The Year That Was..

Wow.  2013.  2013 has been a great year for me, truth be told.  After all the crap I've been through two years ago..  2013 really made up for it.

Let's see, I graduated this year.  I got crazy and emotional this year (more than usual, I guess?  The good news is, nobody witnessed this because I was dealing with it alone.)

2013 made me realize what and who I want to be.  It's the year that made me understand that, shit, I'm growing up.  I have to have a direction in life, I can't depend on my parents forever.  Yes, it took me, like, 21 years to finally admit that, well, I can't really escape from the inevitability of growing up (which fucking sucks 'cause I still freak out whenever I think about it...  I'm taking baby steps here, don't judge me!)  2013 is a great year because it gave me time to let all of this sink in, you know?  No matter how hard I try to run away from my responsibilities and obligations - I wouldn't be able to escape it.

I guess I just have to man up and face everything.  What I'm sure of is that I can achieve anything as long as I have my parents and my friends.

To the people who tolerated my shit this year, remember that I continuously count my lucky stars because I have you guys to back me up and pick me up whenever I'm close to believing that I wouldn't get anywhere in this world.  Thank you!

2014, make me fall in love with you.

Cheers guys, have a very Happy New Year!

Won't Stand There With Fallen Hands And Silently Wait.

I have some balikbayan relatives.  On the 26th (?), we went to Iba, Zambales to be with them.

These are my baby cousins.  I made them believe that I'm their oldest sister and that their mom made my mom adopt me because I was born out of wedlock.  HAHAHAHAHAHA.  Jesus, I don't know what I get when I make stories up.  But I get really satisfied when someone believes a story I cooked up.  HaAHAHAHAHA!  Anyway, it was really funny because Jon (the one in the orange shirt) told me that we should sit with my foster family (Mommy and Yo.) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.  It was freakin' hilarious!

We were wearing boxers and shirts because we just woke up and we decided to take a stroll in (on?) the beach.  Actually, I strolled with my mom and Jon.

Happy Holidays, everyone!

Santa Stole My Girlfriend.

Merry Christmas!!!!

I'm so fat and round..  Like Santa Claus.

I bring joy and love..  Like Santa Claus.

I am Santa Claus.

Hahahahahahahaha omg.  Good vibes!  Merry Christmas, everyone!

Body Language.

I just joined the bandwagon.  I started watching Awkward two days ago.  Honestly, I'm not impressed.  I think it's 'cause of the hype..  I kind of expected a lot from it.  Anyway, I missed downloading S02E10 (and jumped to E11) so I'm waiting for it.

I don't see why girls are attracted to that Matty McKibben guy.  He's not even attractive.  Even that Jake.  I mean, personality wise, I think I'd go with Jake, but, I still don't think he's attractive.  I'm not saying that they're hideous or whatever, they're just not.. my type.

All in all, I think it's kind of shallow (shet deep ko, sheeeet), I meaaaaan, at my age, it doesn't really work for me anymore.  Maybe if I was 15, you know?  If I was still unsure of who I should be (personality wise), and when I was more conscious of the way I looked and shit, you know?  But, honestly, at my age, I'm really worried about my future and stuff (YES!  Twenty points to Rina!  She's really maturing!) so, I guess that's why I think Awkward's shallow.  I mean, Jenna's problems consist of two guys fighting over her, or if she's in love or isn't in love with Matty McKibben.  Are you getting me?  But, whatever, I'm still going to watch it because the show doesn't really make you think so it  helps you relax.  Plus, okay, let's face it, it's entertaining.

Just finished downloading Episode 10..  Bye!

Edit:

So, it's my brother's Christmas break and he's living at home right now.  Tomorrow, I'm going to be busy because I'm going to get my tablet checked or something.  It can't connect to my laptop and I've been to Samsung for, like, three times already.  So, I've decided that I would fucking bring my laptop tomorrow to show those useless morons that it can't fucking connect to my laptop!  Mind, my laptop weighs a fucking ton so the thought kind of pisses me more.  Anyway, what do I get, my dad asking me to pay his fucking bills.  Why can't he ask my useless brother?!  All he's gonna do tomorrow is sit at the mall and shit.  I have freakin' stuff to do.  How unfair is that?  If I'm not doing anything, fine, go ahead.  I know how to pay the internet bill..  but, Jesus Christ, I've been whining for a week now about this stupid fucking tablet and UGGGGGGH I was looking forward to confronting the sales clerk and wow.. "Go pay my bills." OKAYY.  OKAAAAAY.  Why can't you guys fucking ask that other useless piece of sod?  Why'd it have to be me?  It's so freaking unfair and I'm so murderous right now.  UGH.

We Don't Care About Our Own Faults.

So, I guess the cat's out of the bag now, huh?  I just wish I didn't jinx anything.  Yes, I did take the NMAT last November 24.  I got the result five days ago.  It was only 62.  I actually heaved a sigh of relief because my goal was only 60.  But then..  My dad told me that I need to at least have a 75 just to be safe.  So, I'm going to retake the NMAT on April.  Ugh.

Today, I finally submitted my application form (do you know that it was such a hassle to ask for a good moral from UST?  Or sobrang tamad ko lang talaga) and shit at UERM.  My dad made us fall in line and wait and shit.  My brother was sort-of freaking out because people can recognize him easily and associate him with my dad because (according to them) they look so much alike.  HAHAHAHAHA.  So, pano daw kaya next year.

Can I just say that I'm really scared?  I want this.  I really, really, really want this.  I don't have a Plan B.  This is my only plan.  Ugh.  Must not stress myself more.

Anyway, I'll update soon.

I Fell In Love Today.

I fell in love today.

The last time I felt this way was for Ipe..  six years ago.  

I met up with Jodie today.  We were waiting for Frozen to start so we were walking around TriNoma (although we were going to watch the movie at North Edsa hahahahaha.)  I asked her to come with me to Astro Vision because I was going to check if they have DVD's of Beavis and Butt-head (since our internet is a son of bitch, I decided to just buy a DVD set)  We came across some vinyl records and, man, I almost had a heart attack because of the awesomeness of it all!  They have Fanfarlo on vinyl!!  I mean, Jesus Christ, I can't even find a Fanfarlo CD here in the Philippines tas..  they have it on vinyl.  Anyway, at first I was like..  meh.  What would I do with this, I don't have a record player naman.  Lo and behold... The salesgirl showed us THE phonograph...  And, I swear to God, I fell in love.  Right then and there, I fell in love.  I stared at it and gaped at it and ogled it.  Jodie was laughing..  but, seriously, it's like..  seeing the sun for the first time.  The feeling was glorious.  I then told myself that whatever happens, I would have that beautiful Crosley record player!

When I got home, I told my mom everything.  I told her that I'm determined to buy my own record player.  She was sort of weirded out and she asked me if people still use that stuff, I told her I don't care about the other shitheads in the world but I would like to own one.  I even told her about the Fanfarlo, Architecture in Helsinki, The Head and the Heart vinyls we saw!  She was okay with me buying one.  Anyway, I have the money but I'm still sort-of hesitating to spend it.  I think I'll wait next year to buy one.  Nevertheless, I'm so fucking psyched!!  I swear to God, I haven't felt this way in a very long time!  I liked a lot of things but this is only the second time I felt this way (the first one was holding Ipe for the first time.)  SO FUCKING PSYCHED, OH MY GOD!!!!

Don't Count Mistakes, I Lost Track Of Them.

Wow, what a day.  I got surprised a while ago when we were at TriNoma.  It's been too long!

Anyway, here's a list of stuff that's been going on with me..  some random facts, as well.  I'm too tired to talk in paragraphs, I'm sorry

• Currently obsessed with Heroes.  I KNOW, I'M THREE (or four?) YEARS LATE but... whatever.  I looooove it.  I love Milo Ventimiglia and I want to have, like, seven children with him.  BUT, that's not the only reason I like Heroes.  Plot's great, as well..  for season one.  I'm currently in season 4 (the last season), plot's still okay but there are so many unanswered shit!  Like, Micah.  Okay, he's Rebel in season 3 and then in season 4..  He was just written off.  I mean..  Huh?  I googled it and I found out that some of these questions can be answered through their Heroes graphic novels.  I mean, what if I don't want to read the graphic novels?  They're just going to leave me hanging there?  Is that it?  Anyway, that's the only annoying thing with Heroes.  Other than that, it's perfect!  I loved it more than Supernatural!
• Speaking of Milo Ventimiglia, when I finally have a decent internet connection, I would download Mob City and watch it.  The plot looks and sounds great so it's worth checking out!
• Not really updated with the other series I watch like TVD (no more Klaroline.  This fact still breaks my heart), PLL, Once Upon A Time, Supernatural (Two years..  Two years na akong Season 5), Burn Notice (last season omggggggggg can't miss that!!!!!!), Criminal Minds, American Dad, Elementary, Big Bang Theory, and Modern Family.  I watch a lot of TV shows.  I'm sorry, I don't have a life.
• I think I'm gonna start watching Awkward to see what the fuss is all about.  Every time there's a new episode, all I could see on my timeline's #TeamMatty and #TeamJake (?) or whatever.
• My brother's forcing me to watch Breaking Bad and Dr. Who but..  I don't know.
• It's been a month but Phosphorescent's Song For Zula is still my "current favorite song!"  
• There's going to be some anti-anay guys tomorrow so I'm kind of pissed off because it's such a hassle to cover my bed so that the fluid thingy won't get on my bed. 
• Haven't had a decent sleep since..  forever.
• I'm still scared of the future but, whatever happens - I guess I would just have to learn how to wing it.

Things Are So Different Now.

In the six years that I've been blogging, I think it's the first time that I've missed a month!  I didn't get to blog last November 'cause we didn't (still don't) have any internet connection.  Is that shitty or what?  I haven't touched my laptop for a month - a month, I tell you!  I feel so crippled huhuhuhu.  Anyway, I guess, it's not all bad.  I finished reading six books last month.  So, that has to count for something, right?

November was..  a breeze.  I'm gonna elaborate on this shit when we get our internet connection back.  

I'm still not back, not really.  I'm using a broadband stick right now and it kind of sucks.  I just want a normal internet connection, is that too much to ask for?

Please tell me you've missed me.