And The Alarm Goes *Ding Ding Ding!*

I spent the whole day in TriNoma today. Alone. I was supposed to meet up with my Oral Comm. groupmates but Quimbo couldn't go because he was sick and Jonah's hanging out with her mom. It was really no problem for me to wait for my brother until 4pm because I bought a new book. I sat in the LandMark food court (I was trying to hide from my brother and his friends. LandMark was the safest place I could go. Hehe.) and read for 4 and 1/2 hours straight. See, I could survive in situations like this one. All I need is a good book and an endless supply of water. Or food.

Anyway, I've realized how selfish and lucky I am. There's this old man outside UERM that fixes shoes for a living. And, I couldn't fathom why my dad would always insist on bringing him our broken shoes instead of Mr. Quicky. I found out today that Manong manually sews the shoes he fixes. One time, he repaired one of my shoes and one of Yo's rubbershoes. Do you know how much he asked for both of our shoes? Freakin' 20 pesos! God. My heart was so overcomed with pity that I demanded if my dad gave him a tip or something. (My dad said he did give Manong a tip. Hehe.) I also found out today that he couldn't read and he couldn't write. I asked my dad how'd he know an information like that. He told me that whenever someone asks Manong how much they're supposed to pay him, Manong would get a notebook where some numbers were written and point at it. He couldn't say how much. He doesn't know how to read it. He just knows the numbers or the color of the money he's supposed to receive. It may seem that I'm overreacting or something but, man, my heart broke into a million pieces. My throat got tight and I felt this pity and, somehow, amazement and pride too.

I begun to realize how self-centered and how blessed and fortunate I was. Look at me, I know how to read. Some people envy my collection of books. I would ask my mom or dad to buy me a book and that's that! I could freakin' read. I don't even have to work or do extra jobs. Look at how lucky I am. And look at how ungrateful I am. I always rant. I take everything for granted. I could repay my parents by studying hard and making extra efforts in my studies. But, look at what I'm doing. God. I'm such a selfish and unappreciative bitch. I want to choke myself.

I told my parents to always give Manong a tip and on special occassions, they should give him gifts too. God, the man is working really hard. What troubles me more's the fact that some people might abuse Manong's no-read-no-write situation. They might give him less money for the job he's doing well. If that happens, I hope those motherfucking bastards rot in hell.

Be My Teenage Dream Tonight.

So, another girly frustration, yes?

Anonimosity. by monkeyculture

I want to dress like a girl so bad it leaves a very sour taste in my mouth. Why do I have to be fat? I'm not lovable because I'm faaaaat. The thing is food is my first and only love. So, it's bloody hard to just leave it and ignore it. Are you getting me? Anyway, what the hell. Whatever, ok? I'll just dwell on my frustrations today and just forget about it tomorrow. Or next week. Or next year. Whatever.

T'was The Same As Before.

This Colorgenics test is really freaky. It's like it can read what's happening to me. So, I took it again today (after two years) and the result's so bloody accurate it made me wince:

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

The first few parts are new.. But the two last paragraphs are the same from the one I took last December 13, 2008.
Freaky. You could click that link to view the sameness of my results. Freaky, huh?

On a different topic, this is the HTC phone I want. This is the HTC Wildfire. At first I was very interested with the HTC Desire Z.. Then I switched to this one. Told you I'm fickle. Anyway, isn't the Wildfire lovable and glamorous? God. If only I could own one.

Pretty pretty pretty!

SONG: B. o. B.'s Ghost In The Machine

Ok, Give Me This Instead.

I want the nails and the phone. Oh HTC phones.. Why do I have to fall in love with you now? I'm so fickle. It's embarrassing.



I want the HTC Desire Z specifically. It's so pretty and sleek and freakin' glamorous. Ugh. I want to stare at it all day long.

So, Where's My Christmas Present?

Last Wednesday, we went to Cabanatuan to spend Christmas there. I was so excited because I was going to see my cousins and act all goofy around them. I got to see my grandmother who never wasted a moment in saying that me and my brother should be doctors or pharmacists or dentists like the rest of them. Besides the latter ambush part, I was happy.

Today, it's Christmas time, and all I did was watch America's Next Top Model cycle 14 all day. It wasn't what you call a productive day but I was contented with it. Actually, I was sort of a bit odd today because I isolated myself from my family. They were talking and laughing and having fun.. And I was there in the living room.. Sprawled on the sofa.. Watching America's Next Top Model. Oh well. Anyway, I was rooting for either Jessica or Raina. In the end.. Raina was just the runner-up. Haaaaaay. But, seriously, Krista was good. At the back of my mind.. I knew she would win. Alasia was a fucking bitch. I hate her. I was really grinning like a mad man when she was eliminated.




Anyway, Merry Christmas to all you suckers out there! Hope you had an awesome one!

Don't Play Cheap With Your Heart.

For some time now.. I've been having these weird urges and fantasies to dress up like a girl. I want girl shorts for God's sake!

Here are some of the things I've mixed and matched using my Polyvore account. After being on hiatus for THREE YEARS.. I'm finally using it again!

Here's another one:

It seems like I could dress other people but I couldn't dress myself. I really want to look like a girl. I really do. :( It may seem ok to me when everybody thinks and asks if I'm a lesbian.. But, seriously, I want them to look at me like I'm a girl! Haaaay. Oh well. Helpless fantasies, indeed.

I Hate Pain.

So, tomorrow, I'm going to the hospital to have my ears thoroughly checked. Last week, there's this crazy and painful sting in my left ear. It pained me to chew and talk. It even caused me brain-numbing migraines. So, I went to the UST health service to have it examined. The arrogant and unbearable doctor told me that it's viral and something inside my ear was swollen. He gave me pain relievers and some liquid thing that I should drop in my left ear twice a day. After a day, the pain's almost tolerable. After two days.. It was gone. Hallelujah!

Now that my left ear's fine, it's my right ear that's suddenly acting up. God, the pain is unbearable and it's giving me a motherfucking crazy headache. So, whether I like it or not.. I would go with my dad tomorrow to have it examined by a patient and really skilled ENT.

Oh God, after the checkup tomorrow.. Please make the pain stop. I have a strong tolerance for pain but really.. This is making me go crazy.

Anyway, that's all. OMG. I hope the doctor wouldn't blame Ipe. My dad's sort of shoving it on my face that maybe it's too much iPod-ing that's causing my ears to get irritated. Oh well.

GoodNight everybody. It's going to be a LONG day tomorrow.

Paskuhan My Ass.

So, I went to the Paskuhan thing. Man, it wasn't awesome. At all! (Except for the Jamista part. HAHAHAHAHA. Super funny. I don't know why Nikki and I are the only ones laughing. It's hilarious kaya!) I swear it wasn't fun. We went to Balay to drink. It was ok at first. Then it got boring. And really scary and annoying. A weird guy was bothering Jonah. We should've punched his face. I should've taken Jodie's offer and went to the Lantern Parade instead. ANYWAY, the thing is, I also sort of left early (during the fireworks too, can you believe that?!) because I have a curfew. I was staying in the dorm, see. So, I have no choice but to abide by the rules.

Anyway, I'm off to Cavite in a few. I'm just waiting for my brother to come home. He's still in UP for a Christmas party or something. To keep me entertained, I'm currently reading Me and Mr. Darcy by Alexandra Potter. It's a love story (sort-of) but I really like it because Mr. Darcy's really there! WOOOHOOO. I have to finish it first to know if the protagonist is just dreaming or something.

A few more days and it's Christmas already. If you really want to make me happy.. Here is my Christmas Wishlist:

a.) Microsoft Kin ONEm (MICROSOFT REVIVED IT! WOO!)



b.) Neon-Pink Anthology flats.




c.) Purple ToyWatch. (Or the magenta one.)

These things would really make me happy. Especially the Microsoft Kin ONEm. They re-released it this November! If I've known it, I wouldn't buy a Nokia C3. I would ask my aunt or uncle in the States to buy me one there and I could or wouldn't pay them back. Really, it's their choice if they want me to pay them back. HEHE. ANYWAY, HUHUHU. Now, I'm stuck with a C3. And my lovely Microsoft Kin ONEm's being scattered all over the world. It breaks my heart so much. :(

The Anthology flats.. I would save up for it. It's about 26** and, too bad, I spent the money I'm going to use to buy it for my C3 so.. No Anthology flats for me. (Unless you're willing to buy me one! HIHI.)

The ToyWatch.. I'm currently promoting it to my parents. If they realize how cute and brilliant it is.. They might actually buy me one. *crosses fingers*

Christmas in not a time for receiving, it's a time for giving. So, to show my Christmas spirit.. I'm giving all my love to you guys! Cheers!

What's There To Rant About?

You know what, instead of ranting today.. I'm going to brag about my awesome life. Last Dec. 11, my cool college friends and I went to EK. (Yes, my dad finally allowed me to go after hours and days and hours of begging!) It was Nikki's 18th birthday celebration. I was so ecstatic I could shit rainbows. :>

I'm also very happy right now because the last day of regular classes would be tomorrow! After tomorrow, it's already Paskuhan. Wooohoooo. I hope it's as awesome as last year's Paskuhan.

So, honestly, what's there to rant about? I have a happy family. And.. AND.. I have super awesome and super cool friends.

(Up there are my HS friends)



And these.. These are my awesome college friends. :)

So, yeah, guess what? I think I'm very blessed after all. :>

(Credits to JODIE TANEDO and NIKKI YAMBAO for the pictures.)

SONG: Nelly's Just A Dream.

The Ride Of Your Life.

So, I'm blogging again using my phone. I don't want to open my laptop anymore because if my parents find out that I'm still awake.. I'm dead meat. And, I couldn't die right now because next week is Nikki's birthday celebration. Which makes me go to an annoying and depressing, um, thing. My dad's suddenly having second thoughts about this topic. He was worrying because he said that nobody could fetch me next week. I told him that I could stay at the dorm. Things got really, really ugly. Ugh. Fucker. I hope he changes his mind. Please God. Let this be my pre-Christmas miracle. Pleasssse. I think it's enough suffering because I already cried in our garage pa nga because of this. Huhu. Please?

On another different topic, I saw IV1 last night (7pm-11pm) It was Maeka's debuuut. Hihihi. Really enjoyed answering her tricky questions. Anyway, OMG. I miss HS so much it makes me want to quit school now. K. Hahaha. Whenever I'm with them, I always, always remember the good and happiest times of my miserable life. Ayy weh. =)) What thhe hell, you get the picture, right?

GOD PLEASE MAKE MY DAD CHANGE HIS MIND. If it's just any other person, I won't push this issue. But, this is the celebration of one of my closest friends. This is something different. PLEASE MAKE HIM CHANGE HIS MIND. He already said "Yes" before ehh. :((

If I die right now, I really wouldn't mind. Tsss.

So, Yeah. I'm Blogging Using My Phone.

I'm blogging using my phone! Hihi! My new phone is really making me forget my Microsoft Kin fantasies. Hehe. Unfortunately, I'm only allowed to type 5000 letters. Boo. But, what the hell. Free's free.

I want to write something deep and mind-numbing but my brain's not working. My writing mojo is declining.. Fast! Maybe it's because I'm spending more time online than reading books? Ugh. Totally my fault. Still, my love for books.. It would never ever ever fade. Hihi. :))

I don't have any HW this weekend! Thank God! I could finish the damn The Vampire Diaries and totally whore over Paul Wesley. Hehehe. God, he's so hot. I know I've said something like this before about a different guy.. But, please let me say it again: Paul Wesley is definitely one of the guys I'm going to marry. He is so hottttt! My best friend wont stop calling him a troll, though. She said that he really looks like a trll. I beg to differ. I know he's chin's sort of.. Long. But! But! But! It's a part of his charm. And it emphasizes the, um, beauty of his jawline. Hehe.

Anyway, I guess this is long enough. It didn't even reach 3000 letters. Hahaha.

SONG: Down by Jason Walker. Superrrr gandaaaa!

Crazy-Ass Kids.

It’s time to say goodbye to my cute neon pink Anthology shoes. :( Last Tuesday, I bought a new phone. I bought the pink Nokia C3 (WHAT IS UP WITH ME AND PINK THESE DAYS? My LG phone, the one before the Nokia C3, was also pink. What the hell? Hahaha.) Since I bought a new phone, I lost most of the money I’ve saved. Huhuhu. I need to save for at least 3000 pesos before Christmas break. I really, really, really want those pink Anthropology shoes. :( The trapped girl inside me’s DYING. Let’s see if I could bully my mom into buying me those cute flats. Hahaha. Kidding.

I'm still not very happy with my new phone because I really, really, really want a Microsoft Kin. HUHUHU.

It’s Friday tomorrow. Thank God. I hope there won’t be any HW’s for the weekend. I want to finish the bloody Vampire Diaries. I don’t really like the story (I’M SORRY.) because it’s.. Cheesy and it’s about love and blah blah blah. (Sorry I’m not a sucker for love stories. Huhu.) Still.. Paul Wesley is one hot guyyyy. I wouldn’t mind watching The Vampire Diaries because of him. Hahaha.

Anyway, wow, it’s December already! A few more days and I would finally get to spend some time with my family. HIHIHI.

Ok, bye. Whatever.

You Know What I Mean.

I am blogging at 3.55 in the morning. *hormones*

Life does not stop for anybody. You may experience a lot of downs and frowns in your life, but it does not mean that you should stop living. You should not dwell so much on the mistakes you've made. On the other hand, you should focus on the things you've accomplished.

You're awesome and you NEED to remember that.

Crazy Flats.

Ok, can I be really gay and girly right now? Please? Ok, thank you!

I've been dying to have these pair of Anthology shoes! OHMYYYYGOD!!!!! I want the navy blue one from the first picture. And I want the pink neon one from the second picture.





I really, really, really want to buy the pink neon one. I asked my mom if I could buy it and she shrugged. So, I'm guessing that it's a Yes. See, we have this thing, when my brother and I want to buy something, we need to ask for permission first if they would please, with cherries on top, permit us to buy the thing we want. I don't know why since we're spending our own money but that's the way it is. ANYWAY, my mom shrugged, so, probably.. It must be a Yes, right? I mean, seriously. I want girl-shoes for crying out loud! I'm so tired of people commenting on my manly outfits. Besides, the cute, neon-pink Anthology shoes are screaming for their release!

I'm going to convince my mom to take me to Crossings. Or Analog Soul. Yes, they also sell Anthology shoes there. Few and limited choices only though. ANYWAY, God, please let them allow me to buy this cutie patootie shoes! It's so cute and simple and neon and girly. SEE, it's not lesbian shoes anymore!

My world revolves around sneakers. Chucks. Chucks. Vans. Chucks. Chucks. I need some variety in life. And, yes, I'm getting sick of being asked if I'm a lesbian because of my guy outfits. Those Anthology shoes are the first step of providing sufficient proof for the girly bone in my body. HIHI. See, I'm even starting to giggle like a prat. Ok. Sorry. A lady musn't talk like that.

UGH. Ok, whatever. I AM GOING TO BUY THOSE NEON PINK FLATS. I would, I would, I would!

Just A Tad Wiser.

In my 18 years of existence, I know that I didn't face a lot of problems. Mostly, my problems revolve around senseless things like what's for dinner, or do I buy this book or that book. See, I worry about the things that are not really that important.

To be brutally frank, I'm a bit ashamed that I've reached this tender age of 18 and I'm still the naive little four-year-old who's looking for her mommy. My friends experienced a lot. They're street wise and confident. Whereas, I'm this little scatterbrained douche who doesn't even know how much the jeepney fare costs.

I'm not saying that I want to have problems. Seriously, I don't. My emotional capacity is minuscule. I might commit suicide if something really bad happens. Anyway, my point is.. I want to know things. I want to mature. I want to be regarded as someone who's actually 18. Are you getting me?

Ok, you don't. Whatever. I'm happy with my life right now. I just want to expand my wisdom. K. :))

BTW, I'm reading Northanger Abbey right now. Bloody brilliant. It got me hooked! :">

And If I Blow Your Mind..?

So, I rewatched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and after that I watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. My life is kind of lame because I've been watching movies all day long. Anyway, the sisterhood movies made me bawl like a freakin' baby. Excuse me, this is something different from all my other, um, movie tears. This is different because it talks about friendship and CHANGE. The movie tackled college and moving on and the acceptance of change and getting on with life like it's just a piece of cake. You know what it didn't cover? The freakin' depressing path you have to go through to achieve that stupid happy change. Are you getting me?

In some ways, I am just scared to drift apart from the four special people who stood by me when I was the most maddening and difficult person to be with. I don't want to have a wall between the five of us. Is it asking too much if I say that I just want it to be like High School? We were always together back then. We knew everything about each other. We laughed together, we cried together.. We were there for each other. Somehow, it's not the same anymore. I know I have to be a bit more understanding because, hello, we're in college now. I shouldn't expect them to always return my phone calls or my texts because, by God, I know that they're very busy with their hectic schedules. And, no, I am not sarcastic -- I am very sincere in all the things I'm babbling about right now.

Do you get what I'm saying? I don't want any gap between the five of us. I want us to stick around. I want us to be there for each other always.. Especially if one of us really, really, really needs it.

All I'm asking for right now is that if we have some free time, I hope that we could see each other and, you know, catch up. I hope that we could hang out and pretend we weren't really that far away from each other. I wish we could often sit around and talk about random things like bands and movies and new friends. Don't get me wrong, I understand now why we don't get to talk everyday. Everybody's busy. I get it. Seriously, I do. But, if there's some spare time -- I seriously want to hang out with you guys. Like, SUPER WANT.

I don't want to lose them, that's all. I just hope they feel the same.

Hey November, What's Rollin'?

I love Agyness Deyn so much! She's so beautiful and gorgeous.. Long hair, short hair, dark hair, bald -- she could totally wing it! And she could seriously pull guy-outfits off! Seriously. She's my favorite model. :">

The classic Agyness Deyn look. :">

HOTT STUFFFF!



SEE? She's the only one who could pull that thing off!



Yeah boy. :">



This is my favorite Aggy hairdo. :)

(This one too)HIHIHI.



She's so freakin' beautiful!

So, whatcha think? She's so gorgeous and pretty and beautiful. If I have to change my face.. I am so going to beg God to make my face pretty like that of Agyness Deyn. HIHIHI.

Anyway, Happy Novemer First everybody. God, I hope this month is cool and awesome. *crosses fingers*.

I Want To Be A Mutant.

As of this moment, I'm having the X-Men Marathon. OMG. I seriously want to be a mutant. I want to have those cool super powers and be telekinetic or something. Jean Grey's powers are super cool.. I don't like her very much though. I think she's a douche bag. I'm sorry but it's just my opinion. So far, Mystique is my favorite. I think she's legen *wait for it* dary even if she's evil. :> HIHIHI.

If ever I become a mutant, I want some of Prof. X's powers and some of Kitty's. I mean, I want to pass through walls.. I want to control the minds of others.. I want to freeze time or something. Super cool.

Anyway, I'm currently downloading Saw I-IV. And, after watching X-Men, I am going to watch Paris When It Sizzles. Boy, I don't have a life. This is how I'm going to spend the last few weeks of sem. break because I'm sort of.. Grounded. Hmph. Yeah, ok. Whatever. Anyway, can you give me a list of cool and awesome movies that I could enjoy watching? Nothing freaky, ok? Ugh. I've tried downloading Inception.. There are still no available thingies on the web. I guess I still have to wait. Hmph.

K. Ciao. Logan's calling me. :))

Legendary.

These past few days, I've been obsessing (how do you spell that word?) over Olivia Palermo. :"> Man. She's so beautiful and gorgeous and sophisticated!

She is so classy and she's just so.. Eye-catching. K. :))


OHMYGOD. Isn't she pretty? Isn't she preeeeetty?



WOW. :">


Even in candid pictures.. She's so wonderful to look at. :">

Some people are just blessed. Hmph. :))

Moist. Moist. Moist.

Do you want to know what I've been doing all day since yesterday? I've been watching HIMYM all day long. :))

I love Ted and Barney and Robin and Marshall and Lily. HIHIHI. Season 6, wait for me! I'm commmmming. :>

Gone To The Movies.

All I have to say is that Josh Hutcherson is a hell lot cuter now that he's 18. *giggle giggle giggle* OMG. Seriously. He was just sooooooo cute and.. grown up. Our generation's getting old. :|

Anyway, so, I watched Cirque du Freak last night. It was another stupid vampire movie. The only reason I watched was because of Josh Hutcherson. Man, his voice was unrecognizable. It was really different from his Little Manhattan and Zathura and Bridge To Terabithia voices. Wow. He's all grown up and mature and teen-y and, gosh, I like him more now. HIHIHI.

The only glitch is.. He's a wee bit small. He's like a head smaller than his co-star whose name I've forgotten. Ok. Whatever. He's still cute, though. That counts for something. :))

Do you want to see how senseless my sem. break is? Let me give you the list of the movies I've watched and rewatched since October 18:

*Roman Holiday
*The Hangover
*You, Me, & Dupree
*The Wedding Planner
*Little Manhattan
*Cheaper By The Dozen
*Uncertainty
*Prom Night
*300
*The Final Destination
*My Fair Lady
*Cirque Du Freak
*Aquamarine

What a life. =)) And now, I'm waiting for Paris When It Sizzles and X-Men. Hehe. Jonah said that I am not a human being because I haven't watched X-Men yet. :))

Anyway, got to shoo now. I'll have a How I Met Your Mother marathon. :> Barney! Barney! Barney!

Je m'ennuie tellement que je vais avaler mon poing.

Bonjour, je pense vraiment que la vie est nulle parfois. Il ya des moments où vous voulez juste à regarder le plafond et prie Dieu de faire sortir la misère de votre vie en général-heureux.

Quoi qu'il en soit, sur un sujet différent, le français est beaucoup plus frais l'enfer que l'anglais. Je voudrais apprendre à parler la langue. Je suis un compositeur, parce que je suis l'aide de Google Translator. Mais, chérie, je pense que c'est une preuve suffisante à quel point je veux parler cette belle langue.

lecteur Hey, si vous pouvez comprendre ce que l'enfer que je dis ici .. Pouvez-vous m'apprendre à parler français? Pouvez-vous? Pouvez-vous? Pretty s'il vous plaît? Il serait vraiment me faire plaisir! * Rire * rire rire

Quoi qu'il en soit, au revoir! Je promets de mettre à jour bientôt!

Note: Certaines phrases sont grammaticalement faux. Comme ce que j'ai dit, je suis seulement en utilisant le traducteur de Google. :))

Listen

Read phonetically

Rosemary Telesco.

And love ..
Such a silly game we play, oh,
Like a summer's day in May.
What is love, what is love?
I just want it to be love


(Kinda yucky, I know. But, I want this post to be dramatic. Besides, t'was a good song. And it's in the moooovie. HAHAHAHA.)

Gabe: As I held onto Rosemary Telesco for dear life, we both knew the truth. She was going off to camp and eventually, private school. We were on different roads, she and me. Two ships that passed in Sheep Meadow.

I think this was the saddest part in the movie.

I didn't post that song up there because I'm going to be cheesy. The truth is, I rewatched Little Manhattan. And I got LSS-ed with the song. :))

Anyway, did you guys know that I used to be so obsessed with Little Manhattan? I find Josh Hutcherson and Charlie Ray reaaaaally cute. I am not kidding when I tell you that I used to watch it everyday. No shit. :)) It used to be my favorite movie. Hahaha.

The two of them (Josh Hutcherson and Charlie Ray are all grown up noooow!) Looky:

Josh H.

.. And I couldn't find any Charlie Ray pictures. Fail. =)) Anyway, I'm sure she looks a little bit different now since she's already 18. Right? :))

Well, It Feels Like High School.

So, it's our sem. break already. I just had to say that I had an awesome sem. ender with the best people (minus Nicole D. She didn't go to Nikki's house. Boo!) King Of The World si Ekay! =)) Then, the next day, I had a date with Jodie. :"> I am now sure that we are really both impulsive. See, she wants to watch horror, so, yeah, I gave in. She thought that The Town was a horror movie. We didn't know it was the Ben Affleck movie. It was an action film. :)) So, K, we watched it. After an hour and a half of crazy torture, we went out of the movie house. She asked me if I wanted to watch Red, I said, "Game on." Ede ayon. Two movies na magkasunod kame. :)) T'was fun 'cause I spent it with her, though. :>

On the 21st, my brother and I would go to Cabanatuan. My parents are going somewhere.. OMG. I don't know where. All I know is that they're going out of town. ANNNNNYWAY, because of that, my brother and I would spend a couple of days in Cabanatuan. Somehow, I'm looking forward to it because I want to see my cutie patootie cousin. HIHIHIHI.

Sherlock Holmes' been keeping me company for the past few days. Man, I'm hooked. I am not exaggerating or anything, but dude, you hafta read it! You have to! It's one of the best mystery books in the world! No shit!

Anyway, I'm having a Gregory Peck hangover -- again. Man, even if that guy is dead, everytime I rewatch Roman Holiday, he makes me want to giggle and giggle and giggle. K. :)) I really, really, really think he's adorable. :">

So, yeah. I would update again soon. I promise. :)

Out Through The Curtains.

Do you know what I'm feeling right now? I feel so frustrated, anxious, selfish, annoyed, depressed, and just so bloody angry. How come I never get the things I want? In the last few years, I yearned for some things (not all material things, mind).. And I never got one of those things I hoped and prayed for. How fucking unfair is that? I do not ask for a lot of stuff. I really don't. But, just this once. Just this once... Ugh.

What's the point? You guys wont understand anyway. I should learn how to be contented. Blah, blah, blah. Seriously. It just annoys the bejesus out of me.

I don't care if I'm ranting again. Or if you do not get a single word I'm saying. I just want to let it out because I've been crying my eyes out here.

Somehow, I know I'm wrong because I couldn't just tell you what I want. It's just that it would appear that I'm asking for too much or I'm just being selfish again.

This is so mababaw, I'm going to wring my neck when I snap out of this tantrum-phase.

The End's Not Near; It's Here.

It's 11.21 on my clock right now. A few more minutes and October 1 is finally over. I woke up today with a goofy grin plastered on my face. I was very happy because it's already the 1st of October and, yeah, I was determined to start my month right. So, I had this stupid, goofy grin.. Little did I know how crazy this day would be.

Anyway, I don't want to talk about it anymore. All I want to say right now is.. CHRISTMAS IS NEAR! OMG. Whenever I hear the Christmas carols, gosh, I feel so happy. I could never remove the big smile on my face. HIHIHI. Christmas is so freaking near. Near. Neaaaaaaarrrrr.

On a different topic, I can't update my iPod because my laptop crashed. All my precious files are in there. I'm quite scared actually. There are already 3*** songs in my iPod.. Dear God, please don't tell me that I have to start from scratch all over again. Ugh.

I'm ranting again. I'm sorry. There are a lot of things on my mind right now and I'm juggling everything at the same time. Sabaw. :))

Anyway, adieu. Whatever.

SONG: Jason Derulo's Sky Is The Limit.

Stupid Love Letter.

So, now, I got over Chasing A Rockstar. :)) It's now Stupid Love Letter that's swirling in my mind. There are many things that I should be doing... But, as usal, I am too lazy to do it.

Anyway, I just want to tell you guys how in love I am with Microsoft Kin One. I never get tired of bringing up this issue. See, Microsoft Kin's already faced-out. So, what the hell am I yapping for? I want a petition to bring the Kin back. OMG. Microsoft, HEAR ME OUT! AHEM, please bring the Kin back. I know there are about a bazillion negative reviews about the Kin.. But, God, when you stare at it.. It's just.. Amazing. It's such a beauty. I want it to be my baby. I want a Microsoft Kin One OMG. :((








Isn't it a beauty? I could literally stare at it for hours and hours and hours and hours. I really, really, really want one. It's all I could think about most of the time. I even had this stupid dream that Microsoft released one especially for me.. When I woke up, I had this sappy, goofy grin on my face. Then I remembered my dream and I got whiny because the Microsoft Kin One is DEAD. DEAD. DEAD.

Those bloody idiots who didn't appreciate the Kin -- they deserve to be bludgeoned. Ugh.

Savvy.

It's my baby brother's, um, 17th (?) birthday today! YEEEHAAAAW.

We're going to eat at Katre later. Lamb chops overloaddddd. God. I love those freaky little lambs.

Last week was really, really fun and sweet and yidih-globby-dop. Ok. What the hell am I talking about. :)) I don't know. I have issues. But, WTH.. =)) All I know is I'm excited right now and I want to eat. :))

Anyway, I just have to say this because I'm googling it (again) right now:

I WANT A MICROSOFT KIN. DEAR GOOOOD.

Ok, ciao ciao.

CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!

Christmas is so bloody near. Do you know what my Christmas wish is? I want Microsoft to bring back the Kin. HUHUHU. I want one so much. It's all I could think about whenever I'm OL. I want a Microsoft Kin One!

Santa, Santa. Please be kind to me. Gimme one. Gimme one. I promise to be a good girl. HUHUHU.

Get Over Yourself.

Soooooo. It was Pipi's debut last night. T'was fun. Pero super kaduper konti lang ng IV1. Sucks. Mga taga-LaSalle talaga. BV. Hahaha. Kidding.

I'm wasting time right now. I should be studying but I'm doing this. I'll finish Yes Man and after that.. I promise to God that I'll start reviewing for Nat. Scie. and History.

I'm hungry. Imma go eat first before romping my brain with senseless and stupid information. Ugh.

School tomorrrrrrrow. Ugh.

Anyway, K. Off to gnaw my brain.

Serial Killer.

Tonight, I'm going to see my Perfect friends. It's Pipi's debut. I'm excited and not excited at the same time. Is that possible?

Anyway, yesterday, I realized how boring and unproductive my life is. Well, ok. I wasn't really bored because I was reading Mansfield Park and I was already in the super duper cute parrrrts! It sort of pains me because Henry Crawford wasn't consistent. If he was consistent, Fanny would've marry him. Especially if Edmund married Mary Crawford. It would definitely break Fanny's heart but she'll get over it because of Henry Crawford. Too bad the douche bag canoodled with Maria. Ohwell.

I also have to say that I'm disappointed with the ending. It's something like this, "Edmund realized how important Fanny is. They got married." I mean, seriously. That's it..?

Somehow, it's still the Pride & Prejudice ending that puts on a goofy grin on my face. I love the story and the plot of Mansfield Park more.. But the ending really, really, reaaaaaaaaally made me go wacko.

So, today, I'm going to start reading Sense and Sensibility. I already started last night but I didn't go very far because I was super sleeeeeepy. So, yeah.

And, oh yeah, I promise that I'll study for my Finance quiz on Wednesday. May God bless my soul. It's making me nervous. Like, really nervous.

You're A Psycho Bitch From Hell.

Whenever I listen to that song, it always always always reminds me of the school year 2007-2008. That school year, my friend, is -- was -- my golden year. I can still remember the first time I entered III1. I was nervous like hell because we were reshuffled. New school year, new faces. I wasn't even sure I would like my new section. I dropped my bag on a chair and I promptly went to III6 to chill with Raia and Mackee. It went on like that for months before this little habit got reversed. In the end, it was Raia, Mackee, and Sandra going to III1 to chill. :))

Anyway, it was my golden year because I was truly, without an iota of doubt, happy. I was not this fat. I have a fabulous hair. My bone structure was ok (although, I did broke my thumb when we were practicing for the dance pro. It was never the same again...) I met new friends (Hello IV1. I love you.) and I found the person I am determined to be best friends with for the rest of my life -- Jodie Tanedo.

I was really, really, really happy I could literally shit rainbows. No kidding. I don't know why I was that happy. All I remember is -- I was that joyful. I was always looking forward to Mondays. And, I began to loathe the weekends. It was that kind of happiness. I was ready to settle down and live in STC. No kidding. :))

Don't get me wrong, I am happy right now. I always laugh -- it makes people think I'm retarded. I'm always smiling -- it makes people think I'm just a goofball they couldnt talk to seriously. But, it's not just the same as my golden year. (The truth is, what I miss the most was my golden year body. I could fit into my 11-year-old clothes back then. Seriously!) So, yeah.

2007-2008 was my golden year. I know this is asking too much.. But, I hope it happens again. Please? ;)

If We Weren't So Alike, You'd Like Me A Whole Lot More.

I wish there's a way to cheat Death. I wish there's a chance wherein you could hide somewhere far and Death wouldn't find you. Just like in the The Deathly Hallows.. You know, when the 3rd brother uses the Invisibility Cloak -- Death wasn't able to find him. When he got bored already, he met Death with open arms.

I wish that could happen in real life. It would be super awesome to hide from Death. I mean, it would be your choice if you wanted to die or if you could just postpone your meeting with Death. How cool is that? I think it's super awesome.

K. I just had to let it all out. Hahahaha. Talk to you soon!

SONG: Guess what. :> It's a U2 song. =))

Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own.

I wish it's sem. break already. *crosses fingers*

Eenie Meenie.

"It’s funny—when you like someone and they don’t really like you back, it’s not so bad. But when you really like them like them, but you find they just like you, it hurts."
- Arnold (Hey Arnold!)

Cheesy shit. :))

I bought a new phone. (Finally) Because I'm the P.R.O. in class.

HAHAHA. Kidding. My old phone was wacko. So, I really need a new one. It's nothing expensive. I just really want a QWERTY phone to make me smile.

Got to go. Prelims week next week. I hafta study. Although, Tumblr's distracting the shit outta me. Ugh.

I Got Poached.

Yesterday was my worrrrrrrrrst, um, drunken experience. T'was a killer. It's a good thing I barely remember anything now. Woohooo.

Justin Biebs and Sean Kingston's Eenie Meenie is on loop.

I don't want to say anything anymore. So, I'm gonna scoot and.. I dunno. Haha.

I'll Swim The Ocean For You.

Today is not a fairytale. Today is a very, very, very bad day.

Do you have those moments when you want to cling to your mother for dear life? As I've tweeted, today is definitely one of those days. I wont talk about it publicly because it's a private-family stuff, but, yeah. It was depressing. I don't believe it's my fault and I would never think it's my fault. I would've admitted it if it was in my intentions to harass/annoy-the-shit-out-of/offend somebody. But, the thing is, it wasn't my intention. It really was not.

On a different note (as well as a crappy one. Well, not as crappy as my previous paragraph. Still.) I forgot my reg form at my dorm. I wasn't able to do the NSTP thing. I'm so dead. Anyway, I'll just make an extra effort to make Module 3 more.. Enticing.

I'm going to forget everything that happened today. When I wake up tomorrow, I would put on a sun-shiney smile. Everybody would think I'm very happy. Guess what? I could be very happy, indeed.

Sniff Like A Baby, Bitch.

.. Ok. I have no idea why that's my title.


OMG MY CRUSH JUST IM-ED ME.

I COULD DIE NOW.

He's not my crush anymore okaaaaay.

KBYE.

Cheeseburger Seizure.

I've been craving for a McDo cheeseburger for two weeks now. For two weeks, I had to bite my tongue whenever I see a tarp of the McDo cheeseburger. My mouth gets all watery whenever I think of it. Oh darling Cheeseburger.. You're so near and yet you're so far. You might be saying in your narrow minds, "Why can't she just buy the bloody cheeseburger and save us all from this displeasure of her ranting?" See, Sir, the answer is simple: My parents would bludgeon me to death if I touch a cheeseburger. They're still making me go on a diet. So, I can't look at a cheeseburger.. Let alone touch one, whenever I'm with them. It's a good thing school would be starting on Wednesday.

NOT.

As much as I want to savor the yummy-goodness of McDo's cheeseburger.. I don't want to go to school yet. Yes, yes. I remember weeks ago -- I've been hoping that time would fly so fast because I want to go to school. Indeed, it came. Then it dawned on me that I'm in a new dorm. And, yeah, last year, my dorm experience wasn't fun. Like what I've said, those people there are douchebags who think/s that I'm a piece of crap they can bully. Guess again suckers. Hmmm. Pero, seriously, when you look at them, san ba sila nanggaling? The only sane person there was Krissy. I think I'm going to miss her. Anyway, as I was saying, I have a new dorm. And, kahit gano pa kakapal ang mukha ko, I'm still a little bit nervous. I hope that my new dormmates are better. *crosses fingers*

Another reason why I don't want to go to school yet is my bloody schedule. I HAVE to wake up at 6 in the morning because classes start on 7am. This is my cue to say.. BLOODY HELL. I mean, WTH, I'm not a morning person. I don't know how I managed to survive my HS years with all those early-waking-up habits. But, it's long gone now. How will I face this new SY? Why'd they have to mess up with the schedule anyway? 7am? Seriously? *WTF face*

I'll get used to it, I guess. It doesn't mean that I still want to go to school. I just want to stay with my mommy. I wish she could accompany me on the 1st day of school. I hope she's not very busy come Wednesday.

K. Toodles. Just updating.

Oh yeah, and if you're wondering about that little debate I had on Nicole's debut.. Yep. I went to her 18th birthday celebration. T'was fun. But, it kinda sucks because I had to leave early. Jesus. Anyway, bye.

SONG: DCFC's Soul Meets Body.

The Future's A Blurry Asshole.

I might or might not go to Nicole's debut tomorrow. God knows how much I waaaant to go. Everybody's going! My UST friends are going. Even... is going. See? I'm so going to miss out if I don't go tomorrow. But, the problem is.. I don't have anything to wear. Ugh. That's the dilemma. :| I want to go. Please God. Please let there be a shining black dress that wouldn't make me look dorky. PUH-LEASE. I've reached a very crucial age wherein I must attend the debut of one of my friends.

After Nicole's debut, the next big thing is classes on the.. 15th? Is it the 15th or the 16th? I don't even know. Ok, now that we're talking about school, I just have to say that I am excited. And, at the same time, I am not excited. I can't believe that summer's almost over and I'm going to face the books again. And, well, another dorm, a new one, for that matter. I hope my new dormmates are not douchebags like my former-dormmates. Krissy was the only sane person in my old dorm. Anyway, as I were saying before I rudely interrupted myself, I am excited and not excited. I want to see my friends. But, at the same time, I'm dreading my new schedule. I have to wake up at around 6 so I wouldn't be late for my 7am classes. How very traumatizing. But, being the pragmatic person that I am, I still haven't bought an alarm clock. So, how can I possibly wake up early now? (Note to self: Buy an alarm clock)

I'm ranting again, am I? I have this habit of gnawing my words in. Like, I'm chewing tissue or something. Ugh. Very sorry. I'm just not over debating with myself. Do or do I not want to go to school?

Anyway, I hope I can go to Nicole's debut tomorrow. PLEASE GOD. *crosses fingers* And, please, I hope I can find the perfect dress that wouldn't make me look like an elephant. *crosses fingers again*

SONG: McFly's Obviously. :)

Buymoria.

By the time this post's published.. I'm already in Cabanatuan. Since we didn't get to celebrate my mom's birthday yesterday (Mostly, it's her fault. She only goes to the house to take a bath.. And then she goes back to the freakin' hospital.) Anyway, since we didn't get to celebrate my mom's birthday yesterday, we're going to celebrate it today. :>

I made this post t 8.43 AM. I just woke up, plugged on my laptop and typed away. Strictly speaking, nothing's happening yet. I mean, seriously, I just woke up. *sighs* I want something to happen. I want some.. I dunno. Fireworks in my life. Everything's just boring. It's like, throughout my college existence -- I've been staring at a creamy blank page of notebook and, yes, just doing that.. Staring. I want adventures. Like, bungee jumping, perhaps? :))))) I could be a risk-taker if I wanted to. It's just that I wasn't able to show everybody this cute trait of mine.

Anyway, I gotta go eat breakfast.

Zipper Bob.

I was sifting through my past posts.. Especially my posts when I was in 4th year, and I thought, man, I could really rant! Haha. To be honest, I was sort of cringing because all of my posts were almost always about *drum roll please* her. God, I was so pathetic. I let my whole world revolve around her that I didn't get to appreciate the other human beings who really, really loves me.

So, what now? I could honestly say that I've gotten over everything. Whenever I remember those things, I just laugh and think, "OMG. I was like that back then?" Things have changed. I've faced the inevitable, indeed -- change.

I met a hell lot of new people. I've bonded with them. Some, I love. Some, I loathe. Some, hates me. Some, likes me. Through all of these things, I am very much proud to say that I've faced it. I've faced everything. And, I've learned to accept the situations banging in front of me. Somehow, I've learned how to get through and live life.

In some ways, I would like to say that I've matured a lot.

But then -- we all know that I'm just kidding myself.

Anyway, to a fresh start? Hello SY 2010-2011.