Daddy Lovin'.

Each night father fills me with dread

when he sits on the foot of my bed,

I'd not mind that he speaks

in gibbers and squeaks,

But for seventeen years he's been dead.

That is my favorite limerick.  I can't remember where I read it and who the author is but omgggg.  Isn't it beautiful?  

Maybe it's really dorky but I love reading limericks.  See, I have this thing for rhymes.  I want stuff to rhyme - always!  That's why I keep on making weird taglines or shoutouts or poems inside my head.. I really want stuff to rhyme.  Anyway,  I love limericks because they are short but they are really, really, really witty.  I've been trying for a long time to make a limerick but I just don't have the talent and the wit to make one!

Went home today.  No classes tomorrow and on Friday sooooooo I could spend 2 days with my parents!  Hihihi!  Thank you God!  I could catch up on Criminal Minds but I swear I would try to start reading for Media Law!

Control Yourself.

Tomorrow is Media Law day.  I would like to inform anyone who cares that every Tuesday.. I'm close to shitting on my seat because of fear.  If it's possible to not get called to recite..  Oh dear Lord.

Anyway, today is fairly uneventful.  Desktop Publishing was.. Okaaaaay, I guess.  Learned new things about the powerpoint.  There were many stuff pala that I didn't know.  Our prof grouped the class, that's interesting.

Sleepy.  But, I must resist.  I have to study for Media Law.  Or, I could just wake up early tomorrow.  What say you?

So Many People Close To Me Cut Me Down.

I swear this song is NOT suicidal (I mean, c'mon. It's Yellowcard!):

Can I just say that when I watched this video, I sort of.. You know, got attracted to Tay Jardine.

Everything I want in a girl.. Tay represents it.  Actually, Jess Bowen does too. Omg. What's happening to me.  (But, Jesus Christ.. They are so freakin' hot! I swear to God!)

On something different, I made a promise to myself.  I would try to be a nice person.  I mean, like, really try.  I would try to stop making any negative or snarky comments about a person.  If I couldn't say any nice things.. I would just shut up.  Omg.  This is going to be really hard because I'm really judgmental and I like picking on people.  Mother fffff.  Oh well.  I just hope I could do it.  Well, there' no harm in trying, huh.

You’re Running Today Maybe Tomorrow You’ll Be Saved.

"I see a guy walking down the street with a stupid look on his face andI want to bash him over the head with a bottle. To me that's normal.  It's weird to me that no one else feels that way."

- Eric Olson; Criminal Minds Season 4 Episode 15.

You know what's weird?  I feel the exact same way!  I mean, I wouldn't kill people, I know that, but when I get really angry, I just want to hurt someone, you know?  Like, hurt them.  I want to see them get beaten up or something.  When I was younger, my brother was the brunt of my anger and rage.  I would hit him and punch him and yell at him.  To his credit, he never fought back.  Not once.

Anyway, I'm a happy person.  I'm just really moody and I get annoyed easily.  But, I don't do anything violent.  I just fantasize about it.  But, I don't do anything, okaaay!

Huhuhuhu too many cases for Media Law.  Can someone please just choke me to death?  Huhuhu!

Yeah, The Ink May Stain My Skin.

I know that nothing's ever going to happen.  I know that.  And, honestly, I don't think I'm wishing for anything to happen.  I just want you to stay alone for the rest of your life.  Hehe.  Lol kidding!  Anyway, back to the point..  I know that nothing's going to happen.  It's okay.  I've known and accepted that fact since forever.  But, I'm really happy right now. I don't feel awkward, you know?  That's more than I could ever hope and wish for.  Hehe.

Cheers!

(Please Lord, make Zayn or Niall follow me on Twitter.  HUHUHU!)

Something To Not Blog About.

1. I am not a fan of caldereta.  Unless it's lamb or it has gata.
2. I have severe migraine attacks.  I was even rushed to the hospital when I was 16.  It got.. Hmmm.. Tolerable because of my special migraine pills.  I've been taking it for almost 4 years but I had to stop using it because it's making me feel depressed and stuff.  My neurologist confirmed it.  He said that some of its side effects are depression and.. AND.. Weight gain. So, yeah.  (My mother was not happy about the weight gain part.)
3. I love people in bands.  Not-so-closet band slut.
4. More than anything in the whole wide world.. I hate washing the dishes.  I would rather clean the car than touch those filthy plates.
5. I love C2's Green Tea flavored tea.  I mean, like, LOVE it.  I don't know why people don't like it.  Its taste is perfect - not too sweet, not too bitter.
6. One of my pet peeves is hearing styrofoams rubbing each other. Gaaaah.  It makes my toes curl.
7. I cry easily.  Movies, tv shows, music videos.. If it's touching or about a kid losing his parents.. I would cry.
8. Before I die, I want to to to Russia and France.  Russia's huge.. I want to try living there for.. Maybe 3 years?  That would be fun.
9. When I meet new people, they always assume that I'm an only child or the youngest child.  I'm neither.  I'm the eldest of two children.
10. I want a new phone so bad. SO BAAAAD.
11. I don't want my iPod to die.  I have no interest with the newly released iPod's.  I just want my tattered 5 year old iPod to stay with me forever.
12. The first site that I check when I wake up is Twitter.

Andddddddd I will continue this some other time.  I'm stalking my crush.  Hehe.

Slashed Wrists.

Note to self: Do NOT listen to Coldplay when you're on your period.

You Were Leaving Me Here.

I am obsessed (again) with Deas Vail.  I can't stop listening to their songs.  Wait, check this out:

I find it really amazing when bands play live and they still sound like their recorded albums.  Death Cab For Cutie is just like that.  When I saw and heard them play live, I was motherfucking awed..  It was like listening to their records but 50x better.  Anyway, I YouTube-d Deas Vail.. They're the same.  Watch the videos I posted.  Wes' voice sounds like his voice on their albums.  Sooooo, it's proof that they don't bullshit stuff like auto-tune, you know?

You could rarely find bands like these during this time and age.  So, if you are into decent music.. Listen to the bands I'm promoting and listen to the compiled playlists in my  8tracks account.  It's pretty decent music 'cause, seriously, I have an awesome taste in music.(Self-proclaimed hahahahaha!)

It's Such A Shame For Us To Part.

Today is Nangi's burial day.  I almost cried when I saw Lola Mi cry when Nangni was being lowered at her burial ground in Heritage Park.  Mommy said she admires Nongni because he was composed.  Although, we all know that he's really sad.  He kept on going back to the casket and to look at Nangni.

But, what really made me sad was seeing Raissa cry.  See, between her and Patrice, she was the one who's closer to Nangni.  She even bought Nangni flowers.  I commented why it's so small, she was so proud and she said, "200 pesos yan!" Amidst the humongous and various display of flowers around Funeraria Paz.. Raissa's flower looks the biggest and shines the brightest.  Anyway, when the casket was being transferred to the car (see, from Funeraria Paz, we were going to travel all the way to the Heritage Park in Taguig..  It was a long drive and it was really hottttt.. Oh, but that's a different story), I think Raissa realized that it would be the last time she would be with her mom.  She got all quiet and she cried.  It was heartbreaking.  Seriously.  I can't imagine what pain she's feeling.  If I ever lose my mom, I would commit suicide.  I couldn't imagine life without the most important person in my life.

It must be harder to Nongni because within a year.. He lost his dad and his wife.  I just couldn't imagine going through something like that.  It's heart-wrenching.

What a year.

No One Can Touch Us.

Gradpic day today! I don't like my gradpicture kasi kitang kita double chin ko!

Feeling ko ang ganda ko dito! HAHAHAHA!

Oh such beautiful people!

MISSING IN ACTION: NIKKI YAMBAO!!

Sobrang laki ng braso ko but it's okay! Konti nalang!

You Don't Know How Lovely You Are.

I found out this afternoon that Nangni passed away.  I was so shocked, I kept on staring at my phone for a couple of minutes.  And then I realized that she has been in a coma for seven months, maybe, in some ways, this is a blessing.. She could finally rest now.  The really sad part is my cousin, her youngest daughter, is only 10.  That kind of pinched my heart.  She's the sweetest little kid ever.

Anyway, Nangni, I swear, after graduating, after the pile of stuff I have to finish so that I could graduate.. We would spoil Raissa with stuff and movie treats and adventures.  We would look after her.  Please continue looking after her.  She's really the sweetest and nicest kid I've ever met.

Please send Tatay my regards.

We Are Together, Made For Each Other, We Can Stand Alone.

Best friend in the whole wide world!

Missed Ampy because Jodie saw her tweet late and she wasn't able to repppply.  Hahahaha.

Missed Odessa's mom a lot!  Their food too.  Hehehe.

Most of all.. I missed you guys a lot!  I love you!  Let's see each other more.

Tall & Skinny

I am currently obsessed with Criminal Minds.  It's such an awesome show.  I like it more than I loved C.S.I.  Plus, plus, Matthew Gray Gubler is a freakin' cutie pie so.. Yeah.

How could you stop staring at that beautiful, beautiful faaace? :">

He made me stop googling One Direction/Zayn Malik/Niall Horan.