It's Only A Matter Of Time.

Life's a big party full of party crashers and drunkards and chain smokers and surprises with cakes swirling with marshmallow bits&colorful sprinkled sweets. This party could go on for days with continuous servings of tequilas or daquiri/s. This party is full of sweat, smoke, and noise.

It only ends when the music stops & the liquor bottle drops. It only stops when everybody gets to think that, "Ohnoes. I left the iron turned on -- it's going to burn my house."

But without being sober -- life's one hell of a brain-tweezing party.

I guess it's up to you if you'll enjoy the overflowing drinks, the ear-busting music, and the polluted air drifting and sliding inside your nostrils. It's up to you.

SONG: The Honorary Title's Bridge And Tunnel.

Do You Remember..

.. Last year, I used to have icky issues and problems. Now, I have FRIENDS problems. Last year, I know the people to turn to when I'm feeling so suicidal. Now, I don't even know who to talk to anymore. Last year, we were sooooo BONDED. Now, we're slowly falling apart. Last year, I used to rant all day and all night how I wish that everything would just end -- how I'm looking forward to the future. Now, all I want to do is bring back the good old times and hug everyone close.

Somehow, 2008 seems more like a peachy year than 2009. How I wish I knew it back then.

We were supposed to stick with each other FOREVER. Now, EVERYBODY'S busy with their stupid schools and stupid new "friends" and stupid new environment and stupid new crushes. Everything's so stupid. Even this life is stupid. Stupid school. Stupid everything. Well, ok, they keep on saying that they miss HS but they don't show it. It's as if I'm facing a different.. Ugh. Nevermind. It's too stupid to say anyway.

I hope my family decides to migrate to a new country or something. Then, I would have a fresh start and, well, maybe, JUST MAYBE -- they would finally show that they miss me after all. 'Cause, honestly, it's as if I'm the ONLY ONE who's trying to reach out and make papansin. Nakakairita na, alam nyo 'yun? Nakakairita.

Don't Bogart The Situation.

A single "HELLO" would suffice. We're friends. SUPPOSEDLY. College SHOULD'VE been our glue or tape or whatever.. Why? Dude, lahat tayo Frosh. Hindi dahil nag-college at nagkaron ka na ng bagong friends, kakalimutan mo 'yung dati. Akala ko ok na dati. I thought we resolved our issues na. Sana hindi nalang pala tayo nag-usap dati dahil wala din namang nangyari diba? Masyado ka ng masaya ngayon, nakalimutan mo na ako. 'Yun 'yung pinaka-masakit, alam mo ba? I treated you as a SUPER FRIEND tas wala din. Sinasabe mo na mahal mo ako pero actually -- you're just saying that. It's exactly what it is -- WORDS. Hindi mo naman pinapakita ehh.

Some of my closest HS "friends" are either busy or jerks. No time for Rina. And to think na ngayon ko kayo pinaka-kailangan.