It's been a year and I'm still far from okay. I don't get why he can't just let me go. What does he want from me? I already said I'll support him ALWAYS in school stuff. He also has my friend's support. I know he's not in love with me. I know that. I feel that. I know he doesn't care about me. I know what we had was just a game for me (even if it was pure and true for me.) I've been played, yeah, I accepted that. So, what does he want still? I really don't get why he can't just let me go. Because I'm his back up plan? Is it not enough that I've been mourning him since last year? Since my birth month last year?
I don't know what terrible, terrible thing I did for me to experience this FOR A FREAKING LONG TIME. I mean, come on.
This might be killing me right now but I vow - I'll forget him. I'll forget everything about him. I'll forget and I'll be okay.
Please let me be okay now.
