I've been reading this god awful novel and it sparked all the bad memories from 2 (nay, 3) years ago. It's been two - TWO fucking years and I'm still not okay. I'm still not fine.
I realize that this is toxic - REALLY TOXIC but I can't seem to pull myself out. God. I can't wait to graduate and just leave, you know?
I still don't understand how this happened to me. I may not be the best person in the world but I don't deserve any of this.
