & Demons. :> Plus I bought another Philippa Gregory book. So, I don't think I would get bored this last one week of vacation. Besides, I'm GG Marathon-ing. The only glitch is.. I think the Season 2 DVD I bought is not COMPLETE. Hanggang Episode 18 lang! Well, screw me for buying pirated DVD's. I'll change.. SOON. But, not yet, anyway. HAHAHA. If Bong Revilla or whoever Anti-Piracy thug's reading this. I am so dead.

I'm off to watch GG. Again. Or whatever remains of it.

I miss her. But sometimes, it's just not enough to get everything back. I'm happier this way, though. Or so I think. Whatever. :))

Ohhh, and BTW, Happy June 1 everybody. :)

BYE!

I'll be out for a week. I don't know when I'll come back. One thing's for sure, though, I'll be back before the 8th of June. I need some time to think. This one week could clear my mind. Really.

So, goodbye. :)

You could keep the messages coming, though. Or you could text me if it's important.

BTW, it's my 300th post. Hoooray. :)

Life Of A Cheese.

I'm not able to blog properly these days. One reason. Two words: Broken Laptop. There are 2 spare computers in the house but I'm not at ease in using any of the 2. I want my own laptop. :( And I miss it. :( That's also the reason why I barely go online these days. Anyway, ang sabe, baka daw bukas ko na makuha. PLEASE NAMAN.

I bought The Da Vinci Code today. Yeah, I know that it's so yesterday & all. But, quite frankly, I appreciated Dan Brown after watching Angels & Demon's last Thursday. The movie's SUPER DUPER worth it. So, I'm reading The Da Vinci Code today. Actually, after blogging -- I'm off to my bed to slump around & continue reading. HAHA.

Tomorrow's the start of classes of my La Sallista friends. GOODLUCK GEGO, HAZIELLE, LOURDES & FIXI. And to all those other La Sallistas out there. Sorry. Sila kasi yung naalala ko. :)) Anyway, I promised Gego that I would visit her tomorrow -- it totally slipped my mind that it's my mom's birthday. So, I think I have to postpone my visit & DLSU crashing. :)) I promise I'll contact her. :))

I can't eat a lot of food these days. I'll talk more about it tomorrow. I PROMISE. The Book is calling me. HAR HAR.


SONG: Build Me Up Buttercup. :> I like the McFly & Busted version. :D

Shoot.

I am SICK. I'm off to bed this early. For real. I can't stop.. Puking. Bye.

Pretty Lame.

I envy the people who has a picture perfect life.

I envy the people who got in their preferred schools.

I envy the people with beauty & brains.

I envy the people with pretty fantastic bodies.

I envy the people who has their own rooms.

I envy the people with older brothers.

I envy the people who has QWERTY phones.

I envy the people who owns a MacBook.

I envy the people who are so goddamn pretty.

I envy the people who knows how to commute.

I envy the people who're very confident with who they are.

I envy the people who saw DCFC already.

I envy the people who got to hook up with Johnny Depp, Gabe Saporta, & Channing Tatum.

I envy the people who are as tall as oak trees.

I envy the people who are Math Braniacs.

I envy the people who get to wear extra piercings without their parents running down their throats.

I envy the people who would take up Molecular Cell Biology.

I envy the people who get to spend vacation properly with their parents.


My life sucks. Who would want to be Rina?

Then again, I'm a HAPPY pancake, right? I ought to learn to be contented. Honestly. Ohwell. :D

P.S. I love my new layout, don't you?

Nobody Really Knows.

My father is a frustrated chef. For real. Ever since I was a kid, he loves to cook -- even if, well, most of his, er, experiments are not that, well, edible. Anyway, tonight is Italian Night -- where we pretend that we're eating in Sbarro or somewhere Italian Chic. My mom made pizza while he made spaghetti & cooked fried chicken. (Yes. The food's edible. And, honestly, goooood. His cooking skills are improving. HAHA.)

What had me laughing so loud was when he was done cooking the chicken. He was carrying it on a plate.

H: Him
Y: Yo

H: O, eto na. Lumiit sya.
Y: Baka yan yung nainjectionan ng tubig.
H: (seriously) Ewan ko lang. Maliit talaga sya ehh. Sige. Kumain na kayo ng kalapati.

I ROARED WITH LAUGHTER. HAHAHAHA. Kalapati na ang tawag nya sa fried chicken kasi SOBRANG LIIT. Peste. BENTA. Kapag nakita nyo, mapapahalakhak talaga kayo. =))

Ohwell. :>

Let's talk more shit tomorrow. I hope they get to fix my laptop sooner. Sobrang computer-hopping ako dito sa bahay. NPC. No Permanent Computer. Wala naman ako makausap dahil lahat sila nakaharap sa mga computer nila. Jeez.

SONG: John Legend's Everybody Knows.

I Never Thought That I'd Catch This Love Bug Again.

I went to TriNoma today with my mom & we bookshopped. Bought 3 new books.. And guess what, my mom paid 2,500 something pesos na! THREE BOOKS LANG YON HA. If the government taxed the books -- what the hell, mabbankrupt na lahat ng tao. Please lang, mag-isip na nga sila. Books are expensive as it is tas dadagdagan pa nila. C'mon. Super nakakairita! I SWEAR! Ang sugapa na nila! If they taxed the books -- they're making a very grave mistake.

I saw GEGO, HAZIELLE, JAKY, HARRIET, PAMIE.. Well, I talked to them for quite some time. :)) Namimiss ko na sila Gego at Hazielle. SWEAR. And it's very funny pa kasi naka-black ako tas "PUNKISTA" na daw ako. Coincidence lang naman kasi. K. Defensive. :)) Pero, SWEAR, magmula bata ako umiikot lang sa Black, Red, White ang mga damit ko. Yun lang kasi yung gusto ko.. EVER SINCE. Pero at least ngayon, mas nagiging colorful na. :D

I'm blogging in Tagalog again. HAHAHA.

So, anyway, yun lang ang gusto ko iupdate as of now. When my laptop's fixed na at kapag may permanent na ako na nagagamit.. Mas magkakakwenta na siguro ang mga sinasabe ko. PROMISE!

SONG: Jo Bro's Love Bug. LSS-ed lang. :D

Zoom In.

Since yesterday, I just bonded with my brother's PSP. Literal na yun lang ang ginawa ko. :)) Pero I missed playing Harvest Moon kasi. :D

Here are some of the details. K. Proud na proud naman ako sa Farm ko.
Farm Name: Whoddunit (HAHAHAHA. The first one I made was named: PSYCHEDELIC. HAHAHA.)
My Name: Viktor. ;;)
Dog's Name: Chester.
Horse's Name: Sophitia.
Cows: Astinos & Agatha
Sheep: Camilla
Hens: Seraphina, Georgina, Anastasia, Tabitha.

Odiba ang bobongga ng names ng mga alaga ko? :))

And I think my future wife to be would be ELLI. I didn't expect it kaya. Nagulat nalang ako na from Gray -- naging Purple na ang heart nya. Ehh di tinuloy tuloy ko na. >:D As of now, Green na anf heart nya. I just need to find the Blue Feather & maker her heart red tas I could propose & marry her na. Lalala. :D

And. AND. As of this moment, I am still listening to The Moffats. Wow. :o Boyband me kuh-razy! :))

Ohwell. Tomorrow, I'm having a date with my mom. So, I think that my Friday wouldn't be that uneventful.

Got to fly, Viktor's waiting for me. :))

SONG: Obviously it's still Life Is So Short. :>

Why Wont You Take The Chance Before Our Time Has Gone?

I told you about the Two Words yesterday. Seriously. I miss their songs. HAHAHA. Fanatic much? I just think they were very cute before. :)) Besides, I really LOVE the song "If Life Is So Short." Dave's so cute there. :"> =))

Take a look at them through the years:

Why did they have to disband anyway? :| Don't get me wrong, I was not a big fan before. :)) I just appreciate them a lot, that's all. Lalala. Besides, Dave is cuuuute. =))

Peste. Bumoboyband na naman ako. :)) 90's much? :))

SONG: If Life Is So Short by The Moffats. :D

Love Is A Word That Explains How I Feel For You.

If life is so short, why wont you let me love you before we run out of time? If love is so strong, why wont you take the chance before our time has gone?



Two words: The. Moffats.

The Moffats.



'Nuff said. :>

Yes, Bozo, You Could Make Her Happy!

I was reading some lines & watching some clips from GGS2. Mygahd.

B: Maybe you just want me to be as unhappy as you are.
C: I would never wish (?) that on anyone. I want you to be happy.
B: Then look down deep.. Into the soul I know you have. And tell me if what you feel for me is real, or if it’s just a game. If it’s real, we’ll figure it out.. All of us. And if it's not.. Then please Chuck, just let me go..
C: It's just a game. I hate to lose. You're free to go.
B: Thank you *goes out*
S: *enters* Chuck, why did you just do that?
C: Because I love her.. And I can't make her happy.

I think Chuck's a martyr (and an idiotic one, for that matter) for doing that because it's his perfect opportunity to be HAPPY. How could Chuck think that he's not fit to be with Blair?  They're perfect for each other!  OMG, what's wrong with him?  The drama, the shitty-shitty sweety-sweety stuff?  If he really wants Blair, even if it's selfish, he should just go pursue her!  He should stop thinking about not being able to make her happy, blah, blah, blah.  Idiots.

Jesus Christ. I need to buy GGS2's DVD already. I need to finish it! I'm stuck in Episode 8! Ages ago, I was advanced. Now, I'm TOO LATE. :|

SONG: Still Cobra Starship & Leighton Meester's Good Girls Go Bad.

I Make Them Good Girls Go Bad.

"Scarlet, before you go through with this, I want to remind you of September 7, 1988. It was the first time that I saw you. You were reading less than zero. You were wearing a Guns and Roses T-Shirt. I’d never seen anything so perfect. I remember thinking that I had to have you, or I’ll die. And then you whispered that you loved me at the homecoming dance and I felt so peaceful and safe because I knew that no matter what happens, from that day on, nothing could ever be that bad, because I had you. And then I grew up and lost my way. And I blamed you for my failures. And I know that you think you have to do this today, but I don’t want you to. I guess if I love you, I should let you move on."
- Mike/Mark O'Donnell; 17 Again.

That line made me sob. Go ask Jodie, I was crying so hard inside the theatre -- she was laughing.

It's incredible how some people feel that kind of thing, huh? Simply marvelous. It's like a magic show -- where everything is possible, glamorous, & brilliant.

.. And it doesn't even matter that I suck 'cause, honestly, s/he sucks more than me. Come July, I've experienced a year of total struggle. Tsk tsk. But, what I'm going through right now? I'm good. :> I AM good. I could keep up. I could do this. I just need to focus. :>

Happy Mom's Day to all the mother's out there. :)

SONG: Still Good Girls Go Bad. :">

She Was So Shy 'Till I Drove Her Wild.

Magtatagalog ako. Kasi, walalang. Sabe saken ng tatay ko, dapat daw manuod na ako ng mga Tagalog Movies & I should start reading Tagalog books na daw kasi parang antanga tanga ko sa Pinoy. K. :)) Parang hindi nya matanggap na nag-77 at nag-79 ako sa Pinoy ehh. I-enhance daw ang Tagalog Skills.  In my defense, feeling ko naman magaling talaga ako mag-tagalog (HELLO, proud Filipino, right here! OK HAHAHAHAHAHA!) pero sobrang, SOBRANG, lalim magbigay ng mga Tagalog words nila Ms. Gino at Mrs. Dacutan.  MAHIRAP TALAGA, promise!  Sige. Kaya I'm blogging in Tagalog! :D

Ano ba ang magandang ikwento ngayon? Hmm. Kahapon, nasa TriNoma kame ni Mommy. Oo. Universal Mall na talaga sya. Nakita ko si Sandra. =)) Hahaha. Pero sandali ko lang naman nakausap. Hmm. Nanuod kame ulet ng X-Men Origins. I forced my mom to watch it. Again. =)) Oo kasi naaadik na naman ako kay Hugh Jackman. Ang HOTT nya sa Van Helsing. Hay nako. You should watch it -- so mouth watering. :"> K. Lumandi ehh. =)) Pero swear. Ang swerte ni Ava dahil nakakasabit sabit sya sa super muscular & hott shoulders ng tatay nya. :"> Haaaay. Nang nasa LandMark ako, medyo natteary-eyed pa ako kay Pauiie. Grabe. Mahal ko talaga ang bruha na 'yun. K. Kami nalang ang nagkakaintindihan. =))

Today, pitong oras na ako nakikinig ng "Good Girls Go Bad" ng Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester. OMG. Super AWESOME song. I love Gabe & I love Leighton! Couldn't it be more PERFECT? Alam nyo, kapag naging sila -- feeling ko magtatatalon ako dito sa bahay. Pero si Carter Baizen (K. Nakalimutan ko kasi ang name.. Pero "Stan" ang surname nya diba?") kasi ang boyfriend ni Leighton -- so, katanggap tanggap na din. HAHAHA. Grabe. Ang ganda ganda talaga. K. Hindi na alam kung yung kanta ang sinasabe o si Leighton ehh. =))

Tapos, I painted my nails Midnight Blue. Ano ba 'yan. Umaarte na ako. =)) HAHAHA. Feeling ko nahahawa na kasi ako kila Ampy & Odessa. Although, si Odessa, hindi nagnnail polish. :D Pwede kaya sa UST ang naka-nail polish? Hmmm.

I almost forgot, my mom & I found a dorm na near UST! :D Wala na akong problema kapag may classes ako ng 7PM. Ayoko na kasi ng hatid-sundo kaya sabe ko gusto ko mag-commute. Ehh sabe nila ang layo pa daw ng Makati ehh pano na daw kapag may 7PM classes ako. Kaya ayun, tumingin na kame ng dorm. May dorm-mate na nga ako ehh. Although I don't know her name pa. Peste. Naeexcite ako na medyo kinakabahan. Hindi ko alam. Basta. Sana maka-survive ako ng college. Wooo!

Naks. May improvement. Mantakin nyo yun! Magaling Rina, magaling! K. =))

MALAPIT NA ANG BDAY NI MONS! :>

SONG: Is it obvious? Ang ganda ganda ng Good Girls Go Bad! :">

Normalcy. At Least.

This has got to be one of the best poems in the world. It's written by Emily Dickinson. Generally, it talks about a journey or something -- about finding out new things or persons.. The likes. (Or is it just my interpretation? Hmm.) Hell, you could figure it out by yourself. Read it. It's something worth thinking over.

"I Measure Every Grief I Meet"
-Emily Dickinson

I measure every Grief I meet
With narrow, probing, Eyes –
I wonder if It weighs like Mine –
Or has an Easier size.

I wonder if They bore it long –
Or did it just begin –
I could not tell the Date of Mine –
It feels so old a pain –

I wonder if it hurts to live –
And if They have to try –
And whether – could They choose between –
It would not be – to die –

I note that Some – gone patient long –
At length, renew their smile –
An imitation of a Light
That has so little Oil –

I wonder if when Years have piled –
Some Thousands – on the Harm –
That hurt them early – such a lapse
Could give them any Balm –

Or would they go on aching still
Through Centuries of Nerve –
Enlightened to a larger Pain –
In Contrast with the Love –

The Grieved – are many – I am told –
There is the various Cause –
Death – is but one – and comes but once –
And only nails the eyes –

There's Grief of Want – and grief of Cold –
A sort they call "Despair" –
There's Banishment from native Eyes –
In Sight of Native Air –

And though I may not guess the kind –
Correctly – yet to me
A piercing Comfort it affords
In passing Calvary –

To note the fashions – of the Cross –
And how they're mostly worn –
Still fascinated to presume
That Some – are like My Own –

It's a great poem, right? The minute I read it -- I LOVED it. *sighs* Some people really have the talent to make stuff like that. Her "Hope Is The Thing With Feathers" poem is AWESOME too. If you know what I'm saying..

So, 'till tomorrow then? K? :)

I'll update more stuff tomorrow. I promise. I just feel like sharing one of the best poems in the world (In my opinion.) :D

She'll Unease You.

Mygahd. I just love that song. Thanks to Pipi, though. She was the one who made me realize that this song is worth listening to. :)) At first, I would just hear it from my father who would swagger his butt, playing the electric guitar while singing his random playlist. Pipi told me to listen to this certain song. HIHIHI. I finally appreciated it. :> Well.

BTW, don't mind my previous post. It's not something EMO. I got LSS-ed with a song. I'm not telling what song & who the artist is. You guys are going to laugh at me. Although, come to think of it, we're in the 21st century & you could easily google the lyrics.. Then, you'll find out how gay I am. :)) Goodluck with that. :D Hmm, I did try googling it -- No, it's NOT the title of the song. It's a LINE from a song. And, I'm definitely not telling. :> Hint? Color. :D

What a random day. It's not even worth rewinding. Jesus. What's wrong with me.

Anyway, I'm still not in the mood to blab about anything. I just want to type, type, & type. Silly as it seems -- I miss school. At least I could see other people there. I'm ass-bored. I miss review days. :|

SONG: Kim Carnes' Bette Davis Eyes.

I'll Be Damned, Then.

It's been hard enough for me, getting over you.






JESUS F. CHRISTTTTTTTTT, if you don't know this song!  I feel sorry for you!  HAHAHAHAHA!

The World Has Its Shine.

Sleeping is the only way out. I suggest everybody should do it.

Your good-for-nothing brain would be glad.

You wouldn't have to face anything.
Well, for the next, what, 8 hours that your eyes are closed & you're dreaming heavily.

Goodbye World. I would try to embrace the beauty of a warm & cozy slumber.

SONG: The World Has Its Shine by Cobra Starship. THANK YOU AVERY FOR THE TIP. It IS a wonderful & uber sweet song.

Shaving Your Armpits Could Ruin Your Chances Of Wearing A Skimpy Bikini.

.. Not that I have any plans of wearing a skimpy bikini in a beach. NEVER. My too conservative soul wouldn't take it. Anyway, I heard in a commercial that shaving could darken your underarms (For real?) If you do that, you wouldn't be able to throw your hands up in the air while wearing a sleeveless top.. And, yeaaah, you wouldn't be able to wear a bikini. Tsk tsk. So, my proposal? Plucking. BUT, if you pluck -- you'll have chicken skin. Ew. You wouldn't want to have that. Hmm. Waxing? Ohhhh. The pain, it has no name! How about those laser stuff? Ooops. It's not really tested yet.

So, I guess you'll just have to stick with your bushy & Rapunzel-like hairpits. In the end, I wouldn't be amazed if you could braid it or make an Afro out of it. Coolness. :))

OMG. This update has no sense. Insane randomness! :)) The beauty of being bored. :> It makes you think about, um, unusual stuff.

So, 'till tomorrow then.

Ciao. :>

P.S. If I were you, I wouldn't follow my advice.. Waxing is the safest, though.. I think..? :))

Matt 101.

If he's one of the reasons Matt-ematics was invented -- I think I would ace Math. Too bad he wasn't.

Anyway, I am so frigginly addicted to this boy. Ohlala! I'm boy-whoring again. Aren't you just PROUD? World, meet MATT PROKOP. The reason why I'm on a bloom today. The reason why I stay up late & wake up early. One word: STALK. Ohwell. I really think he's hott. If he was a girl -- I would definitely, DEFINITELY.. Nevermind. Your virgin & innocent minds wouldn't keep up. HAHAHA.



And do you know the BEST part of this Immoral Fantasy? ;;) He's only a year older than me. :> It's such an improvement. I mean, c'mon, I used to daydream about guys thrice my age! HIHIHI. Maybe I'm beginning to appreciate the young-celebrity-male species out there. Nice work, Rina! :>

Maybe I could make another post later, huh? We'll see.

Support Saporta!

I couldn't think of another title. HAHAHA. OMG. I'm so happy right now. I don't even have any inkling idea why & how. I'm just grinning like a maniac here.

Eryel's birthday is NEAR! One more night & it's already her 17th! Naks. Tumatanda na lahat ng tao ahh! :))

I promise that I would update again later. :D It's time to shut up now. :D

SONG: Still Gabe Saporta & Cobra Starship's Guilty Pleasure.

The Different Faces Of Insanity.

So, at the end of the day, it's always just us. :> I love you guys. :D Bulacan & EK, here we come!

SONG: Cobra Starship's Guilty Pleasure. This is Yo's favorite Cobra Starship song.

I Never Wanted You To Leave.

Some people have all the luck.


... Others strive to have what others are just throwing away.


How can life be more unfair?

'Nuff said.

I want to watch What I Like About You. I wonder, where can I buy the set? Hmm. Hahaha.

I have another blog: EDITED: May 5, 2009; 7.18PM Oooops. You had your chance. Now, drop it.

Although, I think that I would use it for more melodramatic reasons. HAHA. My electromagnetosis should be a HAPPY blog. K? :)) Since, I'm feeling elated right now (And I hope I would stay this way for a LONG TIME..) My recent posts are happy :)

SONG: June by The City.

Five On The Floor.

Magtatagalog ako dahil this post is worth tagalog-ing for. HAHA.

Nag TriNoma ako yesterday with Jodie, Ampy, Eryel, & Odessa! I'm still uploading the pics, though. Anyway, SUPER FUN. Super namiss ko sila ng sobra. :)) Nagcommute kame nila Odessa & Eryel. Naka-2 na jeep kami from Odessa's house to Tri! YAY! K. Pinagtatawanan nila kasi ang ignorante ko daw magcommute. HAHA. At least natututo na ako. :)) Dumating kame sa Tri ng mga 10.30, ganon. Tas umikot-ikot muna kaming tatlo. Tas nagpunta kame sa Landmark para iwan 'yung 2 na payong ni Odessa. :)) Tas naghanap kame ng kung anu-ano na parang pwedeng ibigay na gift ni Eryel sa ate nya. Tas wala kameng nakita.. Ayun, sabe ko, The Face Shop muna kame kasi kelangan ko ng nail polish. So, nagpunta kame tas tumingin na din si Eryel ng pwede ngang ibigay sa ate nya -- wala ata syang nagustuhan ehh. :)) Bumili ako ng Hot Pink at Dark Blue na nail polish. Tas si Odessa, bumili ng Yellow.

Tas umikot pa ulet kame dahil super hinihintay na namen sila Jodie & Ampy. Ano ba 'yun. Ang tagal tagal! K. :)) Eh nagutom na ako. Bumili muna ako ng hotdog sa Smokey's. Si Eryel, natakam, bumili na din. :)) Nakita ni Odessa 'yung mga animals na umiikot-ikot. Tas sabe nya natry na daw nya yun. HAHAHA. Pesteng 'yan. Gusto kong itry kaso parang nakakahiya. HAHAHAHA. Tas nagpunta kame sa "FOUNTAIN". Hindi ko alam kung baket fountain ang tawag ni Eryel dun ehh mukha naman syang arena. HAHAHA. Muntik na tuloy mawala si Jodie dahil akala nya 'yung fountain sa labas ang tinutukoy namen. :)) Pero nagkakitaan na din. So, si Ampy nalang ang wala. Grabe ha. Antagal tagal. Nagkwentuhan muna kame tas nagpunta kame sa Pop Culture. Nakakita si Eryel ng shorts kaso unsure naman sya sa size ng ate nya.. Tas nangungulit ako na super nauuhaw na ako kaya pinagbigyan na nila ako bumili ng drink para matahimik na ako. HAHAHA.

Nang nasa foodcourt na kame, nagtext na si Ampy na malapit na sya. Sabe ko punta nalang syang Taco Bell dahil andun kame. Peste, ang totoo ehh nasa Food Court pa kame.. Papunta palang kame ng Taco Bell. :)) So, nauna si Ampy dun tas hinahanap na nya kame. Nang makita namen sya, literal na nakatayo lang sya sa loob ng Taco Bell. Hindi man lang naupo ang bruha ehh. :)) Nakita na nya kame so para kameng tanga dahil medyo nagtilian na kame. Who cares, isang buwan na kameng hindi nagkikita 'no. :>

After nun, bumili na kame ng ticket para sa 17 Again tas habang naghihintay, nag-Timezone muna kame. Pesteng 'yan. :)) Antagal umalis ng dalawang babae sa Dance Revo, hindi tuloy nakapaglaro sila Eryel & Jodie. Anyway, naglaro nalang kame ni Jodie ng motorcycle thingy. Natalo ako. =)) After nun, pumunta na kame sa sinehan para manuod. ANG HOTT ni ZAC EFRON! GRABE. Habang nanunuod nagtititili kame. SERYOSO. Tumili din sila. Hindi lang ako. Ang hott kasi ng sobra talaga!!

After ng movie.. Timezone ulet. Landmark pala muna. Nakabili na ng cute na gift si Eryel. Umalis na si Ampy. :( Tas bumili ako ng Breakfast At Tiffany's na DVD sa.. Er, nakalimutan ko 'yung name ng store. Astrovision ata 'yun? Or not? Sorry. Sobrang hina ng short term memory ko. Timezone ulet. Nagkaraoke. HAHAHA.

Grabe. Super namiss ko sila ng sobra. Dapat maulit ulet 'to. As in dapat kahit college, aalis pa din kame. HAAAAY. :))

Ang next target namen ay 'yung mansion ni Ampy sa Bulacan. HIHIHI. BULACAN HERE WE COME! >:)

Love. Gotta Love.

Tomorrow is a Thursday. And, I'm betting my life that it would be a GOOD day. My lucky days are always on Thursdays. I dunno why. But I have the inclination that God's showering me with his merciful stars on Thursdays. So, that's why ever since.. My favorite day is.. THURSDAY. And, guess what. Tomorrow is a THURSDAY. YEY! :>

I finally uploaded my Senior Night & Grad pictures. HAHAHA. Nakatambak lang kasi sya sa cam ko. Naisipan ko na na iupload. :)) While uploading those pictures -- well, I really missed you guys. Yun lang yun. 'Nuff said.

So, I'll talk about stuff again tomorrow. GOOD STUFF.

SONG: The Disney Channel Song.. The "Love, Gotta love.. You love. You gotta love." You know.. In the commercial?

Homophobia.

What's with those homophobic people, actually? I mean, really, I think they're just being biased or.. OR PREJUDICED. Yeah? C'mon. Ok. Whatever. This is just an opinion.

Lights out. In an hour? Whatever.

College is so near & so FINAL. I'm going to miss HS. *sighs*

When I get this bandage of my brain -- maybe I could start thinking properly again. For the mean time.. Bear with me. UGH. This is so nostalgic. Seriously.

I'm just being random. :)) I don't have any problems, really. At this moment. :)) I dunno. Homophobia just.. Pisses me off, I guess.

Ironic.

It's funny how you wish for something, BADLY. How you close your eyes at night & beg God to grant you that one itsy-bitsy wish. How you stand in your tippy toes to make God see how badly you needed that wish. It's even funnier when you get that wish -- & you happen to realize that you do not want it anymore. That you practically spent & wasted an entire year annoying God to give you that wish & then when He openly gives it to you, what, you don't know what to do with it &, plainly, you really think it's just crap & you're better off without it anyway. I mean, you did get by the last 12 months without it.. Why would you need it now?

There are so many ironies in life that sometimes it shocks me so much -- I want to stare at it all day. But, if I do that -- people would think I'm retarded (Not that they think I'm normal now. HAHA.) But, are you getting me? One moment you're dancing the flamenco because you think it's cool -- then everything snaps back to life when the most popular kid in your school tells you that s/he thinks flamenco is sick. So, you're going to give up those flamenco classes because now you think it's totally uncool. The next moment, you're hanging out with the most popular kid.. You go to this bar, and since you're new, you got so drunk -- & you puke on the most popular kid's dress/tux. How ironic is that? You're climbing up the stairs of High Class Popularity.. And with a snap of a finger, you're a nobody all over again. It's really funny how life gets twisted, huh?

Ok, I've experienced a lot of ironies, (But honestly.. I didn't know where my Flamenco Idea came. HAHAHA. Seriously!) But, hell, I dunno. I think I should just welcome it with open arms. I mean, it's the only way to survive it, right? Don't get me wrong, I'm not being melodramatic or something. This is just another realization from the Enlightened One.. Whoever that is..

So, anyway, I'm crossing my fingers! Thursday is SO near! But, hell, I wouldn't think of it much. (I WOULD TRY.) Because it might get jinxed & it might NOT happen. Again. UGH. I so badly want to see Jodie, Eryel, Ampy, & Odessa! :>

On something different -- I painted my fingernails AVOCADO GREEN. HIHIHI My dad hasn't seen it yet. He would freak out when he sees it. =))

SONG: Taylor Swift's Love Story. K. :)) LSS-ed. BIG TIME.

Tahoma Faze.

My font is juggling between Verdana & Tahoma. As of this moment, I'm using Tahoma. It's my favorite font right now. Don't worry, Verds, I still love you, ok? It's just that, I think Tahoma is more neat & organized to look at. :> When I get over this Tahoma faze, maybe I'll go back & use Verds. :D

I'm so ok with everything right now. Even if nothing's really going on & I'm just DVD marathon-ing & book swarming these days. I think that's ok, right? At least I could enhance my vocabulary or something. At least I could drown out everything when I'm watching different kinds of DVD's. :> So far, the best DVD I bought is Beowulf. K, original 'yan.. MAY KASAMA KASING INTERVIEW NI NEIL GAIMAN ehh! :"> OMG. I so miss Neil Gaiman. I've completed his novels. Hihihi. I love hiiiiim! :> He's so goood. You wouldn't get me if you're not my friend or if you don't belong in my III1-IV1 class. :> =))

So, anyway, moving on, I need to get out of the house. Badly. I really miss the outside world. AYY. Don't get me wrong, I go out a lot these days -- but with my parents. :| Jeez. :))

So far, my writing bananas are still -- CRAP. I need some boost, love. I really do. >:)

SONG: Laugh all you want pero I'm super na-LSS sa Miss You Like Crazy ng The Moffatts.

Today Is Toast Day.

I bought the Boleyn Inheritance today. FINALLY. :) I so love Philippa Gregory.

I'm so happy right now it's as if I'm stoned. :)) K. I'm still not in the mood to talk about stuff. :)) Maybe tomorrow. :>

Ciao.

SONG: Michelle Branch's Sweet Misery.

Thanks For Leaving Me Here.

FINALLY. I have a SCHOOL. Welcome UST. Although I'm not really hot to go to this school.. Because in my opinion.. Everybody's going there already. :| It's not that special anymore. :| Still. It's the only school that accepted me. I would love that school. I SWEAR.

My brother & I watched Crank 2 today. I think it's a LOW BUDGET film. The effects are.. Nevermind. If you don't believe me.. Watch it yourself. Jeez.

I am so tired right now. I only had 3 hours of sleep. Tas hindi ko na talaga kaya. MYGAHD. May mali na talaga saken, 'no? :| I think I need to hit the hay. I really am tired. :| I'll update again tomorrow when I had at least 5 hours of sleep.

P.S. DEAR LORD, PLEASE LET OUR ESCAPADE NEXT THURSDAY HAPPEN. Please pleaaaase! Amen.

Much Much Sooner Than You Think.

Today, I babysat for my ferocious 6-year-old cousin, Raissa. She's quite a handful, seriously. She can't sit still (pretty much like me. HAHAHA.) But, you know what, I always enjoy hanging out with her. She's one of the cheekiest & most charming kids I know. She even ran for the St. Scholastica's student council (whatever they call it) for her batch, Senior Prep or something. Sayang lang she lost. :| Although she said that she would try again. Maybe next S.Y.? :))

She barged in my room while I was sitting on the floor, fixing my study table:
Ra: *to me* I'll keep an eye on you. *pokes my eye*
Ri: Oh shi.. *trails off. I can't possibly say a curse word in front of a 6-year-old. HAHAHA.* I'll keep my fork keep an eye on you. (K. Malabo na talaga ako kausap.)
Ra: *giggles* Diba, in movies, they say that? "I'll keep an eye on you." *doing the Robert De Niro thing in Meet The Parents.. You know that scene, right?*
... Then she talked about lots of stuff. Before I knew it, she was babbling about her favorite actors/actresses.
Ra: Ehh ikaw? Sino ang gusto mo na artista?
Ri: I LIKE JOHN LLOYD CRUZ, OK? *super tili here*
Ra: *stares at me, feeling ko naweirdohan sya saken.* Ahhh. Ok. Ako I like many artistas..
... Then, my grandmother came, asked us if we would like to have a Siesta. Then she mentioned that she would go to Cash & Carry..
Ra: Can I go with you?
Gr: Hindi ka matutulog?
Ra: *shakes head*
Gr: Ok. Pero dapat hindi ka naughty dun.
Ra: *nods*
Ri: *grins at my grandmother. SA WAKAS. PEACE OF MIIIIND. Maaayos ko na ang magulong kwarto na ito ng mas mabiliiiis* Raissa, turn off the T.V. when you go out, ha?

She was saying so MANY BENTA stuff. I forgot some of it na. :| Sobrang memory loss na ako. Swear.

I'm not really fond of kids.. But, try hanging out with Raissa. You'll like her. :>

SONG: American Hi-Fi's Flavor Of The Week.

Bette Davis' Eyes

After bugging & pestering my dad -- he FINALLY agreed that he would REALLY teach me how to commute this summer (HELLO. I think he just said YES to me before to shut me up. He might've thought, the hell -- he WISHED, that I would go on with my boring summer & forget all about our previous Commuting Thing conversation).. After Yo's review. Hmph. It means I have to wait until May. I told him that I want to learn how to ride the bus or the tube or the jeep or any other public transport thing with Jodie. He said that he would think about it. I told him I'm 17 already & next year, I'm legally an adult. He said that he would think about it. What's with dads anyway? :| I mean, hello, there's a 60% chance that some raging lunatic wouldn't actually meet me & HURT me, right? I mean, what are the odds? So, I guess all that I have to do now is cross my fingers & hope that the Enlightened One would bang my dad's head on the wall to make him realize that I am NO LONGER a baby. Gawd.

I can't believe that I graduated already. SERIOUSLY. I really have this feeling that there are still classes & it's just a Sem Break I'm having right now. Sometimes, I get all fidgety because of the feeling that I still have tons of things & requirements to do. My goodness. What did STC do to me? But, you know what, honestly, I MISS SCHOOL. I miss waking up early in the morning & grunting & cursing the time because I have to hurry up so I wouldn't be late for school. I miss the tingling buzz of my alarm clock. I miss eating breakfast early in the morning. I miss waiting for Jodie in the covered pathway. I miss changing seats because I don't want to sit in front. I miss recess & lunch. I miss Manang Vicky. I miss my teachers (C'mon, I'm serious here. I'm having a moment here. HAHAHA.) I miss the way they say, "RINA", "MISS MACARAIG." I miss the way they reprimand me & tell me to keep quiet.. But most of all -- I MISS IV1. You guys have no bloody idea how MUCH I miss you.

I miss the way we laugh at the simplest of things. I miss the inside jokes. I miss.. I don't know, EVERYTHING in this class. The way one cracks up when somebody eats corn during class *coughs, Laraine, coughs*. The way we all shut up when teacher's get mad at us.. Then after 3 minutes -- we're on at it again, talking & laughing like there's no tomorrow. Honestly, the question should be: What's not to miss? Iloveyou guys FOREVER. (:

So, anyway, I found a new site. It's like Roiworld.. But it's more, um, defineeed. I'm going to intensify my, er, Fashion Abilities now. HAHAHAHA. :))

SONG: Still Bette Davis' Eyes.