Last Few Days...

.. Of OJT and I'm already suffering from separation anxiety.  I would miss all of the people here in CCM.  They're all so nice.  Huhuhu.  I don't want to leave.  I don't want to go back to UST.  Haven't felt this since... High school.

This Cannot Be.

I can't stop singing this song.  Truth be told, I've memorized the song.  No.  NO.

So, Let's Set The World On Fire.

Tell Me Your Secrets, Ask Me Your Questions.

The last couple of weeks, I've been asked a lot if I ever had a boyfriend or something.  My answer never changes, "No, never.  And I'm not interested and looking for one.  I don't believe in commitments."  The last sentence, well, it never fails to get an eyebrow-raising reaction.  Their reactions puzzle me more than my belief. See, if you've been a constant reader/follower (KAINIS HAHAHAHAHA) of this blog, you would know about my stand on relationships and commitments, most especially, marriage.

I'm not saying these things to sound cool or anything.  I simply don't like commitments.  I don't like any responsibilities or obligations.  I'm not attracted with the idea of being, talking, or chaining yourself to the same person for, what, a year..  3 years.. If you're lucky, 50 years?  Isn't it annoying? I mean, to be with the same person every day?  Every day?  Ugh, god.  I can't even.. Gah!  But, who am I to talk, huh?  I haven't had any experience.  So, okay, let's take that.  Let's say, someone finally swayed me from my horrific beliefs about commitments... I promise you that that's the only thing he or she would get from me.  Commitments, relationships, yeah, maybe I'm not attracted to the idea now but, 10 or 15 years..  Who knows, right?  Marriage is a different pickle.  I don't believe in marriage.

Marriage is suicide.  I think it's just something people do to impress their family, friends, and society.  I mean, seriously, people spend, like, a million to 5 million pesos to get married then, what, they would spend another 5 million to have it annulled after, hmmm, 3 to 7 years?  What a joke.  Oh, you silly, silly and foolish dog, how about the people who reach their golden anniversaries or something?  Does it mean anything?  What can you say about that?  Well, they got lucky, sucker.  Or if you want me to be brutally honest, I think those people are the people who are afraid to get old alone.  (Seriously, why would you want to spend 30, 45, 50, 60 years with the same person?  Seriously?)  They want someone to cling on to when they go to their CAT or MRI scans or something.  I am not mad or anything.  I'm just saying my opinion.  I mean, it's true.

Don't tell me you haven't changed your views (even for just a tiny bit) after reading this.  BUT, if you're still raising your eyebrows and rolling your eyes after finishing this... I don't know what to say anymore.   Romantic movies and books.. Well, they're made, marketed, and advertised just for you!  Hahahahahaha, I'm kidding!  Don't mind me.  HAHAHAHA!

I Want A Mom That Would Last Forever.

For as long as I can remember, I always had a close relationship with my mom.  Even in my elementary years, I was very open with her.  She knows I hate my teachers, she knows that I often get called in the Principal's office for my snooty and terrible behavior.  (Many of my friends from HS don't know my bratty behavior when I was in grade school.. The thing is, I hate everyone there.  Jesus Christ, I wish the whole school would burn down... ANYWAY..)  She knows my crushes and my embarrassing obsessions.  All of these changed a bit when I reached HS.  We, well, sort-of grew apart.  She started to have these weird and annoying menopausal syndromes and it irked the bejesus out of me.  We just couldn't get along.  Everyday, we would fight.  I would get off the car every morning, slamming the car door, seething with anger.  We were okay, as far as okay goes, but I was closer to my dad during those 4 blissful years.

Things changed when I got into college.  Her menopausal thingy stopped and she was back to the mommy I used to be really close with.

This thing, this entry..  She wouldn't be able to read it because she is a cyberworld dunce.  I am not exaggerating.  Anyway, to the person who supports my band-whoring and obsessive (bordering on psychotic) crushing..  To the person who tolerates my high-calorie and high-cholesterol diet (who would later on reprimand me for eating too much.  That doesn't really make sense, huh?)..  To the person who I could openly talk to about drugs, sex, and contraceptives..  To the person who doesn't judge my friends..  To the woman who would kill the person who wrongs her daughter... To the woman who would do anything (and I mean anything) for her family... To the woman who hates the people her daughter hates...  To the best mom in the world..  Happy Mother's Day, Mommy!  I love you so much!

I could be an insensitive jerk (most of the time), I could act like a retard and throw temper tantrums when I don't get the things I want, I could disregard you and make you feel like shit (sometimes), but you should remember that you are one of the most important persons in my life.  I don't know what would happen to me if I lose you.  This may sound like a cliche but...  I'm not kidding when I say that you are the GREATEST and BEST mommy in the whole wide world!  The way you juggle your stressful career and your immature (yes, including my father) family is...  A miracle.  Nobody does it better than you!  I love you so much!  I can't wait to have a stable job and a flourishing career, I swear I would buy you your own island!

My mom doesn't deserve a coupon from The Spa or Sanctuario Spa or something.  My mom doesn't deserve a new bag from Coach or Nine West.  My mom doesn't deserve a new Philip Stein or TAG-Heuer watch.  Actually, my mom doesn't even deserve her own island in the Caribbean.  My mom, well, she deserves the world.

Happy Mommy's Day, Mommy!  I love you!

How Am I Stranger To You When We're Friends?

Floods & Rains.

Went to Bulacan yesterday.  It was such a fun shoot!  Spent the whole day wearing rain boots.  Hihihi.  Can't wait to see the final video!  I am not kidding when I say that it's one of the best shoots I've been to!  On the 15th, I would go to Lucban, Quezon!  Hihihi.

I can't stop watching House.  So motherfucking awesooooome.

Shit, I must remember to fix the contract thing.  Gah.  Might go to UST on Monday.  Meh.

Okay whatever.

No Sweat.

I'm loving my OJT thing right now. The people are so nice, and friendly, and freakin' hilarious.  I like them a lot!  So far, I've been to Rizal to observe a shoot, Sir Peewee toured me around the studios, taught me some camera, um, tricks, lightings, etc..  Basically, I was able to watch a lot of shoots so, yeah.  Sometimes, I'm even an extra.  Hahahaha. I'm having fun!

I don't think I want to take up Medicine.  The thing is, I don't know how to tell my mom because she's dead-set on the idea that I would waste a couple more years to take up a Pre-med subject/course.  She doesn't want me to have bosses (actually, I want to be my own boss too, but I'm having a really good time right now. Plus, in my experience, my bosses are nice, so, I don't see anything wrong with, you know, having a boss.  I think it's okay.)  Actually, my parents really want someone from us (Yo and I) to take up Medicine.  They want someone to follow their footsteps.  They want us to have a really stable job and a great future.  I get that, but, see, I'm scared.  I don't think I'm good enough to take up Medicine.  I think it's interesting but I'm not good.  My attention span is fucked up and I couldn't really focus..  So, I don't know.  Gah.  I need a sign.  God, please give me a sign!

Meh.  Don't want to think about these stuff tonight.  Meh.  I got to hit the sack.  Will meet Jones extra early tomorrow!

Pray for me, yes?

Carrying Useless Advice.

2 ARTISTS IN 2 DAYS! Guess who's the artist who tweeted me now?

Tangina... BLIND WALRUS.  After months of hero-worshipping... I finally had the guts to tweet them.  Hahahahaha!  CHECK IT!

LOOK AT THIS AWESOMENESS:

I'm one of their top listeners! I LOVE THEM! Seriously, listen to Ships:

                                         

It's finally on YouTube so you could go check it out there!

Happy High

I am so motherfucking.. HAPPY!  Blackbird Blackbird fucking tweeted me!  He tweeted me!

Just so you know, his cover of Modest Mouse's Float On is un-fucking-believable!  It's so bloody awesome!  No, I'm not being biased or anything.  Here, check it and burn:

                                          

Such a great day, indeed. Hihi.