You only know what I want you to, I know everything you don't want me to.

I find myself updating more often since, like what I've said, I cut off a lot of people so sometimes when I want to sprak - I just need to like talk to myself and put my words out there, you know? Like I'm talking to the void. It's sort of cathartic, tbh. PLUS, I honestly feel super guilty because I neglected this space last year! And I kept on bringing up how this blog has been with me since I was 14 y/o - then I abandoned it for a year. 🥹🥲

I just finished the module on Schistosoma. Can I just say - gosh, Dr. Toom is such an amazing professor. My friends and I are raving about him. He teaches SO WELL plus HE CARES. He always says stuff like, "We're in this together" or "We'll cross the finish line together." I could really feel the care and the love. PLUS!!! He integrates everything! So like, if our topic is Infectious Diseases - all subjects that cover it would be tackled. Like Micro, Para, Ana, Pharma, IM - all Infectious Diseases! That worked for me in medical school eh. Way, way, way, way back, that's what my dad and my psych observed. They said they thought PBL would be more helpful for me (since I have ADHD) - eh anong magagawa ko, di naman ako member ng CHED, diba? HAHAHAHA kahit mag-rally ako mag-isa, wala naman mangyayari. Pero anyway, I love Dr. Toom. I would really trust his process, and by God, STOP PROCRASTINATING. Gurrrl, you ain't smart - gumalaw galaw ka na dyan. Dami mo pa backlogs. 

Idk when I started it, I can't remember actually, but for the longest time, my blog titles are song lyrics. It's something that currently resonates with me OR something I'm LSS-ed with. So, right now it's Poison & Wine. 

I was so into this version back in college (like 2012 era. Dude I just checked my last.fm account. I'm THAT old HAHAHAHAHA) But omg this version is so much better than the OG one. 

Maybe I'm a demanding friend. Actually, I think what I need is also an extrovert or ambivert friend. Majority of my friends are introverts. Hindi ko gets bakit introvert-magnet ako pero yah. So, anyway, my point is - I have to respect their space, especially if they're socially exhausted already. And I really do get and respect that but, gosh, sometimes I really have a lot of feelings and I don't open up so much and I just feel lonely. I'm alone eh. Gets ba? I always pray for just one ambivert or extrovert bff. JUST ONE. I mean, hello, syempre si Yoongi introvert din so okay lang kasi he's my baby boy HAHAHAHAHA. AND HONESTLY HA, like when I invite people to hang out, oks lang na we do separate things basta we're just together. We don't have to talk or chichi and stuff. We're just together doing our stuff. You know? As in like chill na yun for me. I think I'm pretty low maintenance naman. Pero anyway, I just get really lonely sometimes. I just need someone to match my energy. I'm thankful for my friends pero, yah, it gets pretty lonely sometimes. 

Anyway, pray for me for the boards! And for Nikka to make up her mind because I am so ready for my next 2 tattoos. Baka yun na muna last ko for the next 2 years or so 'cause if that 2 tattoos happen - I will already have eight. Surprise parents hehehehehe.

Taiwan 2019

First out of the country trip with friends! I went with Nikka, Krizia, and Dea to Taiwan from June 19-23! It was super fun and tiring! We walked a lot o m g. It was definitely a treat after the hellish fucking year I had. Thanks to my sponsors - my parents. Love you guys so much 🥰

I'm lazy na to upload other photos but I ate A LOT OF FOOD. HAHAHAHA.

Oh, there was this shop where they sell fucking amazeballs school supplies (THANKS KATH RACHO FOR THE TIP) it was my fucking haven!!!!!!

Maybe I'll edit this some other time to post the food I ate lol

So far I'm having a rad summer break ❤️

#DareToBeDifferent

Our end of the year celebration at Cafe Ilang Ilang in Manila Hotel! We were all wearing white (WE DIDN'T COORDINATE WITH EACH OTHER) and Mamel was the only one wearing red; thus, the hashtag Dare To Be Different. TAWANG TAWA AKO HAHAHAHAHA

Damn I wish I pass 2nd year Med. Can't wait to get out of that hellhole!

How Could We Ever Make This Leap?

Merry Christmas from us! 

Also, check out this song:

For All You Broken Renegades.

School is okay. I've adjusted, I think. New people, new friends. Exam's in two weeks! Daily grind, daily hustle!

My current favorite song. Teehee.

Summer, Kind of Wonderful (2016 Version)

How to summer Med school style:

May 5, 2016. 

EK with some of my 2019A friends. It's Glea's first time so HAHAHAHA extra special:

May 6, 2016!

 May's 24th birthday and Michelle's 18th birthday:

May 7, 2016

Happy 24th birthday Eryel (May 6)! Super chill celebration with my HS friends but it was so much fun. I've missed them so much. And swear parang wala din nagbago samin. We don't get to see each other often but I'm so glad we're still the same.

May 18, 2016

Random sleepover with Jodie!

May 30-June 1, 2016!

Went to Batangas courtesy of the Lopez family!

Hanggang jan lang ako. Di man lang ako umabot ng Station 1. HAHAHA Mt. Maculot hike!

June 3, 2016

Random catch up with my college friends. Talked about how we were able to graduate eh super wala kaming kwentang students HAHAHAHAHA. But omg I'm so proud of them. They achieved na a lot in life.. while I'm still struggling as a student. HAHAHAH!

June 4, 2016

Date with Jonah!

July 18-21, 2016

Ilocos trip with 2018B dapat but naging barkada trip nalang HAHAHAHA!

(Thanks Vera and Joyfie HAHAHHA)

There were other chill trips like the spontaneous Tagaytay trip with Leif, random cocol at NLEX HAHAHAHA, but we didn't take photos. Anyway, we were almost always at Kyle's place to drink so.. Yay vacation well-spent! I mean, good luck to our livers but.. YOLO. HAHAHHAHA joke!

So, that's my summer. How was yours?

How To Med School 2018B Version.

Last April 6-8, I was at Pangasinan for a class hangout trip (med school friends.)  Thanks to Jester Sison, Kring Soriano, and Chan Yap for three fun days in Pangasinan!

All photos are stolen!! (From Chan, May, Issa, mostly. Hehehe.)

Watching Oculus before drinking.  And before the foreigner next door got mad at our noise.

Roomies and car buddies HAHAHAHA

I tried to surf.  I really did!

Thanks to Gabo and Tita Palafox hehehe.

I only had one rash guard so every night I had to wash it.  By the third day, I was hiding behind Carlo HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.  Anyway, it was three fun days!  I'll miss these guys so much next school year!