Did I dream the whole thing?

 

Did I dream the whole thing?

Was I just a nightmare?

Different dimensions

Stuck in the twilight zone

Is this a black and white scene?

If so, then I'm in the gray one

Hope you win for best actor

'Cause I had you completely wrong

Does she know you're not who you say you are?

'Cause I might give her a call

Or was I just not me at all?

And it's not like I'm still not over you

It's so strange, this I never do

Not that I miss you, I don't

Sometimes, I just can't believe

You happened

It's not like I'd ever change a thing

'Cause I'm right here, where I'm meant to be

Not that I'd call you, I won't

Sometimes, I just can't believe

You happened

Were we just mistaken?

Disguised our intentions?

Our nest was a masquerade (masquerade)

Why do I still protect you? (Mm)

Pretend these songs aren't about you (songs aren't about you)

Hope this might be the last one

'Cause I'm not fooling anyone

Does she know you're not who you say you are?

'Cause I might give her a call

Or was I just not me at all?

And it's not like I'm still not over you

It's so strange, this I never do

Not that I miss you, I don't

Sometimes, I just can't believe

You happened

It's not like I'd ever change a thing

'Cause I'm right here, where I'm meant to be

Not that I'd call you, I won't

Sometimes, I just can't believe

You happened

It's not like I'm (over you)

It's so strange (I don't miss you)

Not that I miss you, I don't

Sometimes, I just can't believe (can't believe)

You happened

Keep it One Hundred on the land, the sea, the sky

I'm currently on my 60th novel for the year (Taste by David Szalay. I'm only 32% in but so far so good!) but the last really good book I read was back in June 20, 2025 pa. It was Victorian Psycho by Virginia Feito. It was so good! I enjoyed it more than I thought I would've. Anyway, since then, it's been 1-star to 3-star reads all around. The last novel I finished was We Used To Live Here by Marcus Kliewer. Motherfucker, it was so terrible. It was well-received, I think, and had a lot of amazing reviews ++ the premise made me curious so I thought I'd like but son of a bitch, it just left me feeling pissed off and annoyed. It was a day wasted. I hated it. 

TO BE FAIR, the start would really pique your interest but, idk, Idk if I've read a lot of mystery and thriller novels that the plot became predictable for me? Like halfway through, "Ahhh fucker, this stupid bitch is going to end up in a psych ward." Guess who ended up right? "Dismaying" is putting it lightly.

Anyway, after 6 years, my laptop is naked. I removed the case because I always break the cases, I DO NOT KNOW WHY! I removed it because I was using a broken laptop case and as I was getting my laptop, it almost slipped so that gave me a mini heart attack. So, I guess, better to just raw dog it than have a totally broken laptop. 

I wish this year would end in a good note. Please, please, please Jesus please. Give me something to celebrate please, please.

And, baby, I get mystified how this city calls your name

Okaaaaay so I have a new, well not obsession pa naman, but omg it has potential to be my next hyperfixation! It's Maxton Hall! It's a German tv series about HS drama haha. Bitch, I miss watching shows like these! It reminds me so much of my HS, college days na chill-ish lang tas invested on mga ganitong shows. Like I think my last teenage series I got obsessed with was Elite back in med school but my friends and I only watched until the 2nd season iirc? Kasi they introduced a lot of new characters na and di na kami invested dun.

Anyway, going back, the ML in Maxton Hall looks like a younger version of Matt Smith. The FL (Harriet Herbig-Matten) is a beaut! I feel like I continued watching because, well, it's highly entertaining pluuuus I find the FL gorgeous. She is so beautiful!

I meaaaaan? She's like a mixture of Alicia Vikander and Victoria Beckham! She is so beautifuuuul! She's very good in acting + she's so young! She'll go places talaga!

I swore my loyalty to me, myself, & I

Well, it's been a wild.. few months. For the sake of being mysterious, I just got to say that I've stumbled a lot but I'm too stubborn to give up. My last stumble was last May. That shit sucked. BUT in hindsight, it's not too bad because Idk, I guess I didn't belong there??? I wasn't as devastated as I was last November 2024. Did another thing this October but if I'm being honest with myself, the results are going to tear my heart apart. I just know it. It's so way out of my league but I was so in love with it. I loved everything about it and I couldn't wait to learn everything and learn more. HENCE, the great foreboding grief. But tbh I hope it goes well. This could be the world's pretty little present for me since I've been having shit since around 2017. ISN'T 8 YEARS ENOUGH TO SUFFER FROM ALL THOSE KARMIC POWERS WORKING ON ME?

ANYWAY, hmmm what else what else. Okay I got so hooked with The Summer I Turned Pretty and my Taylor Swift scrobbles hit an all-time high HAHAHAHAHAH

I MEAN LOOK AT THAT HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I've been a casual listener since high school (Teardrops on My Guitar era & Love Story, yes, I'm that old) and I've loved her songs like Our Song and The Best Day but I've always been a casual fan. I know her hit songs because who doesn't? Although, I have to say, Folklore was my favorite album. I was still in med school when that was released and omg I loved it so much! Especially the 1 and exile!

ANYWAY, going back, TSITP was so tied up with Taylor Swift songs my scrobbles spiked. Currently I'm listening to The Fate of Ophelia because it's such a banger! PLUUUUUS, TEAM CONRAD, BITCHES!!!!!!!! It was the year of yearning and it's baby Connie's yeaaaar! I'm a sucker for yearners huhuhuhuhuhu

I also got hooked on Jujutsu Kaisen. YES OKAY. When I was watching the first season I was, okay this is cool, this is funny but then I reached the 2nd season and it hit me with Hidden Inventory / Premature Death, and biiiiiitch I was hooooooooked. I loved it so much because the Gojo-Geto falling out can really happen irl but at the same time.. I can't really blame Geto for reaching that state? I have a lot of feelings, I'll attach below nalang the summary of my feelings HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

I have more feelings and I'm so happy I got to convince Jodie to watch it!!!! I even watched the freaking Hidden Inventory / Premature Death in the cinema okay HAHHAHAHAHAHA the subs they used was the subs used in Amazon Prime. Okay, so get this, I watched it on Disney+, Netflix, and Prime. I was at the point of my life where I could say, "Ahhh they used the Prime subs. It has a different interpretation in Netflix" the way Yo looked at me with pitying eyes.. HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA but i have to say, Prime has the BEST subs and Disney has the fucking worst. As in parang AI generated yung iba. Anyway, Yo told me it sucks that I became a fan too late because APPARENTLY we had special passes when we went to Universal Studios in Japan for JJK and we actually got to watch but I had no idea it was JJK. I was just there for the vibes. Basta I remember lang we went to something anime tas wow cool seats and graphics but I didn't know it was JJK HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU I have to go back to Japan for 2 things: 1. Studio Ghibli 2. JJK HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

Anyway, I can't wait for season 3!!!!! 

Anyway, this is my Top 5 faves list:

I mean, of course, it's Gojo. Gojo my 6'3" GOAT. 

My 2nd fave: HS Geto. The voice of reason. The moral compass.

I think the Hidden Inventory / Premature Death arc hurt me a lot because I hate friendship breakups the most. And these two - they were best friends, soulmates, even. Gaaaah just thinking about it makes me sad huhuhuhuhuhu I mean look

After everything, after years of not talking, he still considers Geto as his best friend. AND THAT'S THE KIND OF FRIENDSHIP I WANT!!! I think I'm lucky with Jodie.

ANYWAY, for better understanding, please read this article. It has a very good explanation of the friendship, the trigger, and the falling out of the Strongest Duo. Huhuhuhu

ANYWAY, my 3rd favorite: Yuta!

I really enjoyed his arc in JJK: 0!!!!! And I honeeeestly can't wait for season 3 because he'll have a lot of roles! He was mentioned only in passing in season 1 so YES I AM EXCITED FOR YUTA!!!! And what his role is going to be since he was portrayed as a scaredy cutie pie in JJK 0!

I won't be wrong if I say Nanami was a fan favorite, right? And, bitch, Shibuya Incident.. I cried like a bitch. ESPECIALLY AFTER HIS LAST WORDS TO YUJI. He was still so considerate!!

I love Nanami so much and I still mourn his death.

Lastly, Choso. He was funny in the latter part of season 2 and I can't wait for season 3 because he has a bigger role!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Basically, I can't wait for January for season 3!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!